Chit Chat Corner 2: Phobias!

[ableddistress]

Fucking dolls.

 

[jean-luc]

Bees. Fuck bees. All the bees are dying? Good. (And wasps.)

[SomethingDire]

Wasps can fuck right off, but bees?... C'mon.

[Evil]

I did not mean to bring all of those emotions to the thread; but I feel glad that some things were taken off your chest.

 

I.. I am so horrified. I don't even fucking know anymore. The beauty in them, the simple, crystal-clear points and creativity they've brought, I can't even fucking imagine. I love them. I am in love with them, and there's no other way for me to put it. Fuck. I don't know how I'm supposed the explain this with words. I don't know how I'm supposed to make anyone understand other than Céleste about this. Would you understand if I said that I literally start fucking weeping and sobbing whenever I realize how literally stunning a video game was, with its everything, that my fingers started spasming as I turned one other page of that one book, with every word that vowed and progressed the plot? That I had to calm myself down forcefully after that one movie? I don't know anymore. I don't think there're any words out there to explain this.

 

And I'm so horrified that I won't be able to reach them after a while.

Not horrified. There's this pit in my stomach that spills its contents to my bloodstream whenever I think about being left alone by these treasures.

 

I believe you. I can relate with what you've said. I sometimes feel the exact same thing, but it's not a frequent occurrence. But I do understand what this implies. It's amazing to see this kind of appreciation in others.

[FadingSpectrum]

Fade: I'm not exactly scared of the dark itself. But I am, completely and utterly irrationally, afraid of encountering Eldritch Abominations in the dark. I know on a conscious, cognitive level that it's a stupid thing to be scared of. There's no Eldritch beings in the dark of my house. Nothing out there will attack me. But my brain doesn't seem to get that because it goes, "OH FUCK THERE'S SOMETHING OUT THERE LET ME JUST STAND STILL ON THE FLOOR FOR A WHILE AND PRETEND IT WON'T FIND ME".

And then I stay frozen in place for who knows how long.

 

Troy: This is why Demetrius frequently cofronts with Fade at night, and why we try to steer her away from creepypasta and the SCP website.

[SomethingDire]

I did not mean to bring all of those emotions to the thread; but I feel glad that some things were taken off your chest.

 

 

I believe you. I can relate with what you've said. I sometimes feel the exact same thing, but it's not a frequent occurrence. But I do understand what this implies. It's amazing to see this kind of appreciation in others.

 

Thank you. I'm glad someone understands.

 

I don't know if this is a curse or a blessing or something in between, but I can make myself cry even thinking about them. So, it's more than frequently with me. It takes a lot out of me, though.

 

Sometimes the feelings build up to extents that I have to go great lengths to cover. Some days I'm not capable of feeling at all. It's rarely in between, but you know that I wouldn't change them for anything.

 

Regardless, I don't want to bore you or act like the emotional wreck I am. So let me thank you again for understanding and well eh, contuniue on with the thread, I guess? :)

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Fade: I'm not exactly scared of the dark itself. But I am, completely and utterly irrationally, afraid of encountering Eldritch Abominations in the dark. I know on a conscious, cognitive level that it's a stupid thing to be scared of. There's no Eldritch beings in the dark of my house. Nothing out there will attack me. But my brain doesn't seem to get that because it goes, "OH FUCK THERE'S SOMETHING OUT THERE LET ME JUST STAND STILL ON THE FLOOR FOR A WHILE AND PRETEND IT WON'T FIND ME".

And then I stay frozen in place for who knows how long.

 

Troy: This is why Demetrius frequently cofronts with Fade at night, and why we try to steer her away from creepypasta and the SCP website.

 

 

...Keep her away from the SCP site. KEEP HER AWAY FROM THAT SITE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD. The Creepypasta wiki is alright once you get used to it BUT KEEP HER AWAY FROM THE SCP WEBSITE.

[Paranoid Llama]

*picks nose stupidly at all the emotion in the thread*

 

I don't have any specific phobia.

[Luminesce]

Fade: I'm not exactly scared of the dark itself. But I am, completely and utterly irrationally, afraid of encountering Eldritch Abominations in the dark.

 

I'm gonna be completely honest with you guys. How I confronted fear of the dark, unknown, and possible malicious entities/eldritch things...

 

Was by thinking, "If I die to some Slender-Zombie that had the ability to get into my room silently, well, that'll make quite the news. The existence of such a creature would be revolutionary, and would so hugely affect the world. My life is inconsequential in comparison to such a thing, and I should be proud to be the first victim of the zombie apocalypse or chupacathulu." As for things that could remove your existence entirely, or things like The Silence, I guess we'd just be so screwed if they existed they're not even worth worrying about, similar to death in general.

 

And you guys thought my beliefs on tulpas and the nature of consciousness were hard to adopt. I am weird.

 

Troy: This is why Demetrius frequently cofronts with Fade at night, and why we try to steer her away from creepypasta and the SCP website.

...Keep her away from the SCP site. KEEP HER AWAY FROM THAT SITE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD. The Creepypasta wiki is alright once you get used to it BUT KEEP HER AWAY FROM THE SCP WEBSITE.

 

I once read an article on that site about a blue pen that wrote in red. Anyone who wrote with the pen would become very distressed about the disparity of a blue pen writing in red and go crazy. Good stuff.

 

I'm sure it goes without saying, but the hundred or so articles I read on SCPs did nothing for me fear-wise. Had a lot of laughs and saw some interesting concepts, though.

 

 

I've got one more thing for you guys, to wrap up my whole "super tough guy who likes rabbits and doesn't afraid of anything" reputation. There are some unfortunate details though, the things I'm about to write about won't be very nice to imagine. It's basically a quick summation of me testing what my limit for horror/inhuman atrocities was. For the more squeamish (or sane) among you, suffice it to say I have none. You can stop reading here and just know that I'm basically a robot when it comes to disturbing stuff.

 

[hidden](srs tho for those of you that can't help yourselves but really should, a couple of these mental images might stick with you and should be avoided)

 

Being naturally logical to the point of, well, that explanation against fear of the dark, I've never really been bothered deeply by anything. So like 5-6 years ago, I went on a quest to see the absolute worst the internet had to offer, to try and find where my limit was. Literally everybody will tell you that there's always something worse than what you've seen before (that's true), and even though you think you're invincible there is stuff that will break you. Well, I started with the classic shock videos/images, and those were literally nothing to me (I'm pretty empathetic though, so things like 1guy1jar were somewhat unfortunate to witness..). I ended up getting to true gore and what was considered the worst the "clearnet" had to offer, which included things like human parasites and people jumping in front of trains. I think the worst of which was watching a child part of some religious extremist group in some foreign country attempting to decapitate someone with a knife that wasn't up to the job. When I literally watched a man bleed to death attempting to breath through a severed trachea, I figured I'd proved my point - I really am invincible. I promise I'm a humanitarian and care deeply for every single individual's well-being, but my brain automatically ceases caring for things outside of my control to prevent unnecessary stress. Videos and pictures have already happened - seeing something live would be required to really get me upset, but if it were truly out of my control to change I could probably still sleep at night. I can watch a video of a {young human being} fall onto some tracks right before a train comes by and wave it off with a "That's unfortunate.." But I feel really bad reading the GAT tear apart peoples' guides, and I freakin' melt when I watch videos of Japan's

(there's some mind bleach for you).

 

And with that, I think I'm done proving my complete and utter lack of ability to experience distress from external events. Things can still affect me if they're close to home, but they've gotta be really close to home to do so. I remember feeling absolutely horrible when Flandre told me she was useless and I should give all my attention to Reisen four years ago. But that really is how close you have to get to my heart before you actually affect me. And I make sure nothing like that ever happens.[/hidden]

[Lacquer]

I have an irrational fear of dogs that I've had since I was very young. I used to cry for half an hour or more if a dog was running towards me and barking. Recently I've gotten the knee-jerk fear reaction under control, but I still avoid dogs as much as I can, and the hatred of dogs that came with the fear has only subsided a small amount. I still get very anxious when around dogs of any kind.

 

There's some small other things, but my cynophobia is the main one.

[Guest Anonymous]

*picks nose stupidly at all the emotion in the thread*

 

I don't have any specific phobia.

 

 

I am terrified of someone fearlessly, boldy picking their nose.