Telling my emotions/thoughts apart from Tulpa's?

[tulpa001]

There is no try. Only do.

 

Or to be more clear, the priority is for the process to be pleasant. Don't try to will her to be sentient for hours. Over the longer stretches, let her be herself and just relax. You will get similar results, and it requires far less work.

 

You will always dream about the thing you did the most the day previously.

[ricinsbluebox]

I guess I didn't try to will her to be sentient? There was a guide that said to treat them always as sentient and not just a thing you focus on so I've been trying that since I discovered what Tulpae were. I'm tryin hard to relax about it and most of the time I am. I'm sorry I wasn't clearer Dx . I don't think I've ever tried to will her to be sentient but I do talk to her as if she already was, knowing that she isn't.

 

And true that. It was a pretty nice dream actually ^^.

[Maya Trueheart]

The creation of a tulpa seems (to us) to be the art of assigning otherness to a subset of the events within a brain that previously housed an isolated conciousness.

 

So, it is her if you decide that it is and are able to believe it. But, having said that, consider this; You have worked hard on your tulpa. You have dedicated time, effort and concentration to taking a positive action towards making her a reality. You have then felt responses that you suspect are her (and so they are). The process and the positive outcome of your dedicated effort have acted to raise your own mood. You made an effort towards changing your own state, with the result that you have succeeded in what you were doing and in the process have changed your own mood for the better in addition to acheiving a major milestone in the process that you had expended your effort to undertake. Own it.

 

Well done. You got this.

[ricinsbluebox]

Maya, you've basically summed up how I feel and reinforced it xD. So thank you as well ^^. As a result it's because I succeeded and/or are succeeding in a a long-term goal I'm changing my mood/mental stability a bit at a time? I'm game for that idea as well.

 

And thank you again :)

[| Eva |]

Distinguishing your emotions/thoughts apart from your tulpa is actually understanding what it means to be you; getting into that existential questioning of what you are, how you react, and your own blueprint in assessing things in life. It's about understanding the continuity behind these thoughts that shape who you are.

 

Mirroring this same contemplation with your tulpa is probably your best bet seeing how you two would exist within the same mind. Some people investigate who they are progressively for the rest of their lives, and some people also feel you won’t know who you really are until you’re at deathbed. But just know, like what people stated, we cannot know your inner experiences, or rather, Wittgenstein’s beetle makes it irrelevant for us to do so in the first place.

 

I’m pretty confident that even if I know some degree of who I am in relation to self and form, there’s still more work to go on. Maybe it’s because naturally, instead of trying to find a pinnacle of our emotions and ‘self,’ we actually want to perpetuate that continuity to validate the impression of ‘existence’ in relation to subjective experience. Finding true distinction then would probably involve understanding that wanting to perpetuate/extend that continuity, and let it build up to something more is how you’ll find your closure.

 

I’m saying this because whatever you find now, it will end up being stacked more and more with the experiential context that’s created over time. I feel this is crucial so that people don’t feel inclined to be insatiable over who they are at an emotional level. Because that insatiability is what can drain all that away, and leave us empty.

[ricinsbluebox]

Eva, that was quite the mouthful! Now that I've read your post a couple times over I've come to this conclusion - kind of geeky, but go with me on this - it's kind of like Spirit and Stein's partnership in Soul Eater. Spirit helps calm/control Stein's madness and in the end the two actually make quite a good team. So in relation to that I think my Tulpa and I may end up the same way. My Tulpa eases off my demons and the chaos that goes on within my own head, even if not 100% successful at all times.

 

But at a personal level I do know who I am emotionally, granted I've changed quite a bit over the past ten years. I won't get into the nitty gritty details over it but I was actually extremely positive myself way back and happy at that. Due to abuse from things over the years I've changed into a rather cynical and unhappy individual; influxes in mood aside. As for my Tulpa she's not supposed to be that infinitely happy individual who is all bubble and doesn't allow me to be myself. Rather she's there when I need her the most and is just in general there for me. And I have noticed a more differing contrast in thoughts when she isn't right in my head with me and off in her Wonderland though I'm sure I said that the other day already.