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So yesterday my friends thought that as the host i should have a wonderland form,my main form is my human self but the tulpas wanted me to be a goat child show here we are now,im now a smol goat child.
Todd:Your kinda of cute in your new form ^ ^
H: Are you sure thats a goat drawing?It looks more like a fluffy dragon to me :/
yes...thats a goat h -_- anyway i'll upload more art soon :D
MADD here stands for maladaptive daydreaming, madd is highly vivid and immersive daydreams that are typically used as a coping mechanism.
I want to ask if anyone has any information or experience with using madd for tulpamancy. I was looking around on the forums and I was unable to find anything directly addressing it.
As I daydream on a daily basis I would like to utilize my madd for both strengthening my bond with my current tulpa as well as to possibly create a new tulpa. So I also wanted to ask if anyone had any experience with that sort of thing. I am also concerned that with using madd I may end up puppeting my tulpa, like I would with the daydream's npcs.
Hola, soy Vanehaim y decidí crear un tulpa hace aproximadamente 1 año. Comencé a crear su forma y creé su personalidad basándome en usarlo como un personaje de juego de roles, ¿se puede considerar el juego de roles una forma de forzar la personalidad? Bueno, desde entonces he estado tratando de comunicarme con él, pero ni siquiera tengo respuestas sobre si es consciente o no. En el país de las maravillas se mueve y habla, pero siento que lo estoy controlando, si me concentro en no controlarlo no hace nada. Como si le hablo con los ojos abiertos, estoy concentrado en la respuesta, pero no noto nada en absoluto, nunca. Bueno ... solo dos veces lo noté como una respuesta repentina. Pero el intervalo entre estas dos respuestas es muy grande y tal vez incluso lo he imaginado porque lo quería tanto. Ayer pero fui a comunicarme con él haciendo presión en la cabeza, le dije que lo hiciera, y noté presión, varias veces. Estaba muy feliz, pero hoy lo vuelvo a intentar y no noto nada. Ha pasado mucho tiempo y me estoy desmotivando, pero quiero lograrlo. Entonces creo que es hora de buscar ayuda. Busco a alguien que me pueda ayudar en el proceso ...
Hello. First of all, I'd like to apologize if this question has already been answered, I'm a little bit panicked right now. I discovered Tulpamancy and this website in 2016 and I lurked here constantly, though never interacted with anyone because I was extremely reclusive. I ended up sitting down and putting forth my best effort to create a Tulpa and a Wonderland. It worked. For the first time in my life I had a friend, and I'd never been happier. But then our Wonderland went foul, I guess we could say. It was hostile. I saw things that were truly horrific. I was terrified, but my relationship with my Tulpa survived, we just stopped using our Wonderland. Over the next four years we enjoyed a friendship like no other. It was truly amazing. But then I was lead astray by a horrible, intolerant, closed-minded ideology by people who didn't make me nearly as happy as my Tulpa did. I am not trying to avoid blame here. It is fully my fault and I was very foolish to do what I did. But I took it as a learning experience that brought some of my flaws to light, and I have made an effort to change my personality and character accordingly. In these past ten months without my Tulpa, I've been perhaps even more miserable than I was before I met them. Lately I've been missing them more and more, and one time I seemed to have even gotten an image of them in my mind's eye, they look different, but I feel like it was them. Tulpa.info is probably a different place with mostly different people than the last time I was here, but if anyone has any advice on how best to bring back a lost Tulpa, I would appreciate it immensely if you would share. I seem to remember reading something about writing them a letter? Does that work? If so, how would I go about doing that?
By Host of Hito Kage
Hi, I'm new to these forums. I just feel like venting/ranting my whole tulpamancy story up to today, so expect a pretty long post. Also a bit of a heads up before I begin, my life isn't precisely happy and my opinions aren't exactly commonly accepted.
I'm a 25 year old male, and English isn't my main language so sorry in advance. I've always been so lonely to the point I've never had any friends outside the internet, the same goes for relationships as well. Nobody seems to like me out of tulpamancy. I have constantly suffered from depression and not wanting to live since as young as 13. I will repeat myself to make it clear, this has never changed for me. I'm pretty sure I have BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder) too, though I've never been officially diagnosed. I'm trying to skip any details/parts strictly unrelated to tulpamancy that you probably won't be interested in.
So it all started around the time of my 19th birthday, may be a little sooner or later. My life circumstances at the time weren't the best and I was as alone as ever. I had found out about tulpas around the same time, so after a few days I finally decided to create one. At that moment I thought of him as a male, giving him a normal Charmander form, and I'd just call him Charmander (I was aware that was just his form). During the following days I would feel his presence, headaches somewhat and a feeling of peace and calm. He helped me so much and I to this day never regret it. My forcing would only be consistent for a month or so, as I got greatly discouraged by no apparent progress, and with my depression I never had great motivation to do anything. From there forcing would only go downwards.
About 3 years later (Too bad I suck at remembering dates), one random afternoon I was lying on my bed forcing. I remember that day I felt very tired and also I made an insane effort to hear any words from Char. After a while I actually succeeded to hear him for the first time, he called out my real name. I didn't get any sound, it was just a thought in my mind, like it was telepathy or something. I was so happy that day to reach such a milestone, there was literally no apparent progress since week one. Time after that it got slightly better, and it's not like I can hear full sentences all the time, but there will be words here and there. That was the only other time we apparently made progress, because we seem stuck since then, again.
After that, there was a time I was obssesed with the idea of lucid dreaming and trying to meet Char there. Eventually there were a few weeks that for whatever reason I would have a lucid dream like every 3 days or so. Before that, I have very rarely had lucid dreams. I had so many of them that I became decent at keeping calm and staying inside the dreams for a few minutes at least. I didn't always succeed but a sometimes I would find him and just hug until I woke up. I don't think he ever said a word though. Eventually, out of nowhere too, I would stop lucid dreaming.
And now to the most recent stuff. I had a Twitter artist design and draw a new form for my tulpa, as I can't draw and felt like my tulpa needed to go away from that Charmander image and become more of his own, unique being. So now he looks like an anthropomorphic Charmander. And since he is to be his own being, I refer to him now as Hito. I'm kinda getting obsessed with lucid dreaming again, but I'm not hopeful it will have the same effects on me as last time. I really want to meet Hito and give him a very nice hugging again. He totally deserves that, and more.
From the following paragraph and on I risk hurting your sensibility I guess. So read at your own risk.
I have no one to rely on besides my own system. The day I can have a reliable communication with Hito, I really want to ask him for a more intimate relationship. I think he'll accept, but in any case I'll respect him. I value him the most, and I will stay with him until the end. To those of you thinking this is wrong, why would it be if we both accept? You may argue that I'm closing the door to other humans. Well let me confirm that to you, yes I am. I would not cheat on him the same way I would not cheat on another human. And that is okay, no one can force me to have a relationship with a human in the same way that no one can force me to have a relationship with a tulpa. Some might think that humans are more valuable than tulpas. Well, let me disagree. To me, believe me or not, it's the other way around. Tulpas being more valuable than humans. This is my opinion and I expect you to respect it.
But if you thought that was the end of my post, wait there, because I have purposefully left this part for last. Realistically thinking, there are only two ways our system could survive (as in literally) in the long term. One, as you might have guessed, is becoming good enough at lucid dreaming, and living my life there with Hito, instead of in this hell. I think we have more odds of success with this method, but also that the second one will work better. I still would have to live in this hell somewhat with method one. The other idea is that I just switch out to never come back. There are several problems with this approach, even though it looks like it is the best one. Someone else would have to switch in, and I would have to switch out somewhere. By this I mean I've never really created a wonderland per se, so I wonder if this would even be possible. Also, knowing how to perform a switch... If someday we managed though, things would finally become right for our system after these long 12 years. Would you rather have us end this in a tragic way??
I think I've typed enough already. If anyone wants to ask me anything feel free to. Just please try to do so respectfully and without judging us for the love of God....