Raetin's Tulpa Progress

[Raetin]

Day 13

 

Just did a 30 minute session with visualization, and it will probably be like that for a week because of visiting relatives. I just got the perfect face for the form, just got to reinforce it because the eyes kept changing sizes. Things kinda got lewd for a bit, but I snapped out of that, kind of. Things in the wonderland have become much more stable, it's set in my mind pretty good now, so I don't have to worry about that. I've been doing the forcing in her one room house and it's been good. Still struggling on keeping the face consistent, but I'm getting there. I'm still puppeting a bit, but not as much as before, so some of the things she does, I believe, is her.

 

9 hours and 30 minutes of forcing.

[Raetin]

Day 14-15

 

I did a 20 minute visualization before I went to sleep and 10 minute one when I woke up. I know there short, but it's hard to put in time when you have people around most of the time. Not much to report right now.

 

10 hours total!

[Raetin]

Day 15

 

Seems the only time I can get forcing right now is before bed, so I'm starting to do that. I just had a 30 minute visualization with Reah in the wonderland. When I went into the house and saw her in the room, she had changed her clothes, so I guess another sign of sentience there. She had shorts and a t-shirt, I didn't really notice the colors though. I think I'm starting to get the form down really well, I will probably do form for another 2-3 hours then work on touch and hopefully my visualization skills get better by then.

 

10.5 hours of forcing.

[Raetin]

Day 16

 

Not too much progress, I'm having trouble with forcing time today since I sleep on the couch for now because relatives are sleeping on my bed and my mom had to watch this chick flick. I had to do my forcing time in the kitchen. Got 30 minutes of visualization, but felt it wasn't very productive since the baby was crying in the living room and I couldn't focus very well.

 

I decided to try and give Reah a second form she can transform into, so I work on that for like 2 minutes, which is not much, but I'll work more on it later. That form is a wolf, since Holo can transform into one. I just visualize her changing very quickly into the wolf form. When she turns back, she's naked, but I force some clothes back onto her.

 

Total forcing time: 11 hours.

[Raetin]

Day 17

 

Unfortunately, I didn't get any tulpaforcing time in, as I was constantly surrounded by people. Something interesting happened a little later after I woke up. I remembered about this guy who said he got a kind of orgasm in his head from his tulpa, and I asked if she can do it, and bam I got it. It actually wasn't that orgasm feeling, but I felt a really good feeling in my head. I also got some good narration in during the day, after I got pissed at my uncle. I told her how I felt about everything and got some philosophical thoughts as well. I actually learned to love myself a little more, so that's good.

 

No added time.

[Raetin]

Day 18

 

Got 20 minutes in forcing, not much to say other than that. I'm still doing active narration and Reah's presence in my head is growing stronger.

 

11 hours 20 minutes Forcing time.

[Raetin]

Day 19-20

 

Got 20 minutes of forcing yesterday and 20 minutes today. I fully believe now, without a doubt that she is sentient. I really feel like she's listening when I talk to her. Anyway, with forcing today, my focus was really bad and intrusive thoughts kept coming about and spending some seconds in them before going back into visualizing Reah. The nose, neck, and full form all at once are the stuff I need to work on when it comes to form, and it's really hard to get those down.

 

12 hours Forcing Time.

[Raetin]

Day 21-22

 

No forcing on day 21, but yesterday (day 22) I did a 30 minute visualization session. I promised her that I would do an hour one to make up for the lost time this week. Other than that, nothing new but increasing sentience.

 

12.5 Total Forcing Time.

[Raetin]

Day 23

 

Relatives just left and I finally got my bed back and did a forcing session there. Next thing I know, I wake up and then fall asleep again for 3 more hours, then wake up again and realize that I fell asleep during a forcing session. I panicked for a moment and then started apologizing repeatedly, then checked the wonderland and she came up to me and she seemed pretty fine. I didn't check the wonderland, but I'll do so later.

 

I'm gonna stop counting total time, it's getting pretty tricky.

[Raetin]

Day 28

 

I'm not going to be updating as much, since things are going pretty slow, though I'm still making progress. I gave Reah vocal chords two days ago, but I still can't hear her though, but when I wake up, I start talking in my head, and another voice responds back. Could this be Reah?

 

I did a like 30 minutes of forcing this morning, and her form is becoming pretty stable, but the eyes keep changing, so I'm still gonna work on that. We hanged out on the beach and we went into the water for the first time, which was really nice. We tried cuddling on a couch I poofed up, but things became awkward so we just sat on the couch together. Seriously, how do you cuddle, I feel like it's like making out. Afterward I hugged her and left.

 

I'm around 14+ hours now.