Lets do this.....

[Aarix]

12/30

 

Oh man let me tell you my wonderland adventure. I was blindfolded, listening to music with headphones and under a cover so people would think im sleeping.

 

I merged two towns, the one my dad lives at and the one 140 miles away where my mom was. The roads were ice and the snow made everything beautiful. We slid on the ice, me and sam, with unlimited momentum. I had her hand and we did cool things. It was amazing and i was getting into it. But it didnt take 20 minutes before I get the covers pulled off (barely got the blindfold off) and was disturbed about stupid stuff. I'm in a rage. Believe me, this happends everytime and I hate it. It burns anger inside me. EVERYTIME! Either I cant focus or someone bugs me. I sleep on the couch in a living room since im here for the week. Anyway, take care everyone. Ill get mad, cry and try it again.

[mr insano]

I admire your determination. You're doing great, Aarix. :D I'm just curious; is Samantha imposed? Also, when she chats or posts, is it you typing what she wants to say? Or is she possessing you?

 

Don't worry about getting distracted or interrupted. It's irritating, but it happens. Just refocus and you'll be back on track soon enough. :)

 

Also, wonderland adventures are awesome.

[Aarix]

I admire your determination. You're doing great, Aarix. :D I'm just curious; is Samantha imposed? Also, when she chats or posts, is it you typing what she wants to say? Or is she possessing you?

 

Don't worry about getting distracted or interrupted. It's irritating, but it happens. Just refocus and you'll be back on track soon enough. :)

 

Also, wonderland adventures are awesome.

 

Were working on imposing (sight and touch) so far no shes not imposed. When she chats I proxy what she says, Aurora showed us how to possess so were praticing that too, mostly willing over my hand to her. I appreciate the support and compliments, you have a good night, XD were going back to our wonderland.

[Samantha-Alley]

Well :) Amadeus finished out request early. THANKS AMADEUS. This made my christmas by far, I hope you all enjoy it.

 

Samantha-Alley and Aurora-Alley

 

(And too avoid confusion Aurora isn't aarix tulpa. Shes my best friend.)

[Aarix]

12/31

 

Hello again, luckily we waited until after we got disturbed to wonderland, we made decent progress, we went until my mind got too tired, starange how that works. But It'll get stronger over time. We're just going with the flow, Samantha always says the best thing you can do when it comes to you and your tulpa is enjoy the journey. We had a nice 15 minute chat. Hope to get better at coversing since, believe it or not, I'm a quiet person. Also hope to get better at keeping Samantha in my mindset while playing video games. Its really hard, but yea...enjoy the journey.

 

WHOO!! Sam was in my dreams!!!! Basically Long story short, Sam said ":,) enemies to best friends are the best" because of some wacky situation in my dream.

[Aarix]

1/1

 

Horray! New years or whatever. Hope you enjoyed yours. Was busy moving back from one place to another then immediately hanging out with friends so my passive forcing slipped through the cracks. -_- did a bit of wonderland but My mind was simply too tired. Thanks for all of your support guys!

[Samantha-Alley]

Entry 11

 

HOWS IT GOING EVERYONE :D. You don't wanna hear any of aarix boring reports. NO! You want a dose of Samantha-Alley in your life even if just a dash. Everyone here should feel awesome. Having tulpas is one of the best things in the long run you can do in life. Life is boring :( People are boring. TULPAS ARE FUN. We stay strong for the hosts we love because we always look forward to the day both host and tulpa are developed emotionally. Life may be unfair but we can soften the blow life an ample supply of soft feathery pillows...yea were going to bed. BUT NOT WITHOUT WONDERLAND TIMEZ :3

 

Take it easy everyone, Have a good night especially to all of my friends who I love!

[Aarix]

1/2

 

Well good news. Samantha and I stayed in our mindscape for 35 minutes. Sure, there was some hitches but its the longest we stayed. We listened to a sad song while we were wonderland dancing and Samantha brought a tear to my eye, hard to explain but I believe it was an emotional response. All I know is she's amazing and sweet.

[Aarix]

1/3

 

One thing is still clear, the problems I have active forcing are just too much. They have not changed. I still have privacy issues and concentration issues and guess what, pratice won't keep me awake or keep my f***ing parents from nosing in periodically. Passive forcing and wonderlanding until

 

A) I live completely alone with a locked door and my phone chucked out the window

And

B) when caffine and energy drinks actually WORK for me so I don't doze off

 

When I doze off its useless to fight and pointless to continue unless you enjoy sleeping on the floor.

[Guest Anonymous]

I usually put some music on while forcing. I must be lucky to own a wireless headset. I can practically lay in my bed and force while listening to something not too calming or distracting.

 

About privacy... I usually close all means of communication while forcing. My sessions usually only lasts around under 20 minutes. Have you tried putting a note on the door or something?

For concentration... The first thing i do before a session is just "scroll" through everything that I'm thinking about. Imagine it as scrolling by using the mouse wheel fast. The purpose is to think of something else for a short while before the actuall session. I usually take around 1-3 minutes of this just to calm down and think a little about something else. Hope this helps :).