My tulpa Alice

[Checster]

28/05/2020

Not much happened today. I tried talking to my tulpa in my mother tongue which is French, but it felt weird, which is ironic. I asked her what she preferd, and i think she said French. I'll try talking to her in French from now on, even though i prefer English. 

 

I'll stop posting daily, since i've reached a point where everyday is kind off the same. I'll post only when i feel i've made good progress. For now, my three main goals are:

 

□ Getting Alice to be vocal 

□ Getting Alice to be sentient to the point where she can have her own part in these reports

□ Meeting Alice in the church in a lucid dream

 

The boxes will be filled in my following reports for the goals that have been achieved. 

 

[Checster]

07/06/2020

Today has been very interesting. The past week i had a huge drop in motivation and didn’t talk to Alice at all. I started to force again two days ago, and just yesterday she started responding whenever i asked her something. As always i was paranoid and worried that i was parroting her, but i don’t think that is the case. Whenever i ask her something, she responds almost immediately, sometimes even before i finish the sentence in my head. It’s quite amazing. I don’t know where the huge increase in vocality came from since i didn’t force for a week and only force about 30 minutes a day, but i guess i should just be happy instead of asking « why » and « how » all the time. 

 

When she talks, her voice is way different than mine. She has a feminine voice (which is well linked to her form). I wouldn’t say that we are there yet, since sometimes she says things that don’t make sense. For example today she asked me why my eyes were blue (they are not). I guess she has some learning to do still. 

 

As for the WILD (Wake Induced Lucid Dreaming) i intended to do in order to meet her in a dream, it’s still a work in progress. 

Plus, i think that now i can give Alice her own part in these reports. I told her that we were moving way too fast and that we should wait for her to be a little more vocal, but she insisted 🙂 

 

So here it goes. As i don’t know how to possess yet, she’ll just tell me what she wants me to write. 

 

Alice:

Hello my name is Alice ! Umm... I like ice cream, and video games.

 

Sadly, that’s all i got. As for me, i hate ice cream. And i don’t know how she knows what video games are.

 

PS: She confirmed to me that she was indeed Ciris, my old tulpa i attempted to make a year ago. That could explain the sudden increase in vocality since she was already half-way vocal. That’s my attempt at explaining it. 

 

■ Getting Alice to be vocal 

■ Getting Alice to be sentient to the point where she can have her own part in these reports

□ Meeting Alice in the church in a lucid dream

Edited June 7, 2020 by Checster