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warning; this post briefly mentions abuse of tulpa and uses the word trafficking once, please skip if you are not comfortable.

 

lotus’ forcing thread 


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hello, my name is lotus, i am a mystery age… somewhere in the usa… coding student, mexican amercian… yadda yadda yadda… thats not what anyone is here to see… and this thread is mostly for my own tracking, i know myself already lol… 

 

ive tried to make tulpae in the past, but i truly believe i was not in a healthy enough mindset to do so. finally, after over seven years of working with a trauma specialist, i feel stable enough to pick up this practice…

 

 despite having been involved beforehand, my knowledge is incredibly outdated. while old does not necessarily mean “bad”, older methods tend to not work with me. having been severely traumatized i am unable to force for even minutes without accidentally triggering a flashback… but that’s what the therapy was for… we’ll see. im still honestly averse to active forcing, mainly because of my adhd… but it just doesn’t feel like what’s right for me. im rambling, but i guess that’s ok. 

 

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the issue is i still have a lot of old ideas of how tulpamancy works, having been involved with the wrong side of the community when i first learned about it; such as tulpa becoming extremely hostile when based of characters (which i know now is completely untrue. i have heard it can be harmful, but most seem divided. from the tulpa’s that are based off existing characters i’ve personally met, their hosts give them the characteristics of a character, but not necessarily the same background and allowing wiggle room for their own personality… i think that’s good… but i don’t know, im new.) along with hosts using their tulpa for undesirable reasons. im going to read through the science forum and a few guides, to help me reconstruct my view on tulpa… i honestly avoided it for quite few years when i read someone manipulating their tulpa as a slave, and as a victim of trafficking, i had to leave to leave the community for quite some time… 

 

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i am incredibly glad that this is a rare case however, learning that other people besides myself understand that tulpa are independent and sentient, and by proxy, have free will. but enough on that, I think it’s time to introduce the girl i am planning on forcing. 


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(art is not mine, i am still searching for art credit.) 

 

this is zelda; you can probably guess who she is inspired by, but with a twist. she’s curious, eager to learn, and has a deep love for other beings. (i have a lot of cats…) I do not want to go to much into detail as to why i chose this form, (which, she of course can change anytime she desires.) because it involves a quite personal story, one that i have spent years recovering from. 
 

i have also attached quite a few images throughout this thread, these being not aesthetic choices, but actual images of our wonder/innerworld… at least… what i could put together thanks to pinterest… 
 

here are some more — 

 

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our main room ^ 

 

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our library— 

 

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my bedroom— 

 

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zelda’s bedroom— 

 

and much more… I understand that this seems like a big world, because it is. i love imagining myself in wide, open spaces, such as these— with plenty of wild and forests to explore… it’s very comforting. 

 

i ended up putting much more effort into this than i originally thought i was going to… but i truly want to do this right. high effort posts are fun, anyway. i haven’t even begun to force her, but tonight, i will start by visualizing her form and imagining a beam of light going inside her, representing her gaining sentience (does that sound weird at all?) i’ll introduce myself, explain what a tulpa is… and do the smallest bit of personality forcing. then i’ll sleep, it’s [^^^^] pm and i have work… oops…

 

needless to say, i may need to come up with my own methods of forcing, i think reading to her may be my best bet, i love to read.

 

that’s all. bye, for now. 

 

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Hey, Lotus. Welcome to the forums.

 

10 hours ago, lotusick said:

I just noticed an issue with the formatting- give me peace and pretend that it isn’t there. 💗

It's okay; you usually don't need to announce this outright. Generally, people will notice and pick up on that themselves.

 

10 hours ago, lotusick said:

tulpa becoming extremely hostile when based of characters (which i know now is completely untrue. i have heard it can be harmful, but most seem divided. from the tulpa’s that are based off existing characters i’ve personally met, their hosts give them the characteristics of a character, but not necessarily the same background and allowing wiggle room for their own personality… i think that’s good… but i don’t know, im new.)

The hostility part probably isn't true, but character tulpas will eventually deviate from their source and gain a sense of selfhood for themselves.

 

Yes, what you've said in the latter half is true. Different backgrounds and some lenience on how their personality develops is a healthy way to develop a character tulpa.

 

10 hours ago, lotusick said:

im still honestly averse to active forcing, mainly because of my adhd

It can be done, from an ADHD kid to an ADHD kid. After a couple months of imposition practice, I've found that the effects are a lot more subtle and aren't as prevalent. Part of that is from naturally acclimating toward the condition after 17 years of living, but part of that is also from practicing meditation in my free time.

 

With the amount of media we're blasted with on a daily basis, it should come to no surprise that everyone else is on a similar deficit of focus to us. Rest assured that things can be worked around with constant, effective practice. You probably already knew that, though, so I'll save any further explanation for the sake of redundancy. Just make sure to not get frustrated in the beginning; there are bound to be good days and there are bound to be bad days. Stick to it, and there will be more of the former than there will the latter.

 

10 hours ago, lotusick said:

this is zelda; you can probably guess who she is inspired by, but with a twist. she’s curious, eager to learn, and has a deep love for other beings. (i have a lot of cats…)

Cool tulpa, brah.

 

Keep me updated, Lotus. I don't know what it's like on your side of whatever you're going through right now, but trust that I'm with you on this one.

D-prime is shrinking as we speak.

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Update #2 

 

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aaa hello… its 1 am… again… seriously, i need to start writing these at normal times… well then. it’s lotus 🪷.. im incredibly tired. 

 

today, i very sparsely spoke with zelda.. im not sure why, but i have a very hard time with talking inside my head, but i absolutely despise speaking out loud, even if i am alone. any tips?

 

surprisingly, despite very little forcing, zelda was responding well. im not sure if it was my puppeting or not, but when i asked “do you get it?” i very clearly heard “no, i don’t.” (i don’t remember what this was in reference to…. oops…) im assuming it was her, and i’ll do more to talk to her.

 

 

ok… goodnight.

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2 hours ago, lotusick said:

im not sure why, but i have a very hard time with talking inside my head, but i absolutely despise speaking out loud, even if i am alone. any tips?

 

In the early stages, you may do what works until you have more choices. It will get easier. You may be able to work your way down from whispers to mouthing to mindvoice only.

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Update #3 


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ah… hello… it’s 🪷, speaking in my own thread again. (sorry, i enjoy using an emoji as my name too much. as much as me and my parents don’t get along, i am incredibly grateful for being born with a cute name.) how shocking… kidding. im a bit out of it, since i am a little sick today…

 

I actually drew zelda last night, so… here.. 

 

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not my best work… I prefer drawing digital, but i was just trying to fall asleep. i’ll give her a better price soon.. hopefully…

 

but onto what’s important, forcing. i struggle greatly with my mental health, due to conditions like c-ptsd that leave me with incredibly disorganized thoughts. (which clashes with my already existing adhd…) to remind myself to talk to zelda, im making a bracelet! silly, right? but i hardly forced at all yesterday, i need something to keep me in check. i actually haven’t told my trauma specialist that im making a tulpa…. i probably won’t either. 
 

the fatigue has claimed me now, however, im going to pass out. (oh, and i finally wrote something during the day!) - lotus 🪷

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