Enny's new and (Probably) exciting adventures in Tuppermancy (Remastered 2022 ​😎​)

[Guest]

I never followed his progress, so you may well be right.

 

Whatever, it doesn't matter.

 

 

I've been narrating a lot this morning, which is weird for me. Like, around four or five, I just started talking, and didn't stop for a while, which I haven't done in.. I don't know. A long time, if ever. I hope it starts to stick, narration is all I have.

 

Well, admittedly, I haven't even attempted visualizing in a bit. Maybe easier with human form. That's what I was going for, after all, so I'll have to give it a try at some point.

 

Aha, yeah, like I said, I did wind up stopping, or slowing down, but I have a good reason! I hadn't listened to

in a while, so did that, and now I'm on an MGS soundtrack binge, and wishing I actually still owned any of the damn games. Maybe I could get them again and just narrate those to Peachy. Plenty of fuel.

 

Yeah, train of thought de-railed as heck, now. Tuppers, right.

 

Will continue to narrate as the day goes on, and will rate myself once it's over. Then maybe visuals tomorrow night, cause, yeah, Saturday night being the social night and all, won't have time to myself.

 

 

Last note, having this wall scroll thing is a legitimate help, glad I bought it. Haven't narrated this much in a month or two.

[Guest]

I'd give myself a 4/10 for the day, yesterday. I was doing well all morning, then kinda fell asleep around nine (AM), and woke up at like, seven, and did stuff for a while and didn't think much about Peachy. Making up for it now before I go to bed, but yeah

 

Still, narrating was a bit easier than normal, and I hope it stays like that. Might just be my recent bout of enthusiasm, but I'm going to try my best to make habit of it, so I'll narrate even when I'm bored and pissy about this.

 

Nothing else to report. Will take a look and see where I stand on visuals tomorrow night (Tonight, I guess), and then spend a bit of time on personality, just in case, in a day or two.

 

Want tupper so bad :'l

[Guest]

Okay, so I just finished up with a twenty minute or so session, and I have to say..

 

I had fun.

 

Yes, Enny had fun during a tuppering session. It's happened before, but it's been a while. Started out pretty simple. Laid down, got comfy, realized I had to pee but didn't feel like getting up, and tried to look at my wonderland room/house thing. Not too pretty, but I was able to get glimpses, so that's about how it usually is. Being that I always start out on the left side of the couch, facing the coffee table and fireplace, I turned my head to the right, and could see almost nothing in the way of Peachy. Which is also kinda typical, but not what I was hoping for. So I scrapped wonderlanding, and took it to a void. It took me a minute of trying open and closed eye to see which one I was having an easier time with, but I found that open was doing it for me, so yeah.

 

Anyway, I'm sitting, or standing, or whatever, and Peachy/Rubik's cube is sitting on.. Well, now that I think about it, she wasn't sitting on anything really, but she was sitting, with her legs hanging off of the side of some invisible structure. I face her from the front, and do the only thing that I, as a seventeen year-old male, know how to do.

 

I felt her up.

 

Which is better than visuals, yeah. Always has been, probably always will be. Actually, the feeling up didn't go well when she had the outfit on. I have no clue what material her clothing is made of. Well, I think I have a pretty good bead on the legging-things. For some reason..

 

Everything else was pretty bad though, so I'll have to look into it. But yeah, it was meh and then it was good, because I made her am become just in her undergarments. I guess I have exactly zero real-life frame of reference, but like.. That being said, touch on most parts of the body seems really good. I was once told that the mind knew how to fill in the blanks, so I guess that's it. I was able to get everything from the contours of the legs, to the shoulder-blades, spine, ribs, the neck, face, even bellybutton. I think it's pretty spot-on to how an actual chick of her frame would feel, honestly.

 

There was even awkward, completely platonic boob-feeling. FOR SCIENCE, right?

 

Anyway, yeah, it was too vivid to second-guess myself on, so I didn't feel the need to stress any of it. Like I said though, will need to look into the materials of her clothing. Pony Peachy's vest I just felt to be this nylon/polyester kinda material, which seemed fitting given the aesthetic, but this stuff is weird for me.

 

Human women are weird.

 

I still have to pee, so I'm gonna do that and turn in for the night, but regarding the senses, at least for now, I might be able to use touch to fill in the blackouts in visuals indefinitely. I've used it as an aid a lot, but I guess I have to accept that it's all I really have that keeps me focused on this stuff.

 

 

So yeah, mission accomplished. Visuals still suck, but now I know that medium-length touch sessions will be enough to add some interest for a while.

 

Pee time, later.

 

 

 

Edit: Post-nap remark

 

When I was, in the totally non-sexual/romantic way, doing the touching of the boobs, she placed her hands on my arms and gently pushed them down and off. Which was funny at the time, and I'm not sure why I didn't mention that.

 

Maybe was just me. I couldn't feel anything going through my head when it happened, so might not have been. Who knows. I've been surprised a couple times before, so regardless of my doubt for the nodding, I guess there's always a couple legit responses.

 

When the speaking starts though, ah, that's when I'll need to be vigilant in making sure I don't do anything stupid. With little movements though, I guess it'll be harmless to not worry, for now.

[sushi]

Hey, if it works, stick with it. :)

 

Everyone has different dominant senses. I think I'm more of a visual person, while it seems like you're not. But if that's a kind of forcing you can do, that's great.

[Guest]

I'd kinda prefer visuals, like, by a lot, but I'll take what I can get, I suppose.

 

Laid down earlier this morning (Woke up three or four minutes ago) and did five or ten minutes of touchy-visuals again. Got tired fairly quickly, but before then, at least I was focused, so I guess it's working out well enough. Fun times, verily. Didn't do much else than the same stuff as last night, but I did try and get a bead on what some of the materials of her clothes are made of, and think it'll be alright for now. Also the back-area is really interesting to me, for some reason, so I felt that up as much as I could.

 

 

And I forgot to mention in the last update, but I'm also trying something new out.

 

So when I try to narrate, I'm awful at keeping attention, and every word feels like a chore, right? I lose attention quickly, and when I remember, it drops just as quickly. So I figured I'd do something to test, and hopefully build up on my attention-span, and wear away at the feeling of inconvenience when I think thoughts to Peachy.

 

Pretty much, I'll allocate a while, and for every object I see, I'll think its name (To Peachy). My theory is that eventually it'll build up both my reaction time, and become habit much easier than narrating regularly. When I normally see an object, I just.. I know what it is, I don't even think about its name. I have an inherent understanding of its self, and purpose. To my shame, now that I've been trying this out, I'm actually hesitating on a lot of things, but it's getting ever so slightly better. So yeah!

 

We'll see how long I keep it up, though, and whether or not it actually makes general narrating easier for me. I'm thinking of trying to add a single line for each item I lay my eyes on, even if it's one I've already seen, but with the stipulation that I have to narrate something different about it. Something about its use, something I've used it for, where I got it, how many I have, anything.

 

So yeah, again, hope that helps out.

[Guest]

Finished up some minor wonderlanding, twenty-five minutes or so. It's not easy, sadly. I can get the familiar areas (House, bench outside, and a small area around this big fountain thing) down to a moderately acceptable degree, but I decided to grab Peachy's hand, and walk for a ways to try and see something new, but it's like my brain kicked me out.

 

It's a shame, because I know there's a lot of mystery to some people's wonderlands, and not being able to experience that is kinda disappointing. I didn't expect it would go very well, but it's still upsetting to know that I'll have to meticulously work on literally every aspect if I want more. Which, yeah, kinda takes the charm out of the whole thing, doesn't it.

 

I was hoping that I'd be able to make an attempt at exploring the topic of the night, and go for an hour or two if I could, but, yeah.

 

I've also found that it's going to be very difficult to ever visualize her face. I can't do closed eye at all for some reason, and when I was trying to get a look at the eyes, my eyes moved, and broke the image. Idunno if everyone does this, but when making eye-contact with people, I'm constantly switching which eye I'm looking at because I feel weird staring at one for prolonged periods of time, and staring at the spot in-between their eyes makes me feel weird. So a lifetime of that screwed tonight up fairly well.

 

Still, a couple of alright moments. I spent most of the time touching things, touching Peachy's hand and legs, and emulating feels on myself. We sat down at the bench thing, and I tried to emulate the feeling of popping my back using the back-rest. And it was kinda there, the post-pop feeling. I can actually pop almost every spot on my back using either weird movements, or my hands in real life, so I spent a bit getting feels in various places. Kinda cool.

 

Regarding time spent, I mostly talked about menial things and stared at everything on Peachy but the face because fuck. When I'm going about my life, I think about my friends a lot because I've made memories with them. I'd like to do that with Peachy so that I think about her more than a couple times an hour on average, but that's sadly not working out the way that it needs to.

 

I'll need to figure out something that's a lot more interest. Hugging and feeling up is fun and all, but not for longer than ten or fifteen minutes.

 

Dunno if I had anything else to say. I think I did, but can't remember. I'll edit it in if I do. But yeah. Dunno how much progress is being made on account of not having much, if any feeling for the gal, but I guess it's better than nothing.

[Guest]

So yesterday around noon, I decided to sit down, put on some Depeche Mode, and write down some traits! No clue if they'll be of any help, but yeah, I plan on putting a few hours into them at least. Dunno if I'll do as much as people did back in the day, or if I'm even really capable of it, but it might help.

 

With the last batch of traits, I put in an hour and a half or so, and it was probably the same with the first tuppers, too.

 

 

Actually did an hour this morning. Well, maybe fifty minutes or so, I started getting exhausted after a while, despite only having been up for an hour or so. So I cut that short and went to sleep.

 

But yeah, I figure there'd be no harm in trying it out. Afterwards, I guess I'll try and put time into visuals as well. Dunno if they'll improve in the least, but I may as well try. Was once told that it would be more beneficial to practice a lot at once as opposed to small bits a lot, but spread out, so I might try to knock out a few two-hour sessions when the time comes.

 

Whenever that'll be, anyway. I actually wanna try to get another hour of personality done before the day is over, as I wasn't even able to make it down the list (Just fifteen traits for simplicity's sake). Still, I spent a lot of time on a few of them. It's definitely boring as all hell, so the only thing I can really tell myself is that I have to just endure it. I've done worse things for five hours, probably, so getting antsy and bored thirty minutes into talking to Peachy is kind of unfair.

 

Didn't have much feel for her, as I normally don't when trying this stuff, but I hope that changes. I honestly haven't had much feel for her since the second month or so of working on her. I hope that's not bad, ahaha.

 

Update after the next hour is done, I guess?

[Guest]

Just finished up another hour of personality. This time I put on some music and tried to do a trait a song, and had a much better time. Helped that I'm not tired as all hell fight now, but I'm sure the music did me well all the same.

 

After I ran out of traits, I went back and emphasized on a couple, and started trying to relate them all a bit more. I've also got one core trait which I plan on really flushing out in the next session, I think, and I'd like to find a way to tie most of them into that. Also might add five more, just so I've got a bit more to cover, next time. Found myself running near empty at about the fifty-minute mark, which just reaffirms that I suck at long sessions. I'll split the next one into two thirty-minute ones, I think. Wanna get five hours total, I think.

 

After that though, I reeeaaaally wanna get visuals figured out. Human form has proven to be so much easier already, but like I mention in my recent thread in Q&A, I still have trouble, especially during the day time which is, you know, when I try to be awake?

 

Looking at ten hours of visuals, if I can manage it. Which I think even just attempting it is already a bit more interesting than personality, but for hours at a time, we'll see. If by the ten hour mark I haven't improved at all, besides the obvious irritation, I'll probably scrap sight in general until Peachy is speaking in the late year of 2019. Touch triggers minor sight, so that's fine, and I'll still practice that, but yeah. Hope it works out, yeah..?

 

As an aside, I've been reading a lot of guides on visuals, and always get unbelievably irritated when they ask that you visualize something clearly to aid in the practice.

 

Like, what the fuck

 

And when certain guides are completely dependant on a vocal and sentient tupper to do. I get that most people have fuckin imposed tuppers in three days, now, but can't there be like, a special-ed section for people like me? Or just me in particular ;-;

 

Still, have been able to look at one or two that might be helpful, will keep posted if I decide to pursue them.

[nivereno]

Try writing down Peachy's looks as discriptevly as possible, might help with visuals. Or you could ask someone else to describe her to you in irl voice since association is generally a strong tool for stuff.

[Guest]

Ahaha, no on the second. The people in my life understand the concept of a tulpa, and I don't like talking about it. I don't even want to allude to anything that could make them talk about tulpas. My brother mentioned them a while back and I just nodded to what he was saying and changed the subject

 

 

Anyway, visualized a bit today. Thirty minutes, will finish the last thirty before I go to sleep in a while. It was decent. Had to focus on keeping my eyes straightforward, but once I had that, I was able to hold vague images for a bit longer than usual.

 

Was pretty alright, all in all. I actually did, near the end when I was starting to halfway fall asleep, visualize some things that I shouldn't have, regret, and apologized for at least five minutes for, so I guess that's what I get for not being totally aware of what I was doing.

 

Anecdotal and also not, though, today I ventured into the smell-good/spiritual/Zen whatever place downtown, and picked up some incense and scented oil. Much better than the fuckin' 99 cents for forty sticks I was having to settle for at Wal-Mart, wouldn't be surprised if those gave me lung-cancer. More expensive, less sticks, much better quality scent-wise, and they burn a bit slower.

 

Anyway, went with sandalwood sticks and oil for how I'd like my room to most at most times (I've been looking for a local place that sold stuff with the scent for ages, but never knew about the place today, and oh god my room smells so good it's incredible), but I think pretty soon I'm going to pick out a scent for forcing, on account of smell being good for memory-recall and all of that. Something sweet and light, like strawberry, me-thinks. There was actually this strawberry-watermelon that I liked, but my manly friends were with me and that's pretty gay, so I figured I'd get it later (Kidding, I was actually broke and could only afford one).

 

So yeah, that's what's going on in Enny-land. Good to get out, went up and admired some scenery, found my new favorite shop (Which is apparently hiring, and I really need a job!), watched my moron friend get high and buy many things he's going to regret. Happy days. My only regret is that I'm bad at narrating when I'm out, these days. Like, totally incapable. I said something about a nice mountainside view to Peachy once, and forgot about her seconds later. So that's something I'll need to remedy.

 

Bracelets don't do much for me, so will think on something as a reminder.

 

But yeah, good day. Update tomorrow with whatever I decide to do for the day, visualizing or another session on personality.