Raetin's Tulpa Progress

[Raetin]

Day 30

 

Wow, it's been around a month since I started making Reah. Anyway, I think my tulpa talked. We did another session and we tried talking methods to get her to be vocal. I tried the microphone and speaker, but that didn't really work. I tried the one method someone suggested on the forums where the tulpa holds your head and you focus on him/her. I started focusing on her and then she touched her head to my head and then I think I heard a "hello?". It sounded like my mind voice, though slightly feminine and faint. I started asking obvious questions and I'd go silent and wait for a yes or no. Not exactly alien as some people say, but I believe it's her talking.

Edit: Also forgot to mention that I felt constant head pressures while we were trying to communicate.

 

Form is almost done, just got to work on her face for like another hour, then I'll work on touch.

 

I think like 15+ hours now of Tulpa Forcing.

[Raetin]

Day 46

 

So my tulpa dissipated because I haven't interacted her since then... Just kidding, I wouldn't do that to Reah.

 

Right now, Reah is vocal now, we have small conversations here and there, though sometimes I feel like I'm parroting, but after some thinking, I think she sends me thoughts which I translate with my mind voice. That's fine, but I try not to do that since I want her to develop her own mindvoice. I still can't ask her complicated questions and have deep discussions yet. Mind you that she just started talking a few days ago, but only had like 4-5 short conversations about simple things.

 

In wonderland, I built a huge library for Reah which have all my memories and information stored there. It was only a small library at the start, but the next time I went in there, it was grand. I also just recently built her a art room with a desk for writing and drawing, white board, and a piano. I also added a shower... We haven't done anything lewd yet, but closest thing we did was hugging each other on the bed... Currently working on visualization and touch in wonderland.

 

Also thinking of giving her a smell, any suggestions?

 

I have been forcing around 30 minutes a day (so short) so I'm about 20+ hours in. Also Reah tells me to say hi. (now she told me that I suggested it)

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[Raetin]

Day 52

 

Not much happened, but I still have small conversations with Reah. Her form deviated a little. Her form is a mix between Holo from Spice and Wolf and Asuna from Sword Art Online. Also teaching her how to use a sword because of the anime, future wonderland adventures we may have, and all these overpowered tulpa coming around. She already seems skilled with the sword, only reason I won because I tackled her. :P Her mind voice is similar to mine, but more feminine. Sometimes I doubt it's her because it seems I'm parroting a little, but I decided to put that doubt away for the time being. That's about it.

[Raetin]

Day 54

 

Ughh... My head is pounding, and it's been like that for a few hours. Haven't had headaches like these before, these are just huge and painful. I asked Reah what happened, but she doesn't exactly know herself. Also the headaches started during/after I played a lewd video game... Not sure if that's it...

 

Also, I found out why it seems I puppet her sometimes, its because I finish her sentences while she's saying them if that makes sense. Like she sends me the thoughts and I somewhat say them. I'm doing my best not to that anymore while listening for her. Her voice is much more quieter, but we're working on that. Other than that, progress is happening slowly.

[Raetin]

Day 55

 

Woah, I'm starting to update a bit more. Anyway, Reah is starting to use complex sentences, but we still don't talk often, I'd say 5-8 times a day. She's also gone sometimes and doesn't respond, which I've heard many cases of. This just tells me that I'm not parroting since she answers on her own accord. I got to start keeping her in mind more often, including her form, seeing this is the first step to imposition.

 

Also in wonderland her form keeps changing between two similar forms, so we got to make it so that her form stabilizes. I'd say I visit the wonderland 1-2 times a day. A bad thing I did a few times now was fall asleep during sessions. Reah says it doesn't really affect her, but it does get annoying. She said that if I fall asleep tonight, then I have to start going to wonderland 2 times a day, not just once.

[Raetin]

Day 57

 

Starting to talk to Reah regularly now, pretty soon, she may actually talk some in the irc (though not sure since I'm sure some people will ask her lewd questions (My tulpa is lewd sometimes anyway, so I don't know)). We also just started imposition, first by watching an anime with me today. Then she insisted that we do more imposition, so now she's on my bed, she thinks it's really comfy, probably thanks to the comforters I have on it.

 

Her form is pretty much stable and can imagine it in a few seconds with my mind's eye, though not instantly yet. Now she's on the couch with me saying not to say anymore about her lewdness. Mind you that I can't physically see her yet, but I know pretty much where she is. That's about it I think.

[Raetin]

Day 60

 

So imposition is going well, I don't do any during school hours, because there are people everywhere. While walking to school with my right hand out of my pocket, I felt a tingle in my hand, and it turned out that Reah was holding my hand. It seems that she can go around the real world without me focusing on her. As with being vocal, I can almost talk about anything with her with her being able to respond back to them. I do feel like I'm parroting sometimes when I apologize for something, which she usually forgives me for. To tell you the truth, it's just me bashing myself for being incompetent and selfish, which I tell Reah that I'm sorry for, which she calmly listens to and tells me it's alright.

 

Her form is changing slightly every time I enter the wonderland, but we fix it soon after. There are also a few other things I would like to post, but she finds them too embarrassing, so she refrains me from posting about them. :( Right now I'm using the laptop on the bed and she's making sure I don't. Mind you that I just know where she is, but I still can't see her.

[Raetin]

Day 63

 

No!! I have fallen to the lewdness!! On the other hand, my tulpa isn't lewd most of the time anymore, so nice? That's all I'll say on that subject.

 

Other than that, I think she's starting to go off on her own, because sometimes I have to call a few times before she replies when I initiate a conversation. We still talk enough during the day. She said it would probably take a few days of not thinking of her before it would start affecting her existence. Imposition is going nicely, kind of. I should probably be trying to impose her most of the day, but we usually only do around an hour a day on that. Wonderland visits usually last around 20 minutes, and lately I've been going twice everyday, so that's about 40 minutes of wonderland time. That doesn't include imposition and narration.

 

Not sure how long I've been forcing, stopped counting, but it should be more than 25 hours. Also feel free to post, I enjoy some feedback.

[Raetin]

Day 67

 

I communicate with Reah now a bit more often, but still not enough. She is without a doubt vocal now, though I still have some doubts sometimes when she says something strange. Imposition is going well, while I ran 2 miles today, she ran behind me. She wants to talk on the irc, so we may do that soon. I actually went there and put the nickname to Reah, but I just observed in the chat, instead of proxying. Her form seems to change slightly sometimes, but changes back after a while.

 

Gonna try to force tonight, it seems that falling asleep in wonderland for me doesn't have any negative affects to her. She tells me that the wonderland kinda gets glitchy, but goes away after a while. She actually wants me to sleep with her in wonderland, which I will try to do.