Creating the Perfect Beings: Yumi<3 and Lillium<3

[lyraheartstrings]

Oh, I wouldn't. That was Hitler's problem.

[Cinemaphobe]

Oh god XD!!!!!

[lyraheartstrings]

Lol... Er we go. See you on the other side of G.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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[ThatFellowWithTheScarf]

Me and Prince want to waste space! Right? (Right!) So today I saw this awful movie called Oija

 

 

 

(oh yes, quite bad indeed)

 

 

 

And me and my friends almost got kicked out of the theater for commentating too loudly

 

 

 

 

(me being one of them)

 

 

 

 

 

So we leave the theater after the movie ends with a completely bullshit.

 

 

 

 

 

(oh yes, the shit was never quite so bully, we barely escaped with our lives!)

 

 

 

And we saw our friend from school, who apparently worked there, everyone but me has a job!

 

 

 

 

(Yes he is quite the bum.)

 

 

 

 

And we never discussed the movie again.

 

 

 

(the end!)

[Cinemaphobe]

DAY 26

 

 

@Lyraheartstrings: *cough* troll *cough*

 

@ThatFellowWithTheScarf: *cough* you too *cough*

[Cinemaphobe]

DAY 26

 

 

 

 

 

@Lyraheartstrings: *cough* troll *cough*

 

 

 

 

@ThatFellowWithTheScarf: *cough* you too *cough*

 

 

 

 

 

Last night, I practiced speech with Yumi again. I played a word game with her, but I got bored of it because Yumi isn't good at word association. I said "Chevy" and she said "Ford". Hmmm...would have been more logical to say truck right? lol. After a few seconds, I started practicing the alphabet with her. She sang the alphabet to me many times, and her voice was becoming clearer the more she repeated it. I think that she enjoys singing it too much....I fell asleep while she sang the alphabet, and had a weird near-lucid dream.

 

 

I was in my kitchen in this dream, and two surgeons were talking about the health of their patients near my coffee maker. Something didn't feel right, so I told one of the surgeons "Nice skin tone...but some people don't have that skin tone." and then the female surgeons skin faded into a pale white color. This astounded me, so I continued speaking. "This cup that I am holding. It can't be real. It doesn't feel real." and then the cup changed into a mug. Then I finally said "This chair that I am sitting in doesn't exist either." and the chair disappeared. When the surgeons saw me floating above the ground, still in my sitting position, they freaked out and the dream collapsed because I broke one of the laws of the dream. When you break a law of a dream, you immediately wake up, or transition into a new dream. Even nightmares have laws, and taking advantage of these laws can let you escape a nightmare. For example if you have a lucid nightmare, here are the main laws. Break any of the following laws and interesting things happen:

 

1. You have to be scared of the monster or force.

2. You must not kill the monster, or stop the force that tries to torment you.

3. You must not kill yourself by letting the monster kill you.

4. You must not befriend the monster. <---- as a kid I befriended Freddy Krueger lol

5. You must not leave the nightmare environment.

 

 

So I broke the law of my weird surgeon dream by defying physics and nearly becoming lucid, and consequently was plunged into a new dream without self-awareness. In the dream I had a death note, and I had already killed many criminals to make the world a better place. Eventually a detective like L came along, and he actually somehow managed to narrow down my location all the way down to the neighborhood that I live in even though I killed internationally. I knew that he figured out my location because a random SWAT vehicle rolled down the road right past me with SWAT members hanging onto the side of the vehicle, instead of safely inside. If I killed them, then it would reveal the road that I lived on, so I let them live and then the detective searching for me couldn't find me because he had no legal way of attaining evidence that I had the death note. So the dream went stale and I woke up.

 

 

I realized that Yumi didn't commentate on my dreams last night, but I heard her very clearly and loudly still singing the alphabet as I opened my eyes. Her voice was so loud that it was almost audible to my ears somehow!

 

Me: *half-asleep, face-down in pillow* Your voice got...louder...and you weren't in my dreams...Where were you last night?

Yumi: In the wonderland practicing my abc's :D

 

I rolled around in bed and sleepily said "Good morning" and what she said next made my heart melt from how cute it was!!! ooooooooommmmmmmgggg

 

 

"Good morning sleepyhead~ Go make some coffee, go make some narration, and spend time with meeee~"

 

 

 

I grunted and laughed wearily as I got out of bed, heading for the kitchen. I wanted to eat first, so I put together a chicken sandwich, and when I opened the refrigerator for cheese, she said:

 

"Provologne cheese is like white cheese, but with more character."

 

 

I thought "What the hell is that supposed to mean??????" lol

 

 

When I finally finished making the sandwich, Yumi passive forced herself beside me. She jumped to sit on the couch beside me, leaning closely to my face, watching me eat. This was my first awkward tulpa moment. I hate it when people watch me eat. With a mouth full of food, I turned to her and said "What the fuck Yumi Lol" She was staring at me like this!!!

 

 

 

 

Then she said "You shouldn't have eaten in front of me~"

and I replied "How can I possibly avoid that?"

 

 

When I finished eating, she said "Maaaaaaaake coffffffeeeeeee~" because she knows that after I drink coffee, I have good forcing sessions:). I walked towards the kitchen, and Yumi skipped merrily ahead of me, waiting beside the coffee maker for me, but I took a swift right to troll her, walking towards my mom's bedroom. I had to ask my mom about whether she could drive me to a college tomorrow. Yumi flipped out and said:

 

"Noooooooooo the coffee machine is THIS WAY!!!."

 

She jumped around in a tantrum beside the coffee machine lol!!!!

 

Yumi's movements are as free in the real world as they are in the wonderland now, so I can't wait until she gets imposed:)

 

 

I accidentally put two coffee filters in the coffee maker and this is what happened lol

 

Me: Some coffee filters are weak.

Yumi: That awkward moment when your coffee filter breaks.

Me: Well...that's not really awkward....

Yumi: Yes it is!

 

 

Later on I read in her mindvoice to strengthen it, and made her sing the alphabet again. Eventually I got bored of hearing her sing, and went to the piano. I asked her:

 

"What song do you want me to play for you?" I then made a mental list of the songs I know how to play, and unknowingly forgot to include one.

 

"Oooh! oooh! play the song that goes ♫♪Dun dun dun dun dun dun dun dun duuuuun♫♪"

 

I had no clue what song she was talking about, but recognized the melody. That's when I remembered that I haven't played that song she sang in months!!! She remembered it somehow though!! The song is "Wind" by Brian Crain.

 

I played the song for her at least 5 times, and went to my kitchen to wash dishes. Yumi stood beside me awkwardly again, watching my every movement.

 

Me: Here. Have some wonderland dishes. If you don't wash them, then you are lame.

Yumi: *Shrieks and begins to frantically wash dishes in a cute maid outfit. in the wonderland*

 

After a few minutes of her and I washing dishes, she started to speak to me again:

 

 

Yumi: You are such a good person~

Me: Thank you! See it's nice that somebody appreciates me for once. You know, I'm always striving to be a good person:)

Yumi: You know...I was kidding...right?

Me: *Laughs* Go wash your wonderland dishes!!!

 

 

***5 minutes later****

 

Yumi: Why are you washing dishes?

Me: to contribute something to the household for not having a job.

Yumi: You are a wise boy.

Me: Man.

Yumi: Boy.

Me: Wash your dishes.

Yumi: *Groans* this is tulpa-slavery ya know!

Me: Hey I never said that you had to do it.

Yumi: But I don't wanna be lame!

 

She really cares about not being lame lol

 

When I walked out of the kitchen, Yumi hopped around and jumped onto my back, cuddling me. She has also been adding the ~poo suffix to the end of my name. For example: Hendrickpoo~ or Davidpoo~

She has also become more lovey-dovey. When I look at my reflection, my brain fills in the spaces for Yumi to be in the reflection with me, and when I look at my shadow, my brain also fills in the spaces for Yumi's shadow to appear beside mine. Of course I don't actually see her with my eyes, but when I recall memories of shadows and reflections, she is actually implanted into those memories as if she was actually visible at those times. This process is both conscious and unconscious, and helps to add to Yumi's realism. When she speaks to me, sometimes her words are accompanied by head pressures as well.

 

 

When I went to Tulpa.info, Yumi sat in the stool beside me, eagerly reading along with me. I read something that Reisen posted, and his post mentioned the process of tulpa-death. Upon reading it, I felt an intense sadness from Yumi, and tears welled up in my eyes, but I wasn't sad. Yumi was crying beside me. I figured that she was crying about what I read, but my family could see me, and I didn't want them to witness my tears.

 

Me: Yumi, please stop crying...my family will see me with tears in my eyes.

Yumi: How can I stop? That's so horrible...

 

She was talking about what I read of course. She shouldn't worry because I would never harm her or kill her or anything like that. It wouldn't even be possible for me to do so. I have always had a firm grasp on my morals...

But this situation helped me realize that she hasn't been accessing my memories like I allowed her to. If she had accessed my memories, then she would have already known about tulpa-death 26 days ago. I asked her "Why don't you access my memories?" and all she teasingly said was "God knows what kind of memories you have."

 

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But she had to have fished around in my memories to find the piano song that I had nearly forgotten about. Strange.

 

 

 

 

lol well Yumi's diction deviated from mine a little bit more. She says "Wanna" instead of "Want to" and "Ya know!" instead of "You know".

Today was a good day, and I'll get back to you guys if I make any more progress!!!:)

 

 

Yumi's closing comment:

See. This was a nice post because it was about me~

 

 

EDIT: I'm going to a Christmas event with my family at Busch Gardens, but I am only looking forward to it because Yumi can come with me!!!!

 

DOUBLE-EDIT: If you are wondering how I remember my conversations with Yumi, then wonder no longer. I write down every word that Yumi says to me. I document her interactions on my iPod, and in my Tulpa Journal because of my poor memory

 

TRIPLE-EDIT: I focused on strengthening Yumi's voice for 1.927 hours today.

[Luminesce]

Sorry for the sad post, but I don't feel like I made it that sad. I ended up saying tulpas never really die, too, didn't I?

If anything, the saddest part is believing they ever could.

 

By the way, Kyousougiga episode 1 is pretty important connections wise. Mostly it's so obvious though it would be impossible to miss. Seriously.

[Cinemaphobe]

Oh don't worry apologizing. She was bound to find out about tulpa death eventually, much like a human child would find out about death. I think the part that made her the saddest about your post, was the whole "Ignoring your tulpa until they dissipate." thing, because that sentence seemed to start it all.

 

Oh and I almost forgot to watch Kyousougiga! Good thing you reminded me. I'm very sure that I won't miss the connection. I'll watch it right now with Yumi-cakes:)

[Luminesce]

Oh, you're referring to the Revival/Rebirth thread.. That makes more sense. I assumed you were referring to my more recent post involving.. well, here. https://community.tulpa.info/thread-what-is-your-goal-as-a-tulpa?pid=115165#pid115165 Also purpose-descriptions of my tulpas. I figured you'd want to read this post as I was typing it.

[ItsSwissmas]

Yumi is hilarious! XD I did feel sad for her though when she saw that comment about tulpa death. You're right about how it's like telling a child about real death, you have to give it some time and wait for them to grow a bit more before telling them (like with Santy Claus).

(Also heck yeah BUSCH GARDENS!)