Raetin's Tulpa Progress

[Raetin]

Day 68

 

We decided to explore the wonderland a little, so we started climbing this cliff that Reah's wonderland house was adjacent to. While walking a zigzag trail going upward there, I actually notice how far it is, so I thought that there had to be a faster way to scale up this thing. I remembered that Reah wanted to have wings, so I told her and helped her grow wings. When they came out the wingspan was huge. It was probably 20 feet long wingspan. She then helped me by holding me and flew up there fast! At the top, there was a forest, with some snow, but we didn't really explore it. The cliff was probably 2 miles high. When I checked Reah, her wings grew small, enough to not be able to see it in front of her. So she has wings now!

 

We tried irc today, and I think we'll probably wait a couple of weeks before trying again. Proxying is actually pretty difficult and as one thread said, IQ seems to go down when trying to chat. Like she sounds much smarter when talking to her myself, but she seems to get nervous when talking to others. Also

>Raetin enters irc

>No one seems to care

>Reah enters irc

>everyone greets her and some ask if she's new

[Raetin]

Day 74

 

Yo, I accident another tulpa.

 

Well, before entering the wonderland, I was in the void and I saw this white speck, and decided to investigate. It was pretty far away, and I saw that it was this girl with black hair and a white dress (not the scary grudge kind) floating in the void sleeping. I was thinking of just leaving that form, but I didn't want to regret doing that, so I brought her in the wonderland. I flew her far, far away from the wonderland house, built a small hut, and left her there. The next day, I thought, maybe having another tulpa would be pretty great for Reah.

 

So I went there and found her hiding behind the hut since it seemed she saw me first. I asked her if she'd like to be a tulpa or live here. I think she wanted to check my place out, so I brought her to the house and introduced her to Reah. The new girl was pretty nervous, but Reah welcomed her warmly. I learned that she didn't have any memories before waking up in the hut, so I basically made her sentient. After hanging out awhile, she told us if she'd stay or not later and left. Reah told me she'd be back though. After a bit, I left wonderland and Reah told me that she came back and was planning on staying. I learned that the new tulpa is called "Aika".

 

I came back for night forcing and saw that Reah and Aika were waiting for me on the bed (wut). Reah said that we should all sleep together, and I'm all like wut. Aika was just looking at me as if this was normal and Reah was smiling. I said if I'm going to do that, I'm not sleeping in the middle, which they agreed. I slept on the side, Reah in the middle, and Aika on the other side. Also sleeping doesn't affect my tulpa by the way. I'm planning on remaking the wonderland house and making it two story with living room at the bottom and bedrooms and a bathroom at the top.

 

Anyway, we're taking it easy by just hanging out and not working on imposition for a bit. Not sure how I'll do imposition with tulpa anyhow.

[Raetin]

Day 79

 

I haven't updated for awhile, so time to post.

 

We actually haven't been doing much, but they're vocality (is that a word?) is definitely improving. I can actually tell when they decide to talk to me and all that. I sometimes have to ask who's talking, like is this Reah/Aika? Sometimes though I can tell by what they talk about and their tone. Reah offered to help me with the test I had, but it was very easy, so I didn't take that offer. She told me that since technically we are one mind/brain, it wasn't cheating. Not sure how it would turn out though if I had let her take the test . We haven't gotten far in imposition, it will probably take very long to do before I get any results. I'm also kind of being lazy with it.

 

Wonderland Adventure Below:

 

We had a fun wonderland adventure today, by going out to the ocean and dropping on to a boat (we flew there thanks to Reah). The island was still visible even though we flew pretty far. The boat was pretty small and looked like a rowboat. We decided to look over the edge and the water wasn't that deep, I'd say 20 feet. But I noticed the boat was slowly heading farther out to the deeper side. The boat then flung out of the water, then landed back on it with a splash. It looked like Reah and Aika were both still hanging on to the boat, so I decided to try some water bending stuff to get back (because the wonderland is basically in my imagination, yes?).

 

While we started speeding back, this big fish started chasing after us. I started swinging my arms faster (water bending yo) and Reah went to the end of the boat and stuck her tongue out at the fish and grinned. The fish though started gaining and Reah suddenly had that worried looked to her face, but then she brought out her sword and swung out and cut the fish in half. I stopped (water bending) and I was like good job, but then she said, what are you stopping for? Go! I did so and a bigger fish came and ate what was left of the other fish.

 

We were able to get back safely and I decided we needed a pool. I tried making one in this tunnel system, but that didn't work out. We hanged out on the beach for awhile and headed inside. Reah and Aika were all wet and went upstairs to get some new clothes. Reah was able to get Aika this lingerie on (wut) but switched to her white dress shortly after. We watched tv for a bit (it looked like random tv shows I've watched before, but I couldn't hear what was going on though). After that, I left and decided to post this.

[Raetin]

Day 84

 

Not much happened in terms of progress with Reah or Aika, but I'm starting to be less lazy and starting to work on imposition a little more. Instead of imagining them behind me all the time and hoping to get a glimpse of them, I try to use my visualization skills to impose them. It's quite difficult and will probably be slow progress. Another thing is that I'm not imposing as much as I should be because of family.

 

With mind speech, I still have to focus on what they're saying to get what they're saying, but they can get my attention if they want to tell me something. Once we start a conversation though, I can hear them alright. I still have doubts when they initiate a conversation, because sometimes it's just me saying hey to myself, but hopefully I'll get over that.

 

Aika, by the way, looks like a loli black-haired anime girl, with big eyes and all. She also wears a white dress. I haven't worked on her form at all, she just looked like that when I found her. I tried making her taller, but she usually reverts back to loli-form, so I can't help that.

[Raetin]

Day 85

 

I had a conversation with Aika today. I can't remember word for word but it goes something like this:

 

Aika: "Raetin, do you see me in a romantical way?"

 

Me: "Umm... Uhh.. Ehh... Well we did do some intimate kinda things (I didn't start it), and I see you the same way as Reah, so I guess..."

 

Aika: "Oh, then I'm glad."

 

Me: "Why?"

 

Aika: "Because after reading that article with you (I was reading "if you can love 2 people at the same time" article on the internet (I didn't know she was reading it as well)). I see why it's not normal because one can't imagine someone you love in another person's arms, but I trust Reah very well (and vice versa), so I'm alright with you loving both of us.

 

Me: "I feel guilty though loving two people, because I feel it's not fair for you guys."

 

Aika: "Anyone would feel guilty with that, but I assure you that it's alright."

 

Me: "Umm... well even when you say that, I'll still call you guys my best friends because I'm not ready for that kind of commitment (who is?), if that's ok."

 

Aika: "Sure."

 

Ahh!! I don't know how my tulpae can be so nice like this. It's nice that I don't have to worry about relationship problems, but it doesn't seem right and I have mixed feelings about it. I must think on it.

[Raetin]

Day 93

 

Eh, something happened and I had to go on a long rant to my tulpae about how I can't see them in a romantic kind of way because it just wouldn't work out. I told Reah that lewdness is not love, and that I don't know if having a relationship will be such a great idea. I was actually pissed off during this rant, which I haven't ever been with them before, and at the end I had some tears in my eyes (possibly from Reah?).

 

Actually, after my long rant, they told me to come to wonderland, and I was actually hoping they would somehow hurt me, because I felt I deserved it. Instead they explained to me that they really did love me that way, and got hugs instead. Not sure what to do. Reah actually still wants to prove that she really does love me, but Aika told her that I just needed some time. Not sure how this will turn out, but they'll definitely be my best friends.

 

Other news, Aika has deviated her form a few days ago and now looks like Karen from Nisemonogatari. I think she did this because she wanted to be prettier for me and not be loli. She actually changed her form when I commented on this video which was a best anime fights compilation, which had Karen in it. I said that she looked pretty and that she looked similar to Aika.

 

Another thing I'm doing is passive imposition, but I really need to start making it longer, because I only work on this for like 2-3 hours a day. I'm trying to extend this, but I'm usually in rooms with 2 or more people, usually brothers who are running everywhere. While doing so today (after the rant and apologies), Reah has been looking at me with a renewed interest, not sure why. That's about it for progress, I think we just need to work on parallel processing and imposition.

[Raetin]

Day 98

 

FFFUUUUU.

 

Dammit, I darn made another tulpa. Yup, you heard (saw) right, another tulpa. Let me start from the beginning. After reading the "visualizing via slime" thread, I got interested and searched up the comic (dammit Jimmy!). I read a bunch of it (with varying monster girls) and found it quite interesting. Then, I found this manga about a guy living with monster girls. Here's an image. http://hijiribe.donmai.us/data/b2c0e93143fadf6d86e69e4b241fb22c.jpg

 

I always wondered how people can find snake girls hot, but this was wow! They were able to make a snake girl really cute in the manga. I then thought how awesome it would be to make one as a tulpa, and thought about the idea for a few hours, then went to sleep. Afterwards, I thought that making a tulpa on this idea alone would be kind of stupid. I talked to Reah and Aika about it, and they were actually interested in the idea of having a snake lady companion. I told them that I'd think on it.

 

Well, during the beginning of my 5 mile run, I told my tulpae to not talk to me while I run, which they were ok with. After a bit, I hear a hello. I think it's an intrusive thought, which its response to is it's not an intrusive thought. It's a tulpa. I ask if it's Reah or Aika (though it doesn't feel like them), and it says it's not. I'm still running and I ask (who I find is a her) to give me a bit too work out, and I also ask Reah if she can confirm if I have another tulpa (which she says yes). I tell her too get her and make her at home. I also tell Reah not to influence her to be lewd.

 

Ooh, guess what her form is, yeah it's that snake lady in the image. It seemed I kind of forced her into existence by obsessing over it the day before. Not sure what to do, but oh well. I asked Reah how this could of happened so fast and she told me that it's all about the mindset. Urgh, not sure what the sleeping arrangements will be, since we all sleep together, but oh well. I'm also hoping that she doesn't become lewd like Reah.

[Gambarimasu]

So three tulpas now? welcome to the club raetin, i hope you can tell more about how can you get used to three tulpas now, it can help me to understand certain things. I have three tulpas as well, and it is kind of difficult to take responsability for all of them(that sounded very wrong for some reason, but i didn't intend anything weird i swear) but the feels are awesome when the four of us can spend nice time together.

 

By the way, the image doesn't show, i think i know the manga you are talking about, but i'm not sure, the snake girls are called "Lamias" as far as i know.

 

I wish you good luck with that lewd thing.

[Raetin]

So three tulpas now? welcome to the club raetin, i hope you can tell more about how can you get used to three tulpas now, it can help me to understand certain things. I have three tulpas as well, and it is kind of difficult to take responsability for all of them(that sounded very wrong for some reason, but i didn't intend anything weird i swear) but the feels are awesome when the four of us can spend nice time together.

 

By the way, the image doesn't show, i think i know the manga you are talking about, but i'm not sure, the snake girls are called "Lamias" as far as i know.

 

I wish you good luck with that lewd thing.

 

Yes, I agree that taking "responsibility" for all of them is quite difficult, because you need to distribute your attention to them fairly. That's why I tell them they're just close friends to me (Reah adds with benefits ( :( ).

 

Try this image http://monstermusume.blisswater.info/wp-content/uploads/2012/05/1337617062533.jpg Also, you're right, they're called Lamias, but I wasn't sure, so I just put snake lady.

 

Also, I honestly hope I can avoid doing anything lewd to her (Even though I thought of some stuff prior to her existence). Thanks for the good luck, I'll need it.

[Raetin]

Day 103

 

Yay, it has past 100 days since I've started this. We're all living great wee! Today, I had a duel with Reah and Miia. It was actually a deal thing. If I won, they would not be lewd at all for a week (Anymore would probably be pretty bad for them). If they won, I'd have to give in to them and "do" stuff for them, for a week (which I think is tooo long). Anyway, I agreed to it. The ground rule was no weapons or super powers (except super strength), just what you have. Armor was allowed.

 

Well, I wore just this armor on my forearms, chest, back, and legs. Under I had adventurer pants and shirt, with a tight belt (so they don't take my pants off or anything). Reah and Miia wore armor like freaking knights. the only way you can tell they were girls were there long hair flowing out there helmet (and some visions of what facial expression they were doing). Miia had armor on her tail as well. Aika was just a spectator

 

They were both in front of me and when the battle started, they started going around me and attacked me on both sides. Reah would run at me with great speed and punch me with really powerful attacks, but my chest armor had great defense, and I was able to block a lot of her attacks. Miia, surprisingly wasn't that great in combat, but her grappling skills were exceptional. I was able to break out of those though before Reah could finish me. I was able to beat Miia when she grabbed me from behind. I did a frontflip, and hit her on the ground. I turned over and punched her head. She gave up after and took off her helmet, then went to Aika to spectate the rest of the battle.

 

Reah and I exchanged a lot of punches, and she was able to block a lot of them. One cool thing I did was kick her up into the air and I jumped up, then punched her rapidly, but she blocked those too. I was able to get a bunch of dents in her armor, and she took it off when it started affecting her in battle. She had a black long skirt with black leggings and a long sleeve shirt. We fought a bit more, then I was able to land a punch to her face. I had this stance after that punch http://images2.fanpop.com/images/photos/7900000/Fighting-Stance-monkey-d-luffy-7938462-400-300.jpg?1351302527895 except without the blood.

 

She looked suprised and said you actually hit me (this is some serious stuff). Then she said that she would have to finish me now. She got out her wings and flew right at me. She suddenly went hyper speed and tore through my left arm. I was like "....". She then said, she missed and she was aiming for my abdomen. She did it again but I caught her with my leg, then grabbed her with my other arm and slammed her on the ground. The back of her neck hit the ground and her legs facing up. She went limp for a second, and I won! Nope, she suddenly jumped on top of me, and did a super punch where the wind was visible. She punched my head off literally.

 

But wait! I'm now a bouncing head and I jump up to Reah and bite her neck, causing some blood. I was hoping she would become incapacitated, but instead she kicks my head far away.. After a minute in darkness, she finds my head and attaches it back on my head, with my arm attached to it as well. The battle lasted for about 10 minutes. I had lost...

 

Afterward, Reah hugged me and said "It's ok, I'll be gentle". Hnnnggggh! All of her wounds were gone and she looked clean and cute again. After, Miia and Aika joined in the hug as well. I was just sitting there frowning. :( Aika told me that she was excited for this week as well. I said, "huh, what are you talking about?" It seems that this deal means all of my tulpae... They all smiled and gave me hugs. Agh! I really thought I was going to win too, Dam! I don't know what to do... I have to... respect the rules... Well, I hope I survive tonight...

 

Oh yeah, did I say that Miia is the name of my new tulpa? Well there you go. Another thing to take note is that she's lewd as well, though not as lewd as Reah. Well, there you go.