I don't know what's going on anymore...

[JamesNintendoNerd]

I had a pretty realistic dream, only I had a HUD on. The only item i have in the inventory HUD is a doctor's bag from Fallout New Vegas. I hot keyed it to one. So, a bunch of normal (And creepy ass shit unrelated to my Tulpa happens) stuff happen as usual until my school assembly came where I somehow got a shotgun and we were asked to shoot it at the roof after we were done, one of those assholes from my school take my shot gun and he says "you want this" I replied yes "He shoots it up in the air while the assembly guy was speaking" He interrupts the assembly... and at the end I saw Lyra walking up and sitting down on a bench for a second then woke up, but my eyes were closed. I started to do my daily tulpaforcing on visualization and narration thinking that it's still night time, without me noticing I dream again. My dream self says in Lyra's voice "Today is 7:00 AM" 5 times A short stutter happens making it look like a remix before Dubstep happened "t-t-today is 7:01 AM" He then stops, a loud voice of mine while a darkish whiteish glowing silhouette of Lyra was shown in a white background says along with my same voice breathing in a distorted way as if I am still awake. AND IF HE DOES THAT AG- I then woke up seeing the same shape of the silhouette, quite off of my eye though only revealing to be my cat laying next to me. I've gotten so happy that Lyra' finally found a way into the real world until I found out it was my cat.

Creepy thing is, I spoke to her via my mind, no response (Head pressure) I had to keep on repeating it, she then softly pressures to the left like a "yes, and I am sorry for doing that". Also, it was the exact time I woke up...

It's most likely my wonderland and Lyra is actually there speaking to me in some way.

 

Question is: Is it just my thoughts, or is Lyra actually trying to speak with me with my own voice?

[KenzieK]

It's certainly not unusual for tulpas to communicate via dreams, but if you aren't sure if she's sentient it'll be hard to tell if it's really her or if it's you just dreaming. Since you asked her if it was her, and she replied that it was, I'd say there's a good chance she had something to do with it.

[JamesNintendoNerd]

It's certainly not unusual for tulpas to communicate via dreams, but if you aren't sure if she's sentient it'll be hard to tell if it's really her or if it's you just dreaming. Since you asked her if it was her, and she replied that it was, I'd say there's a good chance she had something to do with it.

 

Well, is it normal for her to speak using my voice?

[Kiahdaj]

Normal? Maybe not.

Can it happen? Sure.

 

Try not to be so focused on the normal. The experience is different for everyone and should be treated as such. Allow things to come as they do, maybe some things will be strange, but it's all a part of the process. Have some faith in yourself and your tulpa, it goes a long way.

 

I completely agree with this.

Don't worry whether your experiences are normal. Even if they were abnormal, it probably doesn't mean anything special. Just keep on keeping on.

[Gryphon Flight]

Try not to be so focused on the normal. The experience is different for everyone and should be treated as such. Allow things to come as they do, maybe some things will be strange, but it's all a part of the process. Have some faith in yourself and your tulpa, it goes a long way.