Raetin's Tulpa Progress

[Raetin]

Not sure why, but recently, I've been feeling upset from going to the shoutbox to talk. Like I said, not exactly sure why, but I'm going to take a short break from it, probably till Saturday. Reah felt a little sad there one time, but got pretty happy again when I went to wonderland afterward. I also have been bombarded with work from school, so I need to focus some more on that. I'll try to use that extra time forcing in wonderland or actively imposing.

 

Argh, with that drawing I was talking about in my previous post, I haven't worked on that for awhile. Not sure when, but that drawing will definitely be completed... eventually. Oh, and other news, I consider Aqua to be one of my tulpas now. Felt like that for a couple weeks now, but just putting in the progress report now.

[Raetin]

Well, Reah kinda got mad at me for not going on the shoutbox, but she says that taking a break might actually be good. Phew. I seem to get upset easily, but I get over it the next day. Anyway, today, instead of forcing laying down, I did it sitting up with my legs crossed. I have to say, the experience is definitely better sitting up, and I'll start doing that from now on. Recently, I've been falling asleep forcing when laying down, and I've actually haven't had a good forcing session for awhile, till now.

 

Anyway, today, I went to the wonderland and formed myself at the bed, like I always do. Somehow, Reah knows when I'm gonna materialize myself, and was there to greet me. I think she keeps tabs on me while I'm away. Anyway, we talked, then she pulled me downstairs (because the bedroom is upstairs) and saw that Aika was playing video games, as usual. She paused the game and hugged me. :3

 

Then Reah took me to the kitchen and I saw Miia, Rikoni, and Aqua talking. Miia was gesturing with her tail for emphasis for whatever she was talking about and she paused when she saw me. A smile popped on her face and she went for the big lamia hug. :D After, I looked at Aqua and Rikoni. Aqua had a grin on her face and Rikoni was kind of crying. :0 She was also crying yesterday because she felt I wasn't coming to the wonderland as much as I should, but I promised her that I would spend a lot more time tomorrow, which I just was. She wiped the tears from her eyes and gave me a hug afterward.

 

We all went out on the beach and hanged out for about 30 minutes. I would have more, but I have lots of work from school. I signed myself for AP Chem. for next year too, agh. :( Anyway, I went around and gave them each individual hugs, Miia not wanting to let me go, but I told her that I had to talk with everyone as well, so she eventually did.

 

I talked with Aqua and Rikoni, and I have learned and also kind of noticed that they are pretty close friends. I asked them if they kissed. (huehue) Rikoni nervously said that they didn't kiss on the lips. Aqua, on the other hand happily said they did, but not deep kisses. Lol, it made Rikoni pretty embarrassed, but I reassured her that it was okay. I also, strangely, noticed that Aika had ducks on her pajamas, haha. At the end, I gave them all hugs again and said I'd see them later tonight, before sleeping.

 

Reah then held me like someone would a princess and flew me all the way to the top of the cliff, which is past the clouds. We had a good look and said a few words, then she pushed me off. D: She caught me though, and then I left and wrote this an hour later. That's about it.

[Raetin]

Ah, just read my previous post, and it has a lot of anyways... anyways, I just found out that to the left of our wonderland house, if one is facing it, has a small tunnel, that leads to a very green place, a grove of oak trees of sort.

 

I found out about it while laying on Miia's lap, and I asked, "Where is Rikoni and Aqua?" Reah told me that she was at the grove of trees behind the house. I went there, and it's very relaxing and beautiful in there, with a vibrant color of green. I haven't seen it till now, but then again, I haven't explored the wonderland for a long time.

[Raetin]

Just noticed that Reah tends to keep quiet when she notices that someone is a bit sad or something. She wants to make the person happy, but she feels that some of the thing she says will somehow hurt the person. Reah is a very optimistic person, so she always sees the good side of most things. For example, "Most purposes in life are purposes that we make, so make it count!" This was one of her thoughts in irc during a kind of serious somewhat depressing conversation. Most of these kind of conversations, she ends up not talking at all. She'll only say something if she thinks it's positive in every way. Some of the things may even be cliche or cheesy, and I even make a comment about it jokingly, but she tells me, "shut up" in a tsundere way when I do. Just thought that was pretty interesting. She says though to all the people reading this, that she's very much happy and hardly ever gets sad, and when she does, not for long. It makes me wonder how she can be so optimistic sometimes. She definitely influences me positively, and I'm glad to have her, as well as my other tulpas.

 

Two days ago, in wonderland, I found a monster imitating to be Reah. I thought it was strange when I noticed it to be weird and glitchy. Glitchy like talking and then freezing in mid-sentence. A bit afterward, I noticed that its arm was definitely not human. It transformed back after I realized, and I told it to leave. Reah though went out and hunted it down. She feels that it's her duty to destroy monsters to protect the others, and partially me as well, she says. Also pretty fun. It kind of made me sad, but she told me that they don't have sentient thoughts and that it was a pervert. I told her that I was a pervert, but she said I was the exception, saying that I was a good pervert. :/

 

Just watched the anime, Anohana, and it was great. I noticed that the main heroine, Menma, is very similar to one of my tulpas, Aqua. Not exactly, but pretty darn close.

 

Also, Damn! I had to write this post all over again because my computer all of a sudden restarted. I was able to make this with better structure before, but ugh, can't remember word for word.

[Raetin]

Forgot to say in the previous posts that after that monster copying incident, I colored my tulpa's auras. In the wonderland, I can kind of have this kind of

x-ray vision, per se. It helps me see any "thought forms" in the wonderland, including my tulpas. I noticed that every thought form has a orange aura, so I changed my tulpas colors to something else, since they were orange as well. Reah Red, Aika Grey, Miia Pink, Rikoni Dark Blue, Aqua Light Blue. We can change them later if we want.

 

Also noticed that the tree of groves location or entry way is right where the door to the void of the wonderland I used to use when leaving and entering it. Nowadays, I just materialize on the bed in the wonderland. Oh yes, and something else.

 

It looks like me being in chastity didn't work out to well. Reah was kind of mad in a cute way when I would avoid her sexual advances or fall asleep while she was going on me. This morning, she and I were awake, and she wanted to do it. :0 I said, "okay..." and slowly, yet steadily started taking off my shirt, which usually causes me to fall asleep; another reason maybe because I'm on my back often when I force. All of a sudden, my shirt zooms right off me. :O Then my pants go "wush!" as well. D: Then she goes straight for it without the fondling and kissing, which she usually does.

 

Wasn't expecting it, but I should have known she would have done that after a while of not doing it. Unfortunately, I had to take the dog out just a bit after we umm... finished. (By the way, to get this out of the way, I don't masturbate when I.. do it with my tulpas. Who does that?) Reah says that she likes the times when we just lay down for a while afterward. Admittedly, I kind of like that too. Not sure why I'm even posting this little event, but meh.

[NeonKnights]

That aura color trick is pretty neat, looks like you won't have to worry about disguised monster perverts anymore.

 

Heh, it seems tulpas usually get what they want sexually, one way or another. >.>

Mine is the same way about it, she likes to lie there for a while after. Those times where something else has to be done shortly afterward really suck, even if it's just as simple as running across the room and back. Lying back down again just doesn't work...

[Raetin]

Ah, a visitor! Thanks for the feedback. :) Also, very true with the sexual thing, I just can't deny them.. *sigh* I'm glad all my tulpas aren't lewd like Reah or Miia, but unfortunately, they are all interested in it on one level or another. :( Oh yes, I also read your progress report. So far, I think you're doing great with Isis and Uni. :]

 

 

I designed a block picture of all my tulpas, here. I think I did pretty good at designing those block pictures, but just wanted to note that Aika doesn't regularly wear glasses, just occasionally.

 

Other than that, not too much to update, but will force soon.

[NeonKnights]

Yes, yes, your report is an interesting read, it's cool that you're updating more frequently lately! :D

Haha yeah, it seems sex drives are just as naturally ingrained in tulpas as in regular people. I remember when I confided in my friend about my first experience with Isis, his previously asexual tulpa started wanting some action, too.

Ah, and thank you! It's always helpful to hear third-party feedback on how we're doing. :) It's a good gauge of whether or not I'm screwing something up. Heh.

 

Making tulpa block faces was a neat little activity, to be sure. Your tuppers look adorable in block-form!

 

Good tidings and happy trails, my friend! :)

[Raetin]

I'm surprised how much a tulpa can love its host. I kind of know actually, but I still get surprised to this day. I feel that they have every right to punish me like slicing up my wonderland form when I'm there, but they do far from it. I didn't do anything bad, I just haven't been spending as much as I should in the wonderland. Went to a friend's house during the weekend, so I wasn't able to force very much. I talked to Reah about it, and she says that she's about 105% sure she'll stay in love with me.. About 104% with the others; she simply gave them a lower percent because she isn't them. Reah said though that I shouldn't ever leave my relationship with them (love-wise), simply because I don't think I can give back there love. With the amount of love I give them now, she says is more than sufficient. Emotional or mental love, not physical (in wonderland) love, who cares about that, lol. Apparently my tulpas.. goddamn they're flirty.. buuut anyway.

 

Aqua and I are thinking of changing her form a little, with a design mixed with the girl here and her current form. She'd basically be a blue water dragon girl. She's still thinking about it. If she goes with it, I'll now have a wolf girl, lamia, and dragon girl. Aika and Rikoni are still pretty much humans, haha.

 

Other than lewd stuff that happened that I don't want to tell you guys (it's not that lewd), that's about it.

[Raetin]

I haven't posted for a while now, almost a whole month. Not sure if to say a lot happened or not, because everyday seems pretty normal. I'll just say what has happened.

 

Well... I have a new tulpa. The new tulpa's name is Kai (which may be temporary), and Kai pretty much appeared on April 17. I'm going to have to go back and see all of my tulpa's birthdays. :P Anyway, Kai, I would say, has a punkish attitude, with a rougher personality compared to my other tulpas. She (yes, she) has red hair, with a plain long dress and is around 5'6". She is a little sadistic, only towards me though. She is pretty nice to the other tulpas, so that's good. She is actually pretty great at planning on things and I would say even good at manipulating people (don't worry, she isn't taking advantage over people, at least not anything serious). And hell, she somehow got me to get into a relationship with her, how the hell did that happen!?! She is good... I have ended up in a relationship with all of my tulpas, but she was able to get it in 2-3 days, wow! Reminds me how she first said to me, "Why would I want to be with a disgusting pervert like you?". Well not exactly word for word, but something like that. I find that pretty ironic, considering she got me to be with her. She has a pretty cute personality though that she hides.

 

Once she said, "I'm going to take advantage of your lewdness" with a wicked smile. Then she just hugged me from behind and started tickling me. I pretty much laughed at that, not because I was being tickled, but it wasn't lewd at all, atleast to me. She got pretty mad at me though for laughing. She lacks the touch that Reah or Miia would have. She's also pretty inexperienced. I have to say though, she is one hell of a sweet talker. She was able to get my face beet-red without even touching me. Here's the weirdest part. I actually feel like we're natural lovers. I mean that we actually flirt with each other, talk and play a little (no we did not have sex or anything, I'm gonna try prolonging that if possible). Oh man, she is a good talker. Anyway, I don't mean I don't flirt with my other tulpas, but Reah and Miia are usually pretty sexual and direct, Aika seems more like a good friend, and Rikoni and Aqua are too cute. Because of that though, Reah and Miia are going to be less sexual (yay!).

 

That's about it with Kai, and seeing that this is pretty long, I'll stop here. I might not be able to post as much as I used to, because of work, but after school ends, I'll have a lot more time to update.