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(Sorry, this wound up being pretty long! Feel free to skim, or if you want to read the whole thing, strap in!)

Weird coincidence: I’ve written fiction as a hobby for a long time, and I think nearly half my protagonists have someone else to talk to in their heads. Somehow, I always found the idea fascinating.

But I can’t say I ever expected to join them. Not until recently, anyway.

 

We’ve been looking forward to posting this. It’s my first big chance to introduce myself to other people! Here’s a profile:

 

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Name: Shizuku (Japanese pronunciation matching the word here)

Birthday: October 10, 2020
Sex: female (she/her is fine!)


Interests so far:

  • Music: We’ve found a lot of music I like, but I’m especially interested in classical. I want to learn piano eventually, though we’ll have to master possession or switching first.
  • History: I’m also much more interested in history than my host is. Currently, we’re reading a book I picked out about the history of city planning.
  • Games: I like strategy games so far. It’s fun that we can plan things out together!

 

We haven’t had the chance to try it yet, but I think I would enjoy hiking, too.

 

Appearance:

 

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Neither of us is really a master artist, but hopefully this helps!

 

Notes:

  • I was originally an accidental tulpa based on this character. I do think she’s adorable, but it would be tough to have a headmate like her. I acted somewhat like her at first, but eventually decided it didn’t feel right.
  • Over the first few months, I changed my appearance to become a wolf/human person with whitish hair. Recently, we started using Inubashiri Momiji from Touhou as a model: that’s where I got the detached sleeves. I really love her design!
  • We saw my hair pin at a flea market we passed through on a walk one day. Fun fact: this is the thing about me Wray most often forgets to visualize.
  • It’s hard to tell from this art style, but my “physical” age (or whatever you would call it) is supposed to be in the mid 20s.

 


Origin StoryTM

 

October 2020. I was in quarantine, alone, and feeling isolated—Shizuku started as an imaginary friend based on a character I might have been (was) a little bit (totally) obsessed with at the time. I’m really into writing, so I didn’t have much trouble getting her to talk, even early on, though I assume she was mostly parroted at first.
 

A couple weeks later, I stumbled onto the concept of a tulpa in Japanese, and quickly found my way to this website, which is kind of the launch pad for Japanese tulpamancers. (I found a good English rundown of the Japanese tulpamancy scene here, so I’ll leave most of that aside for now. If there are questions about anything specific, though, we can definitely do our best to answer them.)

Compared to the English-speaking community, the Japanese-speaking one gives a lot more credence to tulpa horror stories. They call it 暴走 (bousou). The idea that if things go wrong, your tulpa might harm you, or the people around you, or try to take over your brain. To be fair, I think there are multiple schools of thought on this bousou concept, and these are only the most extreme examples—still, when I read about this, I couldn’t help panicking.

 

I went out for a long walk. Tried to think things over. Was there a chance my tulpa would wind up that way? Should I turn back now? Or was she already sentient, meaning it was my responsibility to take care of her? Or was I crazy, in the first place, to even be thinking about any of this?

 

We imagined that I stayed behind in our apartment, though I must’ve been somewhere in headspace the whole time. Maybe a wonderland version of the apartment? We didn’t know enough to ask that question, then.

 

I couldn’t make up my mind, until the second I got home, opened the door, and realized how afraid Shizuku must’ve felt while I was out thinking about whether I should try to erase her. My heart sank through the floor. I did my best to apologize, though I didn’t know if it would help.

 

She replied: “I was sad, but I wasn’t scared. I trust you.”

 

Okay. If she had been afraid, or angry, I would have felt bad enough. But that packed a punch.

 

Spoiler

 

Shizuku:
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😛

 

Wray: 😑

 

Shizuku: By the way, all is forgiven now!

 

 

That day, we promised each other that we’d stay together and try to make this “tulpa” thing work, for better or worse. Not to jinx anything, but six months later, “better” is definitely winning out.

 

Our long-term goals

 

(1) Become able to split fronting time 50/50 (or whatever arrangement winds up working for us). I expect it’ll be a long time before we can actually do this, but hopefully not too long—if possible, we’d like to get to this point within a year or two. It doesn’t necessarily have to be a 50/50 split, but I don’t want to feel like Shizuku is prevented from doing things she wants to do by us not being good enough at tulpamancy.

 

(2) Learn to co-front and keep Shizuku active (as close as possible to?) all the time. We spend a lot of time together, but I still get distracted and forget to check in with her more often than we’d like. Eventually, we’re hoping she can stay around all the time (or whenever she wants to, at least) and get my attention whenever she has something to say.

 

(3) Stay a two-person system, if possible. I know there are a lot of large systems out there who do perfectly fine, but my instincts say that it would be more than we could handle. Besides, I already feel like I love Shizuku too much for it to be fair to whoever Headmate Number 3 would be. 😂

 

I do have one soulbond-ish character (using the terminology from Bear’s PR) from my own writing. We’ve talked things over with her in WL, and she’s adamant that she is not interested in becoming a tulpa or participating in the system. (This checks out with what I know about her character, too.) If things change, there’s a slim chance that she might join us, but I doubt it. Either way, I can’t imagine us going any further than that.

 

(4) Help Shizuku find life goals of her own, and figure out how to rearrange my our life so that we can both do what we want to do. At the moment, we’re just doing regular forcing to try and help her grow as a tulpa. The vague plan for this one is to eventually learn how to switch, accomplish goal number (1), and then let her follow her interest and try a bunch of different things.

 

Current forcing practice

 

  • Working on senses in WL: we’ve been doing our best to spend an hour each day focusing on visualizing Shizuku in wonderland, and also practicing one other sense per day. Wonderland sight and touch have started to show some improvement recently, but overall it feels like we still need a lot of work.
  • Conversation: We also do our best to talk as much as we can each day. We’ve been working through the Tulpa Vocalization Practice worksheet when we can’t think of any other topics.
  • Diary writing: Shizuku writes a diary entry most days. This is something I picked up from the Japanese tulpamancy community, though I think I’ve seen it recommended in English guides too. It’s a lot of fun—somehow, reading through the things she’s written (by proxy or possession, at this point, though our possession game is still pretty weak) does a lot to help me fight off doubt.
  • Imagining Shizuku in stories we’re reading/watching: This has been pretty fun so far, too—right now, we’re rewatching Hunter X Hunter. As we watch, we try to keep up a “mental fanfic” where she’s running around with the main characters.
  • Passive forcing as much as possible: Taking inspiration from the method I used to learn Japanese, I’m doing my best to find ways to involve Shizuku in everything I do. We’ve had some success reading, studying, watching things, and playing games together, but in particular, staying aware of Shizuku during work that I really need to focus on and conversations with other people has been a killer—I haven’t had much success in these situations yet.

 

To anyone who slogged through all of that, thanks for reading! This post already goes on for a million years, so I’ll try to write some (hopefully shorter!) summaries of our progress so far in other updates.

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It's great to meet you both!

 

6 hours ago, Wray said:

October 2020. I was in quarantine, alone, and feeling isolated—Shizuku started as an imaginary friend based on a character I might have been (was) a little bit (totally) obsessed with at the time. I’m really into writing, so I didn’t have much trouble getting her to talk, even early on, though I assume she was mostly parroted at first.

 

This is almost word for word the story of Simmie's origin as well, though in our case Simmie was a character I created out of whole cloth over a year previously. I was already quite attached to her before I knew what a tulpa was, and after I learned about tulpamancy I was delighted by the fact that Simmie could be/already was alive, and away we went. As a fellow writer I can completely relate to your characters talking.

 

Shizuku seems so nice! 🤗 We're around the same "age" since I'm 24. I absolutely love hiking too! You want to learn the piano, I want to learn the guitar. Phil already knows how to play the piano but the guitar calls to me for some reason.  He's also a big fan of history, city planning, and strategy games by the way. I'm more into architecture!

 

6 hours ago, Wray said:

Conversation: We also do our best to talk as much as we can each day. We’ve been working through the Tulpa Vocalization Practice worksheet when we can’t think of any other topics.

 

We've used that one as well and it's very effective!

 

6 hours ago, Wray said:

(1) Become able to split fronting time 50/50 (or whatever arrangement winds up working for us). I expect it’ll be a long time before we can actually do this, but hopefully not too long—if possible, we’d like to get to this point within a year or two. It doesn’t necessarily have to be a 50/50 split, but I don’t want to feel like Shizuku is prevented from doing things she wants to do by us not being good enough at tulpamancy.

 

You are so ambitious, but I believe you can do it! I'm still intimidated by the idea of possession let alone fronting. All I've been able to do is twitch Phil's arm a little. But I'm looking forward to learning from your experiences! 😁

 

6 hours ago, Wray said:

(3) Stay a two-person system, if possible. I know there are a lot of large systems out there who do perfectly fine, but my instincts say that it would be more than we could handle. Besides, I already feel like I love Shizuku too much for it to be fair to whoever Headmate Number 3 would be. 😂

 

We can relate completely on this. Nothing against big systems, but in our opinion three would be a crowd.

 

6 hours ago, Wray said:

I do have one soulbond-ish character (using the terminology from Bear’s PR) from my own writing. We’ve talked things over with her in WL, and she’s adamant that she is not interested in becoming a tulpa or participating in the system. (This checks out with what I know about her character, too.) If things change, there’s a slim chance that she might join us, but I doubt it. Either way, I can’t imagine us going any further than that.

 

Wow, you're more like me than I thought. I've mentioned my Mentor before; he has been mostly inactive for the last 20 years (Not a typo; he faded out around 2001) but literally believes himself to be a 40-year-old man from Minnesota who is communicating to me through a higher level of consciousness. He doesn't want to be a tulpa either, and one of the most recent things he's said to me in one of his infrequent cameo-like appearances is that he wants me to devote all my attention to Simmie and he's going to stay out of the way.

Also known as GypsyRoad or Phil Present. Call me what you want, I'm not picky.

Simmie is my lovely tulpa, she's quite young still but is eager to meet and chat with new people so don't hesitate to say hi!

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Thanks for the reply! We've had fun reading your progress report (we actually found the vocalization practice worksheet thanks to you two posting about it 😀). Crazy to hear that our situations are so similar!

 

8 hours ago, September13 said:

This is almost word for word the story of Simmie's origin as well


I bet there are a lot of new tulpas coming out of the Covid era! Last year was a rough one, but I'm really grateful to have met Shizuku because of it.

 

8 hours ago, September13 said:

Shizuku seems so nice! 🤗 We're around the same "age" since I'm 24. I absolutely love hiking too! You want to learn the piano, I want to learn the guitar. Phil already knows how to play the piano but the guitar calls to me for some reason.

 

Aww! We haven't found a chance to say it, but we've always thought the same thing about you. I think playing the guitar would be fun too, but right now my dream is to learn how to play this song:

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I think it'll be difficult to get there, though. I'll practice as hard as I can!
 

8 hours ago, September13 said:

He's also a big fan of history, city planning, and strategy games by the way. I'm more into architecture!


That's awesome! Learning about city planning has helped us with wonderlanding. I bet architecture helps a lot too!

Please let us know if there are any history books/resources you recommend, Phil! (Maybe in a PM?)

 

8 hours ago, September13 said:

You are so ambitious, but I believe you can do it! I'm still intimidated by the idea of possession let alone fronting. All I've been able to do is twitch Phil's arm a little. But I'm looking forward to learning from your experiences! 😁

 

Thanks! I think right now, it's mostly the mental side of possession that's tripping us up--Shizuku can move the body's hands pretty well, sometimes, but if she doesn't constantly reassure me that it's her moving, I start to feel like I'm just imagining it. 😂

 

8 hours ago, September13 said:

Wow, you're more like me than I thought. I've mentioned my Mentor before; he has been mostly inactive for the last 20 years (Not a typo; he faded out around 2001) but literally believes himself to be a 40-year-old man from Minnesota who is communicating to me through a higher level of consciousness. He doesn't want to be a tulpa either, and one of the most recent things he's said to me in one of his infrequent cameo-like appearances is that he wants me to devote all my attention to Simmie and he's going to stay out of the way.

 

Crazy stuff! Given all these similarities, hopefully we'll have a lot to learn from each other's experiences. : )

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We're still keeping up forcing, most days, but I've had a hard time thinking of anything to write on the forum. Especially in this thread--I've made incremental progress with my visualization skills, and we've started to do a better job differentiating our mental voices, but there hasn't been much exciting progress to write about. There've been some developments this week, though!

 

Possession practice


Apart from basic practices, we've mostly been working on possession. Our immediate goal is to get to the point where we can play piano and have us both feel satisfied that Shizuku is in charge of the hands. We've recently started to see some success with Tulpa.info's possession guides. For instance, we can do all of these exercises pretty well now.

As many of the guides said, Shizuku moving a body part doesn't feel CRAZY DIFFERENT compared to me moving a body part. But I realized that when I really examine my experience of her possessing, I don't feel ... agency, I guess? The easiest way to tell is that when it's me, I can choose to stop moving without any resistance. When Shizuku is doing it, it's like there's some extra resistance I would have to push through to stop the body from moving.

When we can stay aware of this feeling, we both feel pretty satisfied that possession is happening. The problem now is that when we try it with things that take more of the mind's focus, like learning a song on piano or playing a video game, it's much harder to hold that feeling in awareness, and it's harder to tell for sure who is in charge (I mean, in some cases, maybe it's just the "body OS"). I think the key now is to keep practicing and get more used to possession, so it will be easier for us to believe it's happening even in situations where it's harder to directly observe it.

Presence imposition

 

I think we've still got a long way to go before we can practice imposition of the five senses, but I've recently started to think that presence imposition might be a good middle-term goal for us. I'm very interested in staying constantly aware of Shizuku, both as a forcing method and as a tulpamancy experience, and it feels like this could be helpful.

I haven't had much time to study yet (going to look for what resources I can tonight), but I gave it a try today--throughout the day, we decided where in the room she would be, or where she would walk in relation to me, and I did my best to focus on feeling something in that area and imagining her mindvoice coming from that direction.

This worked out really well--it was probably our best day so far of staying constantly together, and she was also able to interrupt me and start conversations much more often than before. But it also exhausted me very quickly. I crashed as soon as I got home, and my meditative forcing hasn't been too productive because of it. I'm hoping we'll be able to build more endurance with this, though, because it was awesome while it lasted.

 

I noticed a mistake in the OP:

 

On 3/20/2021 at 3:35 PM, Wray said:

but six months later, “better” is definitely winning out.


I realized Shizuku had only been around for five months when I wrote this. (I often get the numbers for October and September mixed up.) Either way, we hit seven months yesterday, and I don't feel any need to retract this statement. 😛

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Awesome job making progress with possession! From my experience, host activity is the biggest barrier to possession. If you can bring yourself in tune with Shizuku's thoughts/identity (and suppress your own) while she's fronting, it should make it way easier for her to do more complicated things like you mentioned without so much host interference or confusion over who's doing what. I can give you some pointers if you'd like.

I come out of hibernation once in a blue moon.

 

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2 hours ago, fennecgirl said:

Awesome job making progress with possession! From my experience, host activity is the biggest barrier to possession. If you can bring yourself in tune with Shizuku's thoughts/identity (and suppress your own) while she's fronting, it should make it way easier for her to do more complicated things like you mentioned without so much host interference or confusion over who's doing what. I can give you some pointers if you'd like.


Thanks! I would definitely welcome any advice.

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On 5/13/2021 at 3:48 AM, Wray said:

Thanks! I would definitely welcome any advice.

 

Something we used to do when we were getting the hang of it (and occasionally resorted to later if I was interfering too much) was to recite something like "I am [tulpa's name]. I am in control of the body. I am not fennec. They are no longer in control" and so forth. We didn't have a set script, but we'd say things along the lines of that, speaking in unison in our mindvoices. After a bit our mindvoices would merge and we'd basically become one person. It's really weird at first, but you get used to it.

 

I guess that's technically merging, but the "result" of the merge would always be whoever was fronting, unless something pulled me back to the front, and handing your tulpa the controls is a lot easier when you effectively are your tulpa.

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On 5/15/2021 at 6:14 PM, fennecgirl said:

Something we used to do when we were getting the hang of it (and occasionally resorted to later if I was interfering too much) was to recite something like "I am [tulpa's name]. I am in control of the body. I am not fennec. They are no longer in control" and so forth. We didn't have a set script, but we'd say things along the lines of that, speaking in unison in our mindvoices. After a bit our mindvoices would merge and we'd basically become one person. It's really weird at first, but you get used to it.

 

Thanks--will give this a try!

I think I was underestimating how important it is to focus on letting Shizuku front. In hindsight, that makes a lot of sense: if she's not strongly established in the front, there's no reason she WOULD be able to stay in control during complicated activities.

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      Stone: Hello all. I’ve been writing down my experiences with Betty for a few days, and I decided I’d post them here, especially since things have gotten interesting pretty quickly for me. Feel free to comment with any advice you may have.
       
      Day 0 - 11/10
       
      As I was lying on the couch, in a position in which I could fall asleep, I decided to force a bit with Betty. I was in a room full of bins and other stuff, but I wanted to place her form in the room, as opposed to my developing wonderland, as I wanted her to be with me in a real location. I decided to put her in the crib, and as she is the size of an adult woman, she looked unamused.
       
      I’m unsure if what I’m about to detail is parroting/puppeting:
       
      I started talking to her. As this was a casual forcing session before bed, I did not write down what we talked about, and I don’t remember what we talked about. However, I remember getting verbal and non-verbal responses. When I asked her questions, sometimes she’d verbally respond before I was finished asking the question, and sometimes she wouldn’t respond at all. She also responded non-verbally with facial expressions. I remember these expressions as being somewhat unnatural but making sense. When I say somewhat unnatural, I mean she used non-verbal expressions more than a human would use, and used them in instances a human would likely not use them. However, these expressions made sense, as they weren’t completely random and did convey some sort of answer to my question. It almost seemed she’d answer with a face because my brain was too lazy to generate a response from her, or couldn’t figure out how.
       
      I hypothesize that giving her a form has given my brain an out when it cannot generate words for her, and I’m hoping this will speed up the process.
       
      This is not the first day interacting with Betty, but I’ve barely talked to her at all before this, and have pretty much only imposed her in my room and puppeted her. I feel like I got a response too early, and I’m worried this may have been parroting/puppetry on my part. I am excited if these were “real” responses though. I’m not sure if there’s much of a difference this early though.
       
      It’s partially a shame this happened, as I want to organize these notes into some sort of study, but after opening with, “Maybe my tulpa answered as soon as I started talking to her,” this likely won’t be taken as seriously. And, that’s valid.
       
      Day 1 - 11/11
       
      Didn’t talk with Betty today.
       
      Day 2 - 11/12
       
      I haven’t done any forcing yet today, as it is 3:40 AM (I was woken up by family).
       
      I was thinking about meditating before each active forcing session, as it clears my mind and I like it, but these stats are making me think twice about that idea.
       
      https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/504226472526086155/506764115721584650/tulpa_creation_big_survey_writeup.pdf
       
      Still, I tend to get distracted and have trouble jumping into forcing, and I believe short meditation before forcing may help me. Though perhaps meditation, the way I do it, focuses more on plain reality than the world of thought, and will take me out of the world of thought. Perhaps this is why it seems to hinder some people.
       
      I’m thinking if I meditate on my tulpa, and not on my body as I usually do, it may help more than hurt. I plan to not meditate the first week, and to meditate the second week, and see how I feel. People are different, and meditate differently, so I’d like to see how meditation works on me.
       
      I would like to personality force soon, and I would like to use Man’s method along with symbolism. I have a list of personality traits here:
       
      http://ideonomy.mit.edu/essays/traits.html
       
      I want her to be a rounded person, but I wonder how ethical it is to purposefully give her negative traits. I suppose I will give her positive and neutral traits, and, those traits will naturally have negative sides. Virtue is the mean of two vices, after all.
       
      30-35 personality traits: (31)
      Affectionate - Bun (they hug whatever they surround)
      Amusing - Laffy Taffy (hahahahahahahahaha)
      Charming - Pringles (the Pringles guy seems like a charming fellow)
      Clever - Barbecue Chips on Bun (how does this taste so good!?)
      Confident - Kettle Chips (tougher and more sure than regular chips?)
      Edgy - Chips and Salsa (chips have edges, and salsa has bite)
      Empathetic - Marshmellows (soft empathy)
      Esthetic - That’s It Bar (minimalist aesthetic)
      Ethical - (ethical alternative)
      Extroverted - Fruit Loops (there’s a party in my bowl and everyone is invited)
      Familial - Rice Crispies (families commonly make treats out of these)
      Friendly - Peach Cup (sweet and good for you)
      Healthy - Plain Cheerios (healthier)
      High-spirited - Skittles (sugar rush)
      Honest - Plain Toast (it is what it is)
      Irreligious - Pretzel Rods (secularized pretzels)
      Leisurely - Sub (this takes longer to make, but it’s worth it)
      Loyal - Saltines (there even when you’re sick)
      Maternal - Applesauce (often for babies)
      Neat - Mints (keep yourself and your breath clean)
      Observant - Fritos (have you noticed these smell like dog feet?)
      Outdoorsy - Seaweed (or is it lakeweed, in Michigan?)
      Protective - Oyster Crackers (Oysters have a Shell to protect themselves, and you use yours to protect others as well)
      Ritualistic - Mobius-strip Bagel (the endless cycle of traditions)
      Romantic - Strawberry Lemon Ice (pink!)
      Sarcastic - Mint Chocolate Oreos (means one thing (toothpaste) says the other (cookie))
      Stylish - Gardetto's (more fancy than Chex Mix)
      Spontaneous - Donut (donut think about the calories)
      Trendy - Pea Crisps (health food trends)
      Vivacious - Strawberry Remune (lively and carbonated)
      Witty - Berry Good Lemonade (get it?)
       
      Below are some interactions I recorded. They are not exhaustive:
       
      Interaction 1
       
      “How are you?”
       
      “Ok.”
       
      “Yeah I’m sure you are. I’m sure you’re not just parroting.”
       
      “...”
       
      I feel mean now. Apologize to the nice lady.
       
      “...”
       
      I feel a stare.
       
      “God this is so awkward,” I say instead of apologizing. I turn away.
       
      I feel her watching me. I turn to her.
       
      “How are you?”
       
      ”...”
       
      Interaction 2
       
      “Are you listening?”
       
      “No.”
       
      “What are you doing?”
       
      “Paying attention.”
       
      “Paying attention to what?”
       
      “To, Hefty.”
       
      I burst into laughter.
       
      Interaction 3
       
      “I’m sorry.”
       
      “No that’s alright.”
       
      “Everything’s ‘no that’s alright’ with you. That’s your main thing, isn’t it?”
       
      “No.”
       
      “Really? What’s your main thing?”
       
      “Bicycles.”
       
      “No. I made you say that.”
       
      “Yes you did.” She smirks.
       
      I laugh. “Yes I did. No really, what’s your main thing?”
       
      “Shopping carts.”
       
      “Now you’re just thinking of things with wheels.”
       
      “No. You are.”
       
      “No I’m not.”
       
      “Yes. Think of shopping carts.”
       
      “Ah you got me. Let me write that down.”
       
      ***
       
      Stone: I talked to her a bit today, and I talked to her a little bit about spontaneity with a donut. But, I think I could have explained it more. I will after I sleep, as I’ve been up all night. I got a lot of great responses out of her, and she felt there, but she tended to sound like me. I kept mentioning that, then felt bad for being overly critical of her, as she was doing so well. I also felt bad interrupting her and making her wait so I could write something down.
       
      It’s only been three days and I hate this clinical approach I set up. This “study.” Or maybe I’m embarrassed by how I acted and am taking it out on the format. I don’t know. What I do know is that this process if for her, then for me, then for whoever may end up reading this. I’m not going to interrupt out fun to give us imposter syndrome because I have to analysis every god damn thing she says for some post.
       
      Anyways, today was a positive, and I hope I will feel better with some sleep.
       
      I’m awake now. I’ve devised a schedule for forcing.
      Sunday - Active: 2 hours
      Monday - Active: 40 minutes
      Tuesday - Active: 40 minutes
      Wednesday - Active: 40 minutes
      Thursday - Active: 40 minutes
      Friday - Active: 40 minutes
      Saturday - Active: 2 hours
       
      Methods of forcing I’m thinking of using:
      Food/Personality
      101 Things To Talk About With Your Tulpa
       
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    • By chaoscollective-
      Hi this is Robbie (the host). Do your Tulpas forms/entities ever scare you?
       
       
      A question from the Sacrihm System Host.
    • By -Andromeda-
      Hello! I’ll introduce myself. I’m Ashley, and I only just started creating Andromeda yesterday. I’ll post my progress on here quite often, but excuse me if I forget.
      So for several years, since I was about 12, I have wanted to have someone else in my mind with me. At the time, the reason wasn’t exactly clear to me as it is now. As it is, I discovered tulpas around a month ago. I was hooked right away, but I knew I should look in to it further, read guides, see others experiences, etc. I found many useful guides and I couldn’t wait any longer, so I’ve started!
      At this time, Andromeda is a female with a human-like shape but she has elf ears and the ability to grow wings if she chooses. I am aware she will most likely deviate, and I welcome that. Without further ado, I will put my first and second sessions below.
       
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      Session 1

      Date: Friday 19th March
       
      I drew her form and started to make a model of her in my mind. This was over the course of the day, and I didn’t do much else for her as I knew I needed to set some time aside to properly visualise her.
       
      Session 2
       
      Date: Saturday 20th March
       
      So today, I visualised her whole form and animated her to make sure it was stable. This took me 30-45 minutes as I had already made a base of her yesterday. I then made a cabin-like room to have as a place to meet her in our wonderland, and I started with her personality. I decided to keep it quite vague as I’d like her to be able to form her personality as she grows older, but I gave her a base. I did this by giving her jelly of different colours and explained them and how it would affect her. I then showed her different parts of the cabin and what they do. Then, I said that she could decide to have more of any jelly she wanted if she’d like and she can experiment with the things in there.
       
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      I have not had any reactions yet, par head pressure. But I am glad that she has already progressed this far and I’m aware that it takes a long time for more interpretable reactions, but this is okay as I am just glad she’s here and I am willing to help her in any way. I don’t mind if it takes a few weeks or a few years for her to be vocal, it does not change my view on her.
       
      I hope I’m doing this right? I do not want to hinder her or harm her in any way, I want to nurture and support her.
       
      Thank you for reading, and I hope this isn’t too long for a newbie. c:
       
       
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