KM & RD

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12/21/14: When I baked chocolate chip cookies, Fluttershy wanted to crack the eggs, so I let her possess me. She shed a single tear of appreciation when I listened to a piano rendition of the solo from "Master of Puppets", describing it as "beautiful". According to Shou, his first memory was being set on fire--it didn't hurt, and he inexplicably knew that he wasn't tactilely imposed. Fluttershy said that she'd come up with the lyrics on 12/18/14. I said that I'd prefer for her to have made it obvious that the lyrics had come from her, and not from random inspiration. Dash sang along when I hummed "Tubby Wubby Pony Waifu", saying that Fluttershy'd been giving her singing lessons.

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12/22/14: Lyrics for my song popped into my head. I thought that they'd come from my subconscious. RD said that she and Keystroke had come up with them, reaffirming this when I showed skepticism. She said that, unlike what I was thinking, she and Keystroke weren't just models in the music video. I had trouble drawing a circle (I was trying to do some storyboarding for the video), but Fluttershy reminded me that a cube I'd drawn once hadn't been perfectly square. I was able to do a better job when she possessed my hand.

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12/23/14: Fluttershy said that my fire-themed song lyrics fit with the idea of fire purifying things, but were still "arson-y". She sang along when I heard a christmas song playing on the radio (I don't know what it's called. It's a mashup of a guy singing one song and a girl singing another), and put on a sort of one-pony music video/decorating-for-Christmas montage in Shou & Nina's house. When I played Call of Duty: Modern Warfare and won a match against my friend on my first try, I wondered if any of my tulpas had been possessing me. Keystroke assured me that "if you can't feel it, that shit ain't happ'nin'." I worked on possession; Keystroke muttered, "I can never get the tail."

 

{Or the voice. My voice doesn't come through at all. Also, I'm possessing him right now, and my thoughts are semi-foreign.}

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12/24/14: Shou briefly appeared in his base form after I read a Fullmetal Alchemist fanfic. I thought that I hadn't done much with my tulpas today, but Fluttershy said that my working hard to make an origami representation of our wonderland might count. My friend spent the night at my house. I didn't want her to catch me talking to my tulpas out loud and think I was crazy, so Nina licked my lips shut. During the licking, I had a few intrusive thoughts of myself voicing a desire to be her pet, probably because the saliva-as-glue thing was featured in a fanfic (my reading of which may have somehow led to Rainbow Dash and I's relationship).

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12/25/14: Whenever I told my tulpas "Merry Christmas", Keystroke would correct me with "Winter Wrap Up Day".

 

{I'm bored.}

 

When I was about to watch the original "Sleeping Beauty", Fluttershy said she'd keep an eye out for "illuminati symbols". I decided to just watch some Youtube videos about Spirit Science.

I wondered if my parents knew I was a Brony. I figured that I could tell by whether any of my presents are pony-related or not. Rainbow Dash asked, "You sure that's an accurate judge?"

While I opened my Christmas presents, Nina walked down the stairs. I incorrectly observed that she seemed a bit despondent/sad. She blamed this on her blank, white eyes.

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12/26/14: When someone posted on the MLP tulpa thread about an intrusive thought-turned-malicious-semi-tulpa, I wondered if Fluttershy would be any good at psychoanalyzing it. I'd left my phone charging in another room, on a table that happened to be near a mirror. When I walked toward it, RD gave me a slight headache (because it was dark, and I'd heard that the "Bloody Mary" phenomenon was due to near-darkness warping one's reflection). I had some trouble connecting several unconnected scenes in a story I'm writing, so I wondered if any of my tulpas could give me a dream of the story. Fluttershy said that she thought she could give me such a dream, being a "symbolism expert". Rainbow Dash trained her in the art of dreamwalking.

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12/27/14: I ended up having a Doctor Who-related dream. When I wrote it in my dream journal, I felt a slight head-pressure from Fluttershy in the right side of my occipital lobe. I'd planned to watch Lost today. Upon realizing that there were six main characters, and I had six tulpas, I proposed a "mass Walter Mitty Routine". Slenderdash was the only one who declined. We ended up not doing the Routine. When I read the MLP tulpa thread, Fluttershy had to take some deep breaths to calm herself down (she'd wanted to psychoanalyze the semi-tulpa and turn it good, but it had disappeared).

After I watched "Into the Woods", I got the idea for Fluttershy's forest to be the setting of the first ever "story arc" in our wonderland--we can use this as a way to fill in the empty planes. Slenderdash called "dibs on the creepy but helpful guide".

When I ate out to lunch, RD laughed when "Never Gonna Give you Up" came on the radio.

 

[Rickrolled!]

 

Fluttershy: Joke's on you! I was hiding in the wonderland :).

 

I felt a slight headache when I thought about my music video. Nina told me that I was working too hard on it. I also felt slight headaches while wondering if I should be concerned about the first headache. Nina said that these latter headaches resulted from her helping Fluttershy set things up for the story arc. I told Rainbow Dash that she and Keystroke should work on song lyrics and send me whatever they come up with (so that I won't doubt whether it's them or just me having a random burst of inspiration). Fluttershy suggested that Dash's outfit in the music video could do something similar to Katnisss Everdeen's fire dress from Mockingjay (where she twirls and her dress briefly bursts into flames). Dash said that "we should highlight the simplicity" and make the hems just appear to be on fire.

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12/28/14: Sometimes, my wonderland form will be a chimera, and I'll pretend to be related to Shou, Nina, and Fluttershy. The way I see it, I'm sort of "cheating on" Rainbow Dash by doing this.

 

[it started as a "What If?", and you rolled with it; therefore not cheating.]

 

Today, Dash suggested that I roll with this until it gets boring, then switch back to being a pony. I wondered if that was fair to the others. Nina said that it was a way to reignite the spark in Dash and I's relationship.

 

Fluttershy: I hereby promise not to do anything to keep it from being boring. ...Just in case you decide to go through with it.

 

Keystroke wondered if, when I got sudden ideas for song lyrics and wasn't sure if they'd come from my subconscious or my tulpas, the two were effectively the same thing.

 

{What does that imply for sentience?}

 

[i think it's...*pulls out old-timey calculator* nothing. Zip. No implications whatsoever :)!]

 

When I played "Cards Against Humanity", I switched out with RD and Keystroke every turn. Keystroke said that he would leave the table "laughing my flank off". After the game, Nina said that she'd been listening in on it. When I hummed "Tubby Wubby Pony Waifu", RD reminded me that we were "seeing other people".

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12/29/14: I double-checked, and all involved were okay with the "seeing other people" thing. Shou briefly appeared in his base form, but with a furry canine face instead of a human face. Keystroke thought about how Shou, Nina, and Slenderdash fit into his theory that "accidental" tulpas are wanted by the host on a subconscious level; Fluttershy said that I had been curious about having a tulpa foal with Rainbow Dash, which could have contributed to Shou's creation.

 

Fluttershy: I also called her "Mistress Dash". In public--well, on a forum, anyway. Go me :).

 

Her remark about Keystroke's theory was accompanied by the image of her by my closet. When I'd seen an image of RD's various forms that one time, the forms had also been by my closet. I wondered why this was. Fluttershy said that it was because I was in the closet about my tulpas, and recommended coming out. Recently, messages from Shou or Nina have been accompanied by slightly painful headaches. Nina speculated that she was irritated about something, and that maybe "seeing other people" was the wrong tactic. I decided to read a FiMfic starting Fluttershy and Rainbow Dash, commit it to memory, and then have them put their own spin on it. This made me remember another plan I'd come up with: I'd listen to http://www..youtube.com/watch?v=obhP_XcVxZI, and have Keystroke put the memory of this in my memory palace--

 

{Which is still in progress. The memory palace, I mean. Not the plan}.

 

So that I could draw on it when working on my alien romance novel, which I'm trying to write with a writing style similar to that of A Stranger in Ponyville.

When Fluttershy and I chatted about what we each liked about Rainbow Dash, RD said that we were inflating her ego.

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12/30/14: Rainbow Dash gave me a slightly painful headache. I wondered if she was saying I'd been neglecting her, which caused her to facehoof. I worked on imposing her mane. She flew behind a chair when I was startled. When she peeked at me from around the chair, her mane waved/flipped in slow motion.

 

[i blame whiplash.

...Physics apply to me. Sweet.]

 

When I told Fluttershy that her "war room" was supposed to be a soundstage for our music video first and a war room second, RD told her "I told you the 'war room' was overdramatic".

Online, episodes of Naruto always cut out the opening song, except for the part at the end which puts a bit from the song to a washed-out scene from the current episode. When I watched an episode of Naruto, Fluttershy turned this bit of upbeat song into something like a short lullaby, because she "felt like it".

 

[boom. Sentience.]

 

That's probably a reference to my first entry, in which I wrote that RD's actions were "mostly her whims".

When I noticed that Keystroke wasn't speaking in his voice, I repeatedly called him "Monsieur", which annoyed/goaded him.

I thought back to his "true self or not" crisis, and told him that I didn't think he was my "true self". He asked what the criteria were, and looked at me with a smug expression when I said that I didn't know.

 

{In your face. In. Your. Bloody. Face.}