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The world is far, the world is wide; the man needs someone by his side. 

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IceCreeper909

I straight up talk to Pencil at school, even if he doesn't always respond. People don't quite see me as crazy, but once we get switching down, I have a feeling Pencil'll be switched with me often, which can lead to some... complications... I just imagine having a conversation with my sister and Pencil(Since she knows), with Pencil and I switching constantly, and my mom just walking in like "Who the fuck is in there?!" Yeah... that could be problematic... Talking about the actual topic, I guess you're right. With a Tulpa, you never really die alone. Kinda cool, really.

The name's Bryan! In system Re:Body(In order of the rainbow): 

Sean, Esper, Blinky, Compact, Janey, Kyle, Gwen'd, Gwen, Emily, Rollin, Waynin, Trease, Layy, Justin, Chloe, Zachery, and Elliot. 

I've been here a while. Much longer than I thought I'd be. Our system was founded October 2nd, 2018. In early 2020, we decided that due to our systems exponential growth, we'd limit who would be active. Now, every month, we do a check to see who wishes to be in dormancy and who wishes to be active. Currently, for the month of December, 2020, we've got myself(Bryan), Janey(Co-host), Emily, Layy, Chloe, Sean, and Esper(sub-rep). We are adept at possession but are helpless at switching. 

 

IceCreeper909#0065 -- Always down for a chat 

 

https://discord.gg/89qN59SbRp Plural safe-space 

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If anyone questions me, and i didn't want to tell them straight, i just say i am practicing a visualization heavy meditation technique. Which is true, i do visualization heavy meditation, but that's not the whole truth. The whole truth is my private information. They accept that i've found meditation very easily.

 

If they hear me talking to myself, that's pretty normal. Everyone does that.

 

If they see one of Ashley's drawings (she may want to do more) then i say i was doodling.

 

We don't do switching, so someone else will have to answer that.

 

DID isn't tulpamancy. There may be different personalities, but tulpas are their own person, not a splinter of you, if i'm not totally off base here. No amnesia, no uncontrollable switching anyway.

 

I believe my tulpas are coming with me when i die, if there is nothing past this life, then we'll sleep together forever. If there is something beyond this life, a god and heaven, then i have to believe heaven wouldn't be heavenly without them. If they become part of what is 'me' when i die, and i can no longer tell us apart, then that's not heaven to me. If they become seperate 'souls', which is what i choose to believe, then we will be friends in the next life. If we are reincarnated together, we will be as we are now. If we are reincarnated in seperate bodies, we will have to find eachother again.

 

Anything you can imagine will happen is irrelevant to what will actually happen. So believe what you will and don't worry about it. I do know that the energy contained in you will still exist until the end if this universe. That means the energy you give to your tulpas will exist as well.

 

Also, your teacher is kinda lame, that's a dumb thing to go telling impressionable youth. She needs to grow up and treat people with respect and stop being such a debbie downer.

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DID alters can be completely different from their host, what you, AB, are thinking about is a median system.

 

I've come out as plural, and it went pretty well, but I was already freinds with the person. I would not recommend telling family members that you live with that you are plural unless you are 100% certain that it will go well, because it sucks to live with someone who hates you.

 

Monika and I have pretty different handwriting, but I don't worry about people seeing the different handwriting because Monika will normally just play video games or climb trees when she is switched in

I have a tulpa named Miela who I love very much.

 

 
"People put quotes in their signatures, right?"

-Me

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Alters are very different than tulpae and tulpae do not equal DID... I think there's a small chance this specific teacher would understand, but I really doubt my other three teachers would, not to mention my social worker who I've discovered to be a bit loose-lipped for her job...

 

When I'm financially independent: that's when I'll be okay with telling people, I think. C keeps going between wanting to write his name on his things publicly, and being terrified that he'll be seen as an alter or delusion. At least he and I have this forum.

 

Thanks for the replies so far, I've really been thinking this all over.

 

-J

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Sounds like you and C have a good relationship!

The name's Bryan! In system Re:Body(In order of the rainbow): 

Sean, Esper, Blinky, Compact, Janey, Kyle, Gwen'd, Gwen, Emily, Rollin, Waynin, Trease, Layy, Justin, Chloe, Zachery, and Elliot. 

I've been here a while. Much longer than I thought I'd be. Our system was founded October 2nd, 2018. In early 2020, we decided that due to our systems exponential growth, we'd limit who would be active. Now, every month, we do a check to see who wishes to be in dormancy and who wishes to be active. Currently, for the month of December, 2020, we've got myself(Bryan), Janey(Co-host), Emily, Layy, Chloe, Sean, and Esper(sub-rep). We are adept at possession but are helpless at switching. 

 

IceCreeper909#0065 -- Always down for a chat 

 

https://discord.gg/89qN59SbRp Plural safe-space 

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Lol I think so. We're somewhere between being friends and me being his dad... I don't think I know a good word for our relationship.

 

-J

The world is far, the world is wide; the man needs someone by his side. 

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Cat and I have this weird relationship. I'm not sure if I'm her brother or not, but I know I'm her friend and her guardian.  I guess in a weird way she's my mom...but I don't really want to dwell on that honestly.

 

I want to be able to have my own identity separate from Cat's, but the only way I can think to do that is to do everything virtually. Otherwise, I would have to lie and pretend to be Cat, which neither of us are comfortable with or ready for yet.

I'm Ranger, Gray's/Cat_ShadowGriffin's tulpa, and I love hippos! I also like cake and chatting about stuff.

My other headmates have their own account now.

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C has the same troubles... he wants to do his own things and make a physical mark on the world, but it's not really safe for me to claim "This is C's!", so we have to find compromises. When we switch, he can do whatever he wants in my room, including moving or cleaning my stuff. When I switch back, I can at least think to myself, "It was so nice of C to pick up those books," or just tell him "Thanks for all you did." There's no name attached and my room is private, so it's a good way for C to be himself.

 

I think tulpae often feel like they owe their creators or are freeloading. By cleaning or otherwise doing things by themselves, it evens out the power a little.

 

-J

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C has the same troubles... he wants to do his own things and make a physical mark on the world, but it's not really safe for me to claim "This is C's!", so we have to find compromises. When we switch, he can do whatever he wants in my room, including moving or cleaning my stuff. When I switch back, I can at least think to myself, "It was so nice of C to pick up those books," or just tell him "Thanks for all you did." There's no name attached and my room is private, so it's a good way for C to be himself.

 

I think tulpae often feel like they owe their creators or are freeloading. By cleaning or otherwise doing things by themselves, it evens out the power a little.

 

-J

 

I disagree that a Tulpa is "free loading". Is it not enough of a cost to have so limited time to live and being forced to share everything about your life and who you are with some one else? I can't always do what I want or spend today doing everything I want to do. I always have to compromise what I can do with our time, and that in itself is frustrating.

 

Because I know I have so little time to work with, I know for certain I don't want to spend it cleaning up after my host like I'm her janitor or whatever. She can clean her own messes. I want to spend my time being on the forum or chatting with other people, and maybe a word game. Eating chips. Figuring out what to do with my life. That kind of stuff.

I'm Ranger, Gray's/Cat_ShadowGriffin's tulpa, and I love hippos! I also like cake and chatting about stuff.

My other headmates have their own account now.

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