A few questions from a newb

[Gvina]

First off, you don't have to answer all the questions by number and giving an general answer will be also great and very appreciated.

Hey, yesterday i started trying out creating my own tulpa,

and because i wanted to give it freedom i never gave it any shape,name,personality or anything at all, i only talk to it in male form(my first language isn't English so i'll ask something about that at the end.) i looked a bit and the temporary shape i gave it was a "orb of light", somewhere today(i cant remember when but between 3 to 6 hours ago) it changed shape into a black ball.

so my first question here, is : is that ok? i am not really sure..

then ill keep with another few things, until now i dont really have any wonderland and when i talk to him i usually see him blurry somewhere near me(1m maximum) or in somewhat "void" in my mind, is that ok? is an wonderland important? also, when i talk to him, i just kind of "look " at him and talk in my mind.. is that fine? i heard from someone that narrating him while reading a book is a good thing that will help him while being a fun activity, is that true? how should i do it? or is it too early right now?

now, i have a few more things to ask.

while i have been talking to him and asking questions(obviously getting no answer) sometimes i felt random "cold waves" going through my body and i am usually not cold, is that him? yesterday i didnt have them but that seems weird because i didn't see anywhere here anyone having his tulpa talk to him that way..

Also, I havent talked to him in about 2 hours because i have been busy, is that a fine amount of time to do something else and not focus on him a lot? or should i try to be more focused?

and last question(i think i dont have anymore currently), i know currently 3 languages(ill learn atleast 1 more in the future) and i am currently talking to him in my head with my mother language which is not English, i sometime think in English but i dont think it will matter, will it? and will he know all the languages i know when he learns to speak or do i need to teach him English?

Thanks, even if you only read it and do not answer anything

[warriortiltheend]

It's fine that your tulpa changed form.

 

The second part is also fine. You don't have to have a wonderland yet. In fact, you may want to wait on having a wonderland so the two of you can design it together.

 

To narrate while reading a book, just read the book in your mind as if telling your tulpa a story. You can do that right now or in the future.

 

You might just be sick, or it could be your tulpa. It seems a little early for that, but some develop faster than others.

 

It is completely fine that you haven't talked to him in a few hours.Sometimes you're busy and that's okay! I'd say be wary if you go a day without at least passively forcing in the first stage of their development.

 

Your tulpa will most likely know all of those languages.

[Gvina]

It's fine that your tulpa changed form.

 

The second part is also fine. You don't have to have a wonderland yet. In fact, you may want to wait on having a wonderland so the two of you can design it together.

 

To narrate while reading a book, just read the book in your mind as if telling your tulpa a story. You can do that right now or in the future.

 

You might just be sick, or it could be your tulpa. It seems a little early for that, but some develop faster than others.

 

It is completely fine that you haven't talked to him in a few hours.Sometimes you're busy and that's okay! I'd say be wary if you go a day without at least passively forcing in the first stage of their development.

 

Your tulpa will most likely know all of those languages.

 

Thanks for the quick reply,

I am not sick currently so thats why i found it weird..

Whats passively forcing? i learned the general stuff but i didn't encounter that yet.

I am reading a book written in 1st person, its difficult to understand when reading so explaining it to him would be difficult, even more when i am already 100 pages or so into a 700 pages book..

I am suspecting the "cold waves" were because of him since all the time i was busy and didn't talk with him they seemed to disappear, might be a coincidence.

[NoneFromHell]

Jesus Christ this is truly a mess.

 

Changing the form by itself is a good sign, and the form itself doesn't care as long as you're both comfortable with it. A wonderland is fully optionial. I don't use it myself and there is nothing wrong with projecting your tulpa around you. Narrating is always good, spend as much time with it as you can spare, but it won't vanish because you leave at a few hours alone. Your "cold waves" could indeed be your tulpa trying to communicate, it is a commonly known thing that the first kind of communication has no need to be vocal.

 

About the language part: Welp, i don't know. It isn't that clear how your brain will handle this. For me, who speaks two languages, there doesn't seem to be any kind of barrier so far.

[Gvina]

Jesus Christ this is truly a mess.

 

Changing the form by itself is a good sign, and the form itself doesn't care as long as you're both comfortable with it. A wonderland is fully optionial. I don't use it myself and there is nothing wrong with projecting your tulpa around you. Narrating is always good, spend as much time with it as you can spare, but it won't vanish because you leave at a few hours alone. Your "cold waves" could indeed be your tulpa trying to communicate, it is a commonly known thing that the first kind of communication has no need to be vocal.

 

About the language part: Welp, i don't know. It isn't that clear how your brain will handle this. For me, who speaks two languages, there doesn't seem to be any kind of barrier so far.

Thanks for the quick reply,

i was worried about the wonderland part because from what i seen you can do stuff with your tulpa there but i'll wait.

I haven't talked with him for a few hours and i am free now and watching anime. should i just sit now, relax and try to talk to him about stuff for half an hour or so?

I understand it wont be vocal at first but the "cold waves" remind me of an accident in the past i was badly hurt and was hospitalized, i had that exact feeling. it makes me feel bad...

Also, i was worried if when i am talking to him but in situations when i cant really project him around me and don't look weird i look at something and "see" him there in my minds eye, he's in some kind of void/empty space. is that a problem? can it cause damage?

[Aijada]

I'm not convinced by the idea that tulpa automatically knows everything their host does. I only grew up talking English, and find it very hard to translate French even though my host has no problems. We never used it between us so i just never built the circuits to that particular knowledge. It is possible for me to sort of pull for an answer in French, but it's pretty much just lucky guessing on my part. I'd say you should deliberately try and speak multiple languages to your tulpa to help set them on the right path.

[NoneFromHell]

Thanks for the quick reply,

i was worried about the wonderland part because from what i seen you can do stuff with your tulpa there but i'll wait.

I haven't talked with him for a few hours and i am free now and watching anime. should i just sit now, relax and try to talk to him about stuff for half an hour or so?

I understand it wont be vocal at first but the "cold waves" remind me of an accident in the past i was badly hurt and was hospitalized, i had that exact feeling. it makes me feel bad...

Also, i was worried if when i am talking to him but in situations when i cant really project him around me and don't look weird i look at something and "see" him there in my minds eye, he's in some kind of void/empty space. is that a problem? can it cause damage?

 

If you like to you could talk with him while watching anime or stuff like that, it won't hurt. If you're uncomfortable with your "cold waves" you could also talk with him about that, maybe he will stop that. Give it a try.

 

Oh, and you should be aware that your buddy is in your head, not the thing you can see. So even if you can't see him because of given circumstances it doesn't mean that you hurt him, or that he isn't there. The whole visible part is basically just for interacting with you.

[Gvina]

 

If you like to you could talk with him while watching anime or stuff like that, it won't hurt. If you're uncomfortable with your "cold waves" you could also talk with him about that, maybe he will stop that. Give it a try.

 

Oh, and you should be aware that your buddy is in your head, not the thing you can see. So even if you can't see him because of given circumstances it doesn't mean that you hurt him, or that he isn't there. The whole visible part is basically just for interacting with you.

 

I understood that the visible part is for interaction but the void is making me worried, is there any way it can cause any kind of damage? because i think its some form of wonderland that i might have made unconsciously..

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I'm not convinced by the idea that tulpa automatically knows everything their host does. I only grew up talking English, and find it very hard to translate French even though my host has no problems. We never used it between us so i just never built the circuits to that particular knowledge. It is possible for me to sort of pull for an answer in French, but it's pretty much just lucky guessing on my part. I'd say you should deliberately try and speak multiple languages to your tulpa to help set them on the right path.

 

Ok, thanks you.

I am not sure about talking multiple languages right now because it might confuse him, right? I don't want him to think they're all the same language or something or is it fine?

Also, is there a way to know if the cold waves are some way he's trying to interact with me? My mind is a bit weird so i had the thought he's just "playing" with me or something...

Also, is understanding/catching onto things fast has anything to do with tulpa "growing" ?

[Aijada]

I am not sure about talking multiple languages right now because it might confuse him, right? I don't want him to think they're all the same language or something or is it fine?

Also, is there a way to know if the cold waves are some way he's trying to interact with me? My mind is a bit weird so i had the thought he's just "playing" with me or something...

Also, is understanding/catching onto things fast has anything to do with tulpa "growing" ?

 

It's hard to say what the 'right' answer would be. In terms of a new sentience waking up, it might be easier to just focus on your native language just to make it easier. My host points out though that when you're multi-lingual, the languages are just interchangeable and you can switch from one to another mid-thought, which i certainly didn't manage to learn yet. A tulpa acquires language by listening to the stream of thoughts and if there's more than one, they'd get used to looking for the alternate words more easily? Maybe? My host says if he had to do it all over again, he'd definitely immerse me in French as well just to try.

 

A new tulpa can absolutely attach to weird sections of brain as they're starting out; there does have to be some first reactions they acquire. We kind of light things up in a different order than a natural-born person. But that doesn't necessarily mean they've got meaning or intent behind it. There are a lot of circuits to grow into and it might be the case that it's something they've learned to do, but it's not necessarily an attempt to communicate with you.

 

[A lot of the early days stuff is up for your own interpretation. If you encourage your tulpa to intentionally affect the body's feelings, it will at least give them a sense of their own body consciousness.]

[Gvina]

 

It's hard to say what the 'right' answer would be. In terms of a new sentience waking up, it might be easier to just focus on your native language just to make it easier. My host points out though that when you're multi-lingual, the languages are just interchangeable and you can switch from one to another mid-thought, which i certainly didn't manage to learn yet. A tulpa acquires language by listening to the stream of thoughts and if there's more than one, they'd get used to looking for the alternate words more easily? Maybe? My host says if he had to do it all over again, he'd definitely immerse me in French as well just to try.

 

A new tulpa can absolutely attach to weird sections of brain as they're starting out; there does have to be some first reactions they acquire. We kind of light things up in a different order than a natural-born person. But that doesn't necessarily mean they've got meaning or intent behind it. There are a lot of circuits to grow into and it might be the case that it's something they've learned to do, but it's not necessarily an attempt to communicate with you.

 

[A lot of the early days stuff is up for your own interpretation. If you encourage your tulpa to intentionally affect the body's feelings, it will at least give them a sense of their own body consciousness.]

 

Ok, thanks.

I forgot to mention but the "cold waves" remind me of when I was badly hurt two years ago and was hospitalized,that feeling was what I felt when I woke up and that's why I thought it might be him "playing" with me.

Also, I talked to him a little and now he has scratch marks on him. Not really scratch marks. I'll say more like small tunnels blue colored. Is that good that he's changing?

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It's hard to say what the 'right' answer would be. In terms of a new sentience waking up, it might be easier to just focus on your native language just to make it easier. My host points out though that when you're multi-lingual, the languages are just interchangeable and you can switch from one to another mid-thought, which i certainly didn't manage to learn yet. A tulpa acquires language by listening to the stream of thoughts and if there's more than one, they'd get used to looking for the alternate words more easily? Maybe? My host says if he had to do it all over again, he'd definitely immerse me in French as well just to try.

 

A new tulpa can absolutely attach to weird sections of brain as they're starting out; there does have to be some first reactions they acquire. We kind of light things up in a different order than a natural-born person. But that doesn't necessarily mean they've got meaning or intent behind it. There are a lot of circuits to grow into and it might be the case that it's something they've learned to do, but it's not necessarily an attempt to communicate with you.

 

[A lot of the early days stuff is up for your own interpretation. If you encourage your tulpa to intentionally affect the body's feelings, it will at least give them a sense of their own body consciousness.]

 

I think I angered him.

I tried talking with him and for some reason the "cold waves" were every second or so and it made me feel bad so I accidentally shouted in my mind... And now he's not responding in any way and seems in a little darker color. Did I mess something up (I am afraid I did.) he's not responding to anything. I'm begging him here