Mass Intro' and Returns Thread

[ShyMagi]

Oh no, the inquisition has arrived!

 

I guess as I mage, I'd certainly better "shy away," for sure.. hur..

 

"No one expects the Inquisition.."

 

True enough... I'm out of here! <3

 

Edit because: I forgot to say, "Hi there!" And "Welcome back. Hope to hear some progress on Emilia." =)

[val3ntinus]

Okay, so hi. My chosen name is Val3ntinus and apparently, I already have a tulpa, perhaps several, or I may just be insane. Anyway, a little back story and psychological profile. I'm ex-military and have been diagnosed with an anxiety disorder, was medicated briefly with an ssri and had a terrible reaction to it causing suicidal urges. I've remained unmediated for several years now. During the lead up and height of my episode I began, essentially, creating tulpas in order to try to manage the crushing loneliness and stress of military life. I thought that they were just facets of myself that I was trying to address individually, a sort of self therapy, which in retrospect was probably a terrible idea. My anxiety and suicidal thoughts continue to this day.

 

So just an overview of what I have going on. Much is indistinct or incomplete, but one is a female presence, I've only felt her a few times within dreams where I'm dying or completely alone. Very comforting, calming, and hopeful. No form beyond a vague body shape, tall, always in shadow, never a feeling of fear. I've taken to calling her Sophia. The next is probably not an actual tulpa from what I've read, but a mental image construct that reflects the way I feel about my life. His name is Angry Bear, a stuffed teddy. He would rend flesh from bone if given the chance, but he can't. His claws and teeth are but lines of string sewn into felt pads. He would watch the world burn, but he can't. Black, glossy, plastic beads are all he has for eyes. No interaction, no movement, just image.

 

Second paragraph because this is what I think is my tulpa, or the start of one and needs a bit of explanation on his origin. I think in scenarios and steps. If I have a choice to make or a plan to execute I break it into best/worst/realistic scenario, and the chronological line for each. At some point the question "What am I going to do?" changed to "What are *you* going to do?" An I think that were the creation started. Currently communication is inner monologue, mostly back and fourth, but frequently I'm unsure of which side of the conversation I'm on. During times of intense emotion I get the feeling there are other voices at play but again I'm not totally certain that they're not all mine. Anyway, I'll often converse about the daily plans, future goals and track, and "what if" scenarios. No visual form that I can think of, but he feels very much like me and I've even talked in the mirror before, but again, it's very easy to loose track of which side I'm on. So I think this will be what I'll work on.

 

My goal in this is to find out if this is, in fact a tulpa, if such a thing can exist without implicitly meaning I'm insane, and further form and distinguish it from myself.

[Nobillis]

Okay, so hi. My chosen name is Val3ntinus and apparently, I already have a tulpa, perhaps several

 

Welcome to the community. Just be aware that we aren't able to give medical advice. Whether you have a tulpa is something you need to discover yourself. Please, if you find you are having problems seek professional help. Despite my own opinions, I have to admit that psychiatrists have gotten much better these recent years.

 

"Facets of yourself" sounds much like the Tibetan monks used to make tulpas, but is also similar to other things I've heard. It can take a long time that way, to make a tulpa, but it is not unheard of (as I know from personal experience).

 

Greetings Sophia. You sound much like me. And; hello Angry Bear; you remind me of my Watchdog 3, my "cookie monster from the ID" as I jokingly describe it.

[Hornets]

Hey everyone, I've returned. woohoo.

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Hey everyone, I've returned. woohoo.

[val3ntinus]

 

"Facets of yourself" sounds much like the Tibetan monks used to make tulpas, but is also similar to other things I've heard. It can take a long time that way, to make a tulpa, but it is not unheard of (as I know from personal experience).

 

 

Thank you for your welcome! As we looked over his personality and origins we found his creation did in fact take a long time. It has been a somewhat continuous, unconscious process since 2003! We've just found a name today! He have chosen, for himself, Clu.

[Xevious]

I'm not the greatest at introductions, so I'll try to keep it simple.

 

Decided to go with the name Xevious, and I've been working on my tulpa, Amber, for about a few months now. I had attempted to create her around beginning of last year, but couldn't find the motivation; thankfully I'm over that stump. Hope to make plenty of friends here and engage in some interesting discussions.

[Antikythera]

EDIT: Long-since irrelevant.

[L4ur3nification]

Hello! You can call me L. I'm new to and fascinated by the concept of tulpas. I recently started creation of my first tulpa, Lee, and he. Is. Awesome! :D

[halorser]

Hello, I have recently found out of about tulpas and decided to fully commit to creating one.

My name is Daniel =)

[Kaz with a K]

> this influx of people

I like it