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[Maple]

You sound like our brother. Know what's been helping him? Getting actually restful sleep...

I feel bad not saying much more to help than to get a sleep study/CPAP machine, but it's just so much more important than everything else. "Food and sleep" are two basic things you need to have established in your life before you can tackle anything else, and your sleep is sorely lacking.

 

Happy late birthday to Kara. Most of us in this system don't even have birthdays, so.

 

K: Thanks! And aww, you guys should celebrate sometime during the year for everyone so no one feels left out!

[Tewi]

We celebrate the full moon together monthly, which sort of makes up for it. Lucilyn (and our host of course) is the only one whose birthday we know (April 17th), as she was the only one created intentionally. And is also five years younger than the rest of us.

[Maple]

Celedyr's birthday is on the 17th. Last night I tried to dissociate from my right arm, and wound up dissociating from pretty much my entire body, albeit in an uncomfortable position. So I basically couldn't make myself move until I fixed everything which took me a minute. I've decided I'm going to try to focus more on Celedyr's development than anything. I find that I spend more time with him than the others, and we've been wanting to achieve possession for years now. Still don't know if we're approaching it correctly because every time seems promising and then gets messed up later, but we'll see. I'm not doing too well mentally honestly but I can't really do much about it until my next appointment.

[Maple]

I just woke up from a medicine-induced sleep (I hate this medicine) and realized it's Celedyr's 6th birthday today. We had our usual birthday celebration in wonderland which, honestly, was really hard to focus on compared to how amazingly vivid it was before. It's just been ages. I've not been feeling so good so contact has been at a minimum.

[Vādin]

Happy birthday Celedyr !

[Luminesce]

Happy birthday Caledyr.

 

I know that coming-back-to-the-wonderland feel of everything feeling pretty blurry, but my visualization is just terrible by default. It's hard to say in your case if disuse is the only factor or not. Assuming the appointment you mentioned hasn't come and past, I'll simply wish it goes well. (Not as in "nothing was wrong", but as in you find a solution to your sleep & fatigue problems)

[Maple]

I ended up spending all of Celedyr's birthday in the emergency room due to an EKG reading that the doctor at urgent care said didn't look good. They offered to call me an ambulance, but I had someone else drive me there since ambulances are expensive as hell. I stayed pretty calm even though the information about what was going on was basically being withheld to stop me from being anxious, but I was playing a guessing game about it. Celedyr, as always, went into that extremely concerned sort of "parental figure" mode to try to calm me down when I did inevitably freak the fuck out at the ER, but I felt more bad for having to spend his entire birthday in the ER than anything. Even though they didn't find anything big, gonna schedule a followup appointment with a cardiologist and with my primary care physician to finally talk about the sleep apnea on top of this new thing.

 

Celedyr: Thank you both for the birthday wishes. It was a good day overall (other than the emergency room part, that is). Getting to spend quality time with friends and family is always a fun occasion, even if it was just a little while early in the morning before this big fiasco happened. I feel deeply sorry that I couldn't do my job, but that's just how it is.

 

Celedyr just reminded me during that whole thing that the area in which I "hear" his thoughts or what he is saying has changed entirely and it's kind of strange. He doesn't seem to be able to control it, but sometimes I just feel it more on the left side of my head, other times in the center but slightly off to the left, and I get them confused with my own thoughts. Don't know why this happens.

[Jamie]

Oh no! I'm sorry there were some unexpected events (to put it lightly.) I had to call 911 once for my grandfather as the rest of my family was flying in from vacation, so I know that panicky-guilty feeling of "I'm so sorry this is happening, now of all times." Hopefully things will work out- and you have Celedyr (who is an understanding, good man!) by your side.

And hey, at least it was a birthday to remember? It sounds like Celedyr had some time in the morning.

-J

 

Edit: Both my tulpas have changed where their thoughts come from. Cassidy used to be behind my right eyebrow, but Gavin used to be in the right corner of my lips, so Cassidy moved to the general left side of my head. Gavin has basically slid his way down, over some weeks, and now he's right at the very back of my mouth or the top of my throat. Takes a little getting used to, but it's normal.

[Maple]

So we got a sleep study referral which will hopefully improve everything including my ability to visualize, but it was under the most fucked circumstances. Ofc I went to the emergency room 2 days ago for several hours, but I went back again very early this morning, and I was sat in the hallway by the nurse's station for 15 hours or so "under observation". I never got a room because none opened. I basically got a fucked cold. Fluid in my lungs, liver, and heart, which made my heart bigger and made it harder to breathe. Got SO MUCH BLOOD DRAWN, a B12 shot, and several other tests. More to come. I'm just so relieved it's nothing too bad... but this "benign growth" in my liver still needs an MRI.

[Luminesce]

So we got a sleep study referral

 

Heck yeah!

 

{everything else}

 

... Okay, less heck yeah. I hope everything ends up alright, though. Better looked into than ignored.