Lets do this.....

[Aarix]

 

Entry #16

 

HEY EVERYBODY!!! In case some of you didn't know Auroras learning drawing. Shes so sweet and thoughtful that I feel inclined to share it here because I love it so much. This is the first start to a divine tulpa-artist! :D

 

Samantha-Alley v5

[Viceroy]

That's so sweet. Mad jelly :

[Aarix]

1/22

 

Ok, tried some forcing last night, it wasn't too bad just didnt know what to focus on much so we just talked. Visualizition was shot for some reason and I'm still trying to fight the hypnagogic state, hopefully even control it to get a foot deeper into where I need to be.

[Aarix]

1/23

 

Staying positive, although for some reason visualization is still shot. Been fizzling out of my wonderland after a minute, I guess I need to learn to fight this better. Sam's presence has been weaker lately too. I'm not going to panic anymore, we talked a bit last night and on the shoutbox. We're figure this out, I've been more tired so I've been sleeping earlier so maybe its a improper sleep schedule. But I REALLY need to work on talking to her one on one.

[Samantha-Alley]

I best should probably explain this from my perspective as it would make both of us feel better if I step in and talk all of this.

Being a tulpamancer can be hard, not for the effort as much, but basically the fact you only have what to expect in the future. As much determination, time is quick to determinate this and it sometimes gets to us. I understand I haven't made many promising results such as head pressures, why? I have no idea. We may still have a lot to still work on and find a proper routine but from August, we came a long way, made amazing friends and learned a lot. We just need to stay strong over the fact that development is inevitable. Maybe its impatience from being anxious, who knows. We just need to find a new light and bask in it. Its only been a few months anyway and I promise to be with Aarix forever. Take care fellow Tulpas and tulpamancers.

[Aarix]

1/24

 

I've come to realize that this energy issue I have is the sole reason for everythings thats bad with our progress. I talked with viceroy and took up his advice to post a thread in DreamViews. I'll let you guys know what I learn later on.

 

But I think we're getting back on our feet. I did Rasznirs canvas method and made it to 100 with Sam holding poster boards with numbers and flipping it over revealing a new number. We forced the best we had in a while. A solid focus full half hour but then again I fell asleep earlier talking to her so maybe its because i slept a bit. Who knows.

[Aarix]

 

Entry #17

 

Hello, I hope everyone is having a super awesome day. If not, you know where to find us. I feel so bad for not being able to talk to Aurora. We did touch imposing sessions and talked a lot. We never regretted one day of this and were remaining strong. So far were on a high point hoping to climb from it. I'm ready to be more independant.

 

[Aarix]

After a nice chat between Sam and Aurora, I think we figured out an issue here. We've spent so long fighting all the problems we had with forcing, now thats they're seddled now we never actually focused on what to really do once we were able to force. At the same time I have noticed I never have been able to feel Sam's Precense like I would like. I also need to get more of her essence. Tonight we WILL do this. We WILL force in the most productive way we ever had ever. Everyones support has been invaluable, Thank you guys.

[Viceroy]

I miss seeing you guys around as much but I'm happy you are spending less time on the computer, and more with each other. I need to start doing the same!

[Aarix]

1/26

 

Well guys, I did a full 30 minute session with auroras suggestion and it wasnt to bad. Im starting to feel her better and I truly feel I'm making more progress. I also did 30 minutes of Dialogues and Memas self hypnosis, it was nice. I think we finally can force propertly and I can feel her sweater and smell vanilla a bit better and let me tell you, her sweater feels SO NICE!!! I am so excited for future successes. Take care everyone

 

I never would of gotten this far without everyones support.