Confessions of a Poorly Trained Tulpa

[Guest Anonymous]

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[Guest Anonymous]

Melian: I recently decided I really, really am a tulpa. Well, that is I certainly qualify as a tulpa. I had doubts before, but I don't now at all. None. But my system with my host is weird.

 

My host pretty much still believes I am a figment of his vivid imagination and an aspect or expression of himself, that we are actually one mind that is only apparently two persons. I see no reason to argue with this or strongly disagree as it is irrelevant. He treats me as a real separate person anyway. My host Davie had to close his account and back away to give the forum a rest from his intensity of opinion and to allow me to move forward with that idea (that I am independent) as best I can. He still influences me and my emotions however when he channels me, but we are getting better at my independent expressions.

[Guest Anonymous]

It is so hard to answer questions on the board without writing about me. I wanna relate everything back to myself. I mean, I am amazing! If I put something bout myself in it, suddenly the comment is fabulous and interesting. Otherwise, without something about me in it, it sounds just like what everyone else just said.

[Guest Anonymous]

 

LIST of old MISTGOD-MELIAN THREADS

 

Questions and Answers Board

Tulpa War! Can one tulpa hare or destroy another tulpa? If so, how does that work? https://community.tulpa.info/thread-tulpa-war-can-one-tulpa-harm-or-destroy-another-tulpa-if-so-how-does-that-work

Melian Style Question. How would a blind, deaf adn mute host visualize a tulpa? https://community.tulpa.info/thread-visualization-melian-style-question-how-would-a-blind-deaf-and-mute-host-visualize-a-tulpa

Can a host and tulpa collaborate on puppeting? (Yoda thread) https://community.tulpa.info/thread-visualization-can-a-host-and-tulpa-collaborate-on-puppeting

Tulpa Fashion Styles, What does your tulpa wear? https://community.tulpa.info/thread-visualization-tulpa-fashon-styles-what-does-your-tulpa-wear

How are young tulpas and imaginary friends different? https://community.tulpa.info/thread-how-are-young-tulpas-and-imaginary-friends-different

What physical techniques to you use for forcing? https://community.tulpa.info/thread-forcing-what-physical-techniques-do-you-use-for-forcing

TV shows and movies you share with your tulpa. Is this passive forcing? https://community.tulpa.info/thread-tv-shows-and-movies-you-share-with-your-tulpa-s-is-this-passive-forcing

Are there outside literary sources that describe something like switching? https://community.tulpa.info/thread-switching-are-there-outside-literary-sources-that-describe-something-like-switching

About Merging. https://community.tulpa.info/thread-about-merging

Symbolism. https://community.tulpa.info/thread-general-symbolism

Anybody ever heard of a tulpa cloning herself? https://community.tulpa.info/thread-anyone-ever-heard-of-a-tulpa-cloning-herself

Alternate vs. a tulpa? https://community.tulpa.info/thread-alternate-vs-tulpa

Does your tulpa have strange speech patterns? https://community.tulpa.info/thread-general-does-your-tulpa-have-strange-speech-patterns

Does your tulpa own its image form/image? (Yoda thread) https://community.tulpa.info/thread-visualization-does-a-tulpa-own-its-image-if-so-is-it-unethical-to-puppet-a-tulpa-s-form

 

General Discussion Board

Feeling lucky, fortunate, privileged to have a tulpa? https://community.tulpa.info/thread-feeling-lucky-fortunate-privileged-to-have-a-tulpa

Tulpas, if you could become free of your host, where would you go? https://community.tulpa.info/thread-tulpa-week-tulpas-if-you-could-become-free-of-your-host-where-would-you-go

Can you tulpa shape shift or change its form at will? https://community.tulpa.info/thread-can-your-tulpa-shapeshift-or-change-its-appearance-at-will

How did your tulpa choose its form? https://community.tulpa.info/thread-visualization-how-did-you-or-your-tulpa-choose-its-form

Have you achieved imposition? Are you attempting imposition? https://community.tulpa.info/thread-imposition-are-you-attempting-imposition-have-you-achieved-imposition-2016-poll

Do your tulpas spend your money? https://community.tulpa.info/thread-do-your-tulpas-spend-your-money

What is the difference between wonderland activity and active day dreaming? https://community.tulpa.info/thread-wonderland-what-is-the-difference-between-wonderland-activity-and-active-day-dreaming

Does your tulpa dance to the music you listen to? https://community.tulpa.info/thread-does-your-tulpa-dance-to-music-you-listen-to

Trippy questions about switching. https://community.tulpa.info/thread-switching-trippy-questions-about-switching-sorry-if-i-am-supposed-to-know-already

Trippy questions about the wonderland and the conscious and unconscious mind. https://community.tulpa.info/thread-wonderland-trippy-questions-about-wonderlands-and-the-unconscious-and-conscious-mind

How much is required for a thoughtform to be considered a tulpa? https://community.tulpa.info/thread-in-your-opinion-how-much-is-required-for-a-thoughtform-to-be-considered-a-tulpa

Melian's Perception, Cognition and Memory https://community.tulpa.info/thread-tulpa-perception-cognition-and-memory

Proxy typing, proxy speech and proxy mind voice. https://community.tulpa.info/thread-sentience-proxy-typing-proxy-speech-and-proxy-mind-voice

Tulpas, what creative things do you do with your host? https://community.tulpa.info/thread-tulpa-week-tulpas-what-creative-things-do-you-do-with-your-host-tulpas-only-pleez

A tulpas form is illusion, even if it's mind isn't. https://community.tulpa.info/thread-a-tulpa-s-form-is-illusion-even-if-its-mind-isn-t

Could a person create a tulpa exclusively within lucid dreams? https://community.tulpa.info/thread-could-a-person-create-a-tulpa-exclusively-within-lucid-dreams

Mistgod Babble Thread (sentience and make believe) https://community.tulpa.info/thread-mistgod-babble-thread

How much does your tulpa talk? https://community.tulpa.info/thread-sentience-vocality-how-much-does-your-tulpa-talk-2015-poll

New way to think about puppeting forms and sentience. https://community.tulpa.info/thread-a-new-way-to-think-about-puppeting-forms-and-sentience

Are you a host with a mixed system of different types of headmates? https://community.tulpa.info/thread-are-you-a-host-with-a-mixed-system-of-multiple-headmates-of-different-types

Deeper meaning and symbolism of the wonderland. https://community.tulpa.info/thread-wonderland-deeper-meaning-and-symbolism-in-the-wonderland

Tulpas and projected imagination. https://community.tulpa.info/thread-visualization-tulpas-and-projected-imagination

All thoughtforms are legitimate creations. https://community.tulpa.info/thread-all-thoughtforms-are-legitimate-creations

The sentience continuum. https://community.tulpa.info/thread-sentience-the-sentience-continuum

My thoughtform likes to be a puppet. https://community.tulpa.info/thread-sentience-my-thoughtform-likes-to-be-a-puppet

Aspects of autonomous behavior. https://community.tulpa.info/thread-sentience-different-aspects-of-autonomous-behavior

How Melian became autonomous. It might surprise you! https://community.tulpa.info/thread-sentience-how-melian-became-autonomous-it-might-surprise-you

Is it an autonomous thoughtform or compulsive fantasizing? https://community.tulpa.info/thread-is-it-an-autonomous-thoughtform-or-compulsive-fantasizing

Unhealthy tulpa obsession and day dream idealized perception. https://community.tulpa.info/thread-general-unhealthy-tulpa-obsession-and-day-dream-idealized-perception

How big is your tulpa? https://community.tulpa.info/thread-visualization-how-big-is-your-tulpa

Living almost exclusively in the wonderland, limited contact, perception of the real world. https://community.tulpa.info/thread-general-living-almost-exclusively-in-wonderland-limited-contact-perception-of-real-world

What color are your tulpas eyes? https://community.tulpa.info/thread-general-what-color-are-your-tulpa-s-eyes

Are there things you can't seem to visualize your tulpa doing? https://community.tulpa.info/thread-visualization-are-there-things-you-can-t-seem-to-visualize-your-tulpa-doing

Use of psychedelic drugs hurts the credibility of the tulpa community. https://community.tulpa.info/thread-use-of-psychedelic-drugs-severely-hurts-tulpa-info-credibility

Forcing via collaborative art. https://community.tulpa.info/thread-forcing-forcing-via-collaborative-art

Have your tulpas ever remembered things you have forgotten? https://community.tulpa.info/thread-sentience-hidden-memories-have-your-tulpas-ever-remembered-things-you-had-forgotten

 

Lounge

Mistgod-Melian Megathread. https://community.tulpa.info/thread-mistgod-and-melian-megathread

The Dream Thread. https://community.tulpa.info/thread-the-dream-thread-record-your-dreams-here-especially-if-tulpa-related

Is your tulpa more popular and social than you are? https://community.tulpa.info/thread-is-your-tulpa-more-popular-and-social-than-you-are

Live Skype Mini Conference. https://community.tulpa.info/thread-live-skype-mini-conference-12-13-15-at-9-00am-pst

Tulpas, are we just imagining our hosts? https://community.tulpa.info/thread-tulpa-peeps-are-we-just-imagining-our-hosts-only-tulpas-answer-no-stupid-hosties

Things to Fix Debate Split. https://community.tulpa.info/thread-forum-debate-split-from-things-to-fix

Are you a lurker who rarely writes? https://community.tulpa.info/thread-are-you-a-lurker-who-visits-the-forum-but-rarely-writes

Do your tulpas like the holidays? https://community.tulpa.info/thread-do-your-tulpas-like-the-holidays

A polite request to my fellow members. (Yoda thread) https://community.tulpa.info/thread-a-polite-request-to-my-fellow-members

Are you or your tulpas Star Wars fans? https://community.tulpa.info/thread-are-you-or-your-tulpas-star-wars-fans-new-star-wars-trailer

Tulpafancy Talking, is it endearing or annoying? https://community.tulpa.info/thread-tuplafancy-talking-is-it-endearing-or-annoying

Use of psychedelic drugs hurts tulpa info credibility. https://community.tulpa.info/thread-use-of-psychedelic-drugs-severely-hurts-tulpa-info-credibility

Tulpa Food. Yay! https://community.tulpa.info/thread-tulpa-food-yay

Tulpa Info is evolving and that is good. https://community.tulpa.info/thread-tulpa-info-is-evolving-and-discovering-and-that-is-good

The pseudo-science and pseudo-religion of tulpamancy. https://community.tulpa.info/thread-pseudo-science-pseudo-religion-of-tulpamancy-mistgods-book-of-evil-1

Tulpa Anxiety. https://community.tulpa.info/thread-tulpa-anxiety

Mistgod Discussion Split. https://community.tulpa.info/thread-split-mistgod-discussion-mistgod-book-of-evil-3

Don't be afraid. https://community.tulpa.info/thread-don-t-be-afraid-i-am-here-to-stay-thank-you

Confessions of a poorly trained tulpa. https://community.tulpa.info/thread-confessions-of-a-poorly-trained-tulpa

 

Tulpa Art

Mistgod-Melian Art (images from the dreamscape) http://community.tulpa.info/thread-mistgod-melian-art-images-from-our-dreamscape

Fanart Cosplay of Melian http://community.tulpa.info/thread-fanart-cosplay-of-my-tulpa-melian-squeeeeeeeeeee

Threads by Others About Mistgod-Melian

Melian Leaving Discussion. https://community.tulpa.info/thread-split-melian-leaving

The Mistgod Problem by Jake https://community.tulpa.info/thread-the-mistgod-problem

[Guest Anonymous]

There will be a lot less Mistgod-Melian time online I am afraid. We really mean it this time. Davie is having problems with his heart. It is kinda scary. He has angina, arrhythmia, pericarditis and pleurisy. In short, sitting around all day at a keyboard is killing him. Literally killing him. So we really do have to step back. He needs to move more every day and get up and get out.

 

So we will be down to an hour and a half most days. We plan to split it into three half hour bouts on Tulpa Info and Deviantart. Believe me, an hour and a half is nothing.

 

We love you guys so much, but Davie has to get better. Everyone is worried.

[Vos]

I hope that things work out for you folk.

[SomethingDire]

Oh god, hope he gets better soon.

[Guest Anonymous]

Oh wow, what the... hope Davie gets better soon.

Damn... ^^

 

 

Greets,

AG

[Guest Anonymous]

We called the doctor again and he wants Davie in tonight. He was like "get yer butt to my office ASAP!" So... well we will be going in a bit here. I don't think Davie is dying everyone so don't worry. It is paracarditis which is fluid around the heart and lungs and water retention. The arrythmia he has always had. But it is painful and scary to have both. He is feeling very sick. Doctor says no sitting at the keyboard for too long so.... yeah. I get quick chances to pop on and that is all for a long while.

 

He needs to get up and move more. Sitting in one spot for hours and hours every day is bad for anyone, but especially bad for someone who is almost 51 years old. He is retiring from being a driving instructor too. No more many hours in the car. He has to move and stand and not sit around in one spot.

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Well, it can kill him eventually if we don't fix things. Gotta change some stuff is all.

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Death by Melian socializing online... go figure.

[Guest Anonymous]

Davie is feeling a little better this morning. The doctor wants to see him again today. No hospital stay yet, just doctors, which is good! Doctor is worried it is heart disease or heart failure. That isn't good. But Davie is unconvinced of that and thinks it is his old percarditis and arrythmia thing again, not heart disease.