Does circumstance effect a tulpa?

[SeanB]

I had been wandering around my mind (looking into yourself.) and I found a place of well nothing, I was curious and went inside it. I then left and was filled with fear for a while the next day I calmed downed and accepted everything, I was emotionless after that. Normally I am care free, positive, and in a perpetual state of joy and energy, also motivation, after this however I was the opposite no motivation, no emotions (besides love, fear, a shadow of my once overflowing joy, and well I was felt very lonely and connected at the same time (I'm still trying to figure a lot of this stuff out.), I also noticed that One of my constructs was bothering me at that time it was actually an almaggation of a few hundred I had constructs made into superior one functioning as a guardian, I wasn't exactly depressed (I am an extremely accepting person.) but it wasn't unpleasant or anything at least I don't think... I have a few theories about that, but I made a tulpa and well I'm not sure... If something happened to it, I will explain my theories below. luckily. This only lasted 3 days,I think (Time was hard to keep track of during this period.). I didn't even realize I had lost my emotions, I had convinced myself it was calmness (or maybe something else convinced me.) well I had a chat with an empath and he told me to feel a strong emotion and then informed me that my emotions were repressed (can't say how much I owe him.) I then started saying what har caused it and then we worked out that it wasn't the void (something I got curious about.) but somethingelse... When I started talking I was smiling and didn't know why and bursts of giggles came from my throat, after that I started smirking madly and sobbing. Will this have an effect n my tulpa?

I also noticed after using this certain parts of my body went numb, I'm pretty sure my spirit was desynchronising with my body or something along those lines.

 

I summoned a demon (highly unlikely.) and it attached itself to me. Here's the theory I believe more in, that this was hell. Before I had found a something of limitless energy while searching inside myself, this was the opposite.

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I know this sounds insane but it happened, a lot I still haven't worked out and I feel scared. After this ended I sobbed at random periods when I thought about it too much. I got my theories one from the fact that it stopped after I confessed how it had happened (that usually takes away there power.) and two the fact of what it was and that it was exactly what one guy I saw a video of said hell was (the guy had apparently died and came back to life.) from what I have found heaven and hell are inside us and I may have just come to another theory that the hell I went to was the almaggation of everything dark in me.

[Ashmo]

I really think this belongs in the meta bored. Sorry I don't have any answers for you...

[Bacn]

You may want to try and be a little more clear in your story.

 

How, exactly, were you 'wandering around' your mind?

What are these 'constructs'?

Or a 'guardian'?

Or an 'empath'?

Or the 'demon'?

 

Also as a general writing tip, it's a good idea to separate topics via paragraphs. Such as :

 

I was doing the thing with the thing and then I blahblah and ate some

Skittles. Then I did other stuff.

 

I dunno why Skittle it would seem like theorytheorytheory

ideaideaidea would be because blahblah.

 

Would my tulpa like skittle or is he concernconcernconcern because

I'm worried and thought you would know more about Skittles.

 

 

You story seems like it would need clear formating more so than most stories.

[SeanB]

You may want to try and be a little more clear in your story.

 

How, exactly, were you 'wandering around' your mind?

What are these 'constructs'?

Or a 'guardian'?

Or an 'empath'?

Or the 'demon'?

 

Also as a general writing tip, it's a good idea to separate topics via paragraphs. Such as :

 

I was doing the thing with the thing and then I blahblah and ate some

Skittles. Then I did other stuff.

 

I dunno why Skittle it would seem like theorytheorytheory

ideaideaidea would be because blahblah.

 

Would my tulpa like skittle or is he concernconcernconcern because

I'm worried and thought you would know more about Skittles.

 

 

You story seems like it would need clear formating more so than most stories.

 

 

I was kinda panicky when I wrote this today and I'm in an iPad.

[Ashmo]

Bacn makes a very good point, I'm afraid I don't fully understand what you're trying to say in your story.

[Bacn]

 

 

I was kinda panicky when I wrote this today and I'm in an iPad.

 

Then take a deep breath, think it over for a second and then explain your story to us as if you were talking to some one who has no idea what you're talking about.

 

We're not going anywhere and we're here to help.

[SeanB]

Bacn makes a very good point, I'm afraid I don't fully understand what you're trying to say in your story.

 

I'm trying to say is that I was basically going through my mind or soul, I don't know, when I stumbled upon nothingness, so I went into it and could barely feel any emotions... It wasn't that bad at the time and I still don't understand why it scares me so much and why I cry whenever I think about it too much... Sorry I can't be very clear because I'm also confused.

 

I'm going to explain some of the things... Well basically I had started wandering my mind when I found what you would call god or something, it's basically limitless energy. Constructs are energy given a form usually programmed similiar to a servitude but easier to make... I had made one that can make other programmed constructs and destroys anything trying to sabotage it, it bothered me a lot during that time but is extremely comforting now. Empathy are people who can feel emotions I met one online and he told me what mine were. After I said what had happened I sobbed, laughed, and smile and I free suddenly free.

[Bacn]

I'm still confused as to how you are exploring yourself. Was it through hypnosis or meditation? Was it through dreaming or something more akin to a wonderland? Maybe something meta-physical? That bit of context is important.

[SeanB]

I'm still confused as to how you are exploring yourself. Was it through hypnosis or meditation? Was it through dreaming or something more akin to a wonderland? Maybe something meta-physical? That bit of context is important.

 

Hmmm... Well it's kinda like moving your consciousness into yourself. I will not explain how encase someone decides they wanna access that dark place I was referring to, which in all honesty is powerful...

[Ashmo]

Still really think this belongs in meta...

 

To answer your aforementioned question though, it really should only have an effect on your tulpa if you believe it will. Try not to focus on what's going on or give it too much attention. If you do, try to separate your tulpa from those thoughts so the two different forms of symbolism don't mingle with one another and run a muck on your imagination.