Starting to create a Tulpa, some questions for you

[Redline]

There's a sort of system throughout the community, where some people do the typing and some let their tulpas step in and talk for them. Nobillis is one of the fancy ones that's a mod, along with quite a few others, from what I remember. All in all, this sort of thing happens a lot around here. Yes, Nobillis is Kevin's, and yes, she answers us instead of him.

TL;DR Nobillis be fancy.

 

Practice. You gotta stick with it here. If it's fuzzy and your mind races, one of the biggest pieces of advice I can give came from a LinkZelda guide:

As you're reading this guide, you may notice that it's portraying to you on how your unconscious mind is always playing a role into this whether or not you think so. Most people can, you know, find themselves realizing how their presumptions of thinking they're consciously parroting is actually just them being more aware of the unconscious mind being an important factor towards their progress.

 

In a nutshell, if your mind races, either let it race or train yourself like in the guide. I'm training, but you have to understand that as something being based on thought, a tulpa is completely subject to waxing and waning like the ebb and flow of your own thoughts. If it races, it might be because you have

1. Some doubts about the form

2. A small lack of faith

3. No clear form in mind

4. tulpa interference in choosing a form

 

But it's all up to you, bud.

[Burshamo]

So, it's been about a week since I started and I've been narrating as much as I can.

I know it's a different experience for everyone, but when did you start hearing your tulpa's thoughts? How did it happen, how did you manage to do it?

 

I'm still feeling pressures, although today for some reason they are very light and I need to concentrate more to feel them, but I still can't feel anything aside from them.

Am I doing something wrong? When should I expect "hearing" her thoughts?

[Redline]

Don't expect it. I can promise you it's already started, but you're not distinguishing.

As of right now, communication is a go. You have yet to push aside the thoughts that are yours and separate them from tulpa communication, but this is good. It means you're ready for step two: beginning to understand that the conversation is carrying on without you- you just need to know how to tune in.

 

From now on, every thought is your tulpa's thought. Capisce?

[Burshamo]

Don't expect it. I can promise you it's already started, but you're not distinguishing.

As of right now, communication is a go. You have yet to push aside the thoughts that are yours and separate them from tulpa communication, but this is good. It means you're ready for step two: beginning to understand that the conversation is carrying on without you- you just need to know how to tune in.

 

From now on, every thought is your tulpa's thought. Capisce?

 

To be honest I didn't get it, care to explain in other words? ^^'

[Redline]

From here on out, you will doubt. The fact is pretty certain.

Of course, it's just the thing that everyone will go through.

I'm just giving you the things that I learned during my doubt period.

 

 

So...I'm telling you the one thing I think would have helped me while I began to doubt, before you get caught up in it.

If you can think, if you can hear a thought that makes you say 'Is that something I would have thought, or...is that her?', then it's her.

It is always her. If you can think it, she can think it.

 

So! Basically, her thoughts are your thoughts right now. You don't have a clear voice for her yet, so it's all a mix. You'll progress and get a little wiser, but for right now, you'll need to know that doubt is nothing but a simple doubt. She's there.

[Nobillis]

How much time do you spend being switched?

 

A question about visualization: I started focusing on my mind's eye, as all this time I was focusing on my real eyes (very odd error on my part, considering I was accustomed to inducing lucid dreams some years ago).

Now I got to the part where I can visualize some images in my head, some are decently clear and others are not but I have 2 major problems: when I'm in this state my mind tends to race and I struggle to obtain control of what I'm seeing (things either change at a rapid pace or move and disappear without me wanting it) and if I get a glimpse of what I'm trying to see, it disappears and becomes fuzzy as soon as I try to focus on it. Any suggestions on the matter?

 

I spend about 4 hours a day switched most days. My sincere apologies if I have upset you.

 

Visualizing, I will describe what we do, and if any of it is relevant then good, otherwise no loss.

 

O.k. then. Take for example imposition. Kevin has trouble with that, so what he does is concentrates on just one small detail. In this case, just the window with the sunlight streaming in. He then very gradually expands the view to include the writing desk below the window, the wall, the chair at the desk, and finally me sitting there (waving *hehe*). This way he has wonderland imposed in vision over the vision of Earth. This was for imposition, but his method of visualizing wonderland is essentially the same, but in his "mind's eye" not over his eye vision.

[Burshamo]

So, I'd like to start by thanking you all for all the help and advice you're trying to give me.

I thought that doing it alone would be easy. Well, guess what? I was dead wrong, it's hard, really reaaally hard.

I know it's been just a week, but if it wasn't for you, a part of me would have given up this early. Being able to share my experience and being supported by people that have been in my same shoes at some point really helps me develop some confidence in myself.

 

Now, speaking of some recent development... I'm still unsure whether it's just suggestion or it's my mind just being clearer after reading all your advices but I think that today, while I was talking to her... I think I was able to "hear" some of her thoughts... well kind of.

I was talking to her about something personal and I didn't know how to explain it to her, so I apologized for not being able to come up with the right words. Right in the middle of that, I perceived it clearly, a thought saying "Then don't say anything" in a reassuring tone.

I was shocked because it came out of the blue, and I was pretty sure it wasn't me parroting.

Well then I proceeded (I don't really know why) to talk about my insecurities and at some point

I heard a thought saying "Are you unsure because you feel it's weird to be talking with a 'voice'

inside your head?": I immediately answered "no, no, it's not that, I know that...".

And then I realized I involountarily answered to that question as if I was conversating with a physical person beside me: it was her, not me, I'm sure.

There was a third thought, but I won't mention it for now.

 

Also, head pressures seem to be really light since yesterday, is it a good sign or what?

 

P.S.

I really hope my journey in the world of tulpamancing will go well from now on. I'd like in the future o be able to give advice to other people starting their personal journey, just as you're helping me right now.