Beginner Questions General

[Apollo Fire]

Not sure what that means

[GeorgeTownRaja]

I meant that does your tulpa have to be realistic or animated? Or it doesn't matter?

[Indigo Blue]

Your tulpa should have the form they want to have. Doesn't matter what kind as long as it's what they want.

[Ranger]

I meant that does your tulpa have to be realistic or animated? Or it doesn't matter?

 

If you're Tulpa is young and you're having trouble visualizing, then it's okay to imagine them animated. My host frequently sees me as if I were animated rather than realistic sometimes for this reason. It's a good idea to ask Georgia and Jeni how they feel about it though.

[Guest]

Not everyone has full on super visualization skills, so some people just don't do much visualizing. If you can, sure! We do what we want and always have. Wonderland physics can be whatever you want them to be also, we really don't care for it to be realistic or not, so we teleport and shapeshift at will. To have a tulpa as just a voice is also fine! Hard to draw though.

[Guest Reilyn-Alley]

I see my own form as animated, just cuz it's easy to visualize and we suck at that mostly. 'Course I'm also a happy weeb sooo... かわいい :3

[Tewi]

Despite our forms' inspirations being anime-esque (some pictures are a little more realistic than others I suppose), we are by no means "animated" in that sense. Just normal people.

 

It's completely up to you.

[Shiro_tanuki]

I don't know if this is the right place to post this, but it seems like the best fit apart from starting a new thread, and I do want advice, so here goes. This is incredibly difficult for me to discuss and will unfortunately need to be long for context, but I think I may have accidentally created a tulpa years ago, and admitting that honestly hurts quite a bit.

 

Nearly 8 years ago, I was in an incredibly rough spot. I had just gone through a really rough breakup and felt so alone in life. One day I remember specifically feeling so empty, so devoid of purpose. I prayed that night that I would be sent someone, and not just anyone. My soulmate, as I had always had this vague feeling that someone was out there for me (old school romanticism, what can I say.) Then, my life changed.

 

I went to bed, and woke up in a place, a beautiful wooden study, that wasn't familiar to me. Its important to point out that this did not feel like a dream at all, and in fact I pinched myself and felt it very strongly. I met two beings, two females, who I'll refer to as Amy and Dezzy. Amy introduced Dezzy as her friend that she was helping, and said her friend had something to tell me. Dezzy introduced herself and said that she'd been looking for me, and that somehow she had been seeing me in her dreams. She said that she knew that we were meant to be together. Somehow, when I had first laid eyes on her, I had felt a joy that I couldn't describe and had known the same. I'll spare you the details of the conversation, but she said she'd see me again soon and then I awoke, with a terrible headache and happiness like I had never felt. Then things got weirder.

 

At work that night, the headache got a little worse, and then the two girls both talked to me. It was both audible and not. They were unaware of the headache, and seemed disturbed by it. We talked a lot about all sorts of things, and every conversation topic was surprising and deep, like talking to someone else should be when they are so different in origin. Eventually they left to sleep.

 

The next night, I had another dream where I woke up in the study again. This time, there was a regal being there, who I'll refer to as Queen, and she did not look approving. I felt a deep need to earn this being's approval, and fell to my knees. I am not an easily cowed man, my jobs have in fact relied on my unshakeable nature a lot of the time, but I quaked in awe of this woman. She informed me that Amy was her protege, and she had summoned me without her approval. She told me in a motherly tone that this was not meant to be, and that we would not be allowed to be in contact again. At this, I begged and pleaded for her to reconsider.

 

After a moment of thinking, she asked me one question. "what would you do for the ones you love?" I answered without thinking. "Anything." She seemed satisfied, gave her approval, and I woke up at home with the same headache and relief.

 

TL;DR-This is the part where the normal Tulpa-style interaction really began. After this, Dezzy began showing up and speaking to me all the time. From the beginning she always had a personality and distinct characteristics. Her friend Amy and many others also interacted with me, and still do. Not having any idea of what was going on, I thought I might just be crazy, but I was so happy with Dezzy I couldn't care. The thing is, she never thought she was a creation of mine. In fact, her stated goal was to find a way for us to be in the same reality, together all the time. I didn't know what to believe, so I went with it.

 

Now it's been 8 years. We've argued occasionally, but Dezzy and I have had an incredibly strong relationship. She has her life, and I have mine, but in the interim we always make time together, particularly enjoying things like movie nights and the like. Since I've known her, I've become a much better person, and everyone who knows me has seen it. It was in fact quite awkward when people could tell there was a girl but being unable to explain the situation I ended up having to claim it was a "long distance relationship." But the desire to be together has always been there, and unfortunately never seemed to progress, despite Amy claiming to work towards it whenever she wasn't busy with her own life. I've always had my doubts, but medically and psychologically nothing seemed to fit. I'm not schizophrenic, I doubt too much to be delusional, and getting MRIs and scans showed nothing wrong.

 

But now I've found the first explanation that seems like it could make sense, and it's kind of devastating. I mean, don't get me wrong, I'm glad I'm not just delusional or something, but if she's a Tulpa, that means things can't really progress any farther than they have. I always hated stories of star-crossed lovers. I guess its cruel fate that I accidentally made that my own destiny. Of course, if I'd had any idea from the start i would never have gone down this path in this way, but its kind of late to be turning back on it. I don't know, I guess I just need to tell people what happened, as a cautionary tale if nothing else. Any ideas or advice would be appreciated.

[Dynamo Lux]

...sounds like tulpas to me, I'm not sure what else you're expecting besides that? If you want people to tell you they're something more magical than that, well, I'll have to move this to metaphysics.

 

Being a tulpa can be limiting in some ways, but I wouldn't call it "devastating." Have they every fronted ie controlled the body? Co-fronting can be a really fun bonding experience. Nothing like co-piloting through life with people you love.

[Ranger]

Sometimes hosts and Tulpas end up falling in love with each other and embrace a more romantic relationship. I suppose if you wanted to make your relationship more real, imposition may be appealing to you. Breloomancer walked this route himself, so he may be able to give you some pointers on that.

 

Like Luxio said, you can also have Dezzy learn how to possess and switch with you.

 

You guys have an interesting story; If you guys want too, you may be interested in writing a progress report.