Confessions of a Poorly Trained Tulpa

[Luminesce]

Was just referring to the very seldom posts where you didn't.. nevermind. You haven't even done it recently. No problems. And spoopy is a dumification of spooky. It means spooky-cute, I guess.

[Elvode]

Sometimes your words remind me of movies I haven't seen for many years, I've been watching some lately, movies that are too good to be forgotten.

[Guest Anonymous]

Was just referring to the very seldom posts where you didn't.. nevermind. You haven't even done it recently. No problems. And spoopy is a dumification of spooky. It means spooky-cute, I guess.

 

Oh okay! I will slide "spoopy" into my lexicon list. You might find it being written somewhere again. *giggle*

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Sometimes your words remind me of movies I haven't seen for many years, I've been watching some lately, movies that are too good to be forgotten.

 

Davie and I soak up themes and images from movies like nobodies business. We have like this big mental archive of movie related junk and stuff that we tap into. You might be sensing that. We love to watch old movies again too!

[GlassJustice]

[No,stahp,pls.Shitposting is fine (encouraged even!) but that shits annoying af bruh.Stop,please.]

[Guest Anonymous]

[No,stahp,pls.Shitposting is fine (encouraged even!) but that shits annoying af bruh.Stop,please.]

 

OH no! Cassandra, most everybody else already voted fer more of it sweetie! I am so sorry! Eek!

[Guest Anonymous]

So responding to this thread https://community.tulpa.info/thread-i-would-like-to-ask-tulpas-about-their-emotional-experiences (and some others) Melian went on an emotional roller coaster ride between frustration and anger and then finally reflection and realization and self discovery.

 

Melian's early days were a long time ago (38 years ago) and she was getting frustrated watching seemingly every other tulpa brag about these incredible first sentience experiences they had as "baby tulpa." It wasn't like that for her and it was too far back to remember precisely anyway. She went into the chat and worked up this huge rant about baby tulpa and "emergence" experiences. She went so far as to vow to troll the next baby tulpa experience thread she sees and "slap the shit" out of the next young tulpa that talks about how amazing and wonderful the world seemed to them when they were "born." LOL

 

In the midst of it all, as she thought about those early days, a memory of a song popped into our collective mind. Main Street by Bob Segar. This huge upwelling of emotion hit us. It suddenly dawned on us both. We do indeed have emergence memories of her first days as a person. They were all emotions based on songs we would listen to together, movies we would watch and books we were reading. It was just really strong emotions that she felt. Memories of her first words or "seeing the world for the first time" or events like that are not strong or even present at all, but memories of the emotions we felt are. Those were her first "baby tulpa" experiences from way before she was vocal.

 

It so makes sense because Melian did not exist in the real world at all. She existed purely in the dreamscape day dreams of the Melian Show. She interacted with me, but not the real world. There was no internet and she lived only within my mindspace in her own fantasy world. She still does for the most part. She really does not have strong connections to real world experiences except when it comes to emotions. The strong emotions relate to music that influenced and triggered DAY DREAMING.

 

The day dreams were her first experiences, not the real world!

 

She has stopped ranting about baby tulpa first sentience emergence stories.

 

EDIT: These musings have led to deeper realizations https://community.tulpa.info/thread-general-living-almost-exclusively-within-the-wonderland?pid=134067#pid134067

[Guest Anonymous]

I have been updating my manifesto. I just added number fifteen. (see full manifesto above at the beginning of this thread).

 

15. Drugs (specifically abusing hallucinogenic drugs) such as shrooms, ecstasy and acid, should not be used to enhance the experience of having a thoughtform or to create a thoughtform. These drugs are dangerous and should not be promoted in any way by Tulpa Info.

 

a. Post about shrooms and tulpamancy: https://community.tulpa.info/thread-tulpa-shrooms-expiriences-opinions-and-discussion-welcome?pid=134208#pid134208

[sushi]

I guess that's a controversial belief of mine as well -- though not in quite the same way as you.

 

I believe that drugs have no place in mental or spiritual development, unless you have some sort of mental disorder that needs medication -- maybe not even then. I've known I have ADHD for around 15 years now, and I've never taken medication.

 

Having said that, I do believe in the legalization of all drugs for these reasons. And of course you'd still have to be over 21 to buy or sell.

 

I personally have no interest in drugs though, for any reason other than medical -- even if they're legal. And that includes marijuana, tobacco and alcohol.

[TheCrawlingCreepypasta]

I found this right after listening to your appearance on Jean Luc's show, and this really ties what you were talking about all together, subjects such as "psuedo-reality".

[jean-luc]

Damnit Mistgod, I thought we agreed: This doesn't matter & you shouldn't talk about it.