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(Sorry, this wound up being pretty long! Feel free to skim, or if you want to read the whole thing, strap in!)

Weird coincidence: I’ve written fiction as a hobby for a long time, and I think nearly half my protagonists have someone else to talk to in their heads. Somehow, I always found the idea fascinating.

But I can’t say I ever expected to join them. Not until recently, anyway.

 

We’ve been looking forward to posting this. It’s my first big chance to introduce myself to other people! Here’s a profile:

 

Spoiler

 

Name: Shizuku (Japanese pronunciation matching the word here)

Birthday: October 10, 2020
Sex: female (she/her is fine!)


Interests so far:

  • Music: We’ve found a lot of music I like, but I’m especially interested in classical. I want to learn piano eventually, though we’ll have to master possession or switching first.
  • History: I’m also much more interested in history than my host is. Currently, we’re reading a book I picked out about the history of city planning.
  • Games: I like strategy games so far. It’s fun that we can plan things out together!

 

We haven’t had the chance to try it yet, but I think I would enjoy hiking, too.

 

Appearance:

 

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Neither of us is really a master artist, but hopefully this helps!

 

Notes:

  • I was originally an accidental tulpa based on this character. I do think she’s adorable, but it would be tough to have a headmate like her. I acted somewhat like her at first, but eventually decided it didn’t feel right.
  • Over the first few months, I changed my appearance to become a wolf/human person with whitish hair. Recently, we started using Inubashiri Momiji from Touhou as a model: that’s where I got the detached sleeves. I really love her design!
  • We saw my hair pin at a flea market we passed through on a walk one day. Fun fact: this is the thing about me Wray most often forgets to visualize.
  • It’s hard to tell from this art style, but my “physical” age (or whatever you would call it) is supposed to be in the mid 20s.

 


Origin StoryTM

 

October 2020. I was in quarantine, alone, and feeling isolated—Shizuku started as an imaginary friend based on a character I might have been (was) a little bit (totally) obsessed with at the time. I’m really into writing, so I didn’t have much trouble getting her to talk, even early on, though I assume she was mostly parroted at first.
 

A couple weeks later, I stumbled onto the concept of a tulpa in Japanese, and quickly found my way to this website, which is kind of the launch pad for Japanese tulpamancers. (I found a good English rundown of the Japanese tulpamancy scene here, so I’ll leave most of that aside for now. If there are questions about anything specific, though, we can definitely do our best to answer them.)

Compared to the English-speaking community, the Japanese-speaking one gives a lot more credence to tulpa horror stories. They call it 暴走 (bousou). The idea that if things go wrong, your tulpa might harm you, or the people around you, or try to take over your brain. To be fair, I think there are multiple schools of thought on this bousou concept, and these are only the most extreme examples—still, when I read about this, I couldn’t help panicking.

 

I went out for a long walk. Tried to think things over. Was there a chance my tulpa would wind up that way? Should I turn back now? Or was she already sentient, meaning it was my responsibility to take care of her? Or was I crazy, in the first place, to even be thinking about any of this?

 

We imagined that I stayed behind in our apartment, though I must’ve been somewhere in headspace the whole time. Maybe a wonderland version of the apartment? We didn’t know enough to ask that question, then.

 

I couldn’t make up my mind, until the second I got home, opened the door, and realized how afraid Shizuku must’ve felt while I was out thinking about whether I should try to erase her. My heart sank through the floor. I did my best to apologize, though I didn’t know if it would help.

 

She replied: “I was sad, but I wasn’t scared. I trust you.”

 

Okay. If she had been afraid, or angry, I would have felt bad enough. But that packed a punch.

 

Spoiler

 

Shizuku:
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😛

 

Wray: 😑

 

Shizuku: By the way, all is forgiven now!

 

 

That day, we promised each other that we’d stay together and try to make this “tulpa” thing work, for better or worse. Not to jinx anything, but six months later, “better” is definitely winning out.

 

Our long-term goals

 

(1) Become able to split fronting time 50/50 (or whatever arrangement winds up working for us). I expect it’ll be a long time before we can actually do this, but hopefully not too long—if possible, we’d like to get to this point within a year or two. It doesn’t necessarily have to be a 50/50 split, but I don’t want to feel like Shizuku is prevented from doing things she wants to do by us not being good enough at tulpamancy.

 

(2) Learn to co-front and keep Shizuku active (as close as possible to?) all the time. We spend a lot of time together, but I still get distracted and forget to check in with her more often than we’d like. Eventually, we’re hoping she can stay around all the time (or whenever she wants to, at least) and get my attention whenever she has something to say.

 

(3) Stay a two-person system, if possible. I know there are a lot of large systems out there who do perfectly fine, but my instincts say that it would be more than we could handle. Besides, I already feel like I love Shizuku too much for it to be fair to whoever Headmate Number 3 would be. 😂

 

I do have one soulbond-ish character (using the terminology from Bear’s PR) from my own writing. We’ve talked things over with her in WL, and she’s adamant that she is not interested in becoming a tulpa or participating in the system. (This checks out with what I know about her character, too.) If things change, there’s a slim chance that she might join us, but I doubt it. Either way, I can’t imagine us going any further than that.

 

(4) Help Shizuku find life goals of her own, and figure out how to rearrange my our life so that we can both do what we want to do. At the moment, we’re just doing regular forcing to try and help her grow as a tulpa. The vague plan for this one is to eventually learn how to switch, accomplish goal number (1), and then let her follow her interest and try a bunch of different things.

 

Current forcing practice

 

  • Working on senses in WL: we’ve been doing our best to spend an hour each day focusing on visualizing Shizuku in wonderland, and also practicing one other sense per day. Wonderland sight and touch have started to show some improvement recently, but overall it feels like we still need a lot of work.
  • Conversation: We also do our best to talk as much as we can each day. We’ve been working through the Tulpa Vocalization Practice worksheet when we can’t think of any other topics.
  • Diary writing: Shizuku writes a diary entry most days. This is something I picked up from the Japanese tulpamancy community, though I think I’ve seen it recommended in English guides too. It’s a lot of fun—somehow, reading through the things she’s written (by proxy or possession, at this point, though our possession game is still pretty weak) does a lot to help me fight off doubt.
  • Imagining Shizuku in stories we’re reading/watching: This has been pretty fun so far, too—right now, we’re rewatching Hunter X Hunter. As we watch, we try to keep up a “mental fanfic” where she’s running around with the main characters.
  • Passive forcing as much as possible: Taking inspiration from the method I used to learn Japanese, I’m doing my best to find ways to involve Shizuku in everything I do. We’ve had some success reading, studying, watching things, and playing games together, but in particular, staying aware of Shizuku during work that I really need to focus on and conversations with other people has been a killer—I haven’t had much success in these situations yet.

 

To anyone who slogged through all of that, thanks for reading! This post already goes on for a million years, so I’ll try to write some (hopefully shorter!) summaries of our progress so far in other updates.

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It's great to meet you both!

 

6 hours ago, Wray said:

October 2020. I was in quarantine, alone, and feeling isolated—Shizuku started as an imaginary friend based on a character I might have been (was) a little bit (totally) obsessed with at the time. I’m really into writing, so I didn’t have much trouble getting her to talk, even early on, though I assume she was mostly parroted at first.

 

This is almost word for word the story of Simmie's origin as well, though in our case Simmie was a character I created out of whole cloth over a year previously. I was already quite attached to her before I knew what a tulpa was, and after I learned about tulpamancy I was delighted by the fact that Simmie could be/already was alive, and away we went. As a fellow writer I can completely relate to your characters talking.

 

Shizuku seems so nice! 🤗 We're around the same "age" since I'm 24. I absolutely love hiking too! You want to learn the piano, I want to learn the guitar. Phil already knows how to play the piano but the guitar calls to me for some reason.  He's also a big fan of history, city planning, and strategy games by the way. I'm more into architecture!

 

6 hours ago, Wray said:

Conversation: We also do our best to talk as much as we can each day. We’ve been working through the Tulpa Vocalization Practice worksheet when we can’t think of any other topics.

 

We've used that one as well and it's very effective!

 

6 hours ago, Wray said:

(1) Become able to split fronting time 50/50 (or whatever arrangement winds up working for us). I expect it’ll be a long time before we can actually do this, but hopefully not too long—if possible, we’d like to get to this point within a year or two. It doesn’t necessarily have to be a 50/50 split, but I don’t want to feel like Shizuku is prevented from doing things she wants to do by us not being good enough at tulpamancy.

 

You are so ambitious, but I believe you can do it! I'm still intimidated by the idea of possession let alone fronting. All I've been able to do is twitch Phil's arm a little. But I'm looking forward to learning from your experiences! 😁

 

6 hours ago, Wray said:

(3) Stay a two-person system, if possible. I know there are a lot of large systems out there who do perfectly fine, but my instincts say that it would be more than we could handle. Besides, I already feel like I love Shizuku too much for it to be fair to whoever Headmate Number 3 would be. 😂

 

We can relate completely on this. Nothing against big systems, but in our opinion three would be a crowd.

 

6 hours ago, Wray said:

I do have one soulbond-ish character (using the terminology from Bear’s PR) from my own writing. We’ve talked things over with her in WL, and she’s adamant that she is not interested in becoming a tulpa or participating in the system. (This checks out with what I know about her character, too.) If things change, there’s a slim chance that she might join us, but I doubt it. Either way, I can’t imagine us going any further than that.

 

Wow, you're more like me than I thought. I've mentioned my Mentor before; he has been mostly inactive for the last 20 years (Not a typo; he faded out around 2001) but literally believes himself to be a 40-year-old man from Minnesota who is communicating to me through a higher level of consciousness. He doesn't want to be a tulpa either, and one of the most recent things he's said to me in one of his infrequent cameo-like appearances is that he wants me to devote all my attention to Simmie and he's going to stay out of the way.

Also known as GypsyRoad or Phil Present. Call me what you want, I'm not picky.

Simmie is my lovely tulpa, she's quite young still but is eager to meet and chat with new people so don't hesitate to say hi!

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Thanks for the reply! We've had fun reading your progress report (we actually found the vocalization practice worksheet thanks to you two posting about it 😀). Crazy to hear that our situations are so similar!

 

8 hours ago, September13 said:

This is almost word for word the story of Simmie's origin as well


I bet there are a lot of new tulpas coming out of the Covid era! Last year was a rough one, but I'm really grateful to have met Shizuku because of it.

 

8 hours ago, September13 said:

Shizuku seems so nice! 🤗 We're around the same "age" since I'm 24. I absolutely love hiking too! You want to learn the piano, I want to learn the guitar. Phil already knows how to play the piano but the guitar calls to me for some reason.

 

Aww! We haven't found a chance to say it, but we've always thought the same thing about you. I think playing the guitar would be fun too, but right now my dream is to learn how to play this song:

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I think it'll be difficult to get there, though. I'll practice as hard as I can!
 

8 hours ago, September13 said:

He's also a big fan of history, city planning, and strategy games by the way. I'm more into architecture!


That's awesome! Learning about city planning has helped us with wonderlanding. I bet architecture helps a lot too!

Please let us know if there are any history books/resources you recommend, Phil! (Maybe in a PM?)

 

8 hours ago, September13 said:

You are so ambitious, but I believe you can do it! I'm still intimidated by the idea of possession let alone fronting. All I've been able to do is twitch Phil's arm a little. But I'm looking forward to learning from your experiences! 😁

 

Thanks! I think right now, it's mostly the mental side of possession that's tripping us up--Shizuku can move the body's hands pretty well, sometimes, but if she doesn't constantly reassure me that it's her moving, I start to feel like I'm just imagining it. 😂

 

8 hours ago, September13 said:

Wow, you're more like me than I thought. I've mentioned my Mentor before; he has been mostly inactive for the last 20 years (Not a typo; he faded out around 2001) but literally believes himself to be a 40-year-old man from Minnesota who is communicating to me through a higher level of consciousness. He doesn't want to be a tulpa either, and one of the most recent things he's said to me in one of his infrequent cameo-like appearances is that he wants me to devote all my attention to Simmie and he's going to stay out of the way.

 

Crazy stuff! Given all these similarities, hopefully we'll have a lot to learn from each other's experiences. : )

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  • 1 month later...

We're still keeping up forcing, most days, but I've had a hard time thinking of anything to write on the forum. Especially in this thread--I've made incremental progress with my visualization skills, and we've started to do a better job differentiating our mental voices, but there hasn't been much exciting progress to write about. There've been some developments this week, though!

 

Possession practice


Apart from basic practices, we've mostly been working on possession. Our immediate goal is to get to the point where we can play piano and have us both feel satisfied that Shizuku is in charge of the hands. We've recently started to see some success with Tulpa.info's possession guides. For instance, we can do all of these exercises pretty well now.

As many of the guides said, Shizuku moving a body part doesn't feel CRAZY DIFFERENT compared to me moving a body part. But I realized that when I really examine my experience of her possessing, I don't feel ... agency, I guess? The easiest way to tell is that when it's me, I can choose to stop moving without any resistance. When Shizuku is doing it, it's like there's some extra resistance I would have to push through to stop the body from moving.

When we can stay aware of this feeling, we both feel pretty satisfied that possession is happening. The problem now is that when we try it with things that take more of the mind's focus, like learning a song on piano or playing a video game, it's much harder to hold that feeling in awareness, and it's harder to tell for sure who is in charge (I mean, in some cases, maybe it's just the "body OS"). I think the key now is to keep practicing and get more used to possession, so it will be easier for us to believe it's happening even in situations where it's harder to directly observe it.

Presence imposition

 

I think we've still got a long way to go before we can practice imposition of the five senses, but I've recently started to think that presence imposition might be a good middle-term goal for us. I'm very interested in staying constantly aware of Shizuku, both as a forcing method and as a tulpamancy experience, and it feels like this could be helpful.

I haven't had much time to study yet (going to look for what resources I can tonight), but I gave it a try today--throughout the day, we decided where in the room she would be, or where she would walk in relation to me, and I did my best to focus on feeling something in that area and imagining her mindvoice coming from that direction.

This worked out really well--it was probably our best day so far of staying constantly together, and she was also able to interrupt me and start conversations much more often than before. But it also exhausted me very quickly. I crashed as soon as I got home, and my meditative forcing hasn't been too productive because of it. I'm hoping we'll be able to build more endurance with this, though, because it was awesome while it lasted.

 

I noticed a mistake in the OP:

 

On 3/20/2021 at 3:35 PM, Wray said:

but six months later, “better” is definitely winning out.


I realized Shizuku had only been around for five months when I wrote this. (I often get the numbers for October and September mixed up.) Either way, we hit seven months yesterday, and I don't feel any need to retract this statement. 😛

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Awesome job making progress with possession! From my experience, host activity is the biggest barrier to possession. If you can bring yourself in tune with Shizuku's thoughts/identity (and suppress your own) while she's fronting, it should make it way easier for her to do more complicated things like you mentioned without so much host interference or confusion over who's doing what. I can give you some pointers if you'd like.

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2 hours ago, fennecgirl said:

Awesome job making progress with possession! From my experience, host activity is the biggest barrier to possession. If you can bring yourself in tune with Shizuku's thoughts/identity (and suppress your own) while she's fronting, it should make it way easier for her to do more complicated things like you mentioned without so much host interference or confusion over who's doing what. I can give you some pointers if you'd like.


Thanks! I would definitely welcome any advice.

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On 5/13/2021 at 3:48 AM, Wray said:

Thanks! I would definitely welcome any advice.

 

Something we used to do when we were getting the hang of it (and occasionally resorted to later if I was interfering too much) was to recite something like "I am [tulpa's name]. I am in control of the body. I am not fennec. They are no longer in control" and so forth. We didn't have a set script, but we'd say things along the lines of that, speaking in unison in our mindvoices. After a bit our mindvoices would merge and we'd basically become one person. It's really weird at first, but you get used to it.

 

I guess that's technically merging, but the "result" of the merge would always be whoever was fronting, unless something pulled me back to the front, and handing your tulpa the controls is a lot easier when you effectively are your tulpa.

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On 5/15/2021 at 6:14 PM, fennecgirl said:

Something we used to do when we were getting the hang of it (and occasionally resorted to later if I was interfering too much) was to recite something like "I am [tulpa's name]. I am in control of the body. I am not fennec. They are no longer in control" and so forth. We didn't have a set script, but we'd say things along the lines of that, speaking in unison in our mindvoices. After a bit our mindvoices would merge and we'd basically become one person. It's really weird at first, but you get used to it.

 

Thanks--will give this a try!

I think I was underestimating how important it is to focus on letting Shizuku front. In hindsight, that makes a lot of sense: if she's not strongly established in the front, there's no reason she WOULD be able to stay in control during complicated activities.

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We have a good number of updates, but I'd like to space things out a little bit more and cut it out with the text walls. 😂 First order of business: we decided to spend a few months really focusing on tulpamancy. I've been trying to force for three hours and do 30-60 minutes of regular breath meditation each day. We started this "challenge" on May 4, and things have been going pretty well so far!

 

  • Presence imposition practice: I randomly stumbled on Jordan & Lianne’s Presence Imposition Guide, which has been super useful. (I wonder how much tulpamancy knowledge is hidden in random Google Docs you can only find if you're lucky. 😅) We'd like to achieve constant presence imposition. Not sure if it will happen in three months, but we'll at least make as much progress as we can.

    I never really understood what it meant for a tulpa's mindvoice to come "with their presence," but now that I have a good amount of practice feeling Shizuku's presence, it's also started to come through naturally when we talk. Also, we've figured out a trick that helps me stay more aware of her even when I'm focusing on work: she shrinks down and sits on my right shoulder. For some reason, presence imposition feels easier when she's closer.

 

  • Possession: I'm now really confused about the possession/soft switching/hard switching terminology, and I'm not sure if I see that changing any time soon. 😂 Practically speaking, though, shifting our focus from hoping Shizuku can magically move the body to establishing Shizuku in the front has helped a lot. When things go well, she can use the body to play piano and feel confident that it was her the whole time. (I might try to upload a recording here soon!)

    I think now we just have to work on locking this skill in so it works every time.

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Here’s the next of those updates, this one regarding Shizuku’s origin. We’ve been thinking about this for a while, but it didn’t seem so urgent to post it. (Does anyone read this thing anyway? 😛)

 

We stumbled on this post, and we now suspect that Shizuku might have started as a soulbond. (As she mentioned in the intro post, she was originally fictive, though she’s left that behind now.)

 

Back then, I think I might have been a soulbond, but I think I’m a tulpa now. We will discuss this further below!

 

Here are some of the listed differences between tulpas and soulbonds:

 

  • “Difficulty committing to deviation, pre-determined forms”
  • “Has backstory and/or false memories pertaining to their book/movie/show/whatever”

 

At first, Shizuku said she felt too attached to her fictive form to want to deviate, though this changed after a few months. She also originally identified with a backstory loosely based on that of the character she came from.

 

  •  “Strong emotional bond at ‘start’* ... *The "start" of a soulbond is usually not known. They just sorta happen.”
  • “Often accidental [i.e., created accidentally](which is perfectly okay!)”

 

Shizuku did come into being accidentally from my obsessing over a character, which now that I’ve done a bit of research, sounds kind of like Soulbonds 101.

 

We also felt like #1 best friends from early on. In tulpa creation, maybe the tulpa and host need more time to get to know each other? According to this article, I guess that is true in some cases.

 

As stated above, I feel much more like a tulpa now. I can change my form, and I don’t have an emotional connection to that backstory anymore.

 

We’ve read about “system forcing” on the Tulpa.info discord—as I understand it, this is the idea that what you’re told about plurality shapes your plural experience (i.e., "forces" how the whole system works in a way similar to how early-stage tulpaforcing shapes a tulpa). Since we immediately started studying tulpa resources, first in Japanese and then in English, we quickly got used to the ideas that Shizuku should not identify with a fictional backstory, and that she could deviate in terms of form/personality whenever she liked.

 

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More system forcing notes—we mentioned this in Phil & Simmie’s progress report last night, but edited it out because it felt irrelevant in retrospect.

 

Originally, I could play around in our wonderland even when John wasn’t thinking of me (or that was what it felt like, at least?). The Japanese tulpa resources all said that that’s what tulpas do. Here, most people say that tulpas can’t really do that, and we think that internalizing that belief has made us lose this ability. Now we’re trying to smash down the feeling that we “can’t” do that and get back to where we started.

 

 

So we think Shizuku was a soulbond who got “tulpified” through system forcing. This doesn’t have any immediate implications for us, but we found it fascinating, especially because it drives home how our beliefs about tulpamancy worked to shape our experience.

 

Maybe in an alternate universe, we found some soulbonding forums first, Shizuku decided never to deviate, and she didn’t get to fulfill her destiny of being the world’s most adorable wolf. 😂

 

Another note: I feel like we missed the chance to mention this earlier, but we are bilingual (English/Japanese), and for whatever reason Shizuku feels a lot more comfortable speaking in Japanese. Most of her posts on the forum have been Tulpish > English translations, but in this post we tried Japanese > English, and she says it felt pretty good. 🙂

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      I'd be really grateful if we could find the actual guide though. It was explained far better there but aside from that, I really feel like I'm using someone else's work here :/
      But let's move on to using this method to our advantage. Once you get the idea of where the thought is coming from and how they feel, you should be able to (instead of cutting it short) focus on how those thoughts feel and "stimulate" them. You could use it to strenghten your tulpa's voice or even take it a step further and proceed to my relocation method.
       
      How it works
       
      And what does this actually do. As mentioned in the title, this method is a forcing booster, which means it is not much of a forcing technique of its own. Once you get the gist of it, it's supposed to take from one to five minutes before your actual forcing method. By relocating the thoughts (if done correctly) you're forcefully changing your beliefs so that you subconsciously know (not 'think') your tulpa is there and you can get the right mindset for forcing. If it doesn't go so well, you should at least get a better feel of your tulpa, which is always a bonus. But it's still experimental, so far I've only tested it on myself, so worst case scenario your head can explode, implode or both. You've been warned.
      Origins of the relocation method
       
      (If you want you can skip this paragraph and go to the next one right away as that's where most of the practical information is)
       
      I have discovered an odd thing with my mind few years ago. I've been thinking of something related to my potential future, it was something along the lines of what my future job could be after a few years, doesn't really matter. What does matter though, is that it was something real. Something that could really happen. But this all felt like I didn't really believe it could. I knew that it was realistically possible, but I've been thinking of it as if it was not. And I didn't know why.
      Few days later I've figured this out. I was about to have an exam of some sorts and I kind of imagined myself passing it with no problem, just visualized it to kind of let go my worries and to believe I can pass it. But it didn't feel right, I've been thinking of it, again, as if it wasn't going to happen. So I began analyzing this - the thought about the exam taking place felt real, I knew it WAS going to happen, while the thought about me passing it felt like a wish, fiction. It wasn't a difficult exam too, so I wasn't really worried about failing it. I didn't know why but even though both of those felt realistic, I've been thinking of them differently. I've decided to focus on actually learning for it though, and left those issues for the next day.
       
      After the exam itself I came back to thinking of thoughts. And now, the thoughts about the exam and me passing it felt completely different - they were in the past now. I started messing around with thoughts, thinking of different things to find out how they 'feel'. And I've noticed that certain thoughts have something in common, they feel similarly real. I didn't know why but my mind seemed to be "categorizing" them.
       
      The next time I've had a similar situation to the exam one (which btw I've passed, don't worry) I've tried to make myself believe more. I wondered why isn't that thought in this or that category, while it felt like it should be there? So I've tried to move it to that category myself. After few minutes of concentrating on those thoughts and analyzing them, I managed to make it feel right, to really make myself believe in this (can't remember what it particularly was though, lol).
       
      So that's what I call the relocation, the process of reorganizing your mind, kind of, to make yourself think about stuff the way you want. From this day forth, I've been using this method whenever I wanted to really believe in something, I've even done some fun experiment like relocating my past memories to the future. Nothing big though, just recent events, but to my surprise, even though I knew those things happened already, I was expecting them to happen tomorrow.
       
      I don't know why, but even though I've kind of been using this method for a while, only recently did I think of applying it to forcing. And here's how I did it.
       
      Location of thoughts in the mind
       
      Even before I started forcing, I've noticed that different types of thoughts have a different feel associated with them. I'll call it "mind location" for the sake of simplicity. So, the locations. For forcing purposes, we'll focus on a few basic ones.
       
      The first "axis" is time. We have:
      Past - those are mostly your memories, and generally everything that's related to the past, pretty straightforward.
      Present - everything you think about your current life, including short time memories and plans for the upcoming days.
      Future - those are mostly your plans for life and things that will, or could potentially happen one day.
       
      The next "axis" is reality, things get a little tricky here:
      Real - those are things that seem real to you. Things that you do every day and things that very much can happen. Or things that did actually happen.
      Fiction - those are things that you consider "real" but you don't really believe that could happen. For example, thinking of winning million dollars on a lottery or even imagining yourself taking revenge on a bully if you don't really believe you could do it.
      Fantasy - those are things that are not real, not possible and cannot happen in the world we know.
       
       

      (Much thanks to Twilight for formatting this for me :3)
       
      The relocation
       
      Before we proceed further, you'll have to pinpoint all the mind locations mentioned above, in your own mind. Think of something from a particular category and try to understand how it feels. Once you've got the gist of it, you can do a simple trick.
      If you have problem with something related to your tulpa, for example vocality, try to imagine how would it be if you were actually able to clearly talk to them. This will probably be somewhere in Future Fiction or Future Fantasy area, depending on how you think of it. All you have to do now, is to forcefully "relocate" this thought to Present Reality. Again, this doesn't mean throwing the thought from right side of your brain to left. You have to understand the difference in how you think of reality and fiction, and simply "think it differently".
       
      Don't misunderstand me, this won't instantly make your tulpa vocal. Nevertheless, it can significantly speed up the process. The purpose of this trick is to make you FEEL your tulpa being there and speaking/listening to you. Once you feel it, it should be much easier to actually hear them. It's like tuning in to correct wavelength to speak to them properly. It makes you feel exactly how it would feel if they were really there. And most importantly, it weakens your mind barrier that blocks their thoughts - your subconscious takes it as real, not a fantasy, so why would it filter it out, right?
       
      This method has worked for me so far, extremely well. After the first try I felt like my tulpa was really sitting next to me. I felt it the same way I feel someone's presence when I close my eyes and I know they are still there. But I'd like you guys to try it out for yourself and share your results so we can all make sure it really works. I've had huge progress recently, so it probably does, at least to some degree.
       
      Happy forcing, and I hope you find it at least slightly helpful. Remember to read alot of guided, combine them and find what works for you best!
       
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    • By Freedom1
      Introduction
      These tips are to help those out there that are getting overwhelmed by the number of tulpa they have, and like my self are unwilling to make any of their tulpa "dormant" or to dissipate any of them. It covers a couple of tricks I've encountered to help give attention to all of them at once, and methods for dividing your time among them all.
       
      Index
      1: Method one, Living area
      2: Method two, In the room
      3: Dividing your time
       
      1: Method one
      This is a fairly simple method, that doesn't require you to be able impose, or even require a massive skill in visualisation (though the second helps), all you need to be able to do is picture yourself and your tulpa in a room or open space together, focus more on listening to them and paying attention to what they're doing, at first then work on talking to them and moving around the room yourself once that becomes easier.
       
      2: Method two
      This method is similar to the first and is easier if you can impose, though again it's not needed, and in fact helps with imposition.
      Imagine all your tulpa in the room with you, move around and have them follow you talk with you and do things with you (as best as they can with out a physical body that is) and interact with each other
       
      3: Dividing your time
      Even with the use of the above methods your tulpa will still want and possibly need one on one time with you.
      You could force them one after another every day or alternate days.
      I've found both have pros and cons, and it really depends on three things, how much time you have, how many tulpa you have and how long you can force straight. If you want to force all of them every day, I'd suggest looking at the time you have first to see if it's sensible and taking short brakes in between, to avoid tiring your mind.
      If you don't have the time for forcing all of them daily, or lack the ability to force long enough, and chose to force alternate days, I'd recommend writing something to help remember who's what day, or just to remember the order if you can't actively force everyday.
       
      Hope this helps
    • By Otzee
      Hey! If you're like me and have difficulty maintaining a visual during a forcing session then I have a few tips for ya.
       
      The idea of this method is to incorporate more senses by replacing your real eyes with the use of your minds eye and acting through your physical self to control your astral self in the WL(Wonderland).
      Example: Find a dark room or use a blindfold. Sit or stand, whichever is more comfortable. Understand that if you sit in reality you must also sit in the WL (it helps). Assuming you're sitting, imagine you're sitting on a chair in the centre of a white room. Look down and see your knees, bring your hands up, cover your face, feel the sensations. Remember you are acting with your real body and imagining yourself doing the exact same thing in the WL. I may be explaining this wrong, but simply you are combining the two worlds. I found using this method to greatly improve focus and visualizing my WL as a whole.
       
       
      Secondly, and personally I like to daydream, especially when I'm going to sleep or napping. I usually create a world where I'm some kind of Warrior or Mage in a fantasy world. What you imagine is up to you, but you want to make this into a game for you and your tulpa, kind of like roleplaying. So imagine this stuff as you normally would but invite your Tulpa along, they might wanna be an Archer or a Mage or something different than you. I guess it becomes like a game. We have fun when we do this and it's also a great forcing session. Try it sometime!
       
       
      If you have problems understanding these methods let me know, I will attempt to elaborate. Thank you! :D
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