Just started, have question

[Frosty]

Some really weird stuff happened today, I'm not making a new thread about this though, because I don't think it was tulpa related per say.

 

Shortly after I made this thread and my brain was stressed and confuzzled, I had a Mike's Hard (just one) and I felt drunk. I haven't really drank any alcohol in like 6 months at least, but something like that just doesn't have the capability to make me drunk, I know from past experience. I think the stress might have had something to do with it.

 

So I'm lying on my bed, feeling all messed up, eyes closed but awake, and my brain is reeling with different thoughts, ideas etc. Then out of freaking NOWHERE I hear a voice. Deep and aggressive, I didn't catch the first part (it kinda ramped up from quiet to LOUD, say "are you f***ing kidding me?!"

 

The tulpa I'm working on making is female, who is thoughtful, kind and has a soft voice. This was not her, I can say that with confidence. But it was just weird, this voice interrupted my thought pattern, I wasn't expecting it and I know I didn't think of it. I'm an introvert, I know my inner voice well. It couldn't have been external either, no one else was in the house at the time. Honestly, it was so unexpected, loud and aggressive it freaked me out. But it wasn't entirely unprecedented, I've had a random fragment of speech happen in my head like that before. Not often mind you, and it never really makes any sense, like a sentence fragment, filled with a foreign emotion that I'm not feeling at the time. After that, I was thinking a bunch of other stuff, and a couple other voices happened that were random and interrupting, but not nearly with the same force, and I could recognize that they originated from me, that I was making them. Probably my mind trying to sort of recreate the voice, to prove it wasn't me or something. Also, my sense of time was getting all messed up, I got really tired and drifted in and out of sleep, etc.

 

I'm assuming that with all my introspective thought and internal narrations (I basically live inside my head, and talk to myself a lot) that it was just some sort of freak occurrence, like my brain misfiring or something. At least I hope so, that voice scared the crap outta me.

 

Edit: After writing this and thinking about it, I was imagining my tulpas consciousness next to me, something I've taken to doing since I went with a walk with her today and began narrating for the first time. Then all of a sudden that presence turned malevolent and turned on me, so to speak. Freaked me right the f*** out. I'm sitting in a dark room alone too, so that doesn't help. Anyway my brain imagines scary stuff sometimes, like if I go to a abandoned house at night (my friends and I went through a phase where we did that a lot) my mind would just make shit up and I'd get freaked out just because of my imagination, nothing was really ever there. So I'm thinking I just kinda freaked myself out thinking about that voice, imagination running wild and the like. Being stressed out all day and lack of sleep doesn't help either probably. So long story short I'm not going to tulpaforce tonight like I was planning on, I want my head to be more clear and free of intrusive thoughts and any scary shit.

 

 

Anyway, I felt the need to share that. /nonsense.

[Guest]

Just ask a moderator to move this to Progress Report so that you can continue posting in this thread.

[Frosty]

Hmm... well that was kind of a fluke post, I intend to make an actual progress report when I forcing seriously. I'll just move that last post there when I do.

 

I won't post any more updates or progress in this thread, it's served its purpose. I just felt the need to get that out, I'm pretty positive it isn't even tulpa-related.

 

Yup...gonna stop posting in here now.

[Guest]

I will hold my breath. There are likely more things you will feel the need to share in the nearest future.