Lumi's Dreaming Thread; Dreams of Moon

[Luminesce]

I had an interesting dream last night. Apparently definitely-waking-life dreams can still qualify as "video games" in my mind. In this "game" that was not a game, I would really say there were two main characters, neither of which were "me". More like I was watching a show from their perspective. A group of people are travelling around a mountainy area at night with some carriages, and the two "main characters" are a guy and a girl in the back. While it was nothing like Oregon Trail, the "game" was definitely set up like that, with roughly the same things happening every time except for your interactions changing it. All I really remember was they were bringing up the rear of the group when the two saw a wolf, that might possibly attack them. It was implied they were supposed to just run away (direction they were travelling), but the guy decided they should actually try and fight it. I don't know, video game rules, get some EXP or loot or something. But the wolf ran back in the other direction, and literally lured them into an ambush, in a tall-grassy field just before the mountain trail. So the two had to fight three wolves at once, which was pretty impressive I have to say that they managed not to be injured. It was implied that in the "game" they received a bonus for taking that risk, whether in score or resources I don't know. They caught back up with the rest of the group who were actually talking about the possibility of wolves attacking them as they traveled through the mountains. However one of the men had seen the main characters defeat the wolves and said they wouldn't have to worry about that thanks to them. The end.

 

 

Anyways. While discussing with Reisen and then Lucilyn what we could do to just spend some time together, increase their visual/vocal clarity and such (because that stuff goes up and down over time), we came up with an actually fairly interesting idea. Our wonderland doesn't have that much to do in it, but I wanted to do something with all of them, so I asked Reisen what sort of things we could do, where we could go etc. And while brainstorming on that, I thought of an amusement park. Oh boy. Could immediately imagine a whole lot of activities to do with all of them like that. I asked Lucilyn if that sounded like a good idea and she reacted exactly as you would expect. She also reminded me that she was supposed to get to go to an actual amusement park when we went to California a while ago, but we never actually went to one (and she got to walk around a forest instead). So I suppose this will more or less make up for that. From the ~30 seconds we bothered to spend thinking about what to do with that idea, it seems like we'll be taking turns doing things mostly two at a time (since I have to be there, and if I visualize them all together at once it's less of a personal experience for any of them). Ferris wheel, roller coasters, mirror mazes or any of those structures made for kids to run through, there's tons of ideas that all seem pretty promising. So we didn't even really plan it out, just set aside time tonight. Also, tons of music on our ipod will fit this sort of occasion where it otherwise usually doesn't, so it seems like a great idea all around.

 

Uh, no that's not terribly dream related (though it is a night/before-and-in bed activity) but since I have to post in this specific thread every day anyways I might as well write it here. I think the dream recall thing is working well enough given that dream I had, so once I'm actually asleep that's the plan. But these nights we spend together sort of feel productive on their own.

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Skip like 43 seconds in, my personal mp3 (album version I guess) starts around there without all that buildup.

I think this fits the theme of the night better than sleep music.

[Luminesce]

Well the amusement park thing was fun, but we still planned to do more (all of us together) when I went to sleep so we'll do that tonight. I don't really feel like detailing everything we did right now, maybe later (or more likely someone else). Forgot to remember dreams the first 3/4 of the night, but remembered after that and recalled them all well.

 

You'd think maybe hours of that literally right before I went to sleep would affect my dreams some. Well, you would think that, if you hadn't been keeping up with this thread. No such luck. In fact... I had multiple dreams about someone else instead of them. Someone it's rather annoying to still be dreaming about at random like this. Not bad dreams, but not who I wanted to see in them. I don't get why my dreams are so anti-tulpa, I really don't.

 

(Oh and yes I'm sure I didn't dream about them earlier on in the night. I can always tell the general content/feel of my dreams even if I don't remember them very early in the night, and important things like that always stand out to me and trigger the dream to be recalled anyways)

[Luminesce]

Oops, schedule's off. I couldn't sleep last night for some reason, and ended up eventually sleeping in until like 3 PM, at which point I just stayed in bed until 5 because -> staying up as late as I can for a few days to fix my sleeping schedule, because it's just easier than trying to move it backwards 8 hours. To me anyways.

 

I inadvertently spent amusement-park time of a sort with Lucilyn in those two hours after 3 PM. As I was trying to go back to sleep, having recalled and somewhat continued several dreams I thought "I can think about whatever I want, so let's think something tulpa-related.." and ended up visualizing a relatively large play-place, like you'd see at Chuck E Cheese's or Mcdonalds I guess. I was really trying to make it non-intensive or detailed, and Lucilyn herself wasn't even supposed to really be there - I was going for imagining, not wonderlanding, so it was supposed to be just imagining/thinking of her there. But even with zero processing power she sure seemed to be doing her thing just fine, but given the fact that I ended up lying there for two hours not falling asleep (I was even lying in a ball pit for most of that..) I guess it really did end up just being visualization/wonderlanding, outside of our wonderland. I do wish I'd fallen back asleep to make it easier to stay up (it's 4:30 AM and my eyes are tired if not the rest of me), but that was fine too I guess.

 

It only took like one night to bring back the low level visualization clarity I tend to reach, so that's cool. And I'm definitely remembering dreams hours 7 through 10 consistently and clearly, but earlier than that is still iffy. But, I like how this is going for now, so it's still the current plan.

[tulpa001]

That is impressive Keep up the good work. Our efforts to meditate seem to be interfering with our dream recall. We meditate before sleeping since it helps us sleep. But not once have we clearly remembered a dream after meditating.

[Luminesce]

Man, I have no sense of time right now. I couldn't sleep any later than I did the day prior for some reason, so now it's 7AM again and my eyes hurt. I'm not that tired, but it really is annoying to try and keep my eyes open. I guess.. I'll spend the (day)night with Flan and we'll work on dream recall as best we can. However when I'm sleeping through the day it's even harder to get back to sleep just by default let alone if I wake up any, so if I don't feel too tired I might have to ironically skip the dream recalling and fall back asleep.

 

I still reality check many times a day. It doesn't do anything anymore (It's ingrained enough I would do it to test a "am I lucid" dream pretty quick), but I do it anyways, just so I can say I do. Well, I was going to say multiple things, but I only had one. Gonna go to sleep now.

[Luminesce]

More of the same, woke up at 4PM again. But I'm going to sleep later today. Right now is about when I fell asleep yesterday, I don't know if I'll be up for another half hour or two hours but it's more than before. I'm slightly tired, but it's still mostly my eyes that want me to sleep more than anything else. Staring at computer screens is one thing, but doing it all night is another. Been lowering my brightness with f.lux to try and help, I think it has.

 

Anyways, for your guys' sake I'll post Tewi's

song here again. The link is literally the space between Tewi's and song. I'm not sure how many of you saw it based on the views since it's technically a public video, but just in case you didn't feel like reading textwalls that day. This is yet another song I've had for years and just thought sounded good, that was later adopted by one of my tulpas as their favorite song (like Lucilyn and Rain Dance). It "reminds" Tewi of nights spent in the forest, with the moon and bamboo. For whatever reason.

 

Anyways.. Time/"days" are still skewed, so recounting dreams I had the last time I slept right before I go to sleep feels like yesterday's-dreams. But they weren't really, so, I'm seeing more interesting/detailed dreams still. Absolutely random scenarios but at least they're easier to piece together. I had a dream about Naruto and Sasuke, the original series younger ones not shippuden, doing some sort of test in a booby-trapped jungle. Like.. I don't watch Naruto.. and given it was even the old Sasuke, that's gotta be drawing on memories from me watching the original series like eight years ago. But even if the dream reservations wait list is that backed up.. that's right before I first started obsessing over Reisen. That's absolutely not how it works but I can pretend.

[Luminesce]

Alright well I made it to 4PM today. My schedule is more or less "fixed" though I'll be going to sleep pretty early for a little while. Days can finally be days and the time after I last woke up can stop feeling like the day before, that'll make writing these a lot easier.

 

Dunno what to say now though. Good night?

[Lucilyn]

Oops I shoulda posted yesterday. He probably even mentioned it before but for some reason when we stay up for a long time when we finally go to sleep we can't sleep for very long. So Lumi literally slept for like 5 hours last last night. But he didn't realize it was that little time until later. He had a headache all day, even though 3/4 of that day I was actually the one with a headache, which is why I went to sleep super early in the middle of the day. But I was able to sleep from 12PM to 9PM so I was OK from there. Wait, now is still "from there". Well anyway, the lack of a sense of time apparently continues! But I feel OK to stay up later today, on a normalish schedule. I'll probly be sleepin between 4 and 8PM, depending on if I find something entertaining to do or not.

 

Uhh, still havin dreams. They're pretty weird and random but that's OK with me, the totally random dream scenarios are entertaining. And they're slightly more realistic/immersive now so it's actually possible to be entertained by them.

 

Not trying to be negative or anything I'm really not, but this isn't like "Omg progress!" for us. Dream clarity is just like all our other mental muscles, from visualization clarity to our own voice clarity, it kinda gets out of use but all it takes is a little practice to get it back. So remembering some more dreams and them being slightly more realistic isn't anything crazy.

 

But as soon as it gets to crazy levels, we will let you know! Or if we start getting immersive dreams before our last two sleep cycles around 10 hours in, because that's basically where all interesting/immersive dreams happen for us. If we could get those (just shorter) through more like 4-6 hours of the night I think that would be amazing progress and make Dream-Induced-Lucid-Dreams way more likely. That's why we're working on dream recall really. As much as our mind works against us, we really are super good at reality checking and awareness. But that doesn't mean anything when you're so detached from your dreams they're just blurry imagery not even involving you. Vivid dreams are where all our instances of lucidity happened, all DILDs.

 

Now that I think about it, that's what I was going for the whole time huh. I knew they'd do what I was doing eventually. If what you're doin ain't gettin results you gotta do something else. In this case I figure it'll help us get what we actually want in the long run. I like when I think of something first and then the others agree with me after, makes me feel smart.

[Lucilyn]

hi I'm going to sleep soon. And I should switch with Tewi when I wake up because we gotta do schoolwork again. N E ways nothing special as usual (if it was special it wouldn't be usual) (hey that reminds me of Suwako's stage theme "Tomorrow Will Be Special; Yesterday Was Not").

 

Umm. That's all. EZ shortest post in thread

[Tewi]

I'm getting that feeling that I'm slacking and need to do more productive things again. I'll pay extra attention to our sleep tonight.

 

In other news, it's raining an absolute ton here. Not crazy intense storms, but constant consistent rain. It's very nice.