Chit Chat Corner 2: Phobias!

[Vos]

A fear of grossly large spaces.

[Paranoid Llama]

I am terrified of someone fearlessly, boldy picking their nose.

 

 

[SomethingDire]

A fear of grossly large spaces.

 

Right there with you.

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I'm gonna be completely honest with you guys. How I confronted fear of the dark, unknown, and possible malicious entities/eldritch things...

 

Was by thinking, "If I die to some Slender-Zombie that had the ability to get into my room silently, well, that'll make quite the news. The existence of such a creature would be revolutionary, and would so hugely affect the world. My life is inconsequential in comparison to such a thing, and I should be proud to be the first victim of the zombie apocalypse or chupacathulu." As for things that could remove your existence entirely, or things like The Silence, I guess we'd just be so screwed if they existed they're not even worth worrying about, similar to death in general.

 

And you guys thought my beliefs on tulpas and the nature of consciousness were hard to adopt. I am weird.

 

 

I once read an article on that site about a blue pen that wrote in red. Anyone who wrote with the pen would become very distressed about the disparity of a blue pen writing in red and go crazy. Good stuff.

 

I'm sure it goes without saying, but the hundred or so articles I read on SCPs did nothing for me fear-wise. Had a lot of laughs and saw some interesting concepts, though.

 

 

I've got one more thing for you guys, to wrap up my whole "super tough guy who likes rabbits and doesn't afraid of anything" reputation. There are some unfortunate details though, the things I'm about to write about won't be very nice to imagine. It's basically a quick summation of me testing what my limit for horror/inhuman atrocities was. For the more squeamish (or sane) among you, suffice it to say I have none. You can stop reading here and just know that I'm basically a robot when it comes to disturbing stuff.

 

[hidden](srs tho for those of you that can't help yourselves but really should, a couple of these mental images might stick with you and should be avoided)

 

Being naturally logical to the point of, well, that explanation against fear of the dark, I've never really been bothered deeply by anything. So like 5-6 years ago, I went on a quest to see the absolute worst the internet had to offer, to try and find where my limit was. Literally everybody will tell you that there's always something worse than what you've seen before (that's true), and even though you think you're invincible there is stuff that will break you. Well, I started with the classic shock videos/images, and those were literally nothing to me (I'm pretty empathetic though, so things like 1guy1jar were somewhat unfortunate to witness..). I ended up getting to true gore and what was considered the worst the "clearnet" had to offer, which included things like human parasites and people jumping in front of trains. I think the worst of which was watching a child part of some religious extremist group in some foreign country attempting to decapitate someone with a knife that wasn't up to the job. When I literally watched a man bleed to death attempting to breath through a severed trachea, I figured I'd proved my point - I really am invincible. I promise I'm a humanitarian and care deeply for every single individual's well-being, but my brain automatically ceases caring for things outside of my control to prevent unnecessary stress. Videos and pictures have already happened - seeing something live would be required to really get me upset, but if it were truly out of my control to change I could probably still sleep at night. I can watch a video of a {young human being} fall onto some tracks right before a train comes by and wave it off with a "That's unfortunate.." But I feel really bad reading the GAT tear apart peoples' guides, and I freakin' melt when I watch videos of Japan's

(there's some mind bleach for you).

 

And with that, I think I'm done proving my complete and utter lack of ability to experience distress from external events. Things can still affect me if they're close to home, but they've gotta be really close to home to do so. I remember feeling absolutely horrible when Flandre told me she was useless and I should give all my attention to Reisen four years ago. But that really is how close you have to get to my heart before you actually affect me. And I make sure nothing like that ever happens.[/hidden]

 

 

I'm also not affected all that much from "inhumane actions/atrocities". I used to watch a lot of shockers and stuff like that at my time. Managed to laugh them off or just "Oooh" at the majority of them for a while. Then I started to think they were stupid (for obvious reasons) and gave up on watching them.

 

About the SCP site, nothing like that can scare me anymore. I just had way too many for a lifetime and now they do nothing for me. But if you're a person who gets creeped out by that stuff, that is one of the places you shouldn't go to.

[FadingSpectrum]

About the SCP site, nothing like that can scare me anymore. I just had way too many for a lifetime and now they do nothing for me. But if you're a person who gets creeped out by that stuff, that is one of the places you shouldn't go to.

 

Fade: My imagination is a little too active these days, I think. It sort of brings that stuff to life in my mind and the darkness. Knowing it isn't real is removed from the creepy feeling that it might be. Even though it isn't.

[Pioneer11]

I’m terribly afraid of forgetting. Forgetting my Tulpa or the emotions that I love, not being able one day to find anything that I wanted to hold dear inside my mind, my research, my art and most of all our “life” inside the Wonderland. Most of all I’m afraid of the notion that his existence depends on me, so if I truly stop thinking about him he’ll disappear; and I’ll never be truly “me” without “him” because we share too much.

 

This resonates with me very much:

 

I can not think of a life without the ideas that made me into the person I am today.

I can not think of a life without without the ideals and the beliefs that I've tied myself to.

My hands shake even with the thought of that, as they're doing now.

 

 

To combat it I’m working on writing down our conversations, or transcribe the music we make, and so on. I’m trying to build a bridge that connects my fantasy world to reality.

[Dreamer Boy]

Two things, I have a fear of dying from disease or cancer, genetically I am more apt to get it sadly. If I die I want it to be like in space or fighting the mafia or eaten by the yeti, not get killed by something I can't prevent, secluded to a hospital bed. That brings me to my next fear.

 

The fear of being stuck in a normal life, wake up, eat, work, make money, buy food, eat, sleep, and repeat. I don't do normalcy. Luckily in my line of work I don't have to worry about that, but still. Now it's Baron's turn.

 

"I am afraid of those stories where the Tulpas have been neglected and become evil. It hurts more than anything. I know I would not let myself become that, it's just wrong that those Tulpae went through hell only to become something far worse. They don't deserve that."

 

Sorry that it's not color coated, but I am on mobile right now so I am just using annotations for Baron's part.

[Lacquer]

Really, those stories are just made up fakey-fake fictional creepypastas. Like the actual tulpa creepypasta that's been around since at least mid 2011, or those greentexts that all get replies about Jackie Chan tulpas.

 

As to your second fear, I find it funny that I'm the exact opposite. What you're describing is the ideal for me. I love boring, I love normal.

[Piaapo]

I think I have a little androphobia, fear of men.

 

I have only many female friends but only a few male friends (I'm a guy). The main reason is that I don't trust men much. I think most of them emotionless creatures who are not capable of decent brain activity. I don't have sympathy for male characters as much as female characters in fiction.

 

I'm not afraid of men attacking me or beating me up but I'm rather afraid of verbal abuse.

[Drakaina]

I know it's a pretty common one, but in terrified of spiders. I either freeze up or run away screaming.

 

I also legitimately have agoraphobia. I start to have anxiety up to full blown panic when I leave my house. :P

[Piaapo]

I don't know how to relate to arachnophobia. I mean I do understand why they might look creepy but I personally think they're cute.