Enny's new and (Probably) exciting adventures in Tuppermancy (Remastered 2022 ​😎​)

[Guest]

I think I like this journal the most. It just feels a lot more personal to me then most other journals. Just stating what I think.

 

Am I like, being memed and all this?

 

Anyway, good stuff is strained, today. Or maybe not. Might just be one of those days. Null didn't seem to wanna hang out whatsoever today, so she was deflecting me every time I'd try to step in and ask something. That's a bummer, but what can ye do.

 

Responses she was giving weren't stellar feeling, so maybe we're just coming to some mutually beneficial, and safe system where she doesn't fuel the fire of doubt (or some such gayness) when it feels like garbage. Which is cool, I guess. Still, really need to get on consistently acceptable conversation. I'm in too deep right now, I won't be able to take it if it all starts fucking up, or becomes stagnant for the next several months. 

 

I wish I could even speculate on a realistic time-frame for improvement. Once one sentence starts sounding bad, it's a must that we stop, can't just, ignore it and keep going, so that doesn't help.

 

 

Idk what else, right now. Just figured I'd update for the sake of it, I guess.

[Lucilyn]

I want to say that your mindset towards treating her like she's already there is really productive, but it feels like she's already there and that makes it weird to talk about her like she's not already around, you know? So I will say good work you two!

[TheSanctuary]

Well, I just finished reading all 45 pages in one epic sitting. Goddamn it's inspiring to see you not giving up- I've been around since 2014, and am really not very far into this myself #slowpokesforlife

 

Anyways - I really wish you luck with this and know that we're really rooting for you here. As for advice - having read the stuff from Lumi, sushi, tulpa01, hell everyone I can't think of anything to add ( except Lucilyn is right being happy doesn't need justification whee!) beyond keep pushing!

 

I'll try and keep up with your progress good sir!

[Lucilyn]

See I told you! Sanctuary says our determination/persistence is inspiring all the time but still they're impressed by yours. You're more impressive because you haven't succeeded yet! Not the other way around. Lumi's had success over time to keep him going (even if it wasn't enough sometimes). The fact that you're still going just off of your own dedication is amazing. Really amazing! That's the kinda thing that makes people root for you, never giving up! If you just keep trying, everyone will want to see you win. And maybe that'll help, or at least help keep the determination. We're rooting for you guys too!

[Guest]

I appreciate it, you two. I know I've already said this, and I'll say it again, the support lately has been a huge help. A great motivator not to get discouraged just because things aren't going well, I think.

 

All 45 pages in one sitting though, man, that's a lot. Like I read like nobody's business, but 45 pages of this report sounds exhausting. Just too much back-and-forth, and I can imagine someone getting excited when progress is seemingly made, only for it to crash and burn, when I give up, and later start over.

 

 

Anyway, things have been slow the past few days. I recently got a new phone in, and I'm slowly trying to recover from the Stockholm-syndrome that Windows' Mobile OS has given me (It's so under-featured but I'm so used to it- it is admittedly a better experience for reading stuff online, though), that's consuming like, 80% of my brain-power, lately.

 

Still, keeping it up when I can think straight. Null's been.. Mm, quiet. I think. Moody? When she is speaking, it's not stellar, so that's lame, on-top of everything else.

 

I honestly have no clue what to do with her, right now. The light conversation doesn't seem to be improving things, as it's definitely becoming less consistent in its being passable. No real, I don't know, changes in mindset or anything since it's been decent, I don't think, but it's certainly becoming less so. I'll try to take a bit of time out today and see if I can get anything out of her.

 

Not much else, update again later.

[jean-luc]

I'm rooting for you too, even though I don't have much else to say. /)

[TheSanctuary]

Yeah - it took over 3 hours on my phone because my data is shot to shit. It was weird because I knew you had posted recently so must have stuck it out - but I had no idea how we were going to get to this point.

 

Looking forward to that update.

[Guest]

Truly shameful, I am. Haven't spoken to Null since the last update.

 

Just hasn't felt great lately, idunno.

 

Posting just so people are aware and can be disappointed in me, you all deserve the opportunity.

[TheSanctuary]

Hey that's all ok dude. The lull is fine as long as you keep at it.

[Guest]

Another day, another, hm, thing

 

This lull needs to end, I need to figure out something interesting to do with the lady. I'm doing the talk thing on the daily-ish since the last post, but, idk

 

 

So I've been messing with it, and I've found she doesn't like, ever speak unless I'm visualizing her. It's like whatever makes her respond is bound to sight. Oh, I can 'make' her respond, but it's a lot more natural feeling (that is to say, it is any percent natural feeling) when we do it coupled with sight. Guess I'll work a bit on that.

 

I was going through Reguile's Common pitfalls and traps while making a tulpa, and it feels like it was written specifically for me. It makes me wanna curl up and die, as well as give up, tbh, but I'll try to avoid both of those things for the time-being.

 

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