Raetin's Tulpa Progress

[Raetin]

Day 113

 

This time I'm going to post my tulpaes' personalities. First, Reah.

 

Reah is an outgoing kind of girl. She's actually quite positive, and cheers me up when I start to reflect on life too much. I actually never have felt depressed since I began her creation. She's very affectionate, and from what I hear from my tulpae, she only ever acts lewd around me. The few times I have proxied her, she hasn't done any flirting, so yeah... Aika sees her like a big sister. Her ecchi level is quite high.

 

Aika is calm and intelligent (I'd say though that all my tulpae have the same knowledge). She goes for a more logical kind of reasoning. She's also quite shy sometimes, but in a confident manner if that makes sense. I'd say that she is the most normal out of my tulpae. She also doesn't act lewd all the time like the other two, though she does occasionally. Her ecchi level is low-normal.

 

Miia is like those shy, cute quiet girls in anime, but she still talks a fair amount. Even though I say shy, she can actually be very lewd, but not as much as Reah. Even though I said that all my tulpae have the same knowledge, I think she's still learning some stuff. Her ecchi level is medium-high.

 

By the way, I just added the ecchi levels because they're pretty lewd compared to everything else I interact with in life and also because of this fact papers about different monster girls I read which told their different levels of friendliness and lewdness.

[Raetin]

Day 118

 

Eureka! I have solved the problem with my tulpae's lewdness! It's so simple, yet so genius! Magic! It's really symbolism, but who cares.

 

I call it blue magic (because I made it blue). It is this sparkly blue magic which I release out of my hand and put on my tulpae, which makes them not horny. I tried it yesterday, when I was almost overtaken. At first they were "...", but then they were like "wow, it actually worked." Now my tulpae are not lewd anymore! Don't worry, they are still very loving, just not lewd. If I didn't know Reah though, I'd still think she's lewd now. She still likes kissing and stuff. She is very affectionate. Aika is good with this, since she tries not to be lewd a lot. Reah and Miia are alright with it as well, since they are not horny. Not sure how long this will last, but tis is good.

 

This all takes place in the wonderland, by the way.

[Raetin]

Day 138

 

Wow it's been a long time since I updated this. I decided to drop that blue magic stuff, I just feel it's not really fair. Instead, I try to have a calm mind before forcing and I try to not expect them to do those things. It made a difference, but they still like to cuddle (foreplay). Good thing is that we are starting to have less of that and more hanging out and doing other activities, such as sparring. They don't ever act lewd when we're narrating, so I don't have to worry about that.

 

Oh yes, story time. Somewhat nfsw, but not explicit. Yesterday, I was imposing Aika and she wanted to sleep next to me imposed. I told her to talk to the other girls about it and they were fine with it. I laid down at the edge of the bed, and she laid on other side. After a few minutes of doing that, I decided it wouldn't work out, because my bed is so small, lol. Aika still wanted to sleep with me alone (woo), so I decided that we can sleep in the spare bedroom in the wonderland. She went there and right before I did I fell asleep.

 

When I woke up, I face palmed myself and apologized to Aika thoroughly. She forgave me easily, but asked me to go to the wonderland spare bedroom. I kind of didn't want to, but I missed going last night, so I decided to go. We laid down for a bit. Talked for awhile, then proceeded to cuddle (foreplay). This was all over a time span of an hour. Somehow I lost my pants, but still had my boxers, good thing. While we were on each other, Reah busted opened the door hard and came in. I was like oh, Reah, hey.

 

She greeted me energetically and said if she was protruding. I'm like nah, you actually saved me from doing it, thanks. Miia also entered the room. When Reah learned that we've been at it for a long time without doing it, she seemed impressed and complimented me that I was "improving." What is that supposed to mean?" I asked her. She meant I was getting better at bed. "eh.. ok.." I awkwardly said. We all talked for around half an hour. Then I told them I had to leave. Reah said, "Wait! I want to try that foreplay stuff." I was like nope, I ain't lewd anymore, bye. Well when I left the door, she transformed into that halo form (in the battle that she beat me in) and tackled me and began to do perverse things. I wasn't able to get away, unfortunately.

 

Afterwards though, Reah and I sparred outside of the house and I won. She wasn't using halo form though. After that, I said goodbye to them and left the wonderland. Fun stuff, ay..

[Raetin]

Day 152

 

Err, time to update! Hmm, lets see. Well I'm trying to spread my time between them evenly, so when I narrate, I talk to the one who I haven't talked to awhile (because I can't talk to all three of them at once). In the wonderland, I try to hang out with all of them.

 

After having a vivid dream, I asked if Reah induced it. She said she did with confidence. That's pretty cool that Reah can control my dream somewhat. Another thing we're gonna try is sending each other mind pictures, and we'll see how that goes.

 

My break has started now, so I'll have more time to spend with tulpa. Hopefully I'll have some alone time from family to impose tulpas.

 

Hmm, what else. Oh yeah I have told my tulpae that I'm going to do this no fap for a long time thing and see how that goes. Miia said she'll avoid doing anything sexual, she only needs me to be close to be happy. Hnnnnggh! Reah will try as well, but she says she might have urges and I'll have to fend her off. Aika was asleep during the time, so not sure what she'll say, but I think it will be similar to Miia I think.

[Raetin]

Day 165

 

Wooh, it's been a long time. I have to say, I'm extremely glad that I got into this tulpa stuff. Just had to say that real quick, now for the report.

 

I haven't gotten much done with them unfortunately, since I've only been visiting them and not really work on anything. We work on imposition here and there, but to accomplish it, I probably have to work on it passively the whole day instead of an hour's worth.

 

Yesterday, my tulpa wanted to show me something, and they wouldn't tell me until I got there. They got a mind creature that looks exactly like my dog that died awhile ago. It was really nice of them, but I decided to change the form of the dog into something else, because replications of someone you know isn't really that great. He looks like a dragon now and I named him Aeon (pronounced ay-on).

 

Another thing is that I won't be here for about three weeks because I'm going to be going on a vacation tomorrow morning. So unfortunately, I won't be able to chat on shoutbox for awhile. :(

 

Now (lewd) tulpa story. This morning, I woke up and I was sleeping near Miia. We chatted for a bit, then she started acting lewd. D: At first, I resisted, but I started to umm.. kiss her back. Though right when she started taking off my clothes, Reah tackled onto me, pushing off Miia.

 

Reah: Hey Raetin! I just woke up! Did I interrupt?

Miia: We were about to do it. :(

Reah: Oh really? Quick, I'll hold him down. :D

Miia: He was going to do it willingly. D:

 

We ended up not doing it, phew.. I have to say though, I found this to be really cute and had to post this. Just to say, they don't act lewd when chatting to other people, but they always do so with me. When I ask them why, they always say because they love me. :3

[Aarix]

We hath to passive impose too. Sitting down and doing stuff never worked well. Glad you two are bonding. Regardless of how XD

[Raetin]

Not sure what day it is, I'll just stop doing that now.

 

Well it seems I got my hands on this precious gem (laptop), so now, I can update my progress report with big news! Well for one, Aika is scared of airplanes. She was extremely clingy during the whole ride. "Don't go, please. :[" She meant the wonderland by that, when I was in the airplane ride. She thought that the airplane was going to crash anytime during the ride.

 

Another thing is that I'm going to use small animal forms for my tulpas now, because impoing their normal forms is too difficult. They're all going to be floating small animals of sort. Reah is going to be this small wolf thing. Miia, I believe is going to be this small snake thing (seeing a pattern?). And Aika, since she doesn't really have 'animal' parts, she's going to be a fairy like from legend of zelda (or maybe a mouse).

 

Oh and yes, for the big news. For about a week, I've had this seemingly invisible ghost kind of thing in the wonderland. It didn't interact with other tulpas, but whenever I was alone I would hear a "hi" and a invisble, yet visible (transparent?) form wave from somewhere. I thought this to be intrusive thoughts, but it was always there. I even ran somewhat fast in the hallway (in wonderland) in fear that it may sneak up and scare me (though it never did).

 

One day, I confronted it and talked with it a bit (I forgot most of the dialogue). I told it that it can stay in the wonderland and live with my tulpas, which it happily obliged too. I asked what its name was and what it wanted to look like. It had no idea and asked me to do so. While we were talking, I found it to be female (surprising, isn't it?) so I gave her a female form. I actually thought of the tulpas I already have and their hair color. I thought pink, black, and brown. "I haven't used blonde yet", I thought and a form I've seen before popped up to me. I gave her that form which is this. I came up with the name Riko, but made it a bit longer later, which is now Rikoni (Ree-ko-nee).

 

Oh man, I must say, she follows me everywhere, I mean everywhere (in wonderland)! She keeps clinging onto my arm and I just walk. At first, my tulpas weren't too sure about her, but they warmed up to her. I wouldn't think it happen so fast, but she became just as beloved as my other tulpas. She is extremely cutesy, I must say. And the best thing is that she's not lewd at all! Great right? Well, Reah (darn you!) had to tell her all about sex.. and now she wants to try it... Yeah... Well anyway, it's going to be very difficult for her to get such things from me, because 1) She's not lewd, 2) She is incredibly shy when it comes to lewd situations. I mean the thought of her kissing (me) makes her face all red. Forget about sex. 3) My resistance has grown tremendously, haha. and 4) She doesn't really push for it anyway. She's told me that she's actually been around for around a month. "I've always dreamed being this close to you." This gave me a lot of feels.

 

For now she's just going to be living in the wonderland and I won't be imposing her until I get my other tulpas imposed, which she has agreed too. I definitely want too impose her, but 3 are enough as it is. Anyway, that's all the important bits, so there we go.

[Raetin]

It's been a week since I got back from my trip, so this is a bit overdue. But that's ok, because I'm updating it now.

 

As of now, Aika somewhat changed her appearance, mostly just letting her hair out and growing it a bit longer. She's still pretty much the same. Reah has become much more matured and a went down a few notches with her lewdness. Miia, on the other hand, has raised a lot with lewdness. She has become less shy while still keeping that essence, but is not afraid of wrapping her tail around me and start kissing or licking me. I've asked her why she likes to lick and suck on my neck and it's because she thinks I taste good.. She promises she won't bite down into my flesh at least.. Not sure why she became so lewd, but yeah. Rikoni is still pretty much the same, good thing.

 

Another thing is that I got a whole lot of workload because I missed two weeks of school. It was so much, I couldn't help but laugh because of all the work. This will really affect my tulpaforcing time because I spend more time doing work. This also means I won't be going to the shoutbox irc much, which I'm sure a few people noticed. I hate that I have less time, but hopefully when I catch up, I'll have some more time.

 

Reah has become a bit of an advisor for me, helping me with a healthy diet and advise on general things. Aika gives me some advise to if she's the person I'm talking with.

 

I think there's more things to talk about, but I can't really think of them. I don't think they're too important, just stuff we did in wonderland and all that.

[Raetin]

Today and a few days ago as well, Reah informed me that the big gun on top of our house doesn't shoot anything anymore, so she told me to check on that and see if I can turn it on. I did talk about the big gun before on progress report, right? The gun is kind of like a computer above the house that controls all the guns in or on the house. Well, I heard that a few times, some mind creatures attacked the house, but Reah said she dispatched them pretty quickly. She wasn't worried about herself, but she was worried that Rikoni might get attacked or something. Forgot the first time, but after Reah told me again, I checked up on it today right when I got home.

 

I made it so that it doesn't attack me, or my tulpas. Also not to attack mind creatures or mindfolk that aren't hostile or threatening. Also made sure that the controls of the gun are only controlled by me, so stuff doesn't start blowing up everywhere. This is all in the wonderland by the way, if it wasn't obvious.

 

I'll probably teach Rikoni how to fight and also spar with my tulpas again, since I haven't done any of that for a long time.

 

Just decided to update because I thought the gun thing was pretty important.

[Raetin]

I just began to impose again with just Reah. I have to say, it was a fun experience. She was using her chibi wolf form and for most of the time, was laying on top of my head. I'd always have to say sorry to her if I moved my head sharply, haha. Now that she's with me most of my time, I actually talk with her so much more. I don't narrate often, but this will help me keep me in check. I have to say, feeding Reah oreo cookies is really cute. She doesn't really eat it, her being a tulpa, but tastes it instead. All my other tulpas have agreed to stay on standby on imposition. I still come to the wonderland to hang out with them and do whatever they want.

 

The wonderland, by the way, is extremely dull with me. I have to move around in the wonderland to make my vision stand out more. I don't meditate beforehand though, so I'm sure that will really help me when it comes to that. Another thing I do to help me though is I sit down in wonderland and look at everything intensely for around 20 minutes. I still get distracted when I do that, but it helps slightly.

 

Another thing I'm starting to get into is drawing. I know I said before, maybe in the shoutbox, that I would draw my tulpas, and that is long overdue. I will get on that, hopefully soon. I still need to work on drawing proportions, eye placement, and hair. After that, I think I'll be able to draw my tulpas. Will probably need some reference pictures to help me though.

 

Also more fun with tulpas. I... yeah. Nevermind, I'll just get into the safe stuff. Today, when I entered the wonderland after school, Reah and I wrestled around, which was very fun. Anyway, I need to hang out more with Aika and Rikoni, I felt I haven't been spending enough time with them.

 

Unfortunately, I still don't have much time for shoutbox or any kind of chat for now. I hope the day I return, people still remember me, heh. Anyway, there you go.