tulpa being afraid to talk and I think she cried with my left eye

[voidjam]

At first I want to apologize for my terrible English, if you cannot understand my words, I am so sorry for that TT…

I started creating my Tulpa a month ago, and I haven’t received her response clearly yet. 
Anyway, something happened with her today. When I was on the subway, I tried to talk with her like I always do, and suddenly my vision was blurred in the wonderland, I can’t saw her and there was a force behind my left eye, and my left eye starts crying by itself. 
When I was walking out of the subway, I felt something like nausea but it only existed for a few seconds, which was not coming from myself. 
I used to imagine that she is in the left side of my brain, and also I can sense a weird pain feeling come from my left shoulder when I am forcing her/after forcing or even when I was not focusing on her, and I cant be sure if it’s her trying to tell me something…

I’m worried if I made her sad or something…can anyone explain it to me?

Edited December 27, 2024 by voidjam
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[Lucilyn]

really, it's just you believing in a story you made up yourself

 

believing your tulpa just randomly took control of your eye(s) to cry for no reason is pretty crazy

 

in your own mental experiences, what you believe in becomes your reality

[Andre1115]

Can your Tulpa answer questions? Try to ask him/her to answer yes or no in some simple way

[voidjam]

I don't think she can now...

[Andre1115]

10 minutes ago, voidjam said:

I don't think she can now...

Can you tell me what's going on?

 

Did she experience anything bad on the subway?

Edited December 27, 2024 by Andre1115

[voidjam]

No, it was like normally subway ride.

I asked my friend about it and she thinks its our connection's problem but not her emotion, I am not sure😭😭I also thought she might be scared or something

[Andre1115]

2 minutes ago, voidjam said:

No, it was like normally subway ride.

I asked my friend about it and she thinks its our connection's problem but not her emotion, I am not sure😭😭I also thought she might be scared or something

What problems are you having in your relationship?

[voidjam]

I think she thought I treated her so carefully that she felt kind of upset..?

[Andre1115]

6 minutes ago, voidjam said:

I think she thought I treated her so carefully that she felt kind of upset..?

My experience is to love her consistently, emphasize that if she is tired and wants to rest, it is no problem for how long, it is no problem for what she wants to do in Wonderland, don't interfere with her too much, let her do what she likes to do, and this thing can even include leaving you (interference and interaction are two different things, you may be interfering with her unintentionally, I think after the relationship gets better, you have to let Tulpa learn to express herself in a certain way when she's uncomfortable.)

[voidjam]

That will help!! Thank you for sharing your opinion and trying to help! Thannk you soo much😭😭