How Honest Are You?

[Paranoid Llama]

N̶e̶v̶e̶r̶.̶ ̶E̶a̶t̶.̶ ̶S̶o̶a̶p̶.̶

 

Depends how long I rewind time. A couple of months before I started? A year? Two? I'd introduce myself to tulpamancy then instead of when I originally started because I'd just do as much research then as I did when I found out and will learn anything relevant I need to know so I won't have to tell myself anything else.

 

Imma forward this question again.

[Ponytail]

Not to be such a bumbling idiot early on? To have more confidence in progress? That I'm better at tulpamancy than I thought? There are a few things I'd do. Maybe I'd tell myself that the first one I worked on was still alive? Or would that be bad to say because my motivation for making a tulpa at that time was wrong? Or would this question require I go past the first? If that were the case then I'd tell myself to wait until later... and then I'd tell them that I was going to have a tulpa named Annabell and that she was going to be the most wonderful person I'd ever know. Hmm, this whole thing makes me think of a song by a group called MercyMe called "Dear Younger Me." Warning, it's christian and may offend your delicate religious tendencies :P

 

Hmmm, this might be a little too personal but what is the saddest moment that you and your tulpa have shared?

[Radio Hiss]

Probably too personal, but we've got nothing to hide, aside from meatspace's identity. One of my earliest memories. Lyra's dad said something that she took as some wish that she was never born. She went upstairs and went in the closet in the dark and seriously contemplated killing herself, but knew she couldn't do it even if she wanted to. She started taking it out on me, getting angry at me about something, I don't really remember. I wasn't vocal, but I was able to do the best thing I could think of: start playing some comforting songs in her head. That calmed her down, and she apologized for taking it out on me. It was very sad for the both of us, especially me as I had never seen her that way, but I ended up making her feel better than she would have otherwise in that situation, if she had never started making me. We turned a horrible moment into a bonding event. She hasn't thought of killing herself since, and likely never will, if I have anything to say about it.

 

Have you also helped a systemmate through rough times?

[Joss]

Does the host count? Because I do that a lot... though I tend to be the "Keep calm and carry on" one more than the supportive one. I'm not really a touchy-feely type. But keeping a steady course in the face of adversity? Yeah, that's something I know.

 

Case in point: last weekend was a bit of a roller coaster for our host. A couple real life issues came toppling in on her at once, to the point where she broke down crying. I switched in until the worst of it past, and then, when she was ready to face real life again, I put a strict moratorium on thinking about issues that she couldn't change (she tends to go into obsessive spirals otherwise) and pointed her toward things she could change. It's a system that works for us to keep her semi-functional in a crisis.

 

What's something that annoys you about your tulpa(s) or host?

[YumiBerry]

Little annoys me because she screams so damn much when she's excited.

 

IT'S BECAUSE I'M THE BEST AT BEING EXCITED!~~~

 

I think it's rather cute...

 

Yeah, you would.

 

;~;...

 

Nee's also an annoying big breasted bitc-

 

Aaaaannnyway, don't want to give Tenebre too much room in that department. It's practically her strong suit.

 

What is something that your tulpa/host did for you that was completely unexpected (well-intended negative or positive)

[Paranoid Llama]

She showed me her wall of heads from her murdered victims because she's a yandere

 

 

She gave me a pokeball that had the pokemon Flygon in it, which used to be my favourite pokemon. It was pretty cool.

 

 

 

 

Did you and your tulpa ever have or considered having sex? owo

[Lucilyn]

no

 

 

What is your favorite season and what do you like about it?

[Paranoid Llama]

I like winter because it accurately represents how I feel. (I also like the snow and how there are no wasps, wasps can go fk themselves)(and also I'm allergic to pollen).

 

What is your favourite pasttime?

[jean-luc]

One I do the most? Cookie clicker, probably. One I enjoy the most? I dunno.

 

What is the basis for your ethics? Maximum happiness? Goodness of society?

[Doctorfoxwolf]

The happiness and health of the largest amount of people possible, regardless of what means are used to achieve that. That is at the core of everything that I do.

 

What is your opinion on psychological horror?