Dynamic/freeform wonderland?

[Lukenstein3D]

Keeping myself in a single wonderland is really hard. I've tried and tried with different wonderlands but I can't seem to do it. When I am able to focus (when random thoughts aren't "hijacking" my mind's eye), I can actually get there and see/interact with Red, but this usually doesn't last long because, without even realizing that I've done it, I'll find myself in a completely different/random place, in a completely different/random scenario. I hate to say it, but I think that, in trying to focus on just the one thing, I'm boring myself (plus it takes a massive amount of brainpower to ignore/banish these extraneous thoughts, something that I would spend more time doing than actually being in the wonderland with my tulpa).

 

This sucks :(

 

But then I remembered a tool that Red and I had found when we were using this beach wonderland! When exploring the beach, we came across an old and sandy camcorder, and whenever I had a random thought hijack my mind's eye, I would then pull my view out and see it on the camera's LCD screen in my hands, effectively incorporating it into the wonderland and then turning the camera off. I thought, Hey, if I can integrate my random distracting thoughts instead of trying to fight them off, could I do the same thing with these whole worlds that would try to suck me away?

 

So Red and I went on an adventure. We trekked from the beach and into the jungle, hopped a fence that dropped into a massive underground facility that had these machines that were messing with the gravity, fell down a whole into TF2's 2Fort which had a shitload of zombies in it that we were running away from, I got into a chopper and airlifted Red out from the zombie hellhole and then flew over the endless jungle next door, with me bungee jumping from the thing and feeling the breeze in my hair, the blood rush to my head, etc. The entire thing was more vivid and easier to maintain than any wonderland before (it was also completely 100% seamless in transitioning from one place to another, so much so that it felt like one massive place). Also, I heard Red really speak to me, something he hasn't done before (I thought I had heard him speak last week but was wrong, was parroting).

 

Basically my question to you is, does anyone else do this? Let your wonderland create itself so you never get bored/never know what to expect and let you and your tulpa bond through random adventures? This is actually something I used to do when I was younger and depressed, I could go somewhere else instead of sitting alone at a table in the cafeteria, though of course I didn't have Red adventuring with me then. Is this approach too freeform? It felt more natural/engaging than anything before, and I feel like Red and I made tons of progress this morning. Also something I should note is that when I do this time seems to pass like a dream (i.e. I thought we were in the wonderland for a couple hours, was only 30 minutes), though I was definitely awake. Any feedback would be greatly appreciated, thanks :D

[Koji]

That wall of text nearly made me turn back.

We do this occasionally, if we decide to go on adventure. It doesn't really affect anything negatively, and it could even help, by allowing your tupla to do some forcing of its own. Just keep doing what feels natural, and have fun. On your concerns with freeforming, nothing is too freeform. Although, if I might suggest something, make a home base of sorts, with a door where the freeform world is. Good luck!

[TulpaCouple]

It's perfectly fine. A wonderland is just a place to interact with your tulpa. It doesn't have to be 100% realistic, it's just whatever works for you. Our wonderland has a 'hub' of sorts where there are hundreds of doors leading to random locations and worlds. It's a bit more stable in that if I've entered a door I can go back and it will be the same, but each new door is something random. Also if we just keep walking in one direction the wonderland just keeps adding to itself, minecraft style.

 

If it works for you and your tulpa, keep it up.

[SSaint]

I almost never go to a single consistent wonderland.

[Chupi]

The parts of my wonderland that I constructed are consistent, but I left large amounts of unexplored space. Entering these areas results in auto-generated details, which are sometimes nothing like what I think will be there. Once explored, an area stays mostly the same.

 

We have no shortage of explorable areas -- there's a large woods behind our house. This is all on an island, and there are other islands. And one time we flew up to space to see what was there; it appears our wonderland is a universe.