Mass Intro' and Returns Thread

[Foxy]

Time for the deep-dive.

Nevermind. I started writing a whole thing and then realized it wasn't that important. Anyway, was introduced to this concept some years ago jokingly by a friend (mostly because we frequented 4chan etc so the topic came up in a deriding way, sadly) and realized it lined up very well with experiences I've had since I was 9-13 or so, which is around 17 years give or take in some direction, feel free to guess.

I must admit I take a very laissez-faire approach to all this, given how much I've been reading of how it's done currently; compelling or forcing such a thing seems almost counter-intuitive to me, which makes me want to believe I lean more towards a feeling of DID even though it's distinct. Most of the FAQs and etc imply it doesn't matter, but I'm not trying to comply with some ruleset anyway given how long I've had a specific ruleset in my head. I have no problem with how anyone wants to live their lives, though, and of course encourage discovery.

 

Mainly, she decides on her own when to be here, and when not to be. There's no controlling or backseating, and for the most part, over the years, she's been the silent hand on my shoulder helping me through the hardest times of my life, the only individual I know of with infinite patience, and who knows when to not say anything at all. I believe I cosigned her as an imaginary friend until she... stuck around. Through young adulthood. But without being 'overt'. As in, in no way did it ever affect me or my actions, and she only was there to talk, or to listen. Mainly to listen.

When I got much older and realized how valuable those techniques were, and that I was somehow internalizing an incredible social skillset but without applying it myself, I took how she acted towards me and applied it to other people, and I changed from argumentative, impatient, intolerant of 'wrong', to ... a listener. What a change that is. So many possibilities opened up to me, and my introversion became an extroverted trait. I don't know what I'm looking for particularly in these forums besides perhaps a general understanding of how the current environment is, and just the inclinations of people, since I simply love to listen and hear what others, whomever they are, genuinely want to say, beyond the social filters.

Of note I want to familiarize myself with how this terminology is used since a lot of it seems very, hmm, it's hard to put a correct word on it without seeming too conservative. Which is the issue, I suppose. I understand everything being said but it sounds so incredibly verbose in a way that is overly complicated for what

Hmmm, just writing this made her have to explain why to me. And her explanation made more sense and was much more understanding, though she also implied to just ask why, instead of judging terminology. If anything I want to remind myself to listen to her more because I'm obviously not as nice, and I forget that much too often, though it also feels strange to write that out in a sentence with 100% seriousness since that's never been something I've ever shared, it's been a very personal part of myself for all these years, socratic method in a box.

I ended up writing a whole new whole thing! That's how it usually goes. Having recently gotten even an inch out of depression I find myself more expressive than ever. It's been a bit time consuming.

She won't allow herself to be spoken to, though, so you only have myself. And here I will just be Foxy.

[Nyarlat-hotep]

Another ‘not new but returning’, after years. Back when I was barely an adult, I was interested in all of this and essentially became spooked the instant I startled getting results. But I’ve wanted to try again for a while now and I think I’m in a better mindset than I was back then. So I wanted to go ahead and say hi. I'll save myself repeating info twice and go ahead and start a progress report page for all the details about my tulpa.

[Auri]

Hello everyone, I'm Auri and new to the forum.  I'm an author who crafted a tulpa out of one of my original characters entirely by accident.  I've been aware of tulpas for about a year now, but didn't have any inkling that there were so many who have them (and have created them unintentionally) until I found these forums a few days ago.  It's really nice to be here and I look forward to trading experiences, stories and techniques with everyone!

[summerpear]

hi i'm summer pear.

i've had tulpas and wonderland from as young as five (now i'm almost 22). so i'm really excited when i found out others practice it because it's a part of my life that i never told anyone. but seeing others' similar experience on forums like this makes me very happy.

i've had a couple dozen tulpas or imaginary characters and half a dozen places (wonderlands) on and off throughout my life. some of them i try to write about but i've lost some early files. strangely enough, i found the wonderland i created when i was five the most vivid. perhaps it's because i was the most honest with myself back then. but now my characters are definitely more complex.

i've looked at tulpa forums on and off for the last year or so but did not have time or energy to really join. 

[Ranger]

Welcome to the forums everyone!
 

On 7/8/2020 at 4:50 AM, Foxy said:

I don't know what I'm looking for particularly in these forums besides perhaps a general understanding of how the current environment is, and just the inclinations of people, since I simply love to listen and hear what others, whomever they are, genuinely want to say, beyond the social filters.

 

If you're interested in hearing stories, asking people to PM you or reading progress reports is the easiest way to do it. I like to talk a lot, and I have written textwalls about tulpamancy, myself, advice, etc. Unfortunately our PR is a mess right now, so please don't start there.

 

On 7/8/2020 at 4:50 AM, Foxy said:

Of note I want to familiarize myself with how this terminology is used since a lot of it seems very, hmm, it's hard to put a correct word on it without seeming too conservative. Which is the issue, I suppose. I understand everything being said but it sounds so incredibly verbose in a way that is overly complicated for what

 

This is a common issue with the current terminology. There are various interpretations of most of the terminology including tulpa itself, but most of the understood terms have consistent definitions except for fronting, possession, and switching. For those three terms in particular, you are best off asking the users what those terms mean.

 

On 7/14/2020 at 12:50 PM, Nyarlat-hotep said:

But I’ve wanted to try again for a while now and I think I’m in a better mindset than I was back then.

 

Good luck!

 

On 7/14/2020 at 6:22 PM, Auri said:

I'm an author who crafted a tulpa out of one of my original characters entirely by accident.

 

Whoops, I thought you were someone on Discord for a minute there.

 

Accidental tulpas are fairly common, especially among authors and roleplayers. I was also an accidental tulpa.

 

7 hours ago, summerpear said:

i've had tulpas and wonderland from as young as five (now i'm almost 22)

 

Interesting. I have never heard of someone supporting their active wonderlands and continuing to force their tulpas since starting at an early age. My system didn't really exist before my host was a teenager in highschool.

[Luja]

Hello!

 

My name is Luja and I'm just in the progress of making a tulpa.

 

I have a weird backstory. I've been talking to myself and making answers up all my life and when I accidentally stumbled across the word "tulpa" a few years ago, I assumed that I had one because of my "special" (?) way of thinking. But a few days ago, I started to read more about this topic and realized that I never had one. I just had the misconception that my way of thinking was tulpa-like, but I didn't even know that they, in fact, are independent minds who might totally differ from yourself and also talk on their own (plus the whole possession/switching thing etc.).

 

Therefore I decided to create a real tulpa this time and I'm on the fourth day at the moment. 🙂 In the past few days I read some progress reports in this forum and they really helped and motivated me. So I think, I'll also write my experiences and successes down in an own thread!

[Samantha]

Hello all, I’ve been here a little while already, but here’s this thread, so here I am. 

 

My name is *Samantha* and my tulpa to be is named Daria. She’s like my fraternal twin, the form she chose was mine and so is her voice so far. Only I’m blonde and she’s brunette with purple base. Otherwise we’re mostly the same and her personality so far isn’t too different than mine either. 

 

I figured this was a neat way to have a built in confidant. So far I can’t say we’ve had much progress, but there’s time.

 

Nice to meet you all. ❤️

[Star_Dragon]

Hello all, I'm new here, although I've been aware of the concept of tulpas for over a year now.

I've been doing mindfulness mediation to help treat my ADHD, but I don't think I'm very good at it yet.

I'm thinking of creating a Twilight Sparkle tulpa, to be a friend and help keep me on task. If I do start, I'll create a thread in Progress Reports.

 

[Misha]

Welcome all! It's been a while since we welcomed anyone, but know that you are welcome here. ❤

[ruleofthumb]

Hello. I am new and interested in learning. Seems like a nice place so far.

Edited November 12, 2020 by ruleofthumb