KM & RD

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1/28/15: When I thought about hot chocolate, Dash said "That's my drug." Fluttershy wondered if a thought can be said to be hers if I become aware of it out of nowhere, and she claims that it's hers. Nina asked her if it mattered, to which she responded "I guess not."

When I thought about vocal possession, Rainbow Dash advised me to go into Audacity or GarageBand and change my voice to sound like her.

 

[With the song/lyric origin confusion...we could just have me possess you and improvise stuff; any lyrics came up with during that time are counted as mine.]

 

What if you come up with stuff that I previously thought of?

 

[Then I'm agreeing with you that "this lyric sounds nice".]

 

Shou: You really need to stop doubting us, Krueger.

 

I let RD hypnotize me.

 

{I'm possessing him ATM; same trance that created me. I--I've sort of got my body overlaid on his, but it kinda flickers. Can't really feel my wings, tail, or muzzle, either. Well, he could never get the tail down.

 

I just saw him in the wonderland. He's a brown stallion with blue eyes. They're not fully saturated, but they are pretty blue. Anyway--hang on, should my text be in brackets right now? I mean I am possessing him.}

 

The possession and hypnosis ended soon after that. After Bart Baker's " Blank Space" parody had been stuck in my head for some time, RD said that she liked it. I asked her if I'd unintentionally given her musical Stockholme syndrome. She told me to shut up (her way of saying I'm being completely ridiculous). Pony!Me is apparently an earth pony.

 

{It's probably just a wonderland form.}

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1/29/15: When my friend gave me a dark chocolate candy, Fluttershy said that she liked the taste (I didn't). When I chugged a bottle of water, Fluttershy chanted "Chug! Chug!" Rainbow Dash playfully ruffled her mane.

When I had trouble playing a song by ear (when previously I'd been able to) in the right key, Dash suggested that the acoustics of the small room I was in were to blame. I asked her if I was a hermit. She said "No. Sort of. ...you have hermit-like tendencies."

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1/30/15: When I tried to do a (caricature of a) Scottish accent, RD booed me. When I got stressed about getting a C on an assignment, I requested that RD hypnotize me. During the trance, I said something like "I want to stay like this". RD said "No you don't". She said something like what I'd said, and I saw through her ruse/test.

While eating applesauce, I wondered what would happen if I froze it. I didn't freeze it.

I had something like jet lag. I asked my tulpas if this affected them. Shou said that he was barely affected. Nina yawned and curled up/cuddled with Sarah.

I thought about some stuff, but I don't remember what. I saw Martymer81 in my head, giving me relevant advice (which I can't remember). Turns out this was Keystroke in disguise.

 

{I'd say your circadian rhytm's out of whack. Also, your keyboard-iPhoning skills. And my English.}

 

**one soda later...**

 

[*hovering and boxing the air* Alright folks! Guess who's back? Me and five other badasses!]

 

What's up with you?

 

[Dunno. I'm still kinda bored. How's that magic square comin'?]

 

Barely started.

 

{*le gasp*}

 

After I watched a video about how Americans allegedly sing with British accents, Keystroke said, "Okay, stuff like this just confuses me. Am I British or what? I mean, I was born on American soil, or...in the mind of a guy who was born on American soil, I suppose."

 

Is this crisis-type stuff?

 

{Just me wondering about stuff, really. Is this offensive to people who're actually British?}

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1/31/15: I planned to explore our wonderland last night, but never got around to it. I asked RD if she wanted to talk to my counsellor sometime.

 

[Eh, maybe. I'm not that enthusiastic about it, but I might get a sudden burst of energy if you bring it up with her.]

 

When I thought about the possible science behind magic systems, Sarah told me I was overthinking it. RD said that she wasn't feeling as enthusiastic about the music video as she had before.

 

[i kiiinda wanna blame [i]somebody[/i] for not putting enough effort into it. And for doubting who comes up with the lyrics. How 'bout I use symbolism to..."store" my enthusiasm for later, ya think that'll work? Yeah, that'll probably work.]

 

You seem kinda mad.

 

[*flatly* I blame the new environment. Dorm room to house; kind of a thing.]

 

First it happened with hypnosis, now this--both big projects.

 

[Analysis, Fluttershy?]

 

Fluttershy: Oh, um. I don't know. It could just be a coincidence. Wait...talking to the counsellor's Strike Three...I might need to think about this.

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2/1/15: I asked Fluttershy if she'd come up with anything, and she blushed and said "I kinda slacked off." When I watched the Superbowl Halftime Show (the one with Katy Perry), Nina, Sarah, Fluttershy, and Rainbow Dash put on a short musical montage during "California Gurls". Sarah had her hair covering one of her eyes. After I watched the trailer for "Babadook", I came up with a partial poem about my tulpas, to be used as a demon-banishing spell in a short story.

 

[it could work. It's over-idealistic, but it could work.]

 

After I worked on the sheet music for my song, I asked my tulpas what they thought. RD said, "I think my enthusiasm's proportional to how much your nose is to the grindstone."

I thought RD and I were drifting apart. I thought that doing the Walter Mitty Routine would help. Fluttershy agreed. She said that, in the meantime, certain things would be effective. Nina, Shou, and Sarah set up a triangular shield around me to block intrusive thoughts. I had some trouble imposing Nina, and she recommended looking back and forth. This helped. Shou and Sarah accurately reflected the light/shadows the minute they were imposed.

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2/2/15: I had a dream about Shou and Nina (or maybe the characters they were based on). After waking up thinking of Freddy Krueger's nursery rhyme, I had a bit of trouble sensing my tulpas' presence. RD said it was because she'd wanted/needed some alone time. I asked Shou if it was him or a regular dream character in the dream, and he said that there wasn't much of a difference between tulpas and dream characters. Surprisingly, his voice was accurate. Fluttershy said that waking up after only five hours of sleep may have made it hard to sense my tulpas.

 

[We're still here, Pet.]

 

Shou: It could've been the fact I entered your dreams.

 

Later, RD gave me some ideas for lyrics. She suggested that while I'm asleep would be a good time to work on the song, so that I'll know that I had no input in the songwriting process. When "Dream On" came on the radio, Keystroke sang along (and played the guitar riffs on a keyboard). I saw him sitting alone, in what looked like a misty swamp/bog at night.

 

{I might have performance anxiety, Mistress.}

 

[We'll work on that.]

 

Keystroke came up with a tune/riff: dun da-dun dun dunnn, dun da-dun dun Dunnn, dun da-dun dun dunnn, dun da-dun dun Dun da da da da da da!

 

Keystroke sang with an audience of Rainbow Dash. He sounded a bit unsure.

 

{Autotune?}

 

[Or just practice.]

 

{*salute* Right.}

 

It was pretty cold tonight. I contemplated adding weather/seasons to our wonderland, so that I could counteract high temperatures by dissociating into a fall/winter mindscape, or low temperatures with a spring/summer mindscape.

 

[We have had rain before. The grey cliff with Keystroke's "Dusk Shine" phase.]

 

{That seemed more like symbolic rain, Mistress.}

 

Minus the "mistress" part, I was just about to say that.

 

{You snooze, you lose.}

 

Keystroke suggested putting random hieroglyphs in my music video. Fluttershy said that the hieroglyphs should actually mean something.

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2/3/15: I went to sleep with my shirt on, and woke up with it on the floor. I wondered if any of my tulpas had possessed me while I slept (because none of them wear clothes), but Shou brought up the fact that people might move around in their sleep. I was struck with inspiration for a story: everyone's in a shared dream being controlled by someone, but they aren't sure who's controlling it. Keystroke said that the premise sounded lame, but that I could "probably make it work".

When I read a Rainbow Blitz x Butterscotch shipfic, Fluttershy gave me a headache to indicate that she liked it. I wondered why big stuff (such as RD hypnotizing Keystroke to stabilize his form or Fluttershy making her forest) happened while I wasn't aware of it. RD said that she didn't know, implying that it wasn't a conscious decision on their part.

 

Fluttershy: On the plus side, it's a good sign of parallel processing ^^.

 

Sarah and Nina lay on my bed. I remarked how I could never tell if a dog outstretched on the floor was sad or just lying on the floor. Nina suggested studying canine body language, or trying to find happy images of chimera!Nina (as I may be automatically associating chimera!Nina with sadness). Shou suggested that the reason 2009!Chimera!Nina scared me, as opposed to the 2003 version, was that the 2003 version was drawn with more patches of fluff than the 2009 version.

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2/4/15: I had a dream where my English teacher thought that I was planning to cheat on my final, when I wasn't. In the dream, Shou whispered something to me. When I woke up, Shou explained that the perceived-as-cheating part came from reading about healthy multiplicity before bed, and his cameo came from thinking about Nina before bed. I thought "Conspiracy theorists are crazy", but then explained that what I meant by "crazy" was "their subjective reality negatively impacts them". I was weirded out by this knee-jerk political correctness. Shou said that it meant I have morals.

I didn't think "conspiracy theorists", I thought of a specific individual, but I didn't want to target them. Shou gave me a thumbs-up when I wrote that.

Fluttershy noticed an odd bit of synchronicity: in Egyptian mythology, the Ba (essentially, a person's personality) is depicted as a bird with a human head; the Ba isn't corporeal; tulpas are incorporeal, and three of mine are pegasi. When I listened to rock music, Keystroke said "My mane's perfect for headbanging."

 

[Aw yeah! Breathin' life into pop-rock!]

 

Keystroke rocked out to Seether's "Same Damn Life". Fluttershy awww'd when she saw him wearing a paper zigzag collar (generally, collars are the D/S equivalent of wedding rings). I asked why I hadn't been invited to the ceremony, and Fluttershy said that Keystroke was just trying the collar on to see how it'd look.

 

Fluttershy: There wasn't actually a ceremony. You assumed there was.

 

I caught RD half singing, half speaking "Equestria Girls" (the parody of California Gurls). For a few minutes, I could faintly hear the song in my head, and barely feel a bass beat. I thought of singing a protest song with a microphone meant to resemble an athame (Wiccan ritual dagger used to command spirits), but then I realized that it could be interpreted as "this person is dangerous" instead of "I'm trying to make a very unsubtle point". Fluttershy suggested rounding the tip.

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2/5/15: I don't think I did much with my tulpas today. Fluttershy got slightly irritated at me (enough to facehoof), but I'm not sure if that really happened or if I just parroted. When I played Cards Against Humanity, Keystroke, Fluttershy, and Rainbow Dash helped me decide which cards to use. Keystroke danced to...I forget what song it was; Fluttershy encouraged him to make it look like he was holding something back. I asked my tulpas if they were okay. RD said that this had come up "ten times". Fluttershy saidit had come up 20 times.

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2/6/15: I had some trouble seeing Rainbow Dash. I saw her reflected in a mirror out of the corner of my eye when I hummed "Tubby Wubby Pony Waifu". She also gave me a minor headache.

 

[We need the spark back. You go see "Babadook", impose me in it; problem solved!]

 

{I'm no doctor, but I think that was stress-induced. Like how you stay in a dark room a lot, and it hurts to see?}

 

I imposed RD sitting in a chair, then I turned around and saw her sitting next to me. She told me to blink (implying that this would help with imposition). When my eyelids were closed, I saw a Weeping Angel.

 

[*derpface*]

 

I asked her if she wanted to be imposed outside. She declined, because it was raining. When I thought about my novels, Fluttershy pointed out similarities in color scheme and opposition-to-solar-themed-characters between my antagonist and Sunset Shimmer. I ended up watching "Jupiter Ascending" instead of "Babadook". I tried to impose RD in it, but we couldn't figure out a way to do it seamlessly; there weren't any scenes with reflective surfaces. I was about to use fluoride toothpaste, but I wasn't sure if it would get from my teeth to my bloodstream to my brain and negatively impact my tulpas. I freaked out/tearfully ranted to myself about how I would rather have increased risk of cavities than lose my tulpas. I had trouble sensing them after this; RD pretty much said that they were freaked out by my paranoid ranting. She showed me a dentist appointment where I'd gotten fluoride varnish on my teeth (apparently this was after her creation, and didn't affect her). I pointed out that the image she'd shown me was of a dentist's office that I hadn't been to in years.

 

[so sue me. You're the one making a self-fulfilling prophecy!]

 

Shou: You had fluoridated toothpaste as a kid. You were able to create Rainbow Dash years later.

 

Nina: *relieved facepaw*

 

[Thank you.]

 

When I saw a fake poster for "Aliens vs Ponies", RD said "Ponies win. Hands down".