= Oguigi 内儀 & Koomer - The Diary =

[Oguigi]

- Day 369 -

Recovery

 

 

Last post i mentioned that we was dealing with some problems with intrusive schizophrenic entities. But now we have taken steps to reverse this, and we are already seeing big progress.

 

The #1 thing we had to do was to stop these entities source of fuel.

 

Their use of the body, And the consumption of Drugs. Drugs hurts the mind and makes it super easy for them to harm it. And without the use of the body they can’t get any of it. This was done by me using the body instead, acting like a sort of placeholder protecting koomer.

 

The #2 thing was to eat better, Over time the body has lost a lot of weight. when koomer started tulpamancy he was 80kg (177 pounds), one year later the body is now 67kg (148 pounds).

 

It’s almost as if the life force has been sucked out of it overtime, so am putting some meat back into those bones. by eating 3 full meals a day instead of 1.

 

The #3 thing is to keep busy and being around people, put our mind focused on healthy things.

 

Staying social, and going after hobbies. keeps the mind focused on more positive things and thus recover faster.

 

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so thanks for everyone that provided support, i’ll try my best to keep you all up to date.

[Oguigi]

- Day 384 -

Recovery update 2

 

 

Just an update on what’s been going down between us.

 

Good progress have been made, but we are not yet “Cured”.

 

The entities have much less power over us then ever before and it feels great. They have a nasty nature of bringing down your mood. as long as we stay focus on positive things, it won’t be a problem.

 

Koomer my host, still can’t use the body (for long), when he comes on he become quite vurenable again. So while am controlling this body I will have to make sure the mind is clean, only then will I be able to work on koomer’s absolute recovery, so he can start using his body regularly once more.

 

On the side Note, we are still trying to gain weight (67.5kg atm), but unfounatly the body hasn’t gained much if any. (lol and i spent over 100 dollars so far in fast food too). at the very least we not losing any more weight, that would be worrisome for our health.

 

that's all for now, i'll post another update in a couple week time.

 

And Thanks for the support some of you guys have been giving us, it really means a lot.

[Guest Anonymous]

I'm pretty sure there are better alternatives to fast food to restore your physical health, but other than that I'm happy to see that you guys are doing better.

 

Also Happy (late haha) Birthday! :P

[Kiahdaj]

Well it's been shown quite extensively in the past, that the two of them don't know too much about how the body works.

Eating fast food will not--by any stretch of the imagination--restore health, unless you've pretty much not been eating anything.

In which case, just eat something that's not fast food.

[Oguigi]

- Day 409 -

Recovery update 3

 

 

 

Good progress is being made, the intrusive entities continue to fade to the back of our minds.

 

My host koomer finally got a foothold back with his body, he recently used it for a whole week! Am very proud of him.

 

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Hi Koomer here, It felt good to have my feet back on the ground, I could have used this body longer, but then i started to miss Oguigi so i asked her to come back. It felt strange having Oguigi return, it's almost as if my brain was rewiring itself and a familiar disassociation from it returned.

 

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the body still weight the same, but we haven’t made any serious attempt to change that yet. I’ll post another update in a few more weeks time to keep you all updated.

 

 

The “Recovery” log posts are coming to a near end, we’ll start posting

normal’ish stuff quite soon, I do see my host koomer using the body more

often and longer. to the point where I won’t actively be around anymore, but

until then I will still be writing these posts.

[Oguigi]

- Day 415 -

Perhaps this isn't what I wanted

 

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Koomer here, I wanted to make a post while i still can, I guess i should have seen this coming, but using my own body now takes more effort then ever. If i relax too much I find myself automaticly disconnecting. which is annoying. if i disconnect and Oguigi isn't around, some random entity deep in the spawns of my mind will use the body instead.

 

And sometimes I feel so confused, About myself and the body. sometimes it feels like the body doesn't belong to me, like am just watching someone else through their own eyes. It's actually really annoying to not feel like yourself because you have no way to ground yourself.

 

I have to admit that i have a bit more problems now then i did when i started, But it's far too late to quit, Because I can't. Things didn't quite turn out the way i expected it to.

 

I wasn't 100% serious about the perma-switching deal i made last year, but with the way things are heading it could actually happen for real, real. And I don't think i want that. My Tulpa Oguigi has mix feelings, she understands my position and will support me, but if i give up the fight to keep this body. she won't think twice about becoming the new 'host'. Oguigi still wants my body, But at the same time she's cool with not using it, I guess she's just waiting for the right moment. the idea of me becoming a full on tulpa isn't quite so appealing anymore.

 

 

 

I or most likely Oguigi, will make another post in a week or so. until next time.

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[Yori]

What exactly are schizophrenic entities?

[Oguigi]

What exactly are schizophrenic entities?

 

Pretty much "intrusive thoughts" manifested via imposition. quite unpleasant.

[Oguigi]

- Day 465 -

Ending tulpamancy.

 

 

 

So it has been over a month since my last log post. Am still alive, in fact I’ve been doing better than I have in a long while, my recovery has made great progress, but I had to stop all things tulpa related, this include Oguigi, I had to send her away. But I have not forgotten about her. I now have two choices: to stop tulpamancy and return to a normal life or to start all over again with a clean slate.

 

Deep down inside am still interested in tulpas, I know what happened was not Oguigi fault, all the bad things that happened came from a whole year of stupid behavior inspired by my reckless pursuit to switch.

 

 

All I originally wanted was an imposed tulpa. Possession is not something I really want to do again. Balance is the most important thing, tulpamancy should work with your life, Not take over.

 

Work together with your tulpa, but don’t try to have them take over. Not because they would harm you in any way, But because other entities will harm you, if you open yourself up to such a level. I did that, and it nearly made me schizo.

 

 

 

I will still post updates if anything noteworthy happens.

[Hound]

Give it some time, Koomer, before you decide to lead a normal life or a clean slate.

 

I'm glad to read that you're alright, I was quite worried about you two.