Air Dance

[Guest Anonymous]

It's a way, is all. Not exactly copy for imposition to work (though it still remains an option), but it helps to do so in order to get used to your tulpa being in a real environment. Once you do that, you can start effortlessly doing so in a real-life environment.

[NeonKnights]

Ah, I think I see what you mean. Well, cool, I'll give it a go then and see how far it takes me.

[NeonKnights]

I think I had some small measure of luck with imposing Nyaruko today. I lay on the couch, and had her sit on my bed, then tried to see her sitting there. I was talking to her about things the whole time, so I think slightly prying my mind away from the topic of imposition might have helped.

 

It kind of worked, but not to any astounding degree. I suppose that, more than anything else, I became more acquainted with what imposition is supposed to be like. I believe I'm beginning to grasp the whole concept of merging vision with mental vision.

 

It was a good day's tulpa work before some friends arrived to hang out. Now that I'm free once again, and the forcing with Nyaruko has more or less come to a close, I'm going to begin focusing in on Eiko (Teruya) starting at midnight. I'll probably throw some attention Isis' way, too, since I ended up having to take two days to properly force with Nyaruko.

 

Still no real news on the Yuri/Uni/Yuki situation, though plans are still set to give her a total reboot sometime in the near future.

 

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Well! Not exactly related to 'progress', but definitely related to a certain tulpa in every way. I found a video listed in the Related section of a video I was watching which had a girl in the thumbnail who appeared suspiciously similar to Isis. I investigated, naturally. It was an episode of Accel World, an anime that I had probably heard of once before but never seen or thought about watching. Still don't plan to, honestly. My jaw dropped when I saw the scene depicted in the thumbnail, though. The girl in question -- This girl, to be exact -- looks strikingly similar to Isis. The largest difference I can see is that Isis has a slightly larger bosom.

 

I don't know how much this character resembles her outside of this scene, and I don't think I really care to explore further, but still, I am amazed.

[NeonKnights]

At some point yesterday, I was making lewd jokes to Isis, dancing on the line as always, when she silenced me by saying something like, "not right now". It turned out she was angry with Eiko, who allegedly bit her on the neck. I don't know if she was making things up to make me sympathize with her, but her anger seemed pretty genuine, and it came as quite a surprise. While crafting Eiko's personality, nothing ever came up about vampirism, not even once.

I decided to take time out to ease Isis' feelings by singing some songs to her and holding her tightly, and ended up falling asleep at some point during this campaign. As always.

 

Now that I'm back in action (however briefly that may be), I realize that I still haven't done any of my planned forcing with Eiko. I really should, but I've been so distracted by Isis that it's been nearly impossible to get time in with Teruya. I suppose I'll make my best effort today.

[NeonKnights]

After a day (or two?) of ruthlessly hunting down car vandals, performing furniture reorganization, conducting Indochina-style pest control utilizing fire and chemicals, and sleeping fitfully on a couple of computer chairs as a result of the previous article, things are getting a bit weird in my mindscape.

 

The furniture reorganization has no doubt helped my spatial reasoning and ability to visualize things being elsewhere in the room. I'm even visualizing things that I don't have yet, like a full-size bed which I'm hoping to upgrade to soon (seeing as I torched my twin bed already without thinking of the consequences), but that progress hardly means a thing when I've basically wasted the past half an hour just making fun of Isis. Even in my current state, though, I realize that just because I say "Oh, I'm Isis, look at me, I'm a pretty lady!" in a mocking tone, it doesn't necessarily register as mockery given the actual content of the sentence. What am I even doing?

 

No matter. I have investigations to conduct and tulpas to force, I don't have time for sleep. A pot of coffee and a spin of Axis: Bold As Love and I should be back up on my feet again, ready for Round 3.

[NeonKnights]

Not much news to report, I've just been slowly continuing my spiral into madness with no proper bed to sleep on. I think some good may be coming of all of this, fortunately.

I detected a familiar scent at a Memorial Day party last night while talking to the female bartender. She had the same scent as Isis has had since sometime near the beginning. I don't know why that burned it into my memory so well, but I'm now finding myself able to feel as though I am physically smelling her scent in our most recent attempts at forcing.

 

I've also found that my ability to visualize Nyaruko has remained really sharp, despite the fact that I've been more concerned with forcing her personality than her form.

 

Other than retaining my visualization skills and having more success with olfactory forcing, my attempts at forcing in general have been fairly pathetic. I've been trying to force with each one of them, and am finding myself unable to focus in on any of them for more than a couple minutes before I start to get distracted by how horrible I feel or how much I wish I could lie down comfortably and get a good twenty hours of sleep.

 

Oh well. This hellish, albeit brief, period of my life will be over soon enough, and I'm certain my tulpas will be patient with me as I try to hold it together.

[Guest]

Wow! You seem to be makin progress!

[NeonKnights]

Yeah, after a while of more or less just spinning my wheels, it appears I've finally begun to make some forward progress once again. It's pretty exciting to have broken the deadlock at long last.

[NeonKnights]

I think I'm finally beginning to feel ready to develop Yuri. I'm still sorting out some details, of course, and probably won't begin with her for a week or two. I'm going to take my time here, since I want to make sure I do everything right with her.

 

Besides, there are a number of things I'm still trying to decide. For instance, the friend who introduced me to these forums (despite not being a member himself) treats his tulpa as though she's his little sister, and I'm starting to think that I might like having that sort of relationship with Yuri. The main thing I'm still considering in regards to that is the fact that it would get really weird in a hurry if she confesses romantic feelings to me down the road.

[NeonKnights]

It seems the more time passes, the more issues and concerns build up. Now, in addition to concerning myself over what type of relationship I want/should have with Yuri, I'm also ensnared in a self-imposed 14-day tulpa waiting period. I'm struggling over whether or not to make a tulpa out of Fujiwara Kaoruko, and I think it's killing me.

 

Now that I've had a chance to shower, eat, and get some rest for the first time in a couple of rough days, I might be able to think a bit more clearly, or perhaps seek counsel from Isis. The way I see it, Kaoruko would be a more level-headed and objective tulpa than any of her predecessors, almost like Isis was before her personality started developing and deviating. There's something I like about that, I guess, as much as I love who Isis has become.

 

Despite the waiting period, I'm really beginning to think that I should just start working on her, slow and proper, consequences be damned. With a little bit of quiet thinking, it's dawned on me that this won't be an issue unless I make it into an issue. Guess I'll be mulling that over today to distract me from the heat while I operate on one of my cars.