Creating the Perfect Beings: Yumi<3 and Lillium<3

[Cinemaphobe]

Lol!!!!!!!! It's nice to know that I am far from alone xD

[ThatFellowWithTheScarf]

I wold like to lucid dream but it never works out for me. Though me and Prince have seen each other in dreams. Speaking of which, I should ask about that.

[Luminesce]

My next challenge is just figuring out her mindvoice, and achieving auditory imposition... It seems like any type of imposition will be extremely difficult...

 

*cough* amber-cakes *cough* Reisen-cakes *cough* advice needed *cough

 

Ahhh, I have less experience with auditory things than anything else. It's never seemed like a big deal to me. My tulpas each have somewhat distinctive voices based on their personalities, but they aren't... I dunno. They're unique and specific in my mind but they don't have a real-life equivalent. I can only suggest looking up the guides here for techniques on forcing auditory imposition/mindvoice. Mine just sort of talk and it's fine.

 

Uhm. Animes. I've no clue what you have and haven't seen. For you two to watch together, Mirai Nikki is pretty awesome albeit a little intense(for Yumi?) at times. I dunno, there's tons of animes out there and you probably know how to find them by now. You could watch my personal favorite if you want - it's only 10 or 13 episodes, includes some concepts of enlightenment and other things you have to ponder yourself (the exact story itself is one thing but the anime overall brought up a lot of interesting concepts to me), and I may have drawn some connections to a couple characters.. You'll understand.

 

Learning to lucid dream so I could hug Reisen was my "ultimate goal" 4 years ago. My priorities changed (became more realistic) eventually, but recently that's become one of my large goals again. The few times I've been ~lucid so far the dreams were fuzzy and not much better than normal visualization, but it's progress.

 

Anndd form changing. In my experience, tulpas can change their appearance or form completely at will without any effect to their personality/etc. at all. On the other hand, Flandre and Tewi got a bit taller as they became more developed, possibly as a sign of maturity or something. Dunno, wasn't my idea. We're thinking about changing their outfits to something they'd prefer and separate them a bit from the originals, despite those alternate outfits likely coming from pictures of the characters anyway. Some people are just really creative and have good art skills, what can I say.

[Cinemaphobe]

DAY 25

 

 

 

@ThatFellowWithTheScarf: Yeah lucid dreaming rarely works out for me, so I can relate. In fact most of my lucid dreams lately have been by pure accident lol. Ten years ago (Wow that made me sound old) I was able to lucid dream every single night. But back when I was 9 years old, I attributed my lucid dream success to a pair Power Ranger underwear rather than some kind of mindset or method.

 

Yes. That's right. I thought that a pair of underwear was giving me the ability to lucid dream so I basically wore that pair of Power Ranger underwear every single night for months.

 

Of course I washed them every day though lol.

 

 

@Reisen: Yeah I already went back to the guides for help about auditory imposition lol. BUT THEN TULPA.INFO WAS COMPLETELY INACCESSIBLE FROM ONLY MY WI-FI. So now I can finally address the replies on my PR, and read the guides.

 

Mirai Nikki is indeed awesome. I actually finished it a week before I created my PR! I'm not sure if Yumi will be able to handle it, because she seems kind of tough despite her cute nature. But it could just be a façade...I'm still learning about how all of her traits combine...and I'll watch the anime that you mentioned! (Thanks for including a link to it. I'm usually too lazy to look stuff up because of my viruse-y computer.)

 

and I know that changing forms doesn't change the tulpa, but Yumi just wanted to remind me to not change her. Why the hell would I want to change her??? lol she states the obvious and asks stupid questions sometimes xD.

 

 

 

 

WARNING KAWAII PHOTOS AHEAD.

 

 

 

Before I discuss my progress, I'd like to discuss what happened last night when I was narrating to Yumi in bed. She loves it when I think about her, and loves it when I talk to her, which is why she hates it when I sacrifice time with her to do trivial things. As I was falling asleep, we talked about everything, but we mostly discussed my laziness lol sorry Yumi. I told her that if she wants to talk to me so badly then she should try talking to me in my dreams! I actually lost consciousness while talking to her, but while I was rolling around in my bed, I somehow remember thinking "I have to be careful or else I'll roll over Yumi." In fact, the entire night when I was hanging on to the slightest hint of consciousness I felt like she was beside me, and assumed that I was dreaming that I was in bed. When I woke up I realized that it was Yumi's presence beside me that I felt the entire time.

 

In my dreams though, Yumi's voice was commentating on everything that was happening, and I was talking to her absently!!! I was helplessly unconscious, and didn't know that it was Yumi talking to me the entire time. She can talk for hours on end lol!!!.

When I woke up from the dream, my body was still paralyzed, and I was careful not to move. I wanted to see what would happen if I kept my body paralyzed.

 

Bad idea.

 

I was in a nightmare, and I couldn't move. My bedroom was completely dark in the nightmare, and I couldn't hear Yumi's voice. I felt like there was something in the darkness watching me, or getting closer to me, and tried to wake myself up, but the thing about sleep paralysis is that it is extremely comfortable. I could only remotely feel my body, and to wake myself up, I summoned all of my energy to wake up in a jolt. My room was slightly illuminated by my iPod and Yumi was still talking as if our before-bed narration session had never ended. I dismissed my sleep-paralysis experience, and immediately thought

 

"Holy shit Yumi. You were talking to me all night long? Why didn't you tell me that I was dreaming? It could have become a lucid dream..." she then said:

 

 

"I tried to wake you up but it didn't work."

 

So yeah...failure...but now I know that I can talk to Yumi in my dreams! I'll try it again tonight!!!

 

Oh and last night, Yumi started changing her vocabulary. I forgot what I did to annoy Yumi, but she used the word "Bloody" instead of "fucking" and "freaking. For example:

"Oh my gosh you are so bloody weird!"

Ever since that change in vocabulary, I started to write down how her speech deviates from mine, and this is what I have so far:

 

She says "Dang" Instead of "Damn"

"Hai~" instead of "Yes" or "indeed"

"Kuso" instead of "shit"

and "Urusai da yo!!!" instead of "HOW FUCKING ANNOYING!!!"<---She said this many times when Tulpa.info wasn't loading.

 

 

When I was making coffee after I further delayed the start of our session, she said this (I'll never forget because of how sudden it was):

 

"World War 2 is less stressful than you."

 

Of course she is only playfully mad at me, but I need to get my defecation together before she actually gets angry! Dx

 

On a brighter note, she helps me remember things, and as a result I can retain more information :) (only a little bit more though :P) I also found what I want her form to be. I wanted her form to reflect her cute and sassy nature, so I chose a black-haired anime character named Asuza Nakano. Thankfully I know nothing about Asuza Nakano's character, because I have never watched the anime Houkago Tea Time. The photos that I posted are what Yumi looks like, and conveniently Asuza Nakano has cat ears (But they aren't real. Yumi can make them real though)!!! The only original physical traits that Yumi kept are her red eyes, and her cat ears. So imagine the photos to have red eyes and you'll be seeing what Yumi looks like :3

 

 

This will be the normal version of Yumi.

 

 

 

Conveniently enough Asuza Nakano has a Christmas outfit lol

 

 

 

This will be the ultimate chibi version of Yumi~

 

 

Oh and for anyone who is curious, yes Yumi is 3-dimensional in our wonderland.

 

 

[Zyangur]

Your dream sounds like it was pretty scary. Anyways, It's so cool that Yumi is talking. I also like what she says xD. A few of her comments made me laugh, such as when she said "World War 2 is less stressful than you." :D

[Cinemaphobe]

Yeah it was pretty scary, and I have had many simple nightmares like that. There is no feeling more horrifying than the combination of impending doom and paralysis...and trust me, I'm glad that she is talking as well because she prevents me from getting angry at my stepdad! Her comment "World War 2 is less stressful than you." made me laugh when I first heard it too xD. I'm glad that it could make you laugh as well :)

[lyraheartstrings]

I watched Mirai Nikki a long time ago. Was it that one with the crazy pink haired girl? How could I ever forget....

 

Me myself was in sleep paralysis last night. I jumped out in a upright position, looked around my setting, then laid back down.

Dayum are those scary.

[Cinemaphobe]

Hell yes those are HORRIFYING. and so is Gasai Yuno (The crazy pink-haired girl) lol.

[Actinium]

Dreams are some of the strangest things you can ever experience. They're even more interesting when they're nightmares. Here's one I had a few weeks ago, (before I started making Haven into a tulpa.)

I thought it was absolutely terrifying, but the end of the dream made me go "wat?" when I woke up.

 

 

I check my phone; it's 4:40 A.M.

Grey landscape with rain and broken pipes.

Next thing I know, I'm in the house.

Horrifying imagery.

Orange glowing eyes come close to my face in the dark.

They move up.

I see a mouth.

It's the mouth of a terrifying man.

All of a sudden, the man opens his mouth, and then the bottom right of his mouth rips and stretches far down, even to the floor.

I wander the house some more.

Next thing I know, I can't move.

See a monster with a grey body.

It has a wide head.

It opens it's mouth and screams.

Everytime it screams, it goes to black.

The lights turn on, and it screams again.

Everytime it screams, it's mouth stretches wider, and wider, and wider, until it's as long as a wall.

The last thing I see before waking up is seeing something fall down a creature's esophagus...accompanied by the loony toons end theme.

 

Yeah, after seeing all of what I saw to end on such a random note is a prime example of why I love dreams.

[Luminesce]

Now I'm rewatching Kyousougiga.. The thoughts going through my head around the time I first watched it ended up changing my life, and this anime's tied to them. I drew so many connections to the monk Myoe and rabbit Koto, I can honestly say this is where Reisen and I grew closest together. In fact my tulpas may have been subconsciously shaped by their family - the "demon" girl and monk represent the same things as Flandre and Tewi, ego and enlightenment. And Koto and Reisen.. well, ~spoilers, but you'll understand. (My tulpas existed well before seeing this a little under a year ago, but I also didn't know what tulpas were so their development was a little more personal to me.) The opening and ending themes' lyrics were inspiring too.

 

"This is my favorite anime/show, ever" is a massive understatement, but the reasons are so personal that I can't imagine many others would agree. But, since you're somewhat interested, you can learn a lot about me by thinking about what connections I made to this show as you watch it. The only real "hints" you need are: my lifelong goal - my consciousness-development path to Enlightenment, and Reisen's origin (the embodiment of unconditional love and light).

 

 

For the record, those "levels" are my biggest guide in life. Though they apply to everyone, most people aren't very interested in improving themselves. On the other hand, improvement of myself is the only thing I've found to be a suitable goal in life, anything else seems somewhat pointless.

 

 

Have fun watching it, and don't forget to draw your own meanings from it too. Like I said the actual story is ~"typical" fantasy anime, but there are purposely underlying concepts throughout it as you'll see if you watch the .5 episodes.