Ren and G's progress log

[SkelitonWren]

I originally posted everything I post here on a discord server and edited it slightly, sorry if the formatting is a bit odd ^^

 

 

[SkelitonWren]

Heres a picrew of G at the moment! Currently he's also an avian so he has parrot wings and bird legs.

I’ve done some more visualising- i tried wonderland immersion properly this time. I can’t seem to do anything other than just about visualise it so far but i suppose thats something. I tried animating my tulpa a bit, imagining him sitting on a chair across from me then standing next to me. I think since the first tine it’s gotten abit easier visualising his form ^^

I'm already at a stage where i'm having some trouble discerning whether my tulpa is speaking or if it's just me parroting. It doesn't really feel like I should be at this stage yet because I'm barely, what, three days in? I'm also sort of confused because I want to follow FAQ mans personality-forcing guide but I'm unsure of whether I should now if the tulpa might already be speaking? I've asked and haven't heard or felt a response

I decided on following through with doing abit of personality forecing. I decided on visualising the differet traits as a goo type substance, each trait felt and looked differently, and I explained how teh trait would affect his life before making im like - absorb it? After the visualisation was done he actually went and hugged me which was really nice. I know it was completely him aswell. I felt it quite vividly too. Definately a super cool thing to happen ^^

[Athelas]

On 1/6/2025 at 7:43 AM, SkelitonWren said:

I'm already at a stage where i'm having some trouble discerning whether my tulpa is speaking or if it's just me parroting. It doesn't really feel like I should be at this stage yet because I'm barely, what, three days in?

 

There's no set timeline for this sort of thing. Your tulpa may very well be capable of communicating even at this young age. If it feels like G was speaking, trust that it actually was.

 

On 1/6/2025 at 7:43 AM, SkelitonWren said:

I want to follow FAQ mans personality-forcing guide but I'm unsure of whether I should now if the tulpa might already be speaking?

 

As a tulpa, I see no issue with personality forcing a vocal tulpa. As long as you allow him to deviate if he chooses, you aren't limiting his growth by suggesting personality traits.

 

On 1/6/2025 at 7:43 AM, SkelitonWren said:

I decided on visualising the differet traits as a goo type substance, each trait felt and looked differently, and I explained how teh trait would affect his life before making im like - absorb it?

 

This is good. My host took a similar approach to personality forcing. She described how each trait might influence my behavior, and more importantly, explained why she wanted me to have each trait. It helped develop my worldview in a similar fashion to how life experiences shape an ordinary person.

 

It sounds like you're off to an excellent start.

[SkelitonWren]

(All these things happened and were originally posted over several days)


I decided on following through with doing abit of personality forecing. I decided on visualising the differet traits as a goo type substance, each trait felt and looked differently, and I explained how teh trait would affect his life before making im like - absorb it? After the visualisation was done he actually went and hugged me which was really nice. I know it was completely him aswell. I felt it quite vividly too. Definately a super cool thing to happen ^^

I tried to play chess with my tulpa in wonderland - i forgot where all the pieces were

 

I think my tulpa is already vocal - wayyy faster than i thought it would happen but still very exciting. Im trying to make sure than i dont get worried about weather or not im just parroting but sometimes i am still unsure. It also still takes a lot of effort from both of us to let him talk which is harder now that im back in school and have a lot less energy

 

Oh and we have created a proxy for him! Im gonna try to just type what he tells me to type for now when we use it since he can’t front yet but its a really cool step forward already ^^

G: Hi



A while ago i managed to get over a a-lot of anxiety- i thought i was over but its coming back now. It’s about G and tulpamancy in general- its mostly all stupid stuff that in worrying about but it still affects me tbh. G said he’s cool with waiting until i sort it out before we continue but the idea of not interacting with him makes me feel sort of lonely. Im not sure how we’ll go forward from here or wether we’ll just take a break

G: I'd rather he wait tbh

 

Gosh darn anxiety

I do really appreciate how understanding G is being about it though ^^

 

I think just writing it down helped a lot actually- my anxiety used to be much worse so every time i have a bit of a bump i immediately think im spiralling again