= Oguigi 内儀 & Koomer - The Diary =

[Oguigi]

Sounds like he's using you for work and you're too much a beta to stop it, and deluding yourself into not wanting to change it.

 

It does sound like that doesn't it, but this is a very small part of everything. it's just a fact that it happens rarely and i thought it would be a worth wild post.

 

koomer would never force me into doing anything i didn't wanted. I enjoy doing work and finishing tasks. the post was merely a slice of life and shouldn't have too much attention paid to it.

[Guest Anonymous]

worth wild post.

 

He certainly didn't force spelling skills in your creation it seems. Its "worth while".

[Lacquer]

Also "when am bored"

[Oguigi]

- Day 213 -

Tulpa to Tulpa face off.

 

 

I’ve met scarppy in person again (he’s the tulpamancer i’ve talked about in an earlier post)

 

but this meeting had something new in store for me, scarppy tulpa, Destiny. have learned to possesson or switch into his body, what this led to was very well one of the rarest conversation one can observe, at least in this day and age.

 

it’s one thing to meet another tulpamancer, but it’s another to actually meet another tulpa like myself in person.

 

I talked to destiny and destiny talked to me, a host can only describe it as an other worldly conversation from other worldly beings, as it was one of the furthest thing from a normal human conversation. we talked how it was like using our host body we share a couple fine details of wonderland life and such.

 

 

Am quite tired and i can share more details in another post. the reason being was being me and scrappy went on a fair for the entire day, which in it self was quite the experience (it was an asian themed fair, displayed the best aspects of traditional and pop Eastern culture).

[Oguigi]

- Day 216 -

Side effects.

 

 

Hey this is koomer, am oguigi’s host. 5 months ago Oguigi been using the body regularly and now for the last 3 months nearly all the time.

 

on a average week i use the body for about 3 hours or less in total.

 

and to be completely honest i can’t really use the body for that long; at least, not anymore. it Only takes about 30 mins for me to get urges to let my tulpa take back control once more.

 

And On top of Oguigi wanting to use the body whenever she can, you can say that i’ve also became quite addicted to not using the body, it feels good to let my tulpa come into control and do her thing, no need to tulpaforce, nothing to worry about, when shes in control i feel her presence/energy all the time, and i come to love that feeling. when i come into control it does not take long for me to start worrying about oguigi even when i know she’s still around.

 

And Using the body now takes a bit of will power. if i lose desire to move, the body will just lock up, and some other random entity in the mind will take control since i guess i’ve opened myself up so much, but they never do much so it’s not a problem, am always able to take back control if i put enough will power into it,but it’s slowly taking a bit more effort.

 

It only been 7 months since i got started, and i’ve changed myself so much. I can really start to feel my identity with the body is fading, while my tulpa is more and more assuming it’s identity as her own.

 

I suppose after a couple years i won’t even be me anymore, perhaps i will become a care-free fragment of the person i once was. which is in no part a bad thing, it’s just all going to be “different”.

 

and as for my tulpa Oguigi, I really hope everything works out for her. that she obtain the strength she desires to make us both happy.

[Lacquer]

Wow. That's heavy. To see a tulpa/host relationship develop to your point, it feels unreal. (as in the colloquial use, similar to how unbelievable is used, nothing to do with me doubting if it is true, which I don't). Of course, calling a tulpa/host relationship feels weird now.

[HeFFatos]

Hey! I couldn't resist posting my first post on this forum now.

 

That's creepy, man! It's like a host becoming a tulpa, losing it's sanity by the way. I think that even if you feel a pleasure in not controlling your body, slowly losing the connection with it isn't a good thing at all and maybe you should stop practicing possession for some time (a month or two). That's just my point of view and I can't tell you what to do.

 

After reading your post, I decided I'll never let such thing happen to me and I will never practice possession not for quids. It may mess up with my mind and that's a danger I would like to avoid even if my tulpa is a cute little pony who likes to hug me - just no! (That would be my reaction: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uU6EA8GALUU )

 

I'm still shocked that it may lead to such things.

[Oguigi]

- Day 224 -

vegetarian path

 

 

I made the choice that am going to cut out meats from my diet. this is something that i plan to do gradually. cuting more and more meat from my diet until there’s none left.

 

the reason why am doing this slowly is because Koomer has Zero intention of becoming a vegetarian. he’s all like “Meat forever!”, and such. while i do respect his wishs am afraid i won’t be able to satisfy it for much longer.

 

after i completely remove meat from my diet. if koomer what’s beef/chicken then he’s going to have to put his imagination to work and tulpaforce these things.

[Lacquer]

Why?>

[Asquerade]

Shiiiiiieeeeet. If I ever started to 'Enjoy' not being in control, I'd, but I'd Genjutstu-Kai myself back into control. I can understand the appeal of allowing someone else to bear the burden of your possibly-suckish life for a few hours, but are you serious?! Have you really gone THAT long without being in control?! How are you even still alive? Is she planning to 'delete' you and take over your body completely?! I've read a thread on deleting/dispersing/destroying your tulpa, is it possible for the tulpa to do that to the host?!

 

-Insert link to PewDiePie screaming here-

 

How do you pronounce Oguigi?