Mass Intro' and Returns Thread

[tulpa001]

Hello Snowee! Emefin! I'd say I'm no scientist either, but technically we are.

 

You should try the chat. That should give you some fast results in exploring unexpected aspects of your personality.

[Vos]

Another wave of newbies, huh? Welcome, everyone. It's nice to see that a lot of you are already familiar with tulpas.

[Maedalaane]

Salutations, Tulpamancers, Tulpas, Shitposting Servitors, Bad Joke Thoughtforms, Normie Singlets and Attack Helicopters.

 

I'm Maedalaane, a most likely Singlet. Let's just say that sometimes I'm actually not too sure about that. I am wont to consider myself pretty dang Singlet about 90% of the time, but it doesn't really work that way now does it? Well, I'm going to attempt to explain this and probably use wrong terms and sound like a dumbie but I would hope that if you're trawling the newb thread you expect this!

 

Maedalaane is both my most common alias on the Internet as well as an original character that's presumptively transformed into a soulbond over the course of four years now - an original character in traditionally written stories, as well as plenty of collaborative efforts such as roleplay in different mediums (forums, MMOs). As it was the name above the avatar, everyone came to know me by it! 'Lo...I myself presume the same name in my day-to-day Internet foolery as this prospective soulbond. No one is going to call me anything different by now from where I come from, too. However I am not parroting or switching or any such thing. This is simply how things turned out, you feel me? Haha, trying to get anyone to call me different is kind of like what transgender people deal with when changing names (and I know that on a first hand basis...!).

 

But, indeed, I don't say "prospective soulbond" for no reason. As far as I know, this is definitely me/Host who's writing this up! However, when it comes to writing...that's different. I can not reasonably plot out what this namesake character of mine is going to do in the moment to moment. I can try, but what I attempt to fathom is probably not what's going to happen. It's not like an intuitive sort of thing where I think, "They'd do this" or "They would never do that". It's best described like arriving to a crossroad wherein one of two things always happens; I get a very strong urge to go one way that comes from nowhere, or a secret path I didn't even know existed becomes illuminated and it's down that one. It is very difficult to fight and doesn't feel right to fight. It just feels bad on multiple levels to fight it. Nevermind trying to force the 'wrong' thing...that feels like a piece of chicken between your teeth. GET IT OUT.

 

Sometimes, with scenes that heavily involve this character, especially their dialogue, I enter a sort of trance. I'm still aware; I feel the keys under my fingers and hear the clickity-clack and see what's coming up on the screen but what comes out doesn't really seem as though it's coming from me. My own mind. It's just happening. "Whoo boy. Maddy just insulted a god's mum. Maddy, why are you like this?" Oh, and typos and backspaces become almost nonexistent. Writing for other characters is relatively a chore, now. It requires effort, that I can certainly put in and make good of! But when the conditions are right, you know, minimal distractions, good music, all that jazz? Maddy's scenes are smooth as butter.

 

So uh. Now that I actually type the above out, maybe I'm not so likely Singlet. But, good heavens above, these concepts, even framed as wholly biological and carnal, are still downright weird to me and I'm even spiritual! I, in fact, practice Occult in a few forms! I've read many of the dissertation-esque essays here, binged ExoUnoPlures' site, read and deeply understood Melting Asphalt's theory on how neuroplasticity enables this, but.

 

Bruh.

 

Don't get me wrong, I'm enamored with plurality and I've only discovered it a few days ago. It just goes against everything I've ever really assumed about personhood, interaction, and...you know. A lot. 

 

Even though I am quick to dispel any notion that I am Maddy - they've been an integral part of me ever since they've kind of slipped through my fingers. They've captured my interest. That sounds paradoxical, eh? That I found them to be quite an important part of me when they stopped being fully controlled by me? Doesn't sound right, but that seems to be what happened. This is to say that I would never do away with this character. They will always have a place in the stories I make from now on. 

 

And that seems to be how Tulpamancers feel about their own Tulpas, right? That they'd not trade them for the world? Uh-huh. 

 

But to think of this character, Maedalaane Naeurione, as something that evolved from my own mind into another mind...just gives me pause. Though, clearly, it wasn't a permanent halt because I've done wrote you a blithering stream of consciousness essay, huh. 

 

Maybe it's having me reconsider existence and souls on a fundamental level (and I do very much believe in souls) and I don't want a midlife crisis at age 20!

 

Maybe I just got a big ego. Who's this lil' shit thinkin' they can tip toe and tap dance on my dang synapses, huh?!

 

Maybe it's Maddy feeling very weird right now because they're going through an identity crisis that other Soulbonds do because they're learning they are not a god king of a far flung planet. 

 

(Though an identity crisis would normally happen after sentience is acquired, if I understand it right.)

 

 

 

Who knows? Not me! Not yet! As for Maddy...well, I don't know if they don't know. Maybe I sould divine some answers by more writing! ;)

 

 

I'll shut up and give an offering of what I think could be a good resource. This!

[Ponytail]

Salutations, Tulpamancers, Tulpas, Shitposting Servitors, Bad Joke Thoughtforms, Normie Singlets and Attack Helicopters.

I want a shitposting Servitor!

 

Maybe it's Maddy feeling very weird right now because they're going through an identity crisis that other Soulbonds do because they're learning they are not a god king of a far flung planet.

I feel challenged as god and king...

...Well, you're an interesting one :P

It definitely sounds as though you have a soulbond. Though, I'm sure you've figured that out by now. Nice introduction.

Welcome to the strange side of the internet. We believe in fairies, dragons, and dwarves but they all live in your head :P

[Vampire]

Welcome to all the new people!

 

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Thank you for the welcomes. Smile Glad to hear that integration isn't always key, Vampire. I think it'd be pretty lonely for a lot of people who aren't causing any harm. --Johannes

 

I totally agree. I don't know what I would do without any of my three.

 

creating dissociative identities (a protector, a sex drive, etc)

 

This is actually a misconception. There are people with alters who were created because they were what was needed at the time, and there are others who have alters unrelated to anything. Usually the old argument is that these are all parts of your personality personified and therefore to be a functioning being you must integrate into a single person. The modern community instead just wants to reduce disorder.

 

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Until now Emefin has had little opportunity to communicate with others and share his "intellect". He has a strange set of contradicting moods, both impulsive and prude all at once. By pushing him to open up, I'll be doing the same for myself, and I also hope to better pinpoint his personality.

 

If you need somewhere to chat, the IRC Chat is pretty good most of the time.

 

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But, indeed, I don't say "prospective soulbond" for no reason. As far as I know, this is definitely me/Host who's writing this up!

 

It definitely sounds like you have a soulbond, but they may not be aware of the outside yet. If you need someone to talk to about it I'd point you to Saylin. She's on IRC Chat a lot if you use that.

[Radio Hiss]

It definitely sounds like you have a soulbond, but they may not be aware of the outside yet. If you need someone to talk to about it I'd point you to Saylin. She's on IRC Chat a lot if you use that.

 

Or me! My soulbond... he's a piece of work.

[Anony-mouse]

Hello everyone!! :D

 

I'm not actually new here- I've had another account on here long long ago! I'm not going to say who it was, but it was around here two years ago and I don't remember the passwoord for it. I also only made around 50 posts, so I doubt any of you would remember them.

 

But ANYWAY, I decided to make a return to this place after attempting to make a tulpa myself. For privacy reasons, I'll call him Ted, and I'm sure he's as excited as I am to be here :D It's only our third day, so he can't speak or anything yet, but I'll probably start making a PR for him soon.

 

It's a pleasure to meet you guys!

[Lucilyn]

guarantee I remember your old posts, also hi

[Anony-mouse]

If you're Luminescence then you've seen me before :P Hi there!

[Lucilyn]

Lumi is my host but yeh and we remember like everything posted here so we'd probably know you, also I like your avatar