Cas and Sam's adventures

[Stanheights]

So yesterday before me and my best friend and Sam went to bed I went into dreamscape as usual, but this time I 'spawned' a mirror and changed my appearance so I looked.. a certain way, I guess. I don't really feel like explaining it, but yeah.

 

After doing that I went down to my room and Sam got there. We hugged and went to bed, and before I fell asleep I used these ~video powers~ to make blue and purple pixel-ish butterflies that flew around the room. It was really nice to look at.

 

I did the same thing in the morning when I was going to try and sleep some more, and I also believe I dreamt about Sam a little? Not sure. But I did the butterfly thing again, but I didn't get to fall asleep again.

 

We haven't talked too much, but I've had him around and I've talked about him with friends. I've felt him around me and stuff. We'll work more on this when school starts.

[Stanheights]

So, it's been a while. Again.

 

We're both still here, though.

 

There hasn't been a whole lot of talking lately, but that's okay. We have met in dreamscape, though, so that's a good thing, even though it's mostly been before going to sleep. We felt like meditating yesterday but Cas was too tired to do that. But that's okay.

 

We'll get better at this this year.

 

(Sam helped me write this a bit as you might've noticed.)

[Stanheights]

Soo, yesterday I got upset with my best friend which wasn't a very great time.

 

I sat in the kitchen at one point and I could feel Sam was a bit mad, too.

 

Tomorrow school starts again. It feels both weird and kinda nervous, but I don't think Sam is too worried about it.

 

I thought about having more than one tulpa today, not sure why. It just seems like a nice thought but it's definitely not something I wanna do at the moment, mainly because I haven't even gotten the hang of everything with Sam yet. But maybe in the future. Maybe.

[Stanheights]

There won't be much updates today, probably just this one.

 

I don't feel very well right now, I have this burning sensation in my throat which is annoying and I'm really tired so I'm about to go to bed.

 

Me and Sam talked quite a lot today in school, though, when I was there. I felt his presence pretty well I think, so that's a good thing.

 

I'm hoping we'll make some more progress tomorrow because today isn't really our day.

[Stanheights]

I guess there is a pretty good update to write down today.

 

Before when I was going to sleep I went into dreamscape. Sam was sitting on the couch in the house watching tv and for some reason it looked like.. memories on the screen? I didn't pay much attention to what it was, but I hugged Sam a bit and then I noticed he was bald. So I gave him a red beanie and then his hair was back.

 

Then I lied down in the bed and tried to sleep. I thought about a lot of things and I might've fallen asleep a bit, I don't know. But then at one point a cat came up to me in the bed. It had white, long fur with orange and black or grey spots and it seemed very.. real, I guess. Alive. I asked Sam if he 'made' it and he said yes, and when I asked him what its name was I couldn't hear him at first, but then he said Chico. So Chico the cat cuddled with me a bit and then he ran straight into the wall and disappeared, only to fall down on the bed again. I guess he can teleport or something.

 

So.. that was a new thing. Sam's never done that before.

 

I didn't get much sleep but I guess that's only a good thing because that means I haven't screwed up my sleeping schedule. And that means I will be able to do more things with Sam during the day.

[Stanheights]

So.. today was a weird day.

 

I didn't feel quite like myself and I felt unreal at some points. I couldn't concentrate and Sam had to help me get anything at all done during one of the first classes.

 

That feeling went away later on, though, and then me and Sam just talked like normal. He even spoke more today, I think. At least longer sentences. That's good.

[Stanheights]

I didn't write anything yesterday because I forgot and I got really anxious. Seriously, I think it affected Sam a lot, too. That's how bad it was.

 

Today I tried to have Sam co-op with me as in control my moments and stuff. And see through my eyes a bit. Buuut, he didn't want to. He just said he wanted to go back and then he did. So that's that.

 

I don't remember much from yesterday, but I do remember going into dreamscape and cuddling with both Sam and Chico. I'm not sure if Chico is, like.. a sentient being or not, but either way he's really cute and nice to be around. Such a cute little kitty.

 

I also had Sam do this Harry Potter house test and he got Hufflepuff, almost Ravenclaw. Interesting. I guess we're more similar than I thought. Also, the test itself was pretty hard because I still kind of suck at seeing what Sam answers? but I think tests or quizzes like that can be good training.

 

I've noticed some minor changes in Sam's appearance I think? His nose seems a bit different and sometimes when I've seen him these last couple of days he's been almost completely without hair. I guess maybe he likes that look. However, he has looked 'normal' sometimes, too.

 

I don't really feel like doing something bigger with Sam today, mainly because Thursdays in general are bad for us. But I'll probably try to meditate this weekend. Maybe. At least I'll try to talk to Sam as much as possible.

[Stanheights]

Not much of an update today. Mainly because we really didn't talk much?

 

I didn't feel a presence either which is weird. I'll have to ask Sam about this later.

[Stanheights]

Yeah... we haven't talked basically at all this weekend.

 

I was gonna ask Sam why he hasn't spoken much yesterday when I went to bed, but I fell asleep instead.

 

I'm gonna try harder to reach out to him today.

[Stanheights]

Yesterday was a bit better, I think.

 

I fell asleep pretty early and before sleeping I was with Sam in my 'head', just this black space basically, and then he hugged me and all of a sudden we were in the bed in dreamscape. And a while after that I fell asleep.

 

Today's been pretty bad for me. I got really upset about some things and just went home when it was time for lunch during school. Before that I sat in a room alone being sad, though, and Sam kinda comforted me. He told me it was gonna be okay and things like that.

 

But yeah, I went home and took a nap. I think Sam tried to remind me that it's okay to go home from school when I'm not feeling too good, and I really appreciate that because I'm the type of person who gets anxious when I'm not at school.

 

We haven't talked as much as I'd like today, but we still have some time left until I'm going to bed so we still have time to talk.