Long "hiatus" and returning

[Lugia]

Hello, may be my first time posting on this site but I have been actively reading and researching for around 2 years now.

 

For a while I was active in this field and had a strong sense of direction in what I felt I needed to do. Creating Aiden was far from difficult and I also began housing other thought forms as well, working and living with them all very well.

 

However, for many months now, I've been very, secluded, with my mind. Not really paying the same kind of passive attention like I used to 24/7 and my active habits dropped from practically daily to never.

 

Recently, I've been really wanting to get back to living how i did (moods have been very unstable and I've been unhappy with myself due to the almost complete ditching of a partner I've had since before I could remember *different story*). However, upon returning to the practices, I feel completely lost, no sense of direction for what I should be doing. The sensations I used to have during active sessions don't really match up to how they were and I end up sitting in a meditative state with nothing going on in the mind.

 

I just don't know how to return to where I was. The activity I used to have during the day seems to be transferred to my sleep. I've been having insidiously vivid dreams on a daily basis now. Perhaps this could be a sort of sign? I'm not sure...

 

Any sort of help would be greatly appreciated. I know everyone is there, I just can't sense them like i used to.

[DragonFriend]

I think I understand where you are coming from pretty well.

Here's how I usually find some purpose to what I am doing: Find something that you want to work towards. Let's just say imposition. Find out how. Look up some methods/guides/tricks, try some out. Find out what's best for you and your Tulpa. Dedicate yourself to one of these or a few that seem to work for you. For one night, do this in an active forcing session. The next night, just spend time with your Tulpa. Talk, do some activity with them, go on an adventure, anything. Just something that requires you and your tulpa to interact and that you both enjoy/find relaxing. Continue with practising imposition the night after, and so on. If, say, on one night you feel very tired, it can be flexible and just relax with your Tulpa, even if you are supposed to be doing imposition. As long as it is with your Tulpa.

Practising every other night then just enjoying yourselves the other nights I would say is a good way for your Tulpa to develop.

 

I don't know about the dreams, but a sure way of focusing on your Tulpa throughout the day is to have something physical to remind you of them. I have a necklace of a dragon with a sapphire set in it to help remember Saphira. It seems to work most of the time, though with her personality it's not needed often. :D

 

Whatever you do, just give yourself some direction to what you are doing. From experience I know that not knowing what to do, or just going "I'm lost" and not doing anything (in my case anyway) does not help progress. Just say, right, we are going to... (talk, then read, or go on an adventure, practice...) and proceed to do that for however long.

 

I hope this does help. This is just from my experience and it may or may not be helpful to you.

Best of luck!