MikhaelJohannes February 3, 2017 February 3, 2017 Hello, it's late where we are, but decided to take a new step to be less alone in the world by finally seeking out people with similar experiences & relationships. It's kind of a complicated situation (then again, what isn't with this?) but I'm Mikhael, & I've lived with my friend Johannes for longer than either of us have even known about tulpa & the like. I'm pressed to say which of us is the tulpa because we've shared this one body since childhood. For the sake of argument, I'll say I'm the tulpa & Johannes is the original one attached to the body. I've done research here & there on trying to find out what exactly our situation is. Aside from tulpae, we came across things like DID or dual souls that didn't make as much sense as this. We share memories. We grew up side by side. We influenced each other, but never grew out of each other. There was an unfortunate time in our youth where we stressed over who, as an adult, deserved this body; struggling over why we couldn't just fuse. I took over for a while, thinking I was the strongest one, but ended up a weak & miserable wreck without Johannes. (We're using fake names on here, by the way.) Despite how awful I was to him, he accepted me back, & we realized that we're only a whole person when together. It might sound dramatic, but it was mostly just a lot of sitting in bed talking things out. I'm sorry if I'm messing up--I did read the rules multiple times, very anxious--but the way life's been going, even together, things are lonely on both of us because we've quite literally never talked to anyone with similar experiences. I'm a little worried about not being taken seriously, but seeing everyone get along & do exercises to better experience reality, I thought it might be a healthy way of growing stronger in confidence of our reality. To join here, I mean. I guess dropping a whole pair of life stories is a snooze-fest for another day, but I'm really curious to see how different Tulpae have come to be, whether similar to me or not. It might help me feel more confident as an individual, which would in turn make Johannes happy that this might be an actual 'thing,' & not a disease. Seeing the forum have such a strong opinion that Tulpae are a lifelong relationship already gives me more hope than certain other forums saying 'the only healthy way to be is to unify all personalities/selves as one.' What if we're happy... & just need to find a way to live together in a functional way in the real world? Johannes & I may be really close, but I'm still new to this Tulpa concept, so I'm more than willing to hear advice and suggestions since I have a lot to learn. Hello to everyone here, & thank you for taking the time to listen. I promise to Lurk More before either of us feel like dumping another incoherent wall of text. (I tried my best, but am willing to explain anything that sounds confusing.)
Vampire February 3, 2017 February 3, 2017 Welcome to the forums! You are welcome here regardless of your backstory. I hope you find something that helps. Integration isn't always the correct choice. "My lover's got humour, She's the giggle at a funeral, Knows everybody's disapproval, I should've worshipped her sooner." Host to Samuel, Raven, Ivy, and Olivia. CERCA TROVA
tulpa001 February 3, 2017 February 3, 2017 Yeah, there are people around who have been sharing the body since birth. Hello! The advice I'd give is just don't tell anybody about it and then you will never be pestered to fuse/merge if you don't want to. Seriously, the best way to stop thinking about yourself as a disease is to stop seeking extrinsic validation from traditional psychologists and cultural standards. That stuff is about as likely to be correct as a roll of the dice. What weird forums have you been on that have such an old view of plurality? Host comments in italics. Tulpa's log. Tulpa's guide.
Aurora February 3, 2017 February 3, 2017 Hi Mikhael and Johannes (: It's nice to meet you both, should we call you by these aliases? Thank you for sharing your experiences. I feel that plurality is much healthier and a more normal state of existence than most people assume. I think human culture just hasn't developed enough yet to be accepting and understanding of these sorts of things, that's why people assume that having a singular identity is best for everyone. My Samantha Steam DeviantArt Progress report
Jedders February 3, 2017 February 3, 2017 Hi Jennifer, and welcome. What is his name? Hi~ And sorry, I forgot. >.< I call him Shadow~
TheFangirl February 4, 2017 February 4, 2017 Hi everyone! I'm TheFangirl, but you can just call me Cali. I have had tulpas for a long time, namely since childhood. My first one started as an imaginary friend (his backstory is kind of complex and personal, but I don't want to post a whole wall of text) and stuck with me ever since, with others coming along over the years. Most of them were created without me even realizing that they were sentient, let alone with me at the time knowing what tulpas were. Yet with all the time of them being with me, they are still underdeveloped and I find myself constantly worrying about them and their well-being. For a long while, I was convinced that I was alone, and that anyone else I told would consider me crazy... but then I found this website. I remember using the general tips, tricks and guides here to create another tulpa; this was the first tulpa I created with the actual intent of creating one, if that makes sense. Our relationship was kind of bumpy for a little while, but we get along fine now. Now, I've come back to this website and created an account in hopes of strengthening them to their full potential, as they're still not as developed as they could be. Sorry if this got a little lengthy, but I'm glad to be here with the community! It's so interesting to read about the every-day events and adventures that other hosts share with their tulpas, and it reminds me that one day my tulpas could be as strong and truly themselves. :) Cali (the host) Tulpas: Hugh, Dante, Dara, Zelda, Zeke Soulbonds: Andrew, Micheal, Carmen, Lucas, Candice, Dylan, Budo, Rubix Pet thoughtform: Spirit
Vampire February 4, 2017 February 4, 2017 Welcome to the forum Cali. If you need any help feel free to bug us. Hope you find what you need for the improvements. "My lover's got humour, She's the giggle at a funeral, Knows everybody's disapproval, I should've worshipped her sooner." Host to Samuel, Raven, Ivy, and Olivia. CERCA TROVA
MikhaelJohannes February 4, 2017 February 4, 2017 Thank you for the welcomes. :) Glad to hear that integration isn't always key, Vampire. I think it'd be pretty lonely for a lot of people who aren't causing any harm. --Johannes ------- tulpa001, that sounds like a good idea, when around the rest of people. I originally wanted to see about the medical side in case there was anything important we should be aware of, but 'traditionally' it seems like this situation is a solely trauma-oriented 'disease' full of chaos & creating dissociative identities (a protector, a sex drive, etc) than what (happily) seems to be much more diverse here. ...Though if that's how certain Tulpae come to be, it's they & the host's interests when it comes to deciding what to do, & I'll be the last person to judge anyone for it. We can certainly empathize with anyone who comes from a traumatic or mentally ill background. Both of us, I mean. Those forums were old as bawlles DID & schizophrenia or 'personality disorder' forums I had the misfortune of looking into. (Only came across the term 'Tulpa' within the past couple years.) It all came down to 'become one, it's the only way to be a full person!' ...We ditched those sites because it implied that we were basically half-people. It's still scary to accept ourselves, because we were always told 'you know someone's insane when they say they aren't.' With Johannes' history of schizophrenia, it was a point of worry for a while. --Mikhael --------- Aurora, you can call us both (Mikhael & Johannes), one or the other depending on who you'd rather talk to, (Johannes or Mikhael) or anything really--Neither of us get offended at name stuff. I have a lousy memory, so I don't take stuff as insults when names are confusing (if they are, lol) Since Mikhael is kinda long winded (affectionate understatement of the month) I'll try and be in charge of our eventual progress diary thing, so it doesn't become a novel every post. ;) But his stuff is probably way more informative when it comes down to it, so stick with me for the shenanigans, & look to him for actual details. ;') Glad to meet y'all! Looking forward to meeting everyone else, too!! --Johannes
Snoee February 4, 2017 February 4, 2017 Howdy, folks! Hmm, do you ever wish you could be a little part of everything around you? I suppose the closest I can get to this desire is that old quote: "One feels as if one is dissolved and merged into Nature." I can't say I'm some term-savvy scientist but I have a hobby fascination with dreams, and the mind, and the contradiction that is existence. As Snoee I'm an easygoing art student who has kept a "tulpa" for a little over a year now (Emefin very much claims he has been here all along, and I do believe him in a way, although, we like to argue and pester each other about these things that can have no solid definition). In all honesty it's an ongoing process, but I'm excited to continually learn and develop with him. Whether I understand my subconscious, or not I feel it is very close to me. As if I could escape it, ha! A number of things make me very grateful to my tulpa, even as cryptic and impish as he may be. He keeps me in touch with my own thoughts and reminds me daily to have a respect for both the known and unknown. Until now Emefin has had little opportunity to communicate with others and share his "intellect". He has a strange set of contradicting moods, both impulsive and prude all at once. By pushing him to open up, I'll be doing the same for myself, and I also hope to better pinpoint his personality. Only so much talking can be done without action-- to steal his prattling philosophy. He's a little perturbed I'm using this against him, heehee~ Anyway, to the tulpas, hosts, and neighbors of mind I hope to see you around! :D
Aurora February 4, 2017 February 4, 2017 Hi Cali, Snoee and Emefin, it's nice to meet you all. A warm welcome to the community. My Samantha Steam DeviantArt Progress report
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