Creating the Perfect Beings: Yumi<3 and Lillium<3

[Darcmanish]

My lucid dreaming skills were weaker in the early stages i created Lacie. Almost lost the skill of using my techniques i guess my brain was just a bit exhausted of all this weird stuff.

Now im able to lucid dream 1-2 times each night and the best way which worked for me was autosuggestion. My skills then even improved so far that i can usually say without a reality check that im awake or im dreaming (unless the dream isn´t super realistic). I usually did a WILD or WBTB techniques which pretty destroyed my sleeping circle and made me mad becuse i couldn´t fall asleep then^^. I have the feeling since i rather think "I will have a lucid dream tonight" is much better for my health becuse i dosent have to wake up at night and if Lacie is bored she helps me with that thought which increased the rate of lucid dreaming dramaticly. Maybe it can help you if you try it a bit.

 

Good luck anyway!

[Actinium]

 

 

After that realization, I was transported to a new non-lucid ream. In the dream, somebody told me quite gravely "Do not trust anyone, and always watch your oxygen levels. If you lose your back-up oxygen capsule then you will die within 10 seconds".

 

Suddenly, I was in a spaceship with a prisoner, and we were both running out of oxygen. The prisoner was the girl I was attracted to at work. I had an oxygen tank with 10 minutes of oxygen left and a jet pack that could fly me to another space ship for oxygen refills. However, the prisoner only had 30 seconds of oxygen left in her tank. I began taking apart her oxygen tank to transfer some of my oxygen to hers, and I couldn't breathe during the process. The prisoner then stood up, stole the oxygen capsule from my pocket, and threw it to the floor. I stared in horror, unable to breathe as she also snatched my oxygen tank from me. She then clicked a button on the wall of the space ship and turned to face me. The Earth was behind her, and she gave me a pained glance as she leaped backwards into space without a jetpack, essentially committing a double suicide. Everything went silent after the oxygen was sucked into space, and I checked my pocket to see if there was another oxygen capsule. An oxygen capsule would buy me 30 seconds of time to breathe to find more oxygen supplies, but the capsule I found within my pocket was empty. I stared at it and realized I had 10 seconds left to live. I regretted trusting the prisoner I was in love with. But what wounded me the most was my confusion of why she wanted to kill us both when I could have saved us both.

 

From the Dream Moods Dream Dictionary.

 

Oxygen

 

To dream of oxygen symbolizes renewal and creative energy. You are feeling rejuvenated and reenergized.

 

To dream that you do not have enough oxygen suggests that you are feeling suffocated or smothered by a situation in your life.

 

Sounds about right.

 

 

 

Oh and I'm running on 0 hours of sleep right now and I have to work in 3 hours. I'm screwed. At least I'll have a good wonderland session with Yumi before bed, and who knows? Maybe I'll have a lucid dream with her! I still have to marry her after all, so she better start pulling strings and making that Lucid dream possible, *hint* *hint* I already did! >:( Damnnn it Yumi, I'm sorry that my dreams are completely identical to reality.

 

 

lol wish me luck guys. Oh and Yumi managed to delete more memories of time spent with Mary thanks to the deterioration of my emotional connection to the memories :) now all Yumi has to do is figure out how she'll pull me into another lucid dream. I have no way to test that I am dreaming though because I can't tell the difference between dreams and reality anymore.

 

WISH ME LUCK

 

I feel like the most real dreams I experience are when I'm in a place that I recognize or if I'm on the internet, even if what's happening is completely ridiculous.

Just last night I had a dream where you posted that Lillium sings a lot.

 

You'll know who to blame if she does turn out that way.

;)

[Cinemaphobe]

@Reisen-cakes *Get them while they're still hot.*

 

I pinch my nose and try to breathe in and out of it, myself. I stumbled upon that reality check by accident, and it turned out to be perfectlyamazing. I didn't expect it to work at all whatsoever the first time I did it in a dream, as it felt pretty dang real at the time, only to be shocked when I felt air go through my nose anyways.

 

Holy sweet Jesus I'm going to try this. Thank you so much for your input, and I did a backflip because the physics of dreams is always off slightly.

 

My alternate reality checking method is just to summon Sylvia, my subconscious-interface-tulpa, to freeze the dream. It's one thing to try and fly (or do a backflip), and another to firmly believe in an embodiment-of-your-mind's ability to manifest. I've trained myself to fully believe that she can override anything my brain is doing, so she can literally monochrome-freeze my dreams whether I'm having a nightmare or would just feel rude leaving whatever strange dream situation I was in.

 

I think we can both classify having a subconscious-interface tulpa as "mental shenanigans" my dear friend. And when I find myself in a nightmare I kill myself. Suicide in a nightmare can lead to an immediate awakening, or even a lucid dream.

 

The key is to wholeheartedly believe it could be no other way, since the only reason things like backflips don't always work in dreams is that you don't believe they will.

 

I did believe that it would though. But I did a half-assed backflip due to my excitement but felt 100% real life pain and figured that I was awake lol

 

So I believe without a doubt that, if I call to her in a dream, Sylvia will manifest and freeze everything. If she doesn't appear then it's not a dream. No exceptions.

 

I'm going to give different types of mental training a try then. This is too extraordinary.

 

 

@Darcmanish

 

 

Now im able to lucid dream 1-2 times each night and the best way which worked for me was autosuggestion. My skills then even improved so far that i can usually say without a reality check that im awake or im dreaming (unless the dream isn´t super realistic). I usually did a WILD or WBTB techniques which pretty destroyed my sleeping circle and made me mad becuse i couldn´t fall asleep then^^. I have the feeling since i rather think "I will have a lucid dream tonight" is much better for my health becuse i dosent have to wake up at night and if Lacie is bored she helps me with that thought which increased the rate of lucid dreaming dramaticly. Maybe it can help you if you try it a bit.

 

Good luck anyway!

 

Extremely impressive. I used to lucid dream like you when I was in the 3-5 grades, but somewhere along the line I lost the ability to have 1-2 lucid dreams per night. I have read about autosuggestion before so I'll start trying that again.

 

Oh and Yumi did pull me into that lucid dream. But my way of checking reality was horrible because it hurt, and because it didn't work.

 

@Actinium

 

 

From the Dream Moods Dream Dictionary.

 

Oxygen

 

To dream of oxygen symbolizes renewal and creative energy. You are feeling rejuvenated and reenergized.

 

To dream that you do not have enough oxygen suggests that you are feeling suffocated or smothered by a situation in your life.

 

Sounds about right.

 

 

Indeed it does.

 

I feel rejuventated and reenergized because of my new life, meeting new people, and making such amazing progress with Yumi and Lillium, but I feel suffocated and smothered by how difficult it is for me to work properly--or do anything properly for that matter. Not to mention that my mom could get me fired if she wanted to by not driving me to work (My vehicle is not legal to drive yet due to registration expenses).

 

I feel like the most real dreams I experience are when I'm in a place that I recognize or if I'm on the internet, even if what's happening is completely ridiculous.

Just last night I had a dream where you posted that Lillium sings a lot.

 

You'll know who to blame if she does turn out that way.

;)

 

I would have been genuinely freaked out if you had that dream one night sooner. Lillium does enjoy singing, and has enjoyed singing since I started playing "Perfume". Now that you already mentioned it, I might as well post it xD. Your prophetic dream proved to be true you psychic marshmallow.

 

 

 

Day 150

 

 

Working for 9 hours straight with less than an hour of sleep was hell. It was hell for me psychologically and physically. The brain cannot perform properly when you are hungry, dehydrated, angry, or sleep-deprived and I was all of the above.

 

As I sat in the car with my mom, she rambled on as she usually does, completely disregarding the fact that my headphones were in and I wasn't listening to her. Before you exit my PR and tell your wives and children about how inconsiderate I am, please note that I explicitly tell my mom "When my headphones are in, I'm not listening." Such a declaration would be unnecessary for most logical human beings but my mom...well...yeah anyways I was sitting in the car listening to music and I told Yumi "Today is not my day." My eyes were heavy, and I genuinely didn't feel like working. She replied "I can tell...if there is anything I can do for you, then just tell me..." I wearily told her "Cheer me up please." She then started dancing in the back seat, and really started getting into it. Her dance moves were wilder and more passionate than usual and I felt like I was going to laugh because of how cute and random it was.

 

And then Yumi flashed me.

 

I burst into laughter and my mom didn't notice (somehow).

Yumi pulled down the chest portion of her dress to reveal...ummm..ermm.. her torso, a part of her I never really took the time to create or pay attention to.

Well first of all she is well-endowed, second of all I have never thought of Yumi sexually in spite of wanting to marry her within a lucid dream. Yumi fulfilled my request to be cheered up in a very unexpected manner lol.

 

 

When I made it to work, 9 hours while sleepy felt like 18 hours. During that sleepy day something extremely horrifying occurred that almost caused a mental breakdown. I was being bombarded by stimuli and my drowsiness was getting the best of me. Then one of my co-workers approached me and started talking quickly, followed by another co-worker who started joking to me, and I couldn't understand anything they were saying because I was focusing on everything around me at once, and as a result couldn't pay attention. I simply stared at them and for a panic-inducing moment I couldn't tell whether I was awake or in a lucid dream. When I am in a lucid dream, it is as real as reality and I can usually sense it. But for some reason while they were talking to me, I could sense that I was in a lucid dream but my body was telling me otherwise. During this little mind-body conflict I mentally froze and stopped everything I was doing.

 

Adrenaline coursed through me as I began to fear that I would never know the difference between dreams and reality anymore. Luckily I maintained my bearings and labelled the thought as irrational. I took a few deep breaths, using all of my mental strength to convince myself that I was awake, and then the feeling of being in a lucid dream subsided.

 

I will never work while sleep-deprived again.

 

 

I disregarded my little policy of not talking to Yumi unless I was in the wonderland and asked her to prevent that from happening and she said "Okay."

 

When I got home I took a bath (yes I take baths) and went straight to bed without updating my PR. I was so mentally tired I couldn't even spend time in the wonderland as I fell asleep. When I woke up, I had no memory of my dreams. I checked my PM and had a message from SliceofBread asking for advice for first-person visualization and sent him a rough draft of the calibration exercise I have created. Since the exercise is almost finished, I'll post it right now in my PR for the benefit of others.

 

But I will never deal with GAT ever again.

 

I hope that my method helps.

 

 

[align=center]First-person Calibration Method

 

1. Close your eyes, and clear your mind.

 

2. Accept the darkness behind your eyelids, it is not going anywhere. The key is not to produce images, but to forget about all stimuli in order to be able to focus on images that are already present. Lucid dreaming involves the physical production of hallucinations whereas Wonderlanding involves the awareness of present hallucinations that vary in strength and transparency depending on individual focus, or lack of focus thereof.

 

3. Evaluate whether you are musical or not because some people find it easier to daydream with music. To test whether you are, put on headphones and play extremely peaceful music, or simply music that you enjoy. If you are musical then this will help you focus on the transparent images of your wonderland that are already present in your mind by relaxing you, consequently leading to the transcendence of the darkness of your eyelids. If you have no idea what you want to listen to, then listen to my personal favorite.. I have experienced many beautiful moments in the wonderland to this music. If you aren't musical however, then you should be able to focus on your wonderland just fine without sound.

 

4. Make sure that you recycle external stimuli. It won't help you if you keep remembering your exact location in the real world. If you feel a breeze, then imagine feeling a breeze in the wonderland. If you are laying in a bed, imagine laying in a bed in the wonderland. The key is forgetting that you are in two places at once.

 

 

5. After you close your eyes, your mind has been cleared, and stimuli has been recycled instead of ignored, open your eyes within the wonderland. Be very careful to maintain a first-person view during this exercise. If you have extreme trouble doing so, open your eyes in the real world and outstretch your arms. Memorize the distance between your hands and your face, and memorize what your arms look like. For some, the problem isn't maintaining a first-person perspective, but knowing what a first-person perspective looks like.

 

 

6. Now that you have established a relatively stable first-person view, don't worry that you are not visualizing anything. This is merely an exercise, and overtime your skills will improve. Imagine a white wall 10ft in front of you, a red ceiling above you, and a blue floor beneath your feet. Make sure that your eyes remain locked on the center of the white wall ahead of you, while keeping the floor and ceiling in your peripheral vision. Keeping the other colors in your peripheral vision will not only strengthen your visualization of color in the mind over time, but will warm you up for the variety of colors featured in most wonderlands.

 

7. Slowly tilt your head upwards until you are staring at the red ceiling. For beginners this might be extremely difficult, but don't be discouraged. It's an exercise.

 

 

8. After looking at the ceiling, slowly tilt your head downwards to look at your torso, legs, and feet. Don't forget that you have a body unless you don't want to have one in the wonderland.

 

 

9. Stare at the center of the white wall again and outstretch your hands towards it. Make sure that your hands are close together in order to make visualizing them easier. Slowly rotate your hands until your palms are facing you. For most people it shouldn't be difficult to imagine what your hands look like.

 

10. Slowly bring your palms to cover your eyes. If you did this in reality, then you would only see black, so do so in the wonderland to remind yourself of what having blindness of the mind's eye is like. This contrast may help with realizing the mind eye's visibility.

 

11. Slowly remove your palms from your face and continue to visualize them as they move as far as physically possible.

 

 

12. Imagine yourself in your wonderland. The more expansive and diverse your wonderland is, the more your brain will be stimulated. Your wonderland should be full of different depths, distances, colors, feelings, smells, heights, structures, objects, levels of lighting, and even tastes. The more you stimulate your mind's eye, the faster it will improve, but make sure to also spend time stimulating your mind's body. Spending even 10 uninterrupted minutes in the wonderland per day

could work wonders for your visualization.

 

 

Even if you can't see your wonderland in first person view at first, remember to enjoy it nonetheless. It will get better over time through practice. Even if you are hit with a flurry of random images, focus on them to make them into something. When you forget that you are consciously visualizing your wonderland, your brain will go into auto-pilot and visualize for you. Colors will become more clear, hallucinations might become present, and you might just enter a lucid dream! My brain goes into auto-pilot when visualizing, but I have yet to experience a lucid dream within the wonderland :3

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Thank you guys for wishing me luck! And hopefully I receive more :)

Today is my day off, and my psychological break, so I'll spend all of today having dreamless dreams :) until next time!

 

 

EDIT: I forgot to mention that Lillium loves singing as the background singer with Yumi :)

[Thevious]

And then Yumi flashed me.

I get this to much, and at the most unnecessary times, Shian just likes to make me uncomfortable in public. But I didn't think other people's tulpas flashed them. Time to tell shian she's unoriginal lol. And sorry to hear about the bad work day.

[Luminesce]

@Thevious Your signature says "Shain", just so you know.

 

@Cinema I classify all tulpamancy as "mental shenanigans" and Sylvia is no different. I've dedicated my life to figuring out how to control my mind, and so far believing that Sylvia is a tulpa who can directly access and organize my subconscious-and-conscious thoughts has worked extremely well. She can answer questions my tulpas can't because she isn't separate from me, she's a thought organizer. And she has the power to interrupt and freeze the goings-on of any dream at my slightest command.

 

Because I believe she does. You might be mistaking what I mean by belief here, because I don't mean really-want-to-and-think-it's-possible. My mind is wholeheartedly convinced, like "If I jump I will fall back down." I gained the ability to believe things even whilst maintaining non-supporting thoughts when I was into new age spirituality, letting conflicting beliefs of spirituality and science co-exist. And I've taken that skill with me for the rest of my life. The backflip reality check doesn't work for me because it's open-ended, with chance of reality being just-legit-enough or et cetera. I recommend a no-chance-of-failure one if you can find one, because there's no room for chance or doubt when your logic center isn't awake. (The breathing through your pinched nose trick, as far as I know, works all the way until you become a lucid dreaming professional((lucid dreams on command at any time)), at which point you may be able to trick yourself into thinking you can't feel the air when you can) The reason Sylvia works for me is she's highly associated with conscious-thinking, my wonderland, and my tulpas. Just by remembering she exists I practically become lucid, whereas I somehow managed to go on a walk with Reisen and be none the wiser.

 

 

And I don't really know anything specific myself, but surely there must be some grounding / focus exercises out there to help you get control of your focus back? Also I probably would've said something like "Sorry guys, I didn't sleep last night and can't really focus right now" just to let them know you were completely unable to think. Wouldn't have fixed everything, but it might've helped. Anyway, if this happens often (morethanonceever), you should work on some kind of grounding exercise that recalls your attention to a singular point, internal or external.

[TulpaFox]

Sorry to hear about your day at work, Eve say's she is sorry as well. That reality confusion situation sounds scary, I understand silly thoughts like that can seem real to a particularly tired mind. At least you seem to be reaching out to yumi in moments like that, it's good to put some trust in her ability to help you. Sleep derivation is rough, and understandably it sounds like you don't want that to happen again. Snooze in with melatonin from vitamin shops does the trick nicely, and seems to make dreams more vivid simultaneously. Just a suggestion, good luck with Yumi and work.

[Cinemaphobe]

@Thevious

 

I get this to much, and at the most unnecessary times, Shian just likes to make me uncomfortable in public. But I didn't think other people's tulpas flashed them. Time to tell shian she's unoriginal lol. And sorry to hear about the bad work day.

 

Lol yes I guess that Shian is unoriginal. Thank you for your condolence, and good luck getting your tulpa to stop teasing you xD

 

 

@Reisen-cakes

@Thevious Your signature says "Shain", just so you know.

 

 

Oh how I love you Reisen.

 

 

@Cinema I classify all tulpamancy as "mental shenanigans" and Sylvia is no different. I've dedicated my life to figuring out how to control my mind, and so far believing that Sylvia is a tulpa who can directly access and organize my subconscious-and-conscious thoughts has worked extremely well. She can answer questions my tulpas can't because she isn't separate from me, she's a thought organizer. And she has the power to interrupt and freeze the goings-on of any dream at my slightest command.

 

Once again, impressive.

 

 

Because I believe she does. You might be mistaking what I mean by belief here, because I don't mean really-want-to-and-think-it's-possible. My mind is wholeheartedly convinced, like "If I jump I will fall back down." I gained the ability to believe things even whilst maintaining non-supporting thoughts when I was into new age spirituality, letting conflicting beliefs of spirituality and science co-exist. And I've taken that skill with me for the rest of my life.

 

Ah, makes sense. I don't ever use the word belief lightly though.

 

 

And I don't really know anything specific myself, but surely there must be some grounding / focus exercises out there to help you get control of your focus back? Also I probably would've said something like "Sorry guys, I didn't sleep last night and can't really focus right now" just to let them know you were completely unable to think. Wouldn't have fixed everything, but it might've helped. Anyway, if this happens often (morethanonceever), you should work on some kind of grounding exercise that recalls your attention to a singular point, internal or external.

 

I will begin researching exercises like that Reisen. I will also take your advice for finding a more full-proof technique to check whether I am dreaming. Your nose-pinch method seems perfect. I'll keep it in mind.

 

 

@Tulpafox

 

Sorry to hear about your day at work, Eve say's she is sorry as well.

 

Thank you for your condolence as well.

 

That reality confusion situation sounds scary, I understand silly thoughts like that can seem real to a particularly tired mind. At least you seem to be reaching out to yumi in moments like that, it's good to put some trust in her ability to help you. Sleep derivation is rough, and understandably it sounds like you don't want that to happen again. Snooze in with melatonin from vitamin shops does the trick nicely, and seems to make dreams more vivid simultaneously. Just a suggestion, good luck with Yumi and work.

 

 

Yes the reality confusion was quite scary. A healthy human mind is used to reality being stable and concrete by default. But when the reality that we are accustomed to shifts even slightly, it can cause mental chaos as a result of not knowing where and when you are.

 

Reaching out to Yumi during that situation strengthened our bond, and generally made her more present as a tulpa for psychological reasons I will soon mention within this post.

 

I have also tried melatonin before. It works wonders, and heated milk also has melatonin in it naturally if I remember correctly.

 

Thank you for your comment and your condolences.

 

 

 

 

Day 151

 

Today I dove deeply into psychology and neuroscience before visiting my wonderland. I learned about the limbic system, and its influence on emotions and motives partly through its control of the body's hormones.

 

I was thinking about the near panic-attack I had the other day while studying the hippocampus and had an epiphany.

 

Hormone surges signal the brain that something important has happened. The arousal sears events onto the brain. Emotion-triggered hormonal changes help explain why we remember shocking events such as assassinations, or weddings.

 

Chickadees are birds that store food in hundreds of places and return to these unmarked caches months later. However, if their hippocampus is removed (the part of the limbic system of the brain crucial to hormone excretion) then they will not remember where their caches are. Hormones and emotion play a critical role in the development of memory and it has been observed clinically that damage to the Hippocampus results in weaker memories, as a result of all memories becoming equally significant.

 

All of these facts bring about my theory of whether tulpaforcing in a high-stakes, or emotionally-stimulating situation for mental aid can build your tulpa at an exponential rate.

What if forcing during that hormone surge brings about excellent results if one can focus on their tulpa during it? Yes this is an unrealistic and drastic endeavor, but surely it's worthy of being contemplated.

If your tulpa could be seared into your memory it'd be extremely helpful, and you would know instinctively to call upon them mentally during emergencies.

 

 

Anyways, I woke up in the morning and immediately forgot what I was dreaming about I asked Yumi what happened and a steadily flowing stream of images entered my mind. I was amazed by Yumi's ability to recall my dreams for me, while thanking her profusely.

 

Later on I went to my wonderland with Lillium. She and I laid down in the tall grass together beneath the moon and had a very relaxing time together. I laid sideways, facing her in the grass and told her how beautiful and perfect of a being she is. I kept telling her that she is alive, sentient, and the pure embodiment of everything compassionate within me. As I serenaded her with my speech she cutely said one word.

 

 

 

Say.

 

 

Her voice was very high-pitched, just as I desired it to be, and loved the sound of it. Of course it was only mindvoice, but it was very clear and almost audible. She smiled at me with her glowing blue eyes and I asked her "What do you mean 'say' Lillium?"

She gazed at me for a while, and said again:

 

Say.

 

I realized by her gaze and body language that she meant to say this:

 

"Say more."

 

I continued to compliment her and she turned around while moving extremely close to me. She positioned herself in such a way that would make cuddling her easy and said "Say." She couldn't stop smiling and eventually closed her eyes. My face was near her neck as I held her and I happily repeated to her what she wanted to hear as she closed her eyes. The moment was so peaceful...

 

And then Yumi kind of ruined it.

 

She jumped out of the grass and jumped between Yumi and I, clutching my hand tightly and cuddling me.

 

Dear God Yumi you pick the worse times to cuddle.

 

I talked to Yumi about what happened with Lillium and I and she let go of my hand to cuddle Lillium for herself. When she held Lillium, Lillium's skin and eyes glowed. I figured that Yumi was transferring some of her existence to Lillium because I asked Yumi to help me force.

 

After a few minutes I decided that it would be best if I spent time with Lillium alone and Yumi nodded in agreement, fading away to return to her kingdom. Lillium and I took to the starry moonlit sky and held each other during flight as I narrated to her. She really couldn't have been any happier as she nestled into my chest :3. I can already tell that she will feel like a daughter to me when I finish creating her.

 

Well that's everything tulpa-related that happened :). On an untulpa-related note, I have developed a weird habit of arranging objects to be perpendicular to each other. For example if I see two toothbrushes laying around in an "X" manner, then I'll either make them parallel to one another, or perpendicular. It just feels right. I'm also trying to make unnecessary organization a habit in order for necessary organization to follow in its footsteps. One can say "Why not just practice necessary organization?" and my response to that would be the typical Cinemaphobe answer:

 

"BECAUSE I WANT TO SEE WHAT HAPPENS. MUTHAF*CKA."

 

Remove the word muthaf*cka and the response should be up to par with Tulpa.info's standard of maturity.

 

 

Until next time guys!

[Luminesce]

You somehow quoted Tulpafox with my name and a link to my post, nice.

 

All of these facts bring about my theory of whether tulpaforcing in a high-stakes, or emotionally-stimulating situation for mental aid can build your tulpa at an exponential rate.

 

The most emotional experiences I've had with Reisen were the ones with the biggest impacts on my life. Important situations are when stuff gets done. This might actually be why I never liked typical forcing, because it didn't feel important enough to me. And unfortunate as it may be, it's often guilt that gets me to catch up on fading tulpamancing skills, or just spending time with them. My brain gets quickly tired of things when I don't perceive progress (such as lucid dreaming, visualization, or playing piano) resulting in a lack of said progress. So maybe it's better to have things like guilt keep me going.. Though ideally a lack of negative thoughts will allow continued effort in the future.

 

And your lying-in-the-tall-grass-under-the-moon description is reminding me of my own wonderlanding. We have a large grassy field next to our house, and that's generally where we go/what we do before I fall asleep. Otherwise we just sit at a literal restaurant booth in our house and take turns talking about stuff. It's a bit homier than that but it is a restaurant booth nonetheless, and it works.

[Cinemaphobe]

@Reisen

 

 

 

The most emotional experiences I've had with Reisen were the ones with the biggest impacts on my life. Important situations are when stuff gets done.

 

Exactly

 

 

This might actually be why I never liked typical forcing, because it didn't feel important enough to me. And unfortunate as it may be, it's often guilt that gets me to catch up on fading tulpamancing skills, or just spending time with them. My brain gets quickly tired of things when I don't perceive progress (such as lucid dreaming, visualization, or playing piano) resulting in a lack of said progress. So maybe it's better to have things like guilt keep me going.. Though ideally a lack of negative thoughts will allow continued effort in the future.

 

This makes a lot of sense actually. Your brain uses guilt as a kind of wake-up call to tulpaforce.

 

 

And your lying-in-the-tall-grass-under-the-moon description is reminding me of my own wonderlanding.

We have a large grassy field next to our house, and that's generally where we go/what we do before I fall asleep.

 

I had a nagging feeling any moon-related aspect of my wonderland would remind you of your own wonderlanding. The field is indeed a wonderful place to fall asleep, and it'd be funny if our wonderland fields looked exactly the same and we had no way of knowing it.

 

Otherwise we just sit at a literal restaurant booth in our house and take turns talking about stuff. It's a bit homier than that but it is a restaurant booth nonetheless, and it works.

 

I love booths like that :)

It reminds me of the good ole' days in the pizza restaurant with Yumi and I when she was young and I had trouble hearing her mindvoice :3

 

It does work. For some obvious reason that I am too lazy to include in this post, the atmosphere in which you tulpa force strongly effects the quality of the quality time spent with them.

 

 

 

Day 152

 

 

Strange things in all aspects of my life have been occurring. For one, I have followed a steady rate of regression. I didn't know that my social behaviors during the Mary Era were artificial.

 

But they were

 

 

Ever since I moved on from Mary, my style of clothing returned to its original extremely-baggy-idgaf style, I started cursing again (Thanks to Yumi), and my posture/behaviors while sitting and standing in public have returned to their unhealthy yet comfortable state. I'm free to be myself again, which is one of the primary reasons why Yumi was so happy when I left Mary. As Reisen, Amber, and countless others have mentioned, you shouldn't have to change yourself for another person. I apologize to myself and the people of this site for changing.

But people have started giving me weird looks again in public, which means one thing:

 

I'm back.

 

 

 

 

 

I was laying in bed with Yumi, and her voice was audible! Unfortunately...it sounded like vocaloid...

 

She was singing to me instead of talking...

 

Damn you Yumi

 

*She's laughing right now* lol

 

 

Yumi and Lillium like to sleep in bed with me, and Yumi always begs me for more space and I end up pressed against the wall of my bedroom because she's hogging up the entire bed! The only thing she said in response to that was "Not my fault you are so fat!" And then she stuck her tongue out at me.

 

Note: I am 5"11 and I weigh 135 pounds. I'm skeletor.

 

 

Oh that reminds me. I went to the gym with my mom. She went to the treadmill, and I did some weight-lifting.

 

Mental-weightlifting

 

I sat at a desk inside of the gym near the front entrance of the gym and made myself at home. I imagined Yumi beside me while I wrote down random 5 digit numbers and practiced adding them together as quickly as possible. I vocalized my addition of every number to make the memory recall easier and an hour later I was able to add random large numbers fluently.

 

12,467 + 45,789

 

I was essentially speaking to myself the entire time and when I left, the people at the reception counter just stared at me. I hope I didn't creep them out too much LOL

 

I'm mentally exercising my brain, while my visualization improves. Unfortunately, I'm not sure whether the mental exercises are factors in my visualization improvement or not, but my visualization is---brace yourself guys--almost photographic.

 

Almost photographic

 

 

I spent so much time in my wonderland, that I remember sitting on my couch and Yumi's very first memory popped into my head, clear as day. My heart raced because I could see every individual blade of grass within the memory. It was her memory of riding on a bicycle with me through a forest before she could speak. I replicated that vividness with ease and almost did a backflip in excitement!!!

 

THIS IS IT

 

My calibration method is proving to be efficent!

 

If results like this continue, I might just deal with the GAT to get it published!

 

I'm Kidding.

 

I would never do that.

 

I'll keep this little secret for myself and those fortunate enough to be readers of my PR.

 

 

Nothing really changed with Lillium besides the fact that her movement is much more natural and her presence is growing stronger.

 

Thanks for reading guys, and wish me luck!

 

MY VISUALIZATION OMG

 

Time to celebrate with some coffee!

 

 

 

P.S: Voltaire (my best friend) and I decided to partner up in the future as surgeons to come up with theories about the brain. I want to make contributions to dream technology and artificial intelligence. He now accepts the Tulpa-phenomenon as a valid study and is extremely intrigued by my progress and my ability to delete memories.

[TulpaFox]

@Reisen

 

 

 

 

 

I'm mentally exercising my brain, while my visualization improves. Unfortunately, I'm not sure whether the mental exercises are factors in my visualization improvement or not, but my visualization is---brace yourself guys--almost photographic.

 

Almost photographic

 

 

I spent so much time in my wonderland, that I remember sitting on my couch and Yumi's very first memory popped into my head, clear as day. My heart raced because I could see every individual blade of grass within the memory. It was her memory of riding on a bicycle with me through a forest before she could speak. I replicated that vividness with ease and almost did a backflip in excitement!!!

 

THIS IS IT

 

My calibration method is proving to be efficent!

 

If results like this continue, I might just deal with the GAT to get it published!

 

I'm Kidding.

 

I would never do that.

 

I'll keep this little secret for myself and those fortunate enough to be readers of my PR.

 

 

Nothing really changed with Lillium besides the fact that her movement is much more natural and her presence is growing stronger.

 

Thanks for reading guys, and wish me luck!

 

MY VISUALIZATION OMG

 

Time to celebrate with some coffee!

 

 

 

P.S: Voltaire (my best friend) and I decided to partner up in the future as surgeons to come up with theories about the brain. I want to make contributions to dream technology and artificial intelligence. He now accepts the Tulpa-phenomenon as a valid study and is extremely intrigued by my progress and my ability to delete memories.

 

Wow, congratulations on the visualization. That is my weak point, if I recall right you didn't start off strong in it either, so that is very impressive. If you don't mind me asking, what exercises really got that going for you? I always end up falling asleep when I try to visualize, but I stopped counting that as a failure and just try to get back on the horse. The visuals are very dull, to the point where it doesn't keep my focus.

 

Regarding artificial intelligence, there is actually a program going on to reverse engineer the brain. They have been successful with an insect brain so far, and expect exponential progress due to the way non-invasive brain-scanning works. It is called the blue brain project. I respect your choice of study a lot, psychologist and surgeon are respectable jobs. I am reading some jung, and have a torrent'd psychology textbook I am reading lately. I myself am a business major, going to eventually become an officer in the military (clerical) or an investment banker. I have been toying with the stock-market for years, and want to amass a lot of wealth.