= Oguigi 内儀 & Koomer - The Diary =

[imahaxor]

You can willingly alter Koomers' brain chemistry by having it release dopamine, and you don't see a problem with it? I can think of one dangerous risk this poses, and that would be addiction. dopamine is basically a survival mechanism, and a very important one at that. It is a neurotransmitter in the brain that stimulates feelings of pleasantness to reinforce behaviors. People can get addicted to the rush of dopamine by any behavior, good or bad. When dopamine is rewarded by bad behaviors such as drinking, smoking, getting high, and stealing ect; it could result in a dependency on that behavior. An addiction can also lead to mood or personality disorders as well.

 

Now in your case, you can release dopamine for Koomer at free will. What's to say he won't grow a dependency on it? If there is no good behavior to trigger the reward how is it any better than the bad behaviors I listed above?

 

Please feel free to correct me on any of this, it's been a couple years since I've had to use this information.

 

For that matter' date=' you should obviously learn more about the brain in general, before you go fucking with it.[/quote']

This gave me a good chuckle. Ladies and gentlemen, the new tulpa.info slogan!

[Lacquer]

I get it Kiahdaj, but to be honest the health of the brain is not really of concern. Unless it's cancer, nothing with the brain is ever truly permanent.

 

I chortled.

 

I don't think I need to say any more than that.

[Oguigi]

Theirs not much more i can say, just that take everyone advice to heart.

 

we are not doing this anymore at the moment.

Well to be perfectly honest the brain is kinda aching right now, as a direct result of what we been doing.

it's like a slight bleeding headache at just one particular area of the brain. it's not pleasant. so yeah, we are not doing anything of that nature for now.

[Aarix]

Theirs not much more i can say, just that take everyone advice to heart.

 

we are not doing this anymore at the moment.

Well to be perfectly honest the brain is kinda aching right now, as a direct result of what we been doing.

it's like a slight bleeding headache at just one particular area of the brain. it's not pleasant. so yeah, we are not doing anything of that nature for now.

 

Please try to take it easy. I believe that you've done so much already, I think its about time soon a time comes where you can just relax and become happy with how things are now, Its amazing how far you've come, I remember when you were interested in tulpas, We hope you would just simply enjoy each others company now instead of branching out and possibly killing yourself, you have your whole entire lives, What you've done in less than a year is unfathomably remarkable, Please do take care, You have Oguigi, now you can sit down and smile up at the sky for you did it!

[Oguigi]

 

Please try to take it easy. I believe that you've done so much already, I think its about time soon a time comes where you can just relax and become happy with how things are now, Its amazing how far you've come, I remember when you were interested in tulpas, We hope you would just simply enjoy each others company now instead of branching out and possibly killing yourself, you have your whole entire lives, What you've done in less than a year is unfathomably remarkable, Please do take care, You have Oguigi, now you can sit down and smile up at the sky for you did it!

 

Awe, Thanks Aarix. It really has been too long since I've received such a positive message.

 

We are taking it easy atm, you could say "recovering". been about 2 or 3 days now, i still feel signs of the ache but it's not as painful as before.

 

And Please do Comment more often, Koomer and I view you as a great friend. we'll like your feedback and perhaps encouraging thoughts on more things.

[Oguigi]

- Day 272 -

Getting back on my feet

 

Koomer here (the Host) for anyone who’s wondering.

 

Am just letting anyone who’s interested, that am using the body much more then i did before.

 

I use to let my Tulpa Oguigi use the body almost all the time, but now for some reason I’ve became restless, I’ve been using the body for a few days now in a row. I almost forgot how it felt to be “Normal”, but it feels good to be ‘grounded’ once more.

 

Oguigi is actually taking this new change of pace quite well, i told her that she needs to enjoy herself some more, to seek her own happiness, she Half agrees with me. Oguigi said that helping me find happiness plays a big part in finding her own happiness.

 

Before this change, I been doing a lot of “mindfuck” to myself, and other unhealthy things to my brain ” I’ve been irrational at times, and even adopted a suicidal mentally for a brief period of time ” and just making myself a handful for oguigi. Am surprised how things can seem go back to “normal” after that.

 

Right now it just comes down to what state i feel most comfortable in at the moment, and for now that state is in the body.

 

This has been going on for about a week, if things revert back to the way they were for any reason, then am sure Oguigi will fill you guys in, Until next time.

[Sorryman54]

- Day 272 -

Getting back on my feet

 

Koomer here (the Host) for anyone who’s wondering.

 

Am just letting anyone who’s interested, that am using the body much more then i did before.

 

I use to let my Tulpa Oguigi use the body almost all the time, but now for some reason I’ve became restless, I’ve been using the body for a few days now in a row. I almost forgot how it felt to be “Normal”, but it feels good to be ‘grounded’ once more.

 

Oguigi is actually taking this new change of pace quite well, i told her that she needs to enjoy herself some more, to seek her own happiness, she Half agrees with me. Oguigi said that helping me find happiness plays a big part in finding her own happiness.

 

Before this change, I been doing a lot of “mindfuck” to myself, and other unhealthy things to my brain ” I’ve been irrational at times, and even adopted a suicidal mentally for a brief period of time ” and just making myself a handful for oguigi. Am surprised how things can seem go back to “normal” after that.

 

Right now it just comes down to what state i feel most comfortable in at the moment, and for now that state is in the body.

 

This has been going on for about a week, if things revert back to the way they were for any reason, then am sure Oguigi will fill you guys in, Until next time.

 

Would it really hurt to do a spellcheck before posting?

[Oguigi]

- Day 292 -

 

 

Koomer here. Just wanted to provide a quick update to my last log post back in day 272 about me using the body more.

 

Everything seems to be going well, still using the body more, so we haven't reverted back to the old routine. and so far it been peaceful.

 

Oguigi is imposing herself more often, and i really like that.

 

it’s 6:00AM in the morning, so as am writing this post Oguigi is sleeping on my bed, usually she would be awake to see me write this post, but i opted to get up a bit early.

 

 

 

So nothing big happened, But Day 360 is starting to become near. Soon Oguigi will be 1 year old. During that day i may do something special for her.

[Oguigi]

- Day 314 -

back to roots.

 

 

 

Koomer here - It been about a Month since my last Log post.

 

I’ve been doing some unhealthy things since i’ve started exploring the world of tulpae in general.

 

Recently A powerful group of entitles inside the mind have emerge. They Slowly came to be, because of my destructive/careless habits of the mind/brain/body.

 

They been around for months, they became stronger everyday. and now they have alot of influence over me.

 

I would think of them as an immune system of the mind. they want the body and mind to be restored to a pre-tulpa state (the way it was before).

 

I believe what they want is for balance to be restored once more. I will have to cooperate and work with them.

 

that’s all i have for now guys, until next time.

 

Oguigi will be fine and safe, But i will have to change up a couple things.

[Oguigi]

- Day 365 -

1 year and problems

 

 

 

It’s Been a whole year. Me and Koomer have learned much about ourselves and the body unfountaly there’s not too much to celebrate.

 

We have new problems and chanlleges, we have been sharing the body with many different entities now. you can say it’s like a mild schizophrenia (very faint dark figures at the corner), we pretend it’s not a problem. But it is and it’s getting more intense.

 

This is one reason why we stopped posting alot of updates, because these entities wouldn’t let us talk about them, otherwise we would feel an intense emotion of fear.

 

Today I had to convince these entities to let me write this post.

 

Now we are learning to live with these entities, as long as we don’t deny them and embrace them we should stay relatively sane, We tried to reverse it but we just can’t, the anxiety they can cause is just too strong (they use it like a weapon). they have the body do things that we rather not do, like drugs and such.

 

Koomer has grown weak and have lost attachment with the body, and the sense of identity, when he looks at the mirror he don’t even see himself anymore.

 

Things got this way because of an imposition method gone wrong (placing a hand in the corner of your eyes and keeping it there while the tulpa trys to change it’s shape). after doing this for hours a permanent after image of the hand stuck at the very edge of our vision, after many months it gained life, becoming a seed for whole array of entities. Am a bit worried but hopeful of the future, Tulpamancy is really life changing it has good and bad aspects to it, Somehow I will make everything work out.