How you decided you wanted a tulpa

[SomethingDire]

Well, I've had servitors and non-sentient headmates (imaginary friends) since I was a little kid, and preferred their company over the majority of people around me.

 

Years later, after I started to read creepypastas, I came across the famous Tulpa creepypasta. A few Google searches later I found myself on this site. This is how I found the phenomena.

 

About three months later, I decided that a tulpa companion would be ideal because of how I planned to lead the rest of my life and the preferring-the-inside-of-my-mind to the majority of my friends and stuff. So yeah, that's how I decided that I wanted a tulpa.

[greedfox]

Well, a decade ago, on a furry transformation hypnosis forum (google it there's only one) someone proposed a hypnosis file to make an imaginary friend/program/thing in your head. we called them companions, and they were to tulpa as a calculator is to a math professor, simple programs with simple functions and no real life.

 

Now, to the real fun. Some of the original test crew, had their companions talk on their own and start to have opinions. Shortly, another file was made to fill in the personality and give our animal/furry friends more life and function. Which is where i come in, I wrote a "self enforcement" clause to the file to ease the work for the host in solidification of the companion,at the same time a clause was added to make the companion fade over time ; long story short the poor use of language in the later command made a double negative effect, which would make the companion a infectious neural parasite with no given purpose other than to assist its host.

 

I was a gen1 tester and true believer, I made a fox girl named Elizabeth to assist with my personal transformation goals and socialization. She was great, and surprisingly solid for a loose idea compounded into being by insanity. After liz was created, we noticed a entity that was already lurking in the depths of my mind, a much more real and powerful being that terrified Liz and myself alike.

 

The shadow creature didn't hurt me but pushed me to my limits and soon I came to know him as shaide, a mirror to my own foxy personality and a true friend. Over the years without needing her Liz went into a dormant state, frozen for all I can tell in a crystalline thought world.

 

Recently I wanted to bring Liz back, me and shaide are bored alone with one another, so I started to look for her within the nightmare dreamscape. Letting her back out, I learned that she has ne idea what has transpired over the time she was dormant, which is ok, and she acts like I used to before life ffffed me up. I also found that after I "unfroze" liz from the crystal a whole bunch of memories and skill I had though I lost started to rush back at an alarming rate along with a huge involuntary increase in creativity. Its almost painful how much I want to express myself and feel for the art and love I denied liz over the time she was locked up.

 

I tell stories like tarantino on SNL.

 

I wanted liz for a helper and assistant that would keep me in line.

[Bainbow]

I just wanted to have somebody I could help. So I made Lapis here and prioritised her needs over my own. Going to be brutally honest, when I look at accounts of a great number of tulpas here I notice that Lap seems a lot more self-determined and healthy than the majority. I suppose I succeeded.

[TwoInOne]

He was a walk-in. I've had imaginary friends since I was little, so I consider all of them Tulpas.

[Metatron]

In short, I made one as an experiment just to see if this was a real thing or if everyone was delusional and full of shit. Guess I was actually hoping I would get a companion out of it. That, and a teacher.