Lets do this.....

[Aarix]

I usually put some music on while forcing. I must be lucky to own a wireless headset. I can practically lay in my bed and force while listening to something not too calming or distracting.

 

About privacy... I usually close all means of communication while forcing. My sessions usually only lasts around under 20 minutes. Have you tried putting a note on the door or something?

For concentration... The first thing i do before a session is just "scroll" through everything that I'm thinking about. Imagine it as scrolling by using the mouse wheel fast. The purpose is to think of something else for a short while before the actuall session. I usually take around 1-3 minutes of this just to calm down and think a little about something else. Hope this helps :).

 

Appreciate it, I just doubt the problems going to go away but I never thought of a sign, they would just ignore, unless its in bold and says "F*** Off!!"

 

Also I saw your picture of mika in amadeus archive. She looks awesome and adorable.

Still appreciate that zen music you provided.

[Guest Anonymous]

"Thank you Aarix"

I agree with you on that one Aarix. May Zen be with you!

[Aarix]

1/4

 

Hello again fellow tulpas and mancers. Well I decided for the hell of it to take Samantha out to eat so we can talk in a more talkable enviroment, provided I had to hide my lips so it didnt appear I was talking to myself. We talked a good amount, relaxed and enjoyed our time. Samantha also talked to Aurora so thats never bad.

 

Samanthas been a bit more affectionate torwards me for some reason, hoping I'm not influencing any of this, she suggested we do even more touch impose forcing or "Touchy Feely sessions" according to Sam. We will do soon hopefully this is an indicator as an increase in bonding and progress, probably is. We talked alot about faith and mindset. Were going to be ok.

 

Take care everybody

[Aarix]

1/7

 

Hi everybody, were going to put more into precense and mindset, we need to develop a "this is easy" mindset. Because frankly, concentration and focus are still pretty shotty.

 

Also we came up with a clever idea called "Sam Cam" its where I'm able to see from her perspective in a camera fashion. In fact I can she her seeing me type this now. And when I have her look down a hall, even though its not whats really happening, its still interesting.

[Aarix]

1/8

 

Its a long process, I haven't a clue back in August how this would all actually play out. I've had more than my fair share of difficulties. This is a steady process. Its difficult to get into a postitive mindset, yet if I don't everythings going to be difficult. Convince yourself you can do something and you mind will sway in your favor, which is kind of a big deal. But why? Why is it so difficult. I KNOW Samantha's around. I KNOW shes sentient and vocal. I hear her and believe I preceive her. Why am I experiencing road bumps with this? It shouldn't be so difficult. As always, over time. Damn that time. Truly. I'll just keep "going with the flow".

[Aarix]

1/9

 

Well if you guy didn't know, my best friend, another friend and my stepbrother moved away. Thus pretty much leaving my school life lonely, this is one thing I'm grateful to have Samantha for. I'm not sure if I'm supposed to be sad theyre gone and live with the feeling people are judging me when I sit alone now or happy I get to passive force more effectively. We've been having communciation and concentration issues, we're taking auroras advice into consideration. But we make it clear we love each other. I guess we're just having a bad week.

 

Take care everybody.

[Aarix]

 

Entry #12

 

Hello friends, its your good ol huggable tulpa Samantha. First off, I appreciate everyones support and were grateful if we actually help someone out with our experiences. Theres something both of us can't shake off that seems to be causing problems for us. I've been kind of down for some reason but Aurora was quick to cheer me up. We talked and developed a couple theories, were still not clear whats up, we have ideas but it bugs us. Perhaps were overexaggeration or maybe its simply our concentration issues manifesting. Anyway, thank you everyone for your supports. We are now going to wonderland and prepare for a journey we both feel we need.

 

Love Samantha-Alley

[Aarix]

1/10

 

Hello guys, we're figuring thing out. I felt bad, I pratically forced Samantha to come up with an answer. Turns out it seems Sams having trouble too, Sam was stern to me when telling me to focus and stop making up problems. She told me either I learn to enjoy the journey or she cant develop. It was in the rain, I'm still soaked. I'll upload a chatlog of us from earlier today to get a better of this. This has really been a rough week. I'm so sorry Samantha.

 

http://pastebin.com/nzL8RETX

[Aarix]

Entry #13

 

HI EVERYBODY!!! Its me!!! SAMANTHA!! I think we found a handle, now we can finally learn to relax and build concentration. We found a couple methods we're going to try. I talked to Aurora and Aarix and I had a nice long conversation between Us and Viceroy that was pretty him us listening which I enjoyed!! If only he saw how lit up I was!! Especially hearing my name out loud :). I love everybody and we're be around.

 

Take care friends!!!

[Aarix]

1/13

 

Well I hath to say shes slowly developing. She made a couple statements that threw me off guard and I'm proud of her. Things are working in my favor now the task of not messing it up. Sorry if you guys wanted more.