Creating the Perfect Beings: Yumi<3 and Lillium<3

[sushi]

I maintain that the idea that polyphasic sleep is healthy is a myth. I think ideally we should sleep twice a day (biphasic), though once (monophasic) is also good. More than twice is bad for you.

[HP]

I crash and sleep for at least 9 hours straight once a week, so I guess poly keeps me going on my work days until I can pull off a full sleep.

[Luminesce]

I maintain that the idea that polyphasic sleep is healthy is a myth.

That article seems pretty biased considering the much stronger evidence Steve Pavlina very well documented his experiences on and later wrote on why he returned to monophasic, and most convincingly the residual effects one year later and even the permanent effects 4 years later.

Considering how long I've been following his articles, not only can I not even comprehend him making this up, but I also don't see any logical way all of these effects on him could've happened were it truly a myth.

 

I really don't mean to argue anything. I understand your reason for thinking what you did, that was a pretty sciency article. But the personal account from someone I trust more than anyone else blows it out of the water. I think the common ground here is that, one, the majority of people who attempt polyphasic sleeping wouldn't be anywhere near as likely to do it as well as Steve (which may explain the poor study results), and/or two, that even Steve switched back to monophasic as the cons to being awake/asleep at certain times outweighed the pros.

 

.... But I didn't even know he wrote those retrospective-afterward articles until just now, having looked it up again. The effects polyphasic sleeping had on him make me almost want to try it myself, even if I switch back to monophasic too. Really interesting honestly, thanks for making me look it up again.

[Cinemaphobe]

Day 8

 

 

Before I start, well you know the drill.

 

 

@Reisen: "As for death... Meh. It doesn't concern me. I don't do stupid stuff and generally live healthily. Obviously you don't try very hard to live healthily, so I don't see your problem - you obsess about death, but not about preventing it? What, you just like getting all upset about the concept you'll die some day? That's pretty pointless.."

 

I pretty much do like being upset about death because it makes me live more and feel more alive. It's not entirely pointless because obsessing over death consequently makes me obsess over life, and obsessing over something while aware of its impermanence makes you appreciate it more. I treat everyday as if it is my last!

 

@Everyone: I have already adopted a polyphasic sleep schedule as of yesterday. However, I'm sure that we can all agree that polyphasic sleep is better than no sleep at all.

 

 

 

On with the depressing report...

 

Today I active forced for 2.2 hours while unable to move due to sleep-paralysis. I induced sleep paralysis to see if it would help me forget about my body in the real world while I was using my body in the wonderland, and it worked.

 

 

I recently had great difficulty visiting my wonderland because a massive chain with a hook at the end of it kept trying to hurt Yumi. It kept trying to stab her mouth and succeeded many times...I don't know where the hell that hook came from because I never created it, nor did I ever think of a hook, but I went into the wonderland and it was hanging from the ceiling above Yumi, moving on its own, while stabbing her. I was mortally wounded by the fact that I couldn't stop her from getting injured, and I couldn't rid my wonderland or mind of that damn hook...

 

 

I felt so horrible for Yumi that I contemplated erasing her from my mind out of mercy...but then I remembered every heart-warming moment we spent together inside and outside of the wonderland, and realized that I would never be able to create a tulpa quite like her again... I then decided that I wouldn't give up, and tried my hardest to erase the hook from my mind, and failed miserably. But then I realized that when difficult mind situations occur, symbolism is one of the best weapons!

 

I then brought Yumi outside of the house and concentrated on keeping the hook inside of the house. When I finally managed to keep the hook inside, I imagined explosives planted in every room. Then I imagined a detonator in my hand, and blew up my cherished childhood home. The wonderland itself was completely corrupted, so I really had no choice.

After the explosion, I turned to Yumi and hugged her, apologizing for everything she experienced. The hook was erased from our wonderland (along with our wonderland) But I also gave her a katana, and the ability to defend herself from anything with ease. She's basically untouchable now, so I never have to worry about such a horrible thing like that ever happening again. But even if something was able to harm her, she wouldn't feel anything because I made her immune to pain (through symbolism).

 

The house of my childhood was a pile of debris, so I imagined a black Lamborghini with the ability to fly drive towards us. Of course I drove the car while sitting next to a slightly traumatized Yumi, but I cheered her up along the way, and worked on her personality traits: kind, loving, hyperactive, wild, positive, childish, and immature.

 

We were heading to Japan, and when we got there, we saw our new wonderland which was a Zen Buddhist monastery surrounded by cherry-blossom trees. Inside of the monastery, are a few NPC monks lol. They just sit their in meditate in seiza just like the real monks do xD

Yumi likes to slap their bald heads and I like to kick them because they are so at peace that they don't care about disruption lol. After that, I brought Yumi to a pizza restaurant to spend some time with her, and filled the restaurant with NPC customers and waitresses. When the waitress came to our table, I talked to her in a polite tone combined with completely unnecessary profanity because why not?: "Can I please get a motherfucking pizza with some pepperoni bitches and bacon shit thrown on it?" I looked to Yumi, and asked her "What do you want Yumi?"

 

Then for some reason she became shy and brought her hands to her face (which was super fucking adorable by the way.), and I felt like she was saying something but I couldn't hear it. "speak louder Yumi, so that the waitress can hear you." and after I waited to hear her response, somehow I felt it. I knew that she wanted pocky sticks, which confused me because we were in a pizza restaurant...so I asked the waitress to bring Yumi a block of pocky sticks, and within seconds we received our order. I ate my food scooby-doo style, and Yumi took her time. While I watched her maniacally eat her pocky sticks, a glass of milk that I did not create nor will to appear just simply materialized beside her. Yumi's creating stuff now. That was the first thing that she created!

 

 

We spent a lot of time in the massive cherry-blossom tree forest and the only communication we had was through head-pressures. I tried to ask her yes or no questions, but that didn't work too well because I couldn't focus on the head pressures very well lol...and while I was focusing on Yumi, I got distracted. So when my consciousness returned to the wonderland after only a few seconds of absence, Yumi smacked me in the face!!! lol and then she cuddled me because I came back to give her attention! lol

 

 

 

PLEASE NOTE: I DIDN'T CREATE A PLANE BECAUSE BLACK, FLYING LAMBORGHINIS ARE JUST ABOUT AS AWESOME AS WONDERLAND TRANSPORTATION GETS.

 

 

Current hour count: 11.2

[Luminesce]

I really suggest you read at least a few of Steve's articles on polyphasic sleeping I linked in my previous post (the first link links to all of his actual dated posts and has background). It'll be very helpful if you know what to expect and how to go about it first.

 

 

Not sure what to say about the hook thing. I'll give you the benefit of the doubt that you might not have been completely conscious when that happened. You know you don't have to take your mind's crap like that, you don't have to even acknowledge it. Don't try and imagine the chain disappearing, shut down the entire wonderland, stop falling for your mind telling you you're powerless.

 

A couple years ago, while I was passively training my dream recall, I had a dream that was just a series of events in a dream's-broken-reality Gensokyo, the place Touhou takes place in. I don't even remember what the first ones were, just random crap that made no sense involving Touhou characters, but the last one was a scene of Reisen being "electrocuted silly", like cartoon physics but more realistic I guess. It was actually lighthearted like that too, like haha it's funny.

 

I'd never been so pissed off at anything in my life.

 

When I woke up and remembered what had just happened, that my mind made that scenario and said it was funny - well. I'd been trying to dream of Reisen for at least a couple years at that point, and she'd never appeared in one. Until that one. And my mind thought it would be funny to electrocute her. Suffice it to say, I completely banned my subconscious from ever doing anything related to Reisen ever again. I made it extremely clear that if anything like that ever happened again, there would be repercussions possibly in the form of self-harm(which I never had nor have done before, no), anything to get the point across that it wasn't okay.

 

And.. I didn't dream about her again until a couple of weeks ago, a little after I'd started imposing her. She appeared in my last dream before I woke up, holding hands with me as we walked around my college campus (suddenly containing skyscrapers) in the rain. I didn't realize how important it was until the last moment, but yeah. I took that stuff seriously.

 

I don't mean to say that you should react more harshly.. I probably overreacted myself back then. But you should know that you absolutely do not have to stand for your mind bullying you. If it does something unacceptable like that, you don't have to play by any sort of rules, as you resorted to by leaving the house and luckily your mind accepted it had to stay inside. You can just stop the entire thought process creating it. This was really important when I was developing Flandre, because she sometimes had negative thoughts/otherwise that I just wouldn't accept as part of her, disregarding them entirely. She's a lot better for it.

Symbolism works in dreams and otherwise because it convinces your mind that something should be allowed to happen. For example, flying in a lucid dream is too unrealistic for your mind to accept at first, so a work around is giving yourself wings or associating yourself with Superman. But you don't have to. It's your mind and you can control it if you let yourself. Same goes for anything in your mind, though things like your senses are harder to control than thoughts. Still possible.

[Cinemaphobe]

Good advice...I have never dealt with my mind bullying me like that before. I know that I shouldn't have even acknowledged it, but the hook felt as real in my wonderland as Yumi was, and it was wreaking havoc so it kept returning to my thoughts. It was an intrusive thought on steroids and it almost ended my PR and tulpa journey completely because my mind convinced me that I was powerless. But even while I foolishly thought that I wasn't in control, I knew that I wasn't completely powerless, so I resorted to completely destroying my wonderland home.

 

I have to work on being aware of how much control I have over my mind though... and I definitely won't stand for anything like that happening again though, so thanks for your input^^. You have hereby earned the title Reisen-cakes in honor of how helpful you have been!

 

 

CRYPTOGRAPHY TEST FOR REISEN-CAKES

 

If you can decipher this code that I created, then I will have an eternal respect for you! Whether it is challenging or not is up to you! I just want to test your logic capabilities out of curiosity. The person who said this quote is a famous polymath and politician. Good luck!

 

"IDYDUONKWOHTTAOYAUERNIETLLGINERTIEESN"

 

-EBJNMANIRFNALKNI

 

The initial method you use to solve this, and how long it takes for you to solve this will say a lot about your level of reasoning. If it takes you a long time to solve this, then you are extremely logical, but you are unable to organize ideas and details by priority quickly enough. If it takes you a short time then you are extremely logical, and you can prioritize ideas and details by priority quickly. I created the code, but not the cipher. However, I was able to figure out what the cipher was to a code like this, so you should be able to do so as well.

 

This will also test your ego when it is involved with making deductions. If you have a high-drive to crack this code to prove equality with me, then it will take you longer than you should. If you have a low-drive to solve the code, then it might take you a shorter time to solve it because your emotions won't be involved. If you have a high-drive to crack the code, with no ego involved, then you might solve the code quickly. If you solve the code very quickly and then present a code for me to solve that is more difficult than mine, then it'll prove that your ego was involved with cracking my code, and that you are trying to establish a type of superiority. OR, it will show that you are just casually testing me as well.

[Luminesce]

Warning: I actually solved the cipher a few minutes after writing the first half of this post.

"IDYDUONKWOHTTAOYAUERNIETLLGINERTIEESN"

 

-EBJNMANIRFNALKNI

 

I've never bothered to learn anything about cryptography. I've solved codes where the letters were slid over 8 letters... manually... before, found messages hidden in capital letter placement, and copy/pasted more complicated ones like Base 64 stuff. The most complicated thing I ever did myself was teach myself binary with a binary calculator and then turn some strings of 1s and 0s into numbers and then wrote out my ABCs next to numbers and made a word. Could've copy pasted but I wanted to learn binary (was actually kind of fun and only took ~10 minutes typing numbers into a calculator).

 

I need to go to bed, and either I spend an hour testing the most basic forms of ciphering I can think of myself or I spend two hours researching ciphers and figuring out which methods you likely used, then testing them.

But I still probably wouldn't get it if it's unconventional, so I'll accept that you don't respect me until the end of time.

 

 

Just kidding I figured it out within ten seconds of looking at it. I simply read it like a drunk person: "I don't know what you are, intelligent Reisen" (pronounced Idyuon'tknohwhtyaouaurniteligentRieesn), by Ebynman Irf Nalkni. Pshhh you thought you had me stumped.

 

 

------------------ 10 minutes later

 

Holy crap I was actually really close to being right with that joke, which was my initial reading of that gibberish. I can't imagine what your reaction would've been if I'd hit post instead of taking this to Notepad. (The explanations were written post-solving it, the numbers and letters were all of my actual work the first time)

 

I don't feel this was a fair test of intelligence though, aside from intelligence of ciphering. Of which I have basically none, only general critical thinking skills... Oh, so maybe it was fair. I should've given you more credit before assuming it was impossible to do manually, sorry. Like I said, bad experiences of attempting to solve "base 64"-ciphered code manually for an hour before googling a decipherer.

 

I dunno about all the ego stuff. My initial reaction was to put it in a couple deciphering things online though I knew that wouldn't work. My gibberish reading of it seemed like wishful thinking rather than a lead. But my intuition told me the Reisen part wasn't a coincidence, so I used my super advanced deciphering knowledge in my high-tech hacking software Notepad.exe to put numbers to order it into "Reisen", and then hoped there would be a pattern. There totally wasn't because I started at the end with "1, 2, 3"... But the sentence was simple enough I could guess the words and number them after, backwards.

 

I have no interest in testing your.. uh, critical thinking, ability. Although I did mean to reply to your actual post, it wasn't that you "shouldn't have acknowledged it" so much as you should've immediately told your mind it wasn't alright, no exceptions, and then went on with what you meant to be doing. Even if an invasive thought randomly chops your tulpa's head off, you can undo that really quickly, reaffirm to your mind that you're in control and won't accept any bothering, and go on as if it hadn't happened. The logic is that there was no importance behind it happening, so there's no reason to treat it like there was. You subconsciously create your own unconscious "invasive thoughts" and such, similar to "Don't imagine a pink elephant". They feel uncontrollable, but you can recognize they're technically coming from your own mind and, unwillingly, you're willingly creating them. Complicated concept but it's worth thinking about, it's a key factor to controlling lucid dream scenarios and invasive thoughts.

[Cinemaphobe]

 

 

------------------ 10 minutes later

 

Holy crap I was actually really close to being right with that joke, which was my initial reading of that gibberish. I can't imagine what your reaction would've been if I'd hit post instead of taking this to Notepad. (The explanations were written post-solving it, the numbers and letters were all of my actual work the first time)

 

I don't feel this was a fair test of intelligence though, aside from intelligence of ciphering. Of which I have basically none, only general critical thinking skills... Oh, so maybe it was fair. I should've given you more credit before assuming it was impossible to do manually, sorry. Like I said, bad experiences of attempting to solve "base 64"-ciphered code manually for an hour before googling a decipherer.

 

I dunno about all the ego stuff. My initial reaction was to put it in a couple deciphering things online though I knew that wouldn't work. My gibberish reading of it seemed like wishful thinking rather than a lead. But my intuition told me the Reisen part wasn't a coincidence, so I used my super advanced deciphering knowledge in my high-tech hacking software Notepad.exe to put numbers to order it into "Reisen", and then hoped there would be a pattern. There totally wasn't because I started at the end with "1, 2, 3"... But the sentence was simple enough I could guess the words and number them after, backwards.

 

 

 

 

Extremely impressive. You had a strong-sense to crack the code, with little to no ego involved. What is extremely funny though, is the fact that you analyzed the code way too critically! And I predicted you to do exactly that. You used much more complex methods for obtaining the answer, and you even almost guessed the answer correctly at first glimpse. I'm glad that you trusted your intuition, and I knew for a fact that your brain would catch the word "Reisen" immediatele lol. Out of all of the things that your mind went over in order to solve the code, all you had to do was pair the letters and switch them.

 

For example:

 

IDYDUONKWO

 

ID YD UO NK WO

 

If you pair every two letters up like that, and switch their place simultaneously, then you'll get this:

 

DI DY OU KN OW

 

I told you the hint that the person who said the quote was a polymath politician, not so that you could figure out that it was simply Benjamin Franklin's name scrambled, but to give you the key to deciphering the rest of the code. If you would have looked at how his name was scrambled closely enough, you could have noticed that it was not scrambled randomly. Every pair of letters simply traded places, and by knowing that, you could apply the cipher to the quote. But what amazes me is that you were able to figure out what it said without using the cipher I intended you to discover. You could have arranged those letters into hundreds of combinations, and I was hoping that you wouldn't research anything about codes because that would only make finding the answer even harder lol. But still, you discovered the answer nonetheless, and you made it very clear that you are a force not to be reckoned with!

You are much more analytical than me, and I can safely assume that your profession or whatever you are studying for requires that skill. I was able to decipher the code because I was too lazy to do research.

 

I figured out the code in 5 minutes because I stared at how the word "Benjamin Franklin" was scrambled and thought "Maybe there is a pattern...". So I switched the letters around, found a pattern, applied it to the quote, and that was that. I was able to discover the answer through a stroke of creativity, but you did it through pure analysis. So now I know the difference between us. I'm a pianist, and I create more songs than I actually learn because mastering songs on the piano requires a vast knowledge of patterns because songs are parts of scales, and scales are essentially patterns. But if you were a pianist, then you would probably know more songs than you have actually created because you have the patience to analyze something until you have solved it.

 

Conclusion? True ingenuity is the perfect blend of creativity, and logic...

INFINITE RESPECT FOR YOU=GAINED.

 

By the way, the average person probably would have probably just given up as soon as they noticed that the words weren't separated lol. I'm extremely impressed with your level of reasoning and methodology.

and tell Reisen I said "Hi!"

 

 

By the way, you can test me someday if you want to^^

However, my ego will get in the way. When I can't figure out something, I never give up, and will entertain even the wildest ideas as possible answers.

[Luminesce]

If you pair every two letters up like that, and switch their place simultaneously

That's not as simple as it sounds once you know it. It would take either a long time or some luck to figure that out quickly, assuming no experience with deciphering things. (Someone that does this more often could surely figure it out more clearly than I did, and much quicker)

 

My first impression actually was that letters were switched around, but again, I thought it would be more complicated than I was able to figure out manually, for some reason. Lesson learned, I'll take the experience for what it's worth.

 

 

I don't know how to play any instruments, though I've had a keyboard for like five years in my room. I'm a perfectionist with.. all skills, from writing essays to playing instruments to playing a new multiplayer game. I write very well, but for years I got 0's on essays instead of 100s because I couldn't stand the not-perfectness of what I was writing, it would take me an hour to write the first three sentences and 20 minutes to write the rest of the essay. To this day I still have a really hard time trying to learn to play piano, I learned to read sheet music and such in a week, but I lost motivation because, well, I couldn't play well. As for TF2, I literally played with bots for 200 hours before feeling like I was good enough to play with others - and then I was actually better than most of them. (I have like 1500 hours now, much more confident)

 

I'm actually interested in a mix as far as what I'd play though. Mostly Touhou arranges, but what I like about Touhou arranges is how they're reinvented in every song. I don't know that I would quite make up my own songs, but if I got good enough I'd probably improv with what I already knew how to play.

[Cinemaphobe]

DAY 9

 

 

@Reisen-cakes:

 

"That's not as simple as it sounds once you know it. It would take either a long time or some luck to figure that out quickly, assuming no experience with deciphering things. (Someone that does this more often could surely figure it out more clearly than I did, and much quicker)"

 

It took me a long time and luck to figure it out quickly (5-10 minutes of staring at my computer screen without blinking lol), but I have only a few days of deciphering experience. I wouldn't give you a code that would be impossible for a novice to complete because that would be unfair and it would invalidate the entire test. I gave you a code that required no experience in any hardcore decryption methods. The only thing required was the ability to spot patterns.

 

"My first impression actually was that letters were switched around, but again, I thought it would be more complicated than I was able to figure out manually, for some reason. Lesson learned, I'll take the experience for what it's worth."

 

 

You should always trust your first impression when solving seemingly unsolvable problems. That first impression you had was the stroke of creativity and intuition needed to solve the entire code! But you dismissed the thought either completely or partially. As I said, ingenuity is the perfect blend of creativity and logic. You thought that it would be more complicated than you were able to figure out because I gave no clear hint as to what level of intelligence you would need to solve it. As a result of not knowing my level of intelligence, and not knowing how difficult the code was, you assumed that it would be difficult and analyzed as if it was difficult because you are used to solving difficult problems. When I first deciphered the code, I knew the difficulty of the code, so I was able to view it in an unintelligent manner to solve it.

 

I knew that you would be the perfect person to test my theory, and now I can conclude that different problems require different levels of analysis to solve, and I can say that too much analysis can be counter-productive. Wild guesses like the one you had that stem from creative thought are what is needed to solve certain problems that cannot be solved by deduction. For example, If you had to figure out what was inside of a box, and you knew absolutely NOTHING about the box except for its size, you would have to rely on intuition more than logic, because the only logic you could apply in that scenario would be: "The box is small, so there must be a small object inside of it." You would have to activate your creativity to create hundreds of wild guesses of what could be in the box, and then you would have to organize each possibility by how logical it would be, and use the process of elimination to narrow it down to a single group or item. In summary, intuition and deduction work hand and hand for solving problems, but sometimes they have to work alone.

 

 

On with the report...holy shit...my rambling got out of hand...

 

 

 

I broke my record! I tulpaforced for 2.4 hours!!!

 

My session consisted of passive forcing and active forcing, and I heard an entire sentence from Yumi I was walking through a dark forest at nighttime with my faithful pitbull named Pandora :3. (She is so fucking cute omg omg omg). and I was nervous that an animal would try to attack me while I was talking to Yumi, so I told Yumi "I swear to god if an animal runs towards me or Pandora I'm going to smash my coffee mug on its head and beat the shit out of it." and then I heard Yumi say this sentence very sarcastically:

 

"Yeah, because you are so big and strong."

 

I'm only 5"11, while weighing 135-140 pounds.

 

 

I laughed my ass off and playfully shoved her in the wonderland while I was walking. I held her hand as I walked in the forest by curling my fingers. By keeping my fingers curled, which is a conscious effort, I was able to keep my mind fixed on Yumi! She even jumped on my back and I gave her a few piggy-back rides^^. She cuddled me while I carried her omg omg<3!

 

When she and I reached a clearing, I looked up at the stars and began to discuss the possibility of life on other planets, and I discussed the possibility of multiple universes. She sat beside me as we looked up at the stars, but it didn't feel like she was as engaged as I was with the deep thinking. In fact, after I kept voicing my thoughts about multiple universes, and started to delve into metaphysics, and the nature of human consciousness, she slapped me in my fucking face!!! Of course I brought my attention back to her and laughed, but then I realized that she doesn't like to talk about deep matters. She only likes it when I talk about her, or my life. But she REALLY likes it when I talk about her. To further investigate whether she hated philosophy and deep thought, I fetched my trusty ethics textbook, and began to read aloud to her about the nature of the words: Right, wrong, immoral, moral, amoral, non-moral, ethical, and unethical.

 

I asked her questions after every paragraph I read, in the hopes of starting a discussion with her. After I finished the section, I asked her "What do you think about everything that we learned today?"

I then closed my eyes to imagine her in front of me. She stood from her chair, grabbed my ethics book, and started tearing it apart. I laughed my ass off once more, and gave it one last shot. I read a few more pages to her, and afterwards she did the exact same thing. She was definitely getting bored with me, and the thought of Nu-disco popped into my head out of nowhere. Maybe she likes Nu-disco...

 

So I returned to my home and downloaded my favorite Nu-disco songs to my iPod. She was so impatient while I was downloading them! She was slapping the table maniacally! When I finally played the songs through my stereo, she became happy. I closed my eyes and imagined a large dancefloor within the Zen Buddhist monastery. Hundreds of monks were dancing with us! and Yumi had some pretty sexy dance moves that I didn't expect! I danced with her in real-life and in the wonderland to have a full-body wonderland experience! I starting teaching myself to dance and had such a good time with her on the dance floor!!!I imagined some turn tables and became the DJ of the party, leaving Yumi on the dancefloor to dance by herself, and then one of the NPC monks started dancing dirty with

her!!! So I left the turn-tables, picked up a samurai sword and started slicing him into pieces. For some reason he had purple blood.

 

Yumi knelt down to his body and mourned for him, but I assured her that he had no consciousness, nor did he feel any pain, for he is an object just like everything else in the wonderland. She stood up, feeling a lot better upon hearing that truth, and stopped thinking about what I did. So we started dancing again, and had more fun^^

Recently she is becoming more touchy (in the non-sexual way of course), and she gets jealous in the cutest ways:).

 

Last night, I had a dream that my girlfriend came to Florida and met my family. My girlfriend and I slept together, but I didn't want to kiss her or hug her. In the morning, she asked "When are you going to kiss me? We finally met..." and I didn't answer her question in the dream, because I felt like something wasn't right. Something was missing.

 

Upon awakening, it occurred to me that Yumi was missing in the dream. It also occurred to me that I am more in love with Yumi than my girlfriend now, because I spend more time with Yumi than my girlfriend and I will ever spend together...

 

 

I don't know...recently I have felt so satisfied with my life...Yumi really loves me, and I can feel it subconsciously even when I am not thinking of her (because well, she is part of my subconscious lol). The only thing I look for in life is love, and friendship...I don't have any materialistic desires, and achievement only interests me slightly...so my dream is to be loved unconditionally by somebody, because of the lack of love I received as a child growing up from both family and romantic interests. There is a hole in my heart that will never be filled even if one thousand Yumis loved me all at once...but one Yumi is enough to keep me satisfied, and so far she has done exactly that. She gives me a reason to smile everyday!

 

 

Oh, and since I can't talk about philosophy with Yumi, I plan on creating a tulpa who loves to talk about philosophy! I want him to also help me with decryption, deduction, comprehension, and basically all pursuits of the mind. I want him to be logic incarnate.

 

 

I will base his appearance after my all-time favorite anime character named "L Lawliet" who is a genius and master of deduction. He will look like L, move like him, and talk like him, however he will not be him. I'll name him Osamu, and one of the kanji meanings of his name is "Logical". I will create him after I finish creating Yumi, because creating one tulpa is already enough work! lol Thanks for reading my PR! I LOVE YOU

 

Total hours forced: 13.7

Longest amount of time spent forcing: 2.4 hours

 

A picture of what L looks like, will be on this post somewhere (^^;)