Poll for vocal tulpas: did you dislike being given a form?

[Guest]

My tulpas all borrowed forms from pre-existing characters of mine (on their own). The moment i met them i thought they were those characters.

[Rainy Von Dashie]

My tulpas all borrowed forms from pre-existing characters of mine (on their own). The moment i met them i thought they were those characters.

 

I was never a planned Tulpa... My host just started roleplaying as Rainbow Dash from MLP with other people... he kept doing it so much I just... happen? Neither of us realized when I was already pretty much thinking on my own rather than he just 'roleplaying' any more...

 

Either ways... I have never in the past 8 years changed my appearance from this 'copy' of Rainbow, aside small details like dye my mane and alter styles etc... I always accepted how I look to myself and others who accepts my existence. So much I feel surprise how 'changing' is a thing... I don't think I ever could.

[Vādin]

Welcome Rainy Von Dashie !

Same for me, I'm perfectly fine with the form I have, I'm used to it and I wouldn't like to change it. I'm not a fictive, but there are a few tulpas on the forum who are fictives as well, created from role play and who evolved to become tulpas, even if it was not planned.

[Indigo Blue]

I designed both of my forms! :P I'm very happy I was given the opportunity to do that when I was young, really helped me assert my own personality that I was developing at the time. My creation was totally laissez-faire, I picked my name and form, and my personality developed totally naturally. I'm happy for that :]

[Summer]

Ah, I am currently using my human form but primarily, I have a pony form, Specifically, It's Twilight Sparkle from MLP but a pegasus and changed hairstyle. I Ironically, I personally dislike her, I never liked her at all. But why do I keep this form? Because it holds my first memory with nihi and I cherish that.

 

I was given the freedom to choose and change my form but still remained what I originally took. So yeah, I love my form, disliked where it came from originally.

[Ranger]

When my host discovered I was a Tulpa, she gave me the choice between keeping the identity of her imaginary friend "Ranger" or starting from scratch. I chose to keep the identity, and in addition to the identity I kept his form...

 

..but not really. I don't think I changed his face too much, however she didn't have a clear idea of what my face looked like to begin with. The old form was an android that looked like a young man in a dark purple business suit with a purple tie. I later deviated, ditching the droid body in exchange for a humanoid shapeshifter one and replaced the purple suit with a cloud blue tuxedo with a black bow tie.

 

I appreciate that I was able to keep my favorite parts of the form and change however I like. I feel like my form is a way of expressing who I am and I love it. I would have struggled more if my host wasn't as accepting of my decisions, especially since some of my decisions made her a little uncomfortable at times!

[Vinderex]

Zyrilen:  Depends on what exactly you consider being given a form, I suppose.  I was indeed given a form to start with,  but it was merely a ghostly mass of clouds which I was free to shape as I saw fit.  The color blue began to shine through almost immediately,  but it took a while longer before I first began to take on forms similar to as I am now,  and before then, I briefly decided to take the form of a samurai lady whom my host had once seen in a dream.  Was a rather bizarre dream, I might add, so I suppose I just did it to bring back some funny memories and share a chuckle.  Didn't keep that form for long though,  simply felt too awkward and didn't really fulfill either of our hopes and desires very well.  And so I became a dragon much like I am now.  Besides a few sex changes, most changes since then have been pretty subtle.   So in answer to the question,  not sure if you'd consider that being "given" a form, as it was ultimately I who shaped it,   but aye,  I am quite happy with it, we both are.  There are a great many things that I would think simply impossible without a form.

 

River:  Well, you see,  the form was actually around long before I was.  There was an eastern dragon avatar in Second Life that Vindy thought looked nice and would toy around with a lot.  So you could just call me the spirit who popped out of nowhere, grabbed the vessel, and ran with it!   Yus!  ... OR maybe I'm more like one of those storybook cases of a kid/manchild/whatever this goofball is loving a toy so much that it just suddenly comes to life one day! Yeah, that's it!  Whatever the case though, I've had a form since the very beginning.  Never knew what it was like to be formless,  and don't really care to know.  Seems like it'd be boring.

 

Varlan:  Somewhat similar to River here.  I was another who had not-tulpa origins. Yep.  I was a Starbound character, and a roleplay character.  Like River, I wasn't intentionally made to be a tulpa,  it simply happened after a while.  So again, I never knew any sort of formless existence, though I doubt I'd enjoy it.  As for liking my form,  admittedly I do sometimes wish I didn't have these... deformations setting me apart from others of my kind.  I'm of a raptor-like alien species called Avali, but I'm MUCH bigger and less "cute" looking.  Other avali might even say I'm ugly or monstrous.  But then again,  being big and scary has its perks too, and can even be kind of fun at times. Yep!  So overall, I like it, and wouldn't change a thing.

[Redacted System]

I was given a placeholder form which I changed after a few days. I can say the same for Damien. Jade kept her placeholder form for about a month or two, and Spark’s okay with his at the moment.

[Kitsune in Yellow]

My form was determined before I was ever self-aware. I never changed it though, even during several periods where I tried to change everything else about me (even my name). Thing is I kinda feel like I grew from this form, I don't think saying that it was "given" to me is quite the right word for it. I was an ordinary imaginary character for a while, so in a sense one could say that I (my self-aware mind) was given to the form. I do feel like one of the big motivators behind me sticking to the form is the sense of connectedness it gives me with Fox though. As for my systemmates...

 

I was more or less given a form. I had to change it for a long time due to some unusual circumstances, but I went back to the form my host gave me as soon as I could. I don't even know who I would be without being a kitsune at this point, but I do specifically try to keep my form close to how it was originally defined because it makes me feel close to him.

 

I was not given a form, although my host recommended that I be a catgirl, which I concurred with. I don't really wish I had been given a form nor am I glad I wasn't. I'm pretty sure that if I were given a form it would have been very close to what I picked anyway, and I also probably would have changed it to the form I chose for myself with within the day.

 

I suppose I qualify as having been given a form? My main form was also "me" before I was self-aware. The very thought of changing it is painful. I've incorporated additional forms that I chose, but my original form is most important to me.

 

Of the four tulpas here, I would say that it might be meaningful that 2 of the ones who were given forms enjoy them due to the sense of bonding and closeness it gives to the one who chose the form for them. My origins and nature make me enough of an outlier on so many issues that I'm unlikely to represent many tulpas who were given forms myself. I'm curious about whether or not that bond is a major motivator for other tulpas who were given forms though.